Dex flopped the newspaper onto a long wooden slab of table. She quickly explored the apartment to see if Ryan was in fact home asleep. A quick check of the bedroom gave Dex her answer. She sighed audibly with relief as she stepped back into the living room. She was relieved, but, at the same time, something inside her sank heavily. Even at that point, with a beautiful young girl waiting to jump into bed with her, she would have preferred to find Ryan there and ready to jump out of bed at any second and find them having sex.
Quickly now, she came up behind Gena and kissed her lightly against one ear. Her arms wrapped around her, then clasped the young firm breasts and pulled her tight against her. She felt the outward curve of her pert rump against the bottom of her belly where it seemed to burn through her clothing. She felt the girl's nipples stiffen under her palms.
CHAPTER ONE
The large furnished room seemed to sway as girls danced slowly and close, their bodies urgent with secret desire. Dex stood beside the phonograph and surveyed the smoky atmosphere, her gaze alert and curious as she searched out each languid face. The party had been going since ten last night. Now, the first pale signs of dawn crept in coolly through the half-opened windows. She had been waiting for Ryan. But Ryan, obviously, wasn't going to show.
A small, curly headed blonde maneuvered along the walls, picking her way gracefully over legs stretching out from the divan, around the buffet table spilled over with booze, around the couples standing still and stroking and kissing each other, too engrossed to bother with her.
She reached Dex and smiled with a certain triumph of accomplishment. Her small teeth glinted. "I'd like to say we've met somewhere before. My name's Gena. And this is my first gay party. Do you suppose I could ask you to dance?"
There was something brave and brash in her manner. Dex realized that it hid the shy person underneath, or at least that's the way it would seem. She gazed down at the pert, hopeful face. The face seemed so young, so ready for anything that Dex couldn't bring herself to reject the offer of friendliness. or could she deny that she didn't feel the first flush of excitement passing between them as they drank up that special feminine attribute, the thrust of a breast, the curve of a hip, the shape of the lips, which attracted them to each other more and more forcefully every second.
And anyway, it would be a relief not to think about Ryan for half a minute. Dex still had notions of fidelity, despite the lateness of the hour and the female bodies entwined and panting softly about the room.
Now, there was nothing to say. Gena was making it all very simple. She had the direct optimism of the young, thought Dex. She expected everything to go just her way. Well, she couldn't hold that against her. If anything, it was a further temptation to spend more time with each other than just dancing. Dex put her arm around Gena's waist and moved her gently backward into the crush of couples.
The music was slow, the wailing sound of soul, of a woman craving another body, perhaps any body which would give her searing need some satisfaction. Dex listened to the words as she felt the new body in her arms. The small, firm body felt pliant and pressed willingly to her. Dex could imagine the fluttery heart beating nervously behind the fragile rib cage. She recalled her own youth. The first trial flights. Everything had been desperately painful, then. It hadn't been easy to grow up.
Of course, times had changed. Supposedly it was easier now, everything from meeting other girls who wanted the same thing to having sex immediately. Courtships were a thing of the past. So perhaps it was foolish if not downright wrong to put herself in Gena's shoes. Perhaps her boldness had not been hiding any inner shyness. And, thought Dex vehemently to herself, why should it? In her small way she had made this brighter day come about. She had come to New York and lived damn well the way she pleased, openly and sensuously.
"Kids nowadays," Bobbi Morton had said with a sly grin, "just come up to you and say, "Let's fuck'" And from all she had heard, Bobbi knew what she was talking about from experience. Her easy sex with young girls was legend. Dex now found herself admiring Bobbi's ways despite herself. She got what she wanted. She never hung around waiting for someone to show up like Dex did. She'd look around, see something she liked and take it.
Dex spread her fingers between the girl's shoulder blades. She could feel the flexible movement of Gena's spine, the way it plunged down to the tight roundness of her girlish buttocks. The young breasts brushed firmly against her own, sending shivers through her. How she would love to let her hand slip down and cup the beautiful, full ass, so temptingly within reach. But some old taboo, some rule of behavior she had made for herself years ago and then had never broken, stopped her dead.
"Your first party?" Dex repeated. "I hope you didn't come here alone."
"Oh, yes, I did. I think that's kind of the best way." Gena's laugh was bright. Pleased with herself. "I overheard Bobbi Torton tell some girls that there was going to be open house here tonight. And I decided to put my own two cents in, too. So that was it."
A faint fragrance of Blue Grass touched Dex's nostrils. She was very clean and refreshing. How long had it been since she'd paid serious attention to anyone other than Ryan? Maybe this was the moment. Maybe this was the bell ringing in someone who could change the world a little.
Dex said, "I don't suppose you have to be anywhere at any particular time? Family or such?"
Gena laughed aloud. "Family? Me?" She shook her head and the curls quivered. "Shit, not for ages."
Dex judged that the girl couldn't be more than eighteen. And a recent eighteen at that. Maybe she was showing off a newly found independence. But there seemed nothing else to do except take Gena at face value. If she had ties or other complications, they would pop up soon enough.
She had decided that it was high time to kick a few of those scruples out the window. Gena's voluptuous young body was the push she needed. And as Bobbi Morton said, nowadays all you had to do was say, "Let's fuck." Nothing could be simpler.
Dex found herself taking deep breaths, filling her lungs with the fresh odor of the girl's perfume, becoming slightly heady with the freedom and easy release she promised.
She steered the girl across the dance floor, edging toward the curtained doorway. She watched Gena's face with its cool gaze flitting from the room to the exit. Gena probably knew exactly what was happening. Perhaps she was a, bit wiser, a bit more sophisticated than Dex had figured at first.
Dex felt the tips of the girl's breasts brush her once again. The nipples were stiff, she realized. Gena was alive and horny. Their bodies pressed together tauntingly. Gena was wearing no bra under her jersey; she could feel it. The nipples were stiffening into two small pebbles. A rush of heat struck Dex between her thighs, warming her whole body, as she thought of the wetness of Gena's panties which surely matched her excited nipples. Her hand slipped down the girl's spine and rested on the first curve of Gena's buttocks. She was almost there.
"How would you like to come with me to buy the Times," Dex said, her voice easy but serious. "Take it home to my place and do the puzzle?"
Before Gena could comment, Dex turned the doorknob and steered Gena out to the landing.
"You don't know my type," Gena called back as she clattered down the stairs ahead of Dex. "I do those puzzles in ink."
Dex felt a warm flooding of pleasure as she realized that Gena was, in fact, going to give her a good run for the record. No wilting innocence here. No clinging, pleading boredom. This Gena, this girl out of nowhere, held a promise for Dex that she could barely trust herself to believe.
The click of the lock as the door shut on the party was missed by most of the women left there. The music was still going strong, despite the lateness of the hour. Most of the girls were too occupied with each other to notice two people leaving.
Bobbie Morton was the exception. She had watched Gena approach Dex from a dark corner of the room where she sat with a girl just about the same age as Gena. The girl fumbled with the buttons of Bobbi's blouse as the woman kept her eyes fixed on the door.
So Gena had decided to show her what she could do on her own, thought Bobbi. Well, getting Dex was not much of a conquest. Despite the fact that she had all kinds of hang-ups, rules, scruples, she had been ready for picking that night. Mooning quietly in the corner, the martyr of all-abiding love, Dex had snapped up the chance to show her lover Ryan up by rushing into a one-night stand that would show that two could play that game. Bobbi smiled to herself. Dex, however, did not know how to play that game. That was her whole problem.
"I don't think you're paying any real attention to me," pouted the young girl in Bobbi's arms. Bobbi ran her fingers through the girl's long brown hair. She tilted her head up toward her so that the sensuous, hot little mouth was ready and waiting. Bobbi bent down and pressed her lips against the girl's mouth. Her lips parted and sucked in Bobbi's tongue through her teeth. Her tongue flicked around in the warm mouth, searching for the girl's small pointed tongue. Finding it, a shiver ran up her spine as she licked her tongue against it, then: sucked it into her own mouth.
Who was this girl she was devouring with her mouth? thought Bobbi for a moment. Anyway, she was right about one thing, she wasn't really interested, not seriously. Gena's exit with Dex had surprised and annoyed her more than she cared to admit.
"Does that prove I am?" whispered Bobbi in the girl's ear as she brushed her lips against her downy soft cheek.
"It helps," sighed the girl vaguely. She cuddled up closer to Bobbi and reached further inside the woman's shirt.
Bobbi's breasts were large, white mounds of flesh that moved slowly as the girl freed them from her bra. The rich flesh came to a point in large pink nipples beginning to peek out of the opened blouse. The girl suddenly bobbed her head down and took a stiffening tit between her teeth. Bobbi moaned as the sharp little tongue worked on the nib of stiff flesh, teasing it, sending a shudder through her body, down to her crotch which stirred in response. The girl's fingers, as if knowing the direction of Bobbi's response; crept down her slacks to the mound at the start of her full thighs. They skittered over it, then slipped determinedly between the thighs and traced the crease of labia under the double layer of slacks and panties.
"Watch out down there, honey. Your fingers might get burned," said Bobbi hoarsely.
"Oh, I'm not worried about my fingers," she replied quietly, ignoring the flippancy of Bobbi's remark. With greater pressure she now rubbed against Bobbi's cunt obviously enjoying the rich heat pouring up from it now.
As the small fingers worked in tandem with the sucking mouth at her nipples, Bobbi forgot about Gena and her pick-up and began concentrating on her own pleasure.
In a minute she had the young girl's tight breasts free and was rubbing the small pink tips. The nipples came alive between her thumb and forefinger. They stiffened in erection like a man's penis, eager and persistent. She pulled one up to' meet her diving mouth. In the next second her teeth were grazing around the nipple which had stiffened out to an amazing length. She sucked it slowly in her mouth as the girl slid her hand between her slacks and her firm belly and worked down. As the small finger reached the top of her bushy pubic hair, Bobbi felt the inside of her cunt gush in anticipation. In seconds the finger slid its way down to her clitoris, pulling it out of its hood of flesh and stroking it.
Bobbi wrapped her arms around the girl's small waist and pulled her up closer to her. She slid her breast out of her mouth and whispered in her ear.
"I think my bed would be a better place for this, don't you?"
At daylight it was cold and damp. Dex and Gena saw the street lamps turning off so that they moved among wisps of misty shadows. Yet the shadows dispelled rapidly, dissolving before the pale pink sashes of sunlight slanting down between the tall buildings.
They found an open newsstand on the corner of Ninth Avenue. Then, carrying the bulky paper under one arm and guiding Gena with her free hand, Dex moved on toward her apartment.
She lived in one of the giant, white-brick buildings that she had never wanted to occupy. In the old days, the happier days with Ryan, they had planned to own a country place, complete with grounds for horses. Yet, somehow, they had never made the move, never found it quite convenient to leave the city.
Dex moved Gena quietly past the relief doorman dozing on a high chair beside the entrance.
The lobby smelled of perfume, a particular exotic fragrance that made Dex smile with recognition. She saw Gena twitch her nostrils.
"Whew! What's that?" Gena said as they stood waiting for the elevator.
"That's Madge," Dex answered matter-of-factly. "Our famous lady of letters. You might even get to meet her one day."
Gena wrinkled her forehead. "Is that good?"
The elevator door opened and a brace of Dalmatians scampered eagerly between the two women. A tall, muscular-looking man in a light windbreaker grinned at Dex and excused himself as he followed the dogs out toward the curb.
"And that's Robard," Dex said, stepping into the elevator. A slight scowl passed over her face, then vanished. "He lends us the gin for Madge, among other things." Other things included the constant suspicion that Ryan knew Robard better than she should, at least as far as Dex was concerned.
"You know more people than Ann Landers. I'm glad I don't have to stand on line for you."
There was something breathy beneath Gena's words. Dex felt a cool shudder of pleasure as she realized that Gena was very eager to get upstairs. She looked at the girl's upturned profile. A pleasant, out-going face. One would never suspect what lay beneath. And, then, what did? reflected Dex. She really didn't know herself.
The conversation between them trailed away amidst the high whine of the rising elevator. A tension of expectancy hovered over them. It seemed to draw them close. Dex moved in a step behind the girl. For a moment, she rested her hand lightly on Gena's shoulder, touching the warmth that came up from beneath the light clothing. The shoulder moved in response. Only slightly. Enough to answer Dex with a subtle but definite yes.
They got out on the seventeenth floor. Dex led the girl through a long carpeted hallway and off into the extreme right wing of the building.
Before using her key, Dex tried the knob. It was just possible that Ryan had come home after all and had left it open for her.
But the door remained closed to her touch. Either Ryan had been home fast asleep for hours or she was still out. With firm, determined movements, Dex unlocked the door and flung it wide.
"Come on in," she said softly. "You'll like the view."
Gena did not hesitate. She strode forward and looked around the vast expanse of terraced living room. Then she saw the window. As her gaze focused on the lightening sky, she began to walk toward the double doors.
Dex flopped the newspaper onto a long wooden slab of table. She left Gena to the rising sun, as she quickly explored the apartment to see if Ryan was in fact home asleep. A quick check of the bedroom gave Dex her answer. She sighed audibly with relief as she stepped back into the living room. She was relieved, but, at the same time, something inside her sank heavily. Even at that point, with a beautiful young girl waiting to jump into bed with her, she would have preferred to find Ryan there and ready to jump out of bed at any second and find them having sex.
Quickly now, she came up behind Gena and kissed her lightly against one ear. Her arms wrapped around her, then clasped the young firm breasts and pulled her tight against her. She felt the outward curve of her pert rump against the bottom of her belly where it seemed to burn through her clothing. She felt the girl's nipples stiffen under her palms.
Gena murmured, and Dex realized that she must be overwhelming the girl. Putting her arms around Gena's waist, she held her quite still within an easy embrace. She didn't want to push Gena into making love out of a sense of bravado.
Again she had misjudged the girl. Gena moved her hand around behind her and began to run it down Dex's smooth hip, then over the outside of her thigh. As she moved her hand around to the soft flesh of her inner thigh, Gena's heart began to pound audibly. In a sudden jerking movement she placed her fingers directly on Dex's crotch and stroked there.
Before Dex could respond, she felt Gina pull her hands from around her waist and place them again on her up-turned breasts. As her fingers stroked the pointed nipples poking against the light fabric, Dex felt an urgent need to have this girl. To feel Gena's slender fingers explore her cunt in every way. And then to devour the girl with her mouth. She licked her dry lips.
"Why don't we leave the bloody sky for other people?" Dex whispered.
Lightly, she began pulling Gena away from the view and over to the gray leather sofa-bed.
Gena glanced from Dex's face to the cushions as they stood beside the sofa.
"Is this where you sleep?" Gena asked.
It was an innocent question, Dex knew. Gena was too young, too eager. She wasn't interested in prying. It was mere curiosity that spoke. But Dex felt herself react. Tension tied a knot in the pit of her stomach. Absent, Ryan still continued to torment her.
"I don't much like bedrooms," Dex said, sliding her fingertips to the back of Gena's neck.
She tilted Gena's head upward and brought her mouth slowly down to the girl's soft lips. Feeling the girl's body respond with a quiver, Dex moved her hands quickly around the small waist and drew the body in close.
Her tongue dived between Gena's small white teeth, searching out her tongue. Before Dex could find it, it found her. Gena slipped her tongue almost forcibly between Dex's lips so that now their tongues were intertwined. Dex was not used to such boldness. She kissed her harder, more roughly, forgetting her preconceived notions about Gena's innocence and just responding to the girl's passion. Dex's cheeks went hollow as her tongue jutted down the girl's throat. She wanted her mouth so badly she could have devoured it physically.
Gena was no match for Dex now. Her petite tongue slipped back into her own mouth and allowed itself to be swallowed up by Dex.
Dex felt her breasts almost itching for Gena's fingers again. The nipples were stiffened now and rubbed irritatingly against her blouse. She wanted them free in the air; free to be touched and licked and even bitten.
Gena had toyed with Dex just long enough to remind her of her habitual butch role. Somehow her carefulness had made her forget up until then, or perhaps, she thought vaguely as her tongue ravenously explored Gena's tender mouth, she had expected to be the one who was taken. With Ryan it had always seemed as if she played the man. Something in her was tired of this, tired of having to be stalwart as well as sexually aggressive. She now wanted to be wanted, pitched onto a bed and devoured. That was the condition she had placed on having sex with anyone else besides Ryan.
Gena had turned the tables.
Dex had expected the girl to give-and give fast. Now Dex felt the beginning of fulfillment as Gena yielded, pressing herself upward, rubbing her breasts to find Dex, opening her mouth ever so much wider to bring Dex deeper into her throat.
There was something almost too confident about Gena. The contrast between her seeming youthfulness and the forceful desire of her actions made Dex tremble. She had wanted to be casual and careful. Not frighten Gena off with a display of rough passion.
And yet Gena's body itself demanded force and strength. She lifted her hips and pressed her thighs forward so that they rubbed hotly against her own. Then raising one knee, she moved it against Dex's crotch.
Dex grabbed her by the shoulders and devoured her mouth even more forcefully. She paused for a second to lick the girl's cheeks and chin and lips, before once again clamping her mouth back down on Gena's and entering her with her practiced tongue. She felt the girl's knee rubbing the soft hairs of her pubis against the cotton material of her slacks. She felt the thick lips of her labia moisten with the stroking, then gush as her cunt opened wider to the pressure of the knee.
No, this was no virgin, Dex told herself. This wasn't any sort of beginner either. Gena might he young but she must have been around.
Yet she had said that it was her first gay party ...
Gena sighed and ran the tip of her tongue around the edge of Dex's mouth when Dex came up for air. There was no stopping her. Gena could not seem to get enough. Dex sucked the eager tongue back into her mouth. Clasping the girl tightly, she drew her down onto the cushion-less seat of the sofa-bed.
The hardness under her buttocks seemed to add to her excitement. Gena came down onto Dex's lap. She wiggled her ass against Dex's crotch, teasing her on ward. Dex reached around and let her hands play over the lithe body of the girl. As her fingers drifted across her nipples, Gena would respond by grinding her ass more roughly against Dex's crotch. Dex let her thighs part slightly so that Gena's buttocks slipped ever so slightly between them.
Suddenly, for no apparent reason, Gena giggled softly to herself and slipped sideways onto the couch and brought her feet up. She was now stretched out, her young ass rubbing gently against Dex's moist crotch. She was gazing intently at the older woman.
Dex blushed slightly. She felt Gena observing her now, more than participating. Yet, the position she had taken, sprawling over her lap, was calculated to bring things out of the foreplay stage.
"You're in my lap like a baby," muttered Dex. Before she had time to begin reproaching Gena, the girl's eyes twinkled suggestively.
"Oh, I'm no baby. Except maybe when I want to play with your breasts and ... " Gena didn't bother to finish her sentence. She unbuttoned Dex's blouse and worked her fingers behind to release the clasp of her bra. Dex's breasts fell heavily into the outstretched palm which tried to cup both of them at once. Then Gena moved both hands into play, pulling the bra out of the way, and now rubbing Dex's stiffening nipples.
"Do you like that?" asked Gena coyly.
"Damn it, of course, I like that," Dex snapped back. She liked being stroked, her breasts fondled, nipples pulled and pinched, but she didn't like being toyed with.
Abruptly she slithered out from under Gena, pulling the girl's long legs up on the couch so she could slip free. She fell to her knees with the girl spread out before her on the sofa. Gena lay there watching Dex intently while a pale tinge of color flushed through her cheeks.
The clear, direct invitation stopped Dex from thinking. Desire rushed through her body headlong. She covered Gena's mouth once again with her own and let her hands play downward to find the breasts.
She stroked from one to the other, and they felt hot and large. Her eye caught a glimpse of the two nipples jutting blatantly against the girl's jersey as if trying to stab through the cloth and out into the air. Dex began to fumble with the clothing, working the jersey upward till her fingertips touched the warm, bare midriff.
The skin was smooth. It covered the rib cage sparely and emphasized the high rising mounds of breasts. Gena hoisted the jersey up and pulled it over her curly blonde head. Dex felt the globe of rippling flesh as one breast sank into the palm of her hand. She stared at its rosy color greedily. Both nipples seemed to harden before her eyes, protruding, hard nubs of flesh.
"Kiss me there," Gena whispered, pressing Dex's head down to her breasts.
The nipple seemed to raise itself into Dex's mouth. She closed her eyes and played her tongue tip firmly across the puckering center. As her teeth scraped gently around the point of flesh, Gena moaned softly and stroked Dex's hair. With her head pressed close to Gena's body, she could feel the rapid heartbeat that revealed Gena's mounting desire. The intimate scent of flesh ensnared Dex, ruffling her senses, urging her on.
Now she began to pull down the cotton slacks, revealing the frivolous rose-colored panties beneath. They were surprising. Made intricately of lace, apparently quite expensive, they belonged on a high-class whore. Not on an eighteen-year-old girl.
The elastic cut low across Gena's flat belly, letting hairs from her crotch sprout out invitingly over the top. With one finger Dex pulled the scanty material away, revealing smooth flesh.
Her bushy blond pubic hair sprang into view. It grew richly over the girl's fresh young cunt, but not without parting slightly to reveal the soft folds running down between her pale thighs. The inside of her mouth went dry as Dex's eyes took in the young body greedily.
"Where did you get panties like that?" asked Dex hoarsely and with only side interest. She was too intent on the richness of the curves of the girl's body to much care about how she would answer. Nothing she would say would make a difference to the raw heat in her loins as she contemplated what she would soon take and devour as her own.
"It was a present," said Gena dreamily. Dex caught the tone of voice. She pulled her eyes off the girl's tantalizing body and brought it to her face.
"Who gave it to you? A man?"
"Oh no, Dex, a woman. Who else?" replied Gena. The smirk around her pert mouth told Dex more than she wanted to know, at least at that moment. A woman, yes, and a special woman. Perhaps Bobbi Morton, Dex thought fleetingly. But who cared really, as long as it was another woman. The thought of the body before her being mauled by a man disgusted her. She thought of the round, fresh cunt before her being filled with a man's milky sperm, plastering down the soft hairs, desecrating what she wanted in her mouth.
Gena, free and naked, lifted one leg up over the back of the couch. The position gave Dex plenty of room, plenty of place at which to stare.
Gena's cunt was effectively spread open invitingly for her. The red gash of her inner flesh was a hot slit shining from behind the hairy blond veil. Dex could see the moisture there like drops of dew.
Gena boldly ran her hands down her hips, pausing at the protrusion of the hip bone, only to dive directly at her crotch. She put her leg up higher on the back of the sofa and spread her cunt wide with her fingers. The tunnel running deep inside her opened wider, dark and inviting. Dex flicked her tongue nervously over her lips. Gena's brashness was turning her into a horny bitch. It was as if she had never seen a woman's cunt, had never had it spread open for her, had never watched the line of pubic hair disappear between the two cheeks of her ass. With Ryan it had all worked much more slowly, beginning with fondling and cuddling and small cries of female reassurance.
Gena was part of the new breed. She was, to be trite, liberated. She spread her thighs with delight, knowing all too well that what she would reveal between them was something any gay woman would want.
"Kiss me," Gena repeated. "Kiss me."
There was no mistaking what the girl meant. Or, for that matter, what she wanted. Yet she had had the tact to phrase it at least in romantic terms. Gena was proving that liberation didn't necessarily mean turning yourself into a slut. She was wise beyond her years.
For Dex, playing around, one-night stands, just the idea of having sex with another woman for the sheer lust of it, had always repulsed her somewhat. Of course she had invited Gena to come home with her. She could go through with it, even desire it. But in the back of her mind was always a sense of guilt, of being cheapened.
There was no doubt that Gena, on the other hand, felt nothing of the kind. She was easy, direct, knew what she wanted and how. Sex seemed as simple to her as eating. But surely something was playing around in her mind. The girl was not cold or mechanical. She must be feeling some kind of emotion beside a desire to have her cunt satisfied with a rampant, devouring mouth and tongue.
For long moments, Dex let her eyes take their fill of the firm white thighs that seemed so pure and untouched. She ran her hands over them. They felt hot-as though a fire was going on somewhere deep within the pit of Gena's stomach.
Now the other leg lifted. With her knee, Gena nudged Dex, sliding it against the woman's thighs, then again working it against her crotch.
There could be no further delays, Dex knew. She needed it now and she needed it directly.
Dex plunged her head forward. As her mouth made contact with the wet cunt lips, she heard Gena's long, releasing moan. Dex climbed onto the couch, hunching forward on her knees, letting her weight press forward.
Dex's breasts hung down free from her rib cage. The nipples began rubbing against Gena's soft thighs as her lips brushed over the girl's blond hairs. The hot, pungent odor of the girl's gushing cunt filled her nostrils. She was drunk with it in minutes. Her tongue stuck clear out of her mouth as far as it could go and then began licking up the hot crack.
Gena spread her thighs wider and moaned loudly now. The tip of Dex's tongue suddenly brushed the clitoris lying buried within the hood of flesh. With quick, pointed strokes, she freed the girl's clit from the flesh around it and made it quiver to stiffness. It swelled at each lick of the tongue, glistening as it lengthened into a miniature penis.
Dex took the knob of flesh between her lips and tugged on it hungrily, tauntingly. Then her teeth grazed it and she sucked it into her mouth, smacking her lips greedily on it.
Dex felt herself losing all control. Her panties felt wet from the gushing feeling deep inside her cunt. Her nipples were almost painfully erect, rubbing constantly now against the girl's rich thighs. Her breath came in short, quick pants. Her chin was slathered wet with Gena's juices and her own saliva.
Dex paused for a second to catch her breath and feast her eyes on the wide open cunt and stiffened clit.
"Oh, don't stop," moaned Gena. Her eyes were closed, her body writhing on the hard seat of the sofa.
Dex reached under her squirming buttocks, passing between her thighs and over the full cheeks of her ass. She pulled the girl's hips up violently towards her face. Dex's eyes glowed crazily as she brought her hungry mouth to meet the hot cunt.
A groan of pleasure ripped out of Gena's throat as she felt Dex's mouth come back down on her wet pussy.
"Lick it faster, faster," panted the girl as she felt Dex's tongue slither along her wet slit. Once again the woman began sucking on her clit, oblivious to Gena's impatience, wanting the sex to last and burst with release when the time came.
She sucked at the lengthening knob of flesh, brushing it with her teeth as she sucked it between her lips, gobbling at it and sending electrifying shivers deep into Gena's cunt.
Only after she had sucked it until her lips were tired, did Dex stick her tongue as far out of her mouth as she could and lick up into the girl's swollen labia. The teasing Dex had given her had slathered them with dripping juice. Now the woman slurped it up greedily, licking her tongue over the fat ridges of flesh and then darting deep inside the red and widening hole.
Gena's body bucked upward to meet the invasion of Dex's hot tongue. Dex moved her head in a wide, slow circle, munching and sucking with her sensuous lips on the girl's pussy as she flicked her tongue in and out of her gushing hole. Gradually, she speeded up the movement, arcing her body deeper to meet Gena's up thrust crotch.
Gena's hands came down on Dex's skull. She rubbed the woman's mouth around on her cunt, reinforcing Dex's movements. Speeding up the grinding of her hips against the woman's face, she arced higher as though trying to force all of her pussy into Dex's mouth.
The girl's need sent electricity through Dex. A throbbing seemed to start behind her eyeballs. The world became alive and large, filled with only one thing, one hot demanding woman's cunt. All her muscles tensed, waiting as though poised for the moment when Gena would peak.
Dex sensed her clothing rumpled within the folds of her crouched body. Her cunt burned between her thighs, longing for satisfaction and release, but she ignored it. She had only begun to make love in earnest, she thought. They would find different ways and different means throughout the morning and on into the long hours of the afternoon.
She felt the roots of her hair being pulled as Gena's fingers tightened, tangling, grasping with the increasing urgency of her need.
And then Gena's body seemed to burst wide. She kicked wide and high, releasing herself with a small, rasping shriek that seemed more like pain than ecstasy.
She shoved Dex's mouth down tightly, forcing the tongue as deep inside her quivering cunt as she could. Dex could feel the walls of her pussy tremble as she suddenly gushed and peaked, drenching Dex's nose, mouth and chin with her juices.
Dex reached a hand up and felt the contractions rolling through the girl's belly. She waited till the peak had passed on. Then, lifting her head, Dex peered into the girl's panting, perspiring face.
Dex swallowed. Her smile was lopsided and savage. Her face was slicked down and flushed.
"You're right," she said hoarsely. "We have to go into the bedroom."
CHAPTER TWO
Dex watched the little smile of triumph play over Gena's lips. She reminded Dex of a little mouse that had gotten the cheese out of the trap and run off with it. She touched Dex's ear lightly and sat up.
"I'm hungry," she said.
Dex winced. Was this a time to think of food? Dex leaned over to kiss her breasts. "What would you like?" she said against the warm flesh.
"French toast," Gena said instantly, her voice full of bounce.
"God," Dex groaned. "Won't you settle for an egg?"
"I hate eggs."
"What about Wheaties?"
"You're making fun of me."
Dex pressed her mouth into the cleavage and stayed there for a long moment. Gena's breasts were warm and firm as they pressed in on both sides of her face. The sweet odor of Blue Grass and young sweat were intoxicating. As she pulled her head away she noticed that both nipples were still erect.
"Yes, I am," she said, finally replying to Gena's remark.
But she forced herself to sit up and away from Gena so that she could concentrate on getting her a satisfactory meal. Good old Dex, she thought to herself. Ready when you need her; a mother to all.
She stifled a sigh. The sooner this eating business was over with, the sooner they could return to important matters.
Dex stood up and pointed herself straight for the kitchen, trying to ignore the naked girl prancing beside her. Yet she couldn't help watching Gena from the side of her eye. The girl was rosy pink all over like a cherub that had just taken a hot bath. Her breasts stood up with a firm individuality. Her ass jiggled. Its roundness had just recently lost its baby fat.
Precocious little bitch, Dex thought.
The challenge of Gena brought out a vague sense of foreboding. How easy it was to smile with amusement at the girl. To appreciate her antics as though she were watching somebody else's adventure on film. Yet this wasn't the movies, and it wasn't anybody's life except her own, Dex reminded herself. She knew she would have to be careful with Gena, not for the girl's sake, but for her own. Gena could and had made her jump. What had started as a one-night stand, part sex, part revenge for Ryan's non-appearance, had thrown her into a position to get walked all over again.
Yes, she would have to be careful with Gena ... or somehow things were going to get way out of hand.
They reached the kitchen. Gena stood bending over with expectancy as Dex pulled the refrigerator door open.
"Sorry," Dex said, as they both stared into empty shelves. A small half-opened tin of anchovies lay at the far end of the bottom beside three sections of a peeled orange.
"Oh, don't worry." Gena gave her a resounding kiss on the side of the neck. "I don't mind if you take me out to breakfast. I don't want to see you working anyway."
"That's kind of you," Dex replied acidly and slapped Gena smartly on the ass.
Gena giggled and danced out of reach, her blonde curls bobbing.
"I'll be dressed in a sec."
"No doubt," Dex muttered, closing the cold door and leaning against it. The itchy heat between her thighs would not stop. She could still feel the wetness, the swollenness of her labia, the cruel lack of release inside her. Her cunt ached for attention.
From a safe distance, she watched Gena pulling on the lace panties, saw them rise up on her fresh, full thighs and cover the mound of blond curls still wet from Dex's own mouth; Seeing her pussy disappear under the lace reminded her of the taste of sex in her mouth, the reek of it in her nostrils. Gena slipped her slacks on coyly, then pulled the jersey on over her head. Dex knew she felt her eyes on her, watching her body disappear from her hungry view. She slipped her jersey over her upturned breasts, catching the bottom edge of it on the tips of her nipples, pink and still rubbery hard, then cupping the full mounds, and finally pulling the jersey down tight and tucking it into her slacks. Her breasts poked at the flimsy jersey material, teasing Dex's eyes, saying come and get me.
Dex pursed her lips with a tremor of annoyance. Her own reactions were so strange, so tense, that she could barely recognize them as her own. What was she doing, chasing after a kid like this? And how come the kid was winning the game?
"Well, are you coming?" Gena called.
Dex went after her without a word now. Best to get breakfast over with quickly. Then Gena would be in a relaxed mood again and come across.
The morning had sped on. It was almost ten a.m. when they reached Dex's favorite all-night diner on Tenth Avenue. They walked into the clatter of dishes and bustling waitresses. A thick and pungent aroma of coffee mingled with the frying of bacon. Somehow, the atmosphere calmed Dex. She could always count on this diner as a place of refuge when everything else seemed all wrong.
She sipped black coffee and watched Gena put away two orders of French toast along with a double side order of sausages.
"Why don't you eat something, too?" Gena asked between mouthfuls.
"I'm not a growing girl, I guess," Dex grinned.
Gena lifted her shoulders and looked genuinely unhappy for a second. Dex patted her hand for reassurance. Gena was obviously doing her best to get it over with quickly. She wasn't purposely out to give anyone a hard time, Dex knew.
As they walked back to the house, Gena's springy step was quieter. Her body was close to Dex as though she wanted to snuggle in close and go to sleep.
Dex's mind wandered to a comforting picture of the sexy little body curled up naked beside her in the bed. She pictured the beautiful little mouth wet from her kisses and the juice of her cunt. She would possess her, feel her tongue leaping between her labia, licking her clit. In return she would do the same, repeating her hungry eating of Gena's blonde pussy. The tight mounds of her pointed breasts mixed in fantasy with her round buttocks, snowy white and fleshy. She could devour the girl in one gulp, she thought moodily, and still not be satisfied. Gena was sex, not love. She couldn't begin to satisfy the jumbled emotions in Dex's heart.
Dex pictured them in sixty-nine position, sucking each other to exhaustion. Gena's pert rump would bob and shiver as she peaked, climaxed and came over and over. Gripping each other tightly, they would continue sucking and licking until they were too worn out to move a tongue, a lip or a finger.
The exhaustion of their sex would do some good. Dex was sure of that. It wouldn't satisfy the building sense of loss as month after month Ryan played the field behind her back, staying out all night, going from woman to woman and maybe even to a man. It was intolerable. The abuse she felt from Ryan's attitude could not be satisfied by a romp in bed. But it could help her forget for a while.
As they walked back to the building, Gena's springy step had disappeared. It was now matched as well as possible with her own pace. Dex smiled to herself. The girl was trying, after all. She was just a kid out for a good time, but she was sensitive. She must feel something wrong, thought Dex.
Dex reached over to Gena's arm swinging loosely by her side. She caught her fingers and held them. Gena looked up at her and grinned.
"I thought only us kids held hands," Gena perked up.
"Honey, I didn't think eighteen-year-olds these days had that much romance in them." Dex was smiling, enjoying the fast quips that broke the tension.
"You'd be damn surprised," replied Gena aggressively. She squeezed Dex's fingers tightly and almost pulled her toward the building.
Just as they reached the entrance, the Dalmatians bounded up and sniffed happily and curiously around Gena's ankles.
"Hi there," Robard called, his bass voice rising from the depths of his broad chest. "I guess you must've missed seeing Ryan ... "
Dex raised an eyebrow. "You saw her coming in this morning?"
"Only five minutes ago."
To what did she owe this warning, Dex thought testily. Wouldn't Robard find it much more to his advantage to get the two of them fighting so that Ryan could run upstairs to him and then, God knows what ...
"Thanks," Dex said, forcing a grin of gratitude over her lips. If there was a catch to it, she couldn't figure out what it was. Maybe, just maybe she had been wrong about Robard and Ryan. Maybe there was nothing there at all.
She grabbed Gena by the elbow, getting her wits about her and dealing with this real situation. She steered her on past the entrance and kept on walking toward the corner.
"Hey, what's the matter?" Gena said, half laughing, half upset.
"Where do you live, honey?" Dex said, ignoring Gena's question.
"Why can't we go back to your place?" Gena responded impishly.
"You know damned well why," Dex growled.
"Why?" Gena persisted, blinking her eyelashes with mock innocence.
Dex hailed a cab and pushed Gena into it. Gena grabbed hold of her wrist.
"Aren't you coming with me?"
"Sorry. Not today anymore."
"Oh I see. You're scared of the big bad wolf, whoever she is."
"Come on, girls," the cabbie interrupted. "In or out."
Dex pulled her arm free and slammed the door shut. She put a five-dollar bill into the cabby's hand and turned her back on Gena.
As she strolled away, she heard Gena's voice calling, "Scardy cat. Shit! Shit!" The choked sound of the voice made her look back for a second. It seemed to her in the quick glance she got of Gena that her face was streaked with tears, that she was really calling out for her. Impossible, Dex thought to herself, closing the book on the subject.
Dex ground her teeth down, determined not to turn around again or waver and hail the cab. If they were tears, they were crocodile ones. She was a kid, a kid who liked it fast and easy, and that was all. The tears were a figment of Dex's imagination. Tears from Gena would be tears of anger, frustration at having been cast aside so easily.
Well, good riddance, Dex mumbled to herself. An eye for an eye. She would not give Gena the satisfaction of seeing her irritated. She could yell "shit" at her all the way down the block.
Oddly enough, the "scaredy cat" had had more effect. As she kept on walking, the 'words drilled through her. There was something childish in Gena's approach to the whole dilemma of illicit love affairs. She made it sound like a game of pickle-in-the-middle. All one had to do was catch the woman who happened to be flying past. Little could Gena know about such temperamental personalities as Ryan.
The irritation spun round and round. Mentally, Dex could not throw off the shadow of Gena's taunting voice.
She was still thinking about Gena when she entered the apartment and looked around for Ryan.
She heard the water turned up full force and splashing against the bathtub. Dex heaved a sigh of relief. Obviously Ryan was sober, otherwise she wouldn't have either the steady hand or the interest to run a bath. She'd just flop down on the bed and fall asleep. The fact that Ryan had stayed out all night and come home sober was newsworthy.
"Dex, where the hell are you?"
Dex snorted in response to the familiar voice seeking her out. The night's depression began to lift. Ryan was home. Life would continue in its usual pattern. They would talk. Work up to a fight probably. Then go to bed. Maybe the phone would ring, and a strange woman's voice would ask for Ryan. Dex would tell the voice that no such person lived there. And thus would fade Ryan's latest venture into unfaithfulness.
As Dex went toward the sound of Ryan's voice, she could see Gena sticking out her tongue and calling scaredy cat again. Gena was right, damn it. She was afraid, afraid to talk back to Ryan, afraid of rejection, the end of their relationship, in fact, just about afraid of her own shadow. The pleasure she had felt at hearing Ryan's familiar call now vanished. Replacing it was bitterness at her own ability to get walked all over. Twice within two hours.
Gena wouldn't take all this guff from Ryan. Gena would probably get into the bathtub herself and make Ryan scrub her back.
Dex pushed the bathroom door open and peered into the billows of rising steam.
Ryan lay the full-length of the tub. The heel of one foot was propped .on the faucet and water lapped along her smooth, tanned thigh. All of her glistened as though she had been rubbed down with oil. The pampered breasts floated among soap bubbles. They were round and fully developed, and their nipples were a deep red.
The languorous way she sponged her body with the soft terrycloth intensified the impression of voluptuous flesh. Every inch of her body was carefully cared for, pummeled by masseuses, oiled and delicately suntanned and then licked passionately by Dex. The full curve of her hips was hidden by the water, but the shadow of her bushy pubic hair was tantalizingly visible through the splash of suds and perfumed water.
She lay the washcloth across her forehead and closed her eyes as Dex entered the steamy bathroom. The thick shadow made veils on her lids. A tiny nerve twitched above the lashes just before she opened her eyes. They were a dark, intriguing blue, the color of dusk.
Dex swallowed hard as all the old feelings for Ryan came upon her with a rush. No cute eighteen-year-old body could match this pampered woman's flesh. Its full curves, perfect cheekbones and demeanor which expected slavish attention were irresistible to Dex.
"Hi, butch," Ryan said. "Watcha been doing?" She spread her fingers through her dark hair and lifted it, dripping from her neck. "First time in five years you aren't home when I get in ... "
Ryan was speaking with the voice of one of the low-down characters that she played in soap operas. It was the voice she used when an anger was taking over that she wanted to control.
Dex got the message. Ryan, who stayed out all the time whenever she pleased with seemingly little concern for Dex's reaction, was demanding an explanation. How could she have stood this attitude for so many years? Her eyes feasted on the richly sexual body bathing in the tub and gave her the answer. She was hopelessly in love with Ryan's body, her assurance of feminine beauty, her arrogance, her selfishness. Dex was a fool and a masochist, she decided, accusing herself in the third person like a prisoner before a judge. Emotionally and physically Ryan held her in bondage. She could never have enough of that body, those lips, the random attention she got from Ryan. She was hooked, as surely as if she plunged a needle into her veins every day.
And yet there was Gena. How had that happened? What had made her desire that body, young and smooth where Ryan was full and luscious? And what was worse was that Dex had not come out much better with the girl than with Ryan. Both had walked all over her.
With an audible sight of despair at her inability to control the people she loved, even to make them care for her properly, she sat down on the edge of the tub.
"So what's new," said Dex, picking the wash cloth off of Ryan's forehead and plunging it into the water where she let its folds randomly sink down and caress Ryan's body.
"That's what's new, buster, you and your nighttime romps," Ryan answered testily.
"It shouldn't come as a surprise," said Dex, losing her cool, "I've had the best teacher in the world. Just took a lesson from the master, that's all. As they say, two can play that game."
"Fuck!"
"Right. What about you? You get yourself licked good and ... " Dex's sentence was cut short by Ryan. She picked the washcloth out of the water and threw it violently at Dex. The wet cloth landed on her neck then fell to her lap, soaking her.
"Well, congratulations, Dex. I take it this is the first time for you." Dex controlled her anger, picking up the cloth and tossing it back into the tub. Her eyes drank in Ryan's body greedily despite herself. Damn it, why couldn't she see Ryan for what she was, a bitch in need of a good whipping?
"Maybe. Maybe," Dex answered vaguely. She, of course, had no intention of talking about Gena. Ryan had no real proof she had brought anyone back to the apartment.
"Well, Dex, there was a distinct odor of cunt in this house as I opened the door. Couldn't have been you masturbating on the couch, that's not like you. You'd rather give your cunt a rupture rather than satisfy yourself. You like suffering."
Dex felt herself coming to the boiling point again. Ryan's words were even more infuriating because they were true, every last one. And they hurt her. In contrast to Ryan. Truth ran off her like water off a duck's back.
"So what if I did bring some one home and make it with them," Dex blurted out. "It's all fair and square."
"Oh no it isn't, honey, because the rules state that no other sex object shall enter this apartment but me. Dig it?" Ryan's beautiful face was now twisted in a sneer. With amazing calm Dex wondered whether Ryan really got pleasure from acting like a selfish bitch. It didn't seem possible and yet ...
"Ryan, there are no rules for screwing around. Except maybe get it and lay it before it gets you ... " Dex heard herself saying these words as if she were a third person on the bathroom. She wasn't even sure she knew what they meant. They were a defense, a barrage of words to hide the pain she felt at bickering with Ryan. If only that third person could break in and stop this nonsense. She felt a grin of triumph spread over her face as Ryan could find no words to answer.
It felt good not to be a sucker, this once. She looked Ryan directly in the eyes and grinned with an overflowing of self-satisfaction. Just this once she had matched Ryan's infidelity tit for tat.
"Congratulations," Ryan said, her eyelids lowering. "My congratulations."
Ryan took a bar of soap and began to work it along one arm. Slowly, she sank deeper into the water until it reached her chin. She closed her eyes and sighed.
Dex watched Ryan's attempt at nonchalance. Underneath that lazy exterior, Ryan was throwing a thousand fits, but she would never admit to even one of them.
"The whole world's a con act," Dex threw out as a truce.
She leaned over and kissed Ryan lightly on one wet nipple. The soap tasted harsh to her tongue but it was worth it just to make some small contact with the woman. The nipple replied to Dex's attention by stiffening slightly. Dex felt the burning sensation deep in her groin revive. Her thighs reminded her of how she ached for fulfillment. There was something uncomfortable about her sex, a feeling that her pussy was sealed shut, dried out, made worthless and unworkable. The burning inside her could find no release.
Dex sat gazing at Ryan's bobbing breasts in the water as the woman she loved continued lathering her limbs with the bar of soap. Every movement brought some part of her anatomy forcefully into sexual perspective. For a split second Dex could see herself going mad and throwing herself into the bathtub in order to finally possess this female creature and be satisfied.
"Well, I'm not going to be like other women," Ryan said. "I mean I'm not going to ask you how you liked it."
Before Dex could come back with a reply, Ryan put her hand up till her dripping fingers encircled Dex's throat. The first touch was almost alarming, as if she would have liked to strangle her lover. Then, gently, Ryan began to massage the tight skin beneath Dex's chin line, plying it in slow circles with thumb and forefinger.
The unexpected touch of Ryan's hand broke down her last thread of resistance. What use was it to pretend that she didn't want Ryan even for a second. Anybody could see the sham of it. At the first touch of this woman's hand, all her insides had gone crazy with desire. Any time Ryan wanted her to stroke her, lick her, suck her, she'd come running. All it took was a stroke of Ryan's finger and everything was lost.
Something in Dex now told her to control her lust enough so that Ryan would never suspect that -her trick had not satisfied her. No, that would be too humiliating. True, they had not really had time ...
Dex bit her lower lip. They had not had time, Gena and herself, because Gena had been too concerned with her own pleasure to make time. Dex's own satisfaction had been replaced by a plate of sausages and French toast.
Now the fire that Gena had started began, again, to burn high in Dex's flesh. Self-control had never been one of her strong points. Not when it came to sex, anyway. Admittedly, she craved fulfillment. She had wanted it to be Gena who would complete the act by giving her the attention and orgasm she wanted. Now, that seemed impossible. Gena was off in some taxi, probably home by now and asleep. She didn't have the girl's address. She never even asked for her last name or phone number. As usual she was at Ryan's mercy.
If only just this once she could keep Ryan from knowing that. Her lover expected she'd had a good sexual workout. The bitchy remark about the smell of cunt in the room underlined the jealousy she felt. If only Dex would have the control to work on that, to remain cool as those fingers massaged over her neck.
Instead, Dex once again lowered her mouth to the tip of Ryan's nipple. She sucked almost audibly on the rubbery point of flesh, giving it her undivided attention until she slipped her lips off it and moved them hungrily up the soapy curve of her breast.
"So you still want me," Ryan said, her voice gratified.
Dex dosed her eyes. She was putty in Ryan's hands.
"I love you," she said. "If you stopped running long enough to look, you'd see it."
Ryan grunted. They had been over that terrain before. Some women just needed to know they were desirable to everyone. Ryan could never be satisfied with knowing that Dex loved her. They both knew that. And yet, they stayed together, occasionally hatching dreams of fidelity and eternal companionship.
Dex's mind ranged masochistically to the first time Ryan had made love to another woman.
It had been at a party, very much like the one that night. But it had been more intimate and more sexual. Dex had not wanted to go, and especially she had not wanted Ryan to be there. She had feared for her hold on the young woman; the beautiful actress everyone envied as her lover. Something inside her had instinctively warned her that Ryan would never survive that much attention focused on her. She would have to flaunt it, give herself to it. And she had.
A woman, tall and leggy, almost as statuesquely beautiful as Ryan herself, had been the straw that broke the back of their fidelity up to that point. Ironically, it had been a friend of Bobbi Morton, thought Dex.
Dex's mind forced her to replay the events, to watch from a corner of the room as the two women danced slowly together, rubbing their breasts and cunts against each other. Once again she felt tears and anger fighting inside her.
As if the display of their dancing had not been enough, the two women left the dance floor and marched indiscreetly to the bedroom. Eyes followed them playfully. Dex had wanted to disappear through the floor.
Instead she found herself edging open the half closed bedroom door to watch. What she saw angered and excited her at the same time.
The two women lay naked in each other's arms, licking every inch of flesh ferociously. Ryan had slipped her body down so that her mouth rested on the model's taut breasts. She had slipped her lips over the red nipple, pulling it out, stretching it to full stiffness while her free hand caressed downward till it reached the woman's crotch.
Just Ryan's hand on the woman's crotch had changed the scene on the bed violently. In seconds they were in sixty-nine position, their thighs spread wide so that they could plunge their tongues as deeply into each other's cunts as possible. Facing Dex had been the woman's full spread ass, the crack between her round white cheeks spread open to reveal her puckered asshole and the faint line of pubic down running to her cunt lips. Ryan's head had bobbed up and down, her tongue stretched out of her full, wide-open mouth, in order to lick up the swollen cunt lips and to titillate the distended clitoris.
She had listened to their grunts silently. They had gone at each other's bodies like two hungry animals. Dex remembered the desolation at feeling that she had obviously never really satisfied Ryan if she could react like this to another woman. Her sense of failure made her timid, stopped her from rushing into the room and pulling the two of them apart.
Despite herself, her fingers had rubbed over her breasts as she had watched the two of them. They were two bitches in heat, devouring each other, tugging each other to orgasm. They had aroused her incredibly. Her nipples had rubbed her blouse almost painfully. The burning sensation in her pussy had sent her hand down to satisfy herself automatically.
Dex had lost control watching them in heated fascination. Her hand had slipped inside her slacks, in between her panties and the smooth flesh of her belly and had thrust downward. Burying her fingers in her cunt, stroking her clit, plunging her fingers up her juicy hole, she had continued watching. The two had licked and sucked each other's cunts with passionate precision. She had watched, unable to control her hand, stroking herself to orgasm.
She could still see that scene as plainly as if it were happening now right in front of her. The hoarse grunting as they had sucked each other closer and closer to their peak. The juices running over Ryan's full sucking mouth. The thrust of the model's wide, full ass as she shoved it down on her lover's face. The gleam of sweat on the woman's back.
And then they had come, together, their bodies simultaneously wracked with spasms and cries of lust. Her own finger had darted forcefully over her cunt, trying to match the double orgasm in front of her, and, in that way, to become a part of it. Somehow if they all Game at the same time she would not feel so abandoned.
Her face drenched with her own saliva and the model's cunt juices, Ryan had suddenly noticed Dex standing in the doorway, slightly doubled over with her arm half way inside her slacks. Instead of shock, a flicker of a grin had played over her mouth.
"You should have joined us, Dex," was her only statement until they had gotten home. Then all hell had broken loose. The honeymoon was over. And it never had begun again.
Reliving the entire scene, Dex wondered why she had clung to Ryan all those years since. Her eyes now refocused on Ryan stretched out in the bathtub. The two nipples on her floating breasts were stiff with anticipation. The answer was right in front of her. She just could never get enough of Ryan. Punishment or pleasure, it made no difference as long as the woman was there.
Ryan's forehead was creased in a scowl.
"Dex, I'm talking to you!"
"What? I was thinking of something else. Sorry. What did you say?" asked Dex vaguely, trying to shake her mind out of the past and back into this situation in the bathroom. As if to help bring reality back, she reached down and picked up the wash cloth and rubbed Ryan's neck and then her breasts with it.
"Well, it's ironic," Ryan said. "For the first time in I don't know how many years, I was faithful to you last night."
The words struck her full in the face, but Dex felt nothing. She was numb to this kind of irony now. So what if a fluke of fate had given her her first infidelity and had kept Ryan faithful. Ryan had gone out looking for a new woman. It didn't make any real difference that she had not found one to her liking.
Dex leaned down and played her tongue over the outline of Ryan's chin. In seconds her tongue flicked over the full, sensuously curved lips, then plunged in. She kissed Ryan passionately, lolling her tongue lazily around the small warm mouth, sucking at her tongue, drawing the woman's breath into her own mouth. She opened her eyes as she kissed for a second and was met by Ryan's startled gaze: Dex stopped kissing and drew back.
"Don't you want to know anything about it?" asked Ryan, almost plaintively. Dex tried to hide her smile of pleasure.
So, unexpectedly, she now found herself in control of the situation. Ryan couldn't understand how Dex remained so calm. Well, Dex hardly understood it herself.
"How come?" she asked simply because Ryan was waiting for her to inquire.
"That's how it is sometimes. I don't know."
Dex lifted an eyebrow in surprise. She had expected some complicated tirade.
"That's not much of an explanation," Dex blurted out.
"Double irony," replied Ryan. "Now you want me to explain why I was faithful to you."
Dex wasn't impressed. Maybe Ryan was beginning to get tired, slow down. Maybe the old race horse was just tired of the course. There was no way to tell what might be going on inside Ryan's head. All Dex could count on was a new sense of freedom.
Yes, freedom, a voice spoke in her head. She had cut the chains. No longer did she feel obligated to Ryan in the same way. No longer would she watch and wait for Ryan to come home. No longer would she suffer the tortures that Ryan inflicted without concern.
"Now it's my turn," Dex said, half aloud, half to herself.
"Don't talk about it," Ryan said abruptly. She reached up and stroked her fingers down inside the collar of Dex's shirt. "Let's pretend that it all never happened."
With a whoosh of water, Ryan sat up. She pressed her cool mouth firmly to Dex's lips.
The wet body left water soaked through her clothes, and Dex shuddered with the sensuality of contact. Ryan wanted her. And now, because of Gena, the fact that an unknown person had come between them in some way, Ryan was ready to give Dex everything.
Silly, childish little Gena had suddenly given her so much. Dex wanted to shake her head in amazement, maybe burst out laughing at the absurdity of the situation. True to habit, however, she responded fully to Ryan's ploy. The beautiful body pressing against her, the firm flesh soaking through her clothing, destroyed her will. She wanted that body. She wanted it now.
She lifted Ryan out of the tub and dragged her, dripping wet, into the bedroom. Dex flung her onto the unmade bed and climbed in beside her. As she covered Ryan's body with kisses, a small voice whispered inside her head: scaredy cat.
CHAPTER THREE
Ryan lay with her legs spread wide, watching Dex. The pink slit between her fast swelling labia gleamed out between the wet hairs of her pubis. The mound of flesh was splitting open to receive Dex's eager tongue. Daylight glistened in the droplets of water that beaded along Ryan's flesh. Goose bumps rose in concentric circles around the damp breasts. She pressed the heels of her palms into her erect nipples.
"Come to me, baby," she whispered.
Dex snorted, wishing it were already night. Her mouth moved rapidly over the willing body and her own tingled from the contact. Yet the ache throbbing through her loins had a peculiar, lonely quality. The pain of desire was more of an echo now. True, Ryan was here; Ryan wanted her. But today, Dex could not be entirely satisfied with that.
The ghost of Gena hung over her, more tangible than a mere memory. She could still smell the tang of Blue Grass and young, fresh sweat. The odor of her pussy clung to her nostrils. She hadn't noticed it before as Ryan and she had played cat and mouse. Now that the preliminary game was over, it was overwhelming.
It was Gena who had given her this new power over Ryan. And now it was Gena, wanting her again and again, who played in her mind. In a split second of lucid thought, Dex realized that she was just as bad as Ryan. Now that she had what she craved right before her, she wanted something else far away and unattainable.
As Dex pressed her lips to Ryan's belly, and licking down slowly to the tangle of wet hair matted to reveal the widening gash between her legs, she tried to shake herself free from the taste of Gena.
"What's happening?" Ryan asked, her voice barely audible. "Is something the matter with you all of a sudden?"
Dex clasped her arms around Ryan's knees. She did not want to answer Ryan's question. Certainly, she did not want to admit, in her own mind, that Gena had any claim on her whatsoever. The idea was preposterous. Monstrous. It boded evil.
"Nothing's wrong," Dex muttered.
Eagerly, as though to prove her point, Dex moved her mouth up along the side of Ryan's thigh. She felt Ryan begin to quiver. As Ryan's passion grew warmer, Dex felt encouraged. The ache in her pussy needed satisfaction. She could feel it swelling, the lips parting, the clit stiffening, her whole sex coming alive, gushing slightly in anticipation of the satisfaction of Ryan's mouth. If she couldn't have Gena, she would have to settle. Settle for Ryan. Settle for her own true love.
The anger of irony upset Dex. She lifted her hips and drove them down onto Ryan. Her naked flesh rushed against Ryan's, met it, and melted into it. Their cunts joined, shoved together, grinding together. The labia glistened, made their two hot cunts slippery as juice poured out from the contracting muscles of their vulvas. If Ryan had only tried to be faithful through the years, this never could have happened. She had stolen half the pleasure out of their hungry coupling. The heat and desire rushed through her loins, drenching their cunts, but it seemed further away than her own body.
Squeezing Gena out of her mind, Dex concentrated on pleasing Ryan. They knew how to make love together. Knew each other's bodies.
She felt Ryan's fingers working down between them. As the hand reached the upper part of her cunt, Dex hunched upward, giving the eager hand room in which to move. The fingers touched her gently at first, taking in the total area with long slow strokes. It worked over the clitoris, coaxing out of its hood of flesh, squeezing it, pulling it so that it lengthened and stiffened. Dex shuddered at the fingers working on her pussy, now drenched in the juice pouring out of her excited organ. The fingers coated themselves with the juice, burying in her widening red gash, then slipping over her clit. Now the hand cupped and possessed.
Dex submitted to the sensation greedily. Shivers of pleasure rushed up from her cunt as the fingers invaded, churned inside her, rubbed and prodded her clit into erection. She ground her labia against the invading hand, rubbing her thighs together. The invasion continued and became more violent. Ryan was fucking her with her fingers; she plunged in and out of her cunt almost brutally. At each inward shove, Dex drove her cunt lips down on the hand, then rubbed it into her in wide circular movements.
Under the fucking of Ryan's hand, Dex felt her energies rush downward like water into a sucking drain.
"Oh, Ry, I want you," she groaned.
Yet in her heart, Dex knew it wasn't exactly so. Ryan the familiar, Ryan the habitual, had become less to Dex than any stranger. Gena was in bed with them at that very moment, as real as if she were in the flesh. She separated them with the liberation she had given Dex. Ryan was no longer the center of attention, the total center. She was just there as habit. Dex felt all these things as the fingers worked on her cunt, giving her pangs of pleasure, setting her vulva contracting in delicious spasms.
Dex struggled. She had to get over the wall. She had to return to where she belonged. Why couldn't it all just be the same as it had before that night?
The rhythmic abrasion worked on Dex's nerves, and she felt her body responding with a will all its own. Any hand would do. Any interested partner could give her physical fulfillment at so urgent a time. She ground her cunt down on the hand. She wanted the full sensation, the invasion of a hard object deep inside her vulva. She felt the juices gush over the slickened hand. Perspiration spurted up along the ridge of her spine.
"Turn over," Ryan whispered. "You know what I want us to do together."
"Yes. Yes."
Dex moved through the fog of her passion, groping blindly to ease the pain of her craving. She crawled around the mattress on her till she was the way Ryan wanted her.
Dex threw a thigh over Ryan's head, straddling her face with her gaping cunt. Her thighs trembled as she lowered her pussy down on Ryan's mouth, then grasped her buttocks and pushed her mouth between Ryan's legs. Their tongues invaded each other's vulvas almost simultaneously. The sensation was overwhelming. Like an animal, Dex shot her tongue deep inside the hot, wet cunt and sucked. She churned her tongue wildly, fucking it in and out in time with Ryan's mouth-work on her own pussy.
Coupled like the snake eating his own tail, they munched and slobbered on each other's juicy cunts. Their breath came in pants. Small groans would escape from one's throat as the other would stroke some special nerve that would send their cunts into contractions of pleasure.
Almost by prearrangement, they licked up each other's clits and began pulling them with their lips and sucking them out long and stiff. Their mouths and chins glistened with cunt juice and saliva.
Dex felt Ryan pressing upward, shoving her tongue back deep into her cunt. A cry of surprise rushed out of Dex's throat at the unexpected invasion. Her clit stood stiff and trembling in the air, rubbing occasionally against Ryan's slippery chin. Ryan tongued toward satisfaction with every ounce of her strength. Dex clutched her tightly now.
Together they were moving toward orgasm like one animal. Sucking sounds filled the room. They rolled slightly to one side. Dex felt the damp sheet along the side of her arm and hip. The mattress squealed as they rolled. The loose bed sheet tangled around Dex's ankle. She drew in a deep breath as though ready to dive down into the very darkest places of their desire. The smell of Ryan's special lemon soap mingled with the intimate, flesh-stale odor of the room. It was a familiar brew and Dex gave herself quiet urging toward encouragement. Each of them were feeling and knowing how far the other had progressed toward the peak. The mutual sucking and tonguing was working as perfectly as ever.
Dex's tired body responded now all by itself. Worked to the very edge of the precipice, it had to fall off. Ryan began whimpering as Dex opened her mouth as wide as she could, trying to swallow up the swollen labia and the distended clit as if she were working herself into the last shudder of pleasure that would lead to orgasm.
Suddenly it clicked. Dex's cunt could no longer take the fucking of Ryan's tongue, the feel of her lips sucking the dripping labia, the full rubbing of stiff clit against wet chin. She shuddered. Her mouth opened wide and gulped in the shivering pussy under her face. She felt Ryan's back arch, then stiffen, then felt her nose engulfed in the hot odor of cum. She shoved her hot cunt down on Ryan's face, grinding it one last time before she buried her face in Ryan's shuddering, gushing cunt and came herself.
Spasm after spasm shook through her. She wanted to cry out through the wet hot flesh gushing over her mouth and face. Ryan bucked under her sucking. Her tongue churned inside Dex's cunt like an eggbeater. Every convulsion of her cunt rubbed and scraped against this invading stiff tongue.
The orgasm spiraled, taking her away from earth, sending her down the long funnel of ecstasy. Through it, she felt Ryan's contractions, too. They were sharing completion. Small pinpoints of pain where Ryan's nails dug into her flesh darted through the flood of orgasm she rode on. Her face was covered with cunt juices. They held onto each other, clasped together now as one.
As it ended, Dex heard Ryan's voice asking her to come back up on the pillow and lie next to her, close. Dex shook her head. She didn't want to move. With her eyes closed, she wanted to lie down at the foot of the bed and fall asleep there. Asleep by herself. Undisturbed by Ryan's presence.
Ryan reached down and began to tickle Dex behind the ear. She tugged at the earlobe, insisting that Dex give in to her demand for company.
Dex knew that when Ryan got a bee in her bonnet, she would never give up. There was no point in trying to argue.
She turned around and flung herself lengthwise beside Ryan. Dex lay with her back to the other woman. She pulled the pillow to her cheek and exhaled a long exhausted breath.
Ryan drew her forefinger down the naked length of Dex's spine.
"What in hell's the matter with you?" Ryan said without energy. "You're not the girl I used to know."
"I'm sleeping."
"No you're not," Ryan insisted. "You're lying there and thinking about something else. I can always tell when your mind is distracted."
"I'm sleeping," Dex repeated, her voice a mono tone.
"Well, then, what are you dreaming about?"
"Not dreaming."
Dex felt Ryan's body snuggling in closer and wondered how she was going to get rid of all the questions without having to go through the pain of an inquisition.
Ryan slipped her arms around Dex's waist. She kissed the back of her neck.
"Want me to order up some fried chicken?" she whispered.
It had been Dex's favorite dish, once upon a time. But too much repetition had taken out all the pleasure.
"Not hungry."
"But you are. I know you. You're always hungry after sex."
"Not this time."
"Then there's something the matter ... which is what I was asking you in the first place."
Ryan's, self-satisfied tone would not quit. Dex groaned and reached around to slap Ryan's behind.
"You're not going to let me off the hook, are you?" Dex said, knowing that they were about to slide into the opening phase of their usual bickering.
Only this time, it was going to be different. Somehow, Ryan's prying would not be able to erase the image of Gena and Gena's devilishness. The intrigue of Gena was a strange potion.
Dex had never had this kind of card up her sleeve. Usually it was Ryan and another woman. Dex felt odd in the reversed role. She now wondered whether Ryan ever was as haunted by one of her tricks as she now was. It gave her an uncomfortable feeling to match her new found superiority.
Superiority, Dex wondered. Perhaps that was what it was. She finally had someone. She was no longer the pining wallflower. She was suddenly Ryan playing with her Dex. It was a heady idea. The only thing wrong with it was that 'she could never be sure whether what she felt was the same as what Ryan had felt. There was no indication that Ryan had ever been as involved with her one night stands as Dex now seemed to be.
A fresh wave of depression descended on her as she lay curled on the bed. She was not in a position of superiority, damn it; she had just been hooked by another line. She had simply traded one form of slavery for another. Her mind clung to the promises she felt inherent in Gena just as she had clung to her fantasies about Ryan.
Ryan said, "You look so damned distracted that I don't know what to make of you."
"All I wanted to do was go to sleep," Dex insisted. "It's late, for Chrissake. Aren't you tired? You haven't been to bed yet either. Or are you trying to prove to me that you're some kind of tireless Amazon."
Ryan shook her head, ignoring Dex's statement.
"Why don't you want to tell me what you're thinking?"
Ryan's voice was like a drill bit boring down deeper and deeper into Dex's brain. How long had they been going on like this? Had it really been years? Suddenly, Dex wondered at her own patience. That she'd had the strength to put up with Ryan's shenanigans all for the sake of so called love.
Ryan put the tip of her forefinger to Dex's mouth.
"I know what it is," Ryan blurted with exploding insight. "And don't try to deny it. You didn't have a one-night stand. You're having an affair with some woman and you think you're in love." She shook Dex firmly by both shoulders. "Isn't that it, Dex? Well, isn't it?"
Ryan had echoed the words inside Dex's brain. The tangible sound of them, like rain, brought relief from their internalized pressure.
Dex began to laugh. The sound rolled from her like thunder rumbling out of a cave. It sounded crazy to think of herself in love with a fool kid like Gena. The whole world was turning upside down. And yet, stupid as the idea might sound, it held some grain of truth. Maybe she didn't love Gena. Love wasn't the correct word for what she felt. On the other hand, there didn't seem to be any word made for the feelings that tumbled through her. Perhaps it was only desire, but desire of so large and insistent a nature as to be potentially dangerous.
Dex looked at Ryan and realized that the foundations of their home life were being threatened for the first time.
Ryan pushed away from the sound of Dex's searing laugh. A flush of anger mingled with fear distorted the beautiful mouth. Apparently, she, too, realized that something dangerous lurked in the corners of their lives. Whatever it was, it waited. Waited to surface and destroy.
"I don't want to stay alone with you anymore," Ryan said, wiggling out of her side of the bed. "You give me the creeps."
Dex didn't object. She lay back with her hands clasped behind her head and watched Ryan hurry into slacks and sweatshirt. The baggy clothing hid most of Ryan's glamour but could not touch her glowing beauty. If anything, the simple outfit emphasized her natural endowments and the grace of her long limbs. She was something to look, at. Something to want and to cherish.
Yet Dex felt herself numb to Ryan's charms. The habit of wanting Ryan, and of aching because Ryan was off with somebody else, had peeled off.
"Where are you going?" Dex said, trying to be civil.
"Oh, I don't know. Upstairs to Madge."
"Don't interrupt her," Dex said easily. "She's probably in bed with some pretty young boy. Why don't you try Robard?" Dex grinned. "He'd welcome you, you know."
Ryan glared at Dex for a fraction of a second. She bent over swiftly and picked up a sandal. With a flick of the wrist, she tossed it. But there was force behind the effort. The sandal whizzed in close beside Dex's head and missed hitting her only because Dex moved swiftly to one side.
"I could kill you," Ryan said hoarsely. "And I hate you, did you know that? I really hate you sometimes."
"What for?" Dex replied easily, putting the sandal on her stomach and playing with the buckle.
"For being such a vicious son of a bitch. Remember, I know where you were last night. And I'm going to find out who you met there if it's the last thing I do."
"Vicious? Bitchy? Come now, Ryan. You shouldn't talk about yourself in such unflattering terms, honey."
Ryan turned pale. She was not used to this kind of reaction in Dex. The words stung. Ryan knew she was spoiled and capricious. She knew she had always taken advantage of Dex's love for her. But there had always been some kind of a tacit pact in it all. Dex was the strong, abiding one. Ryan was the playgirl who always came back home to roost. Now it seemed that Dex was calling an end to their arrangement ...
"I mean it. I'll find the bitch you're making it with if it's the last thing I do."
"It probably will be," Dex answered. "Better watch your step."
The strength of the insult was not so much in the words, but in the casual manner with which Dex spoke them. She was supposed to be angry with Ryan. Anger would show concern. Would show involvement. Her obvious boredom accused Ryan of being a drag. And Ryan didn't know how to deal with this accusation. She was always the sought after one. Nobody had ever thought of her as a bore, even when she was.
Dex dropped the sandal onto the floor, immediately regretting that she had threatened Ryan and dismissed her all in one sentence. She wished she could take the words back but there was nothing to be done except hold still and watch the tears of frustration welling up in Ryan's beautiful face.
"I'm sorry," Dex said, knowing her apology was useless. She stared at Ryan in a. kind of fascination, watching the tears run down her cheeks. She wondered if she was actually gloating at the fact that she had finally caused Ryan as much pain as her lover had so often caused her.
She swung off the bed and went to the woman she loved, hoping that there might be some way to comfort Ryan and ease the pain of the wound.
Ryan pulled away from Dex's touch.
"You meant it," Ryan said. "You meant it all."
The tears didn't dissolve Ryan's determination. She wiped them away with a sweater sleeve. Then she picked up a silver-backed brush and began, vigorously, to do her hair.
"Well, I'll do it anyway," she said. "I'm going to find that lover girl of yours and tell her just the kind of crud you are."
Dex turned away from the force of Ryan's voice. The future loomed bleak and inevitable. Ryan would find Gena because she had to. And then the world would go up for grabs.
"Frankly, I don't know why I'm here," said Ryan. Robard grinned at her from across the room as he approached with a glass in his hand.
"For a good, stiff Bloody Mary. Nothing wrong with that reason," he added, handing her the drink. She took it in her hand and noticed that it was trembling.
Dex had shaken her up like never before. Of course this was not their first squabble, but there was a tone to it unlike any of the others. For the first time Dex had refused to play her role. Ryan now felt like a fool.
"Well it's all my fault. Through the years ... everything. I've made it all happen," she repeated bleakly, listening to her words as if they were part of a funeral oration. She felt tears rush to her eyes. She had to get control of herself. She still had all her pride intact. And she had no intention of pulling out all the dirty laundry for Robard to see.
"Oh, come on, Ryan. That's impossible. You know the old phrase, it takes two to tango."
"Sure. Sure. But I'm the one who's always depended on Dex to be solid, be present and faithful." Ryan wanted to put her head in her hands and just cry. With Robard she couldn't do that. Why had she come here?
The question echoed in her head until she knew the answer suddenly point blank. It was simply because Dex had intimated that Robard wanted her. It was forbidden fruit, forbidden by Dex. and so the perfect taboo to break.
"Well maybe you're not cut out for that kind of living. It wouldn't be criminal to admit that," he added with a slightly sardonic smile.
It was a silly fact. Ryan had to smile. Of course nothing in society helped such a relationship to sustain itself. If anything, people seemed to rejoice when gay relationships fell to pieces. She wondered now if Robard was one of these. She sipped her drink.
"You're gloating, Robard," she said fixedly, watching his face for the truth.
"No, Ryan, I'm not gloating." His face was clear as he spoke. Ryan believed him.
"Then what?" she asked, prodding him for some kind of analysis, anything to help her get over her first confusion.
"Well, maybe you're just not cut out for domesticity. A lot of people aren't. There's no shame in that. For Christ sake, look at me. Am I ashamed?" He hung his head clownishly. Ryan laughed. It rang in her ear like something brand new, like a shattered glass. It surprised her.
"Robard, don't you take anything seriously?"
"Sure. Money. How about you?"
"Money, no. Well, not really seriously. I do take relationships seriously."
"Aha! If that's the case, how do you explain your rampant infidelity?" Ryan bit her lip. Did she really want to go this far, this deeply with a man? This was something a woman should discuss with another woman.
"Who knows?" she said with mock gaiety. As she said it, she reconsidered. Why not discuss it with Robard? She wasn't the kind of lesbian who considered the male as the enemy. She liked men ... as friends.
"I suppose because there's something in the chemistry of our relationship that makes for it," she said honestly. Robard stopped grinning and nodded. Ryan was grateful that he was going to take things seriously for once. She needed a compassionate ear.
"What's it all about? Why?" asked Robard with seeming interest. She studied his face again before answering. Then she took a long sip of her drink.
"I don't know for sure. I'm exhausted now so anything I say could be sheer crap. I think it's because Dex asks for it. We've always agreed before that it was me. I was this narcissist, see. I needed attention, lots of girls fawning over me, lots of action on the side. That's how we always figured it out together. Now I wonder ... "
"So what do you think it is now?" said Robard, sipping his own drink and shuffling his feet briefly.
"I think Dex is a masochist and that she's always just begging to be deceived, wronged, so that she can feel like a martyr. That way she's always good. What do you think?"
"Possible. People do that all the time. So what are you going to do about it?" Ryan took a deep breath and averted her eyes. That was one question she was in no way ready to answer. She. sipped her drink, standing the silence and Robard's patience as long as she could.
"I don't know. I don't know," she blurted out hysterically. "If I knew that I ... "
"You what?" asked Robard, already suspecting the answer. If she knew why, she wouldn't be here with him. Ryan was confused. She had thrown herself on his doorstep out of confusion. It was an interesting situation for him, he had to admit.
Robard had known Dex and Ryan since he moved in. They had always gotten along, had drinks together occasionally, bitched about the building together. But lately Robard had noticed a strain. He suspected that Dex's jealousy had constructed some kind of secret liaison between Ryan and himself. She had noticed his appreciative eyes on her lover. It had been useless for him to hide the fact that he found Ryan extremely attractive. Now she was here at the brink of tears.
Robard smiled to himself. What would he do now? He could play the good guy and just talk. Or he could try and go further. He watched Ryan as she stared into her drink in between sips. She was fantastic, the kind of leggy beauty he loved. He could easily imagine her in bed, her body willowy and voluptuous at the same time, her passion like a she-cat.
"I suppose if I knew what I was going to do next, I'd do it. I told Dex I was going to find her girlfriend and wreck everything. I suppose I would like to find out who it is, but then ... " Ryan slumped in her seat.
"God, Robard, I'm exhausted." Suddenly all the wind had gone out of her sails.
"Why not try something new?" said Robard, feeling his way. Ryan perked up slightly, looking at him with interest.
"What?" Before she had gotten the word out of her mouth, she suspected his answer.
"Men, of course."
"Robard," she sighed, "I've made it with guys. It wouldn't be very new."
"Oh? I never knew that. I always thought you were a dyed-in-the-wool lez."
"Oh, bullshit. You never thought anything of the kind. Dex was right on that score. She knew that I'd had men and ... " She stopped in mid-sentence. She was getting herself suddenly in very deep. She had almost admitted that Dex had suspected rightly that she felt a certain attraction to Robard.
"Dex suspected that we were attracted to each other?" he said aggressively. Ryan blushed. She was already in hot water, she could see.
Ryan sighed and said, "Yes, I suppose she did." Robard beamed in victory.
"I knew it!"
"What did you know, for god sake?" said Ryan impatiently.
"That you liked me."
"Of course I like you. Why else would I be here?"
"Then it's true. You do want to go to bed with me." His brazen statement knocked the breath out of her. She started to laugh, then stopped.
"I don't think so. No, I like you, Robard. But I don't think that sex ... "
"Oh, come off it, Ryan. Sex isn't that complicated. I didn't ask you to marry me or bear my child. Shit, making love is a beautiful, easy thing between two people who dig each other. It doesn't have to be any more complicated than that."
Ryan watched Robard as he spoke. It was like the prey watching the lion. She was scared and fascinated. Especially fascinated as to how or when he would strike.
"Maybe not for you ... " she replied lamely.
"I'm sorry. I thought you were Little Miss Unfaithful. Not Old Faithful." For the second time in less than five minutes, Ryan felt herself blush hotly.
"No, I guess I'm not. I didn't mean to imply ... Rob, I don't know. I'm exhausted." Robard stood up. The ice cubes clinked in his glass.
"Then why not go into the bedroom and take a nap." Ryan looked at him suspiciously.
"Just like that? Sleep?" she replied sarcastically.
"If you want. Why not. You're tired, aren't you?" Robard shifted his weight from foot to foot. Ryan hesitated, then got up on her feet.
"Okay, it's a deal. And then who knows ... " she added. Yes, who knows, she said to herself as she headed off to Robard's bedroom.
CHAPTER FOUR
Robard moved his hand down her thigh. He couldn't even begin to remember how long it had been since he first desired Ryan, to feel every inch of her body. It had been years anyway. And now, incredibly, she was his.
"Gentle, Rob," said Ryan softly. He bent over and kissed her softly on the mouth. Instead of driving his tongue in between her teeth, letting his passion loose all at once, he controlled himself. He knew this was a shock for Ryan, sex with a man. His lips gently caressed her lips in a loving way designed to win her over. Ryan was a thoroughbred. She was not to be broken, but coaxed.
"Don't worry, Ry. There's nothing in the world I wouldn't do to make you happy right now. Nothing." He kissed her cheeks, first one, then the other. His fingers moved simultaneously over her excited, upturned breasts.
Ryan watched in fascination as this man's hand explored her. The strength of it, its broadness, the veins which supplied it with power, stood out in sharp contrast with her soft full flesh. She shivered in anticipation and partly in fear. It had been a long time since a man had had his hands on her, despite Dex's accusations in the past.
She had slept fitfully for about two hours and had woken up to find Robard lying next to her. He had been watching her sleep, but had done nothing else. She had gone to bed naked, willing to risk the kind of provocation she supposed that was for a man. But she was wrapped up in the covers, and these Robard had not disturbed. When she awoke, though, his body was spread out beside her naked.
Now the muscles of his body were alive. She put a hand on his side and felt the ripple of his muscle. A shock ran through her. She felt that point deep in her belly go soft: She wanted him. His body excited her. She followed the line of his hip down to his crotch. She sucked in her breath audibly. It was large, larger than she had expected or ever seen on a man. His cock was circumcised, and the large red head of it secreted a liquid out of the slit.
"Enjoying yourself?" he said, nuzzling her neck. Her eyes replied yes before she had time to speak. He took her hand from his side and moved it down to his crotch. "Then feel all of it," he added in a hoarse whisper. The feel of her long fingers on his cock made it stiffen up violently. A grunt of pleasure came out of her slender throat as she felt his excitement.
Robard moved his hand down to her pussy, stroking the soft hairs and fingering the swelling labia gently. Her hand gripped his cock hard as it jerked wildly. He stuck his tongue out and licked down the side of her neck. He wanted desperately to let loose, to have violent sex with her. He wanted her to do the same, to attack with all the hunger he felt was pent up in her.
"You're the first man, Rob, in such a long time. I'd forgotten what it was like," she said quietly, stroking his prick appreciatively.
"Then take it," he replied hoarsely. He knew he couldn't keep up his own self-control much longer. He wanted his mouth eating every part of her body. He wanted to feel her lips on his cock and then his cock in her cunt. "You've got me all worked up. I don't know if I can ... "
Ryan suddenly shifted herself down on the bed and licked over his chest. She took his hard man's nipple in her mouth and sucked it.
It was a signal. She wanted sex from him the way he wanted to make it. He grabbed the back of her head, running his fingers hungrily through her long hair. Her small teeth bit down on his nipple. He felt his cock rear up against her thigh.
"Suck my prick, Ry. Put it in your mouth and suck"
She grunted a reply and moved her head down his belly, her tongue licking his skin, slicking down the line of hair that went from his chest to his crotch.
As her tongue reached the beginning of his prick, he turned himself around so that he could lick down her smooth thighs: Her pussy was only a few inches from his mouth. He could feel the heat rising out of it. The sexy smell of it made his nostrils flare as he breathed her odor in deeply. The tip of her tongue slid under his cock and licked. His prick bucked wildly, straightening out to full length. Only five minutes ago he would never have dreamed that that sensual mouth would be sucking up his penis.
He had always heard the story that if you could get a lesbian interested in making it with you, that it was the wildest sex imaginable. Women like that were not used to just lying back and taking it. They wanted a body. They wanted it in their mouth, in their cunts, everywhere.
"Ry, you're fabulous," he muttered under his breath. He half wanted to have her hear it and half not. It embarrassed him slightly to be so in awe of a woman. But he had wanted her all this time, and now here she was in bed with him. There was good reason to feel this kind of wonder and elation. It was like the triumph of winning a long race.
Her mouth sucked his cock into her throat. This was her reply. Suddenly she felt she had to do everything, give him everything. His cock moved by itself in her mouth, flexing as she sucked it up and down.
In seconds Robard's mouth was on her crotch. His tongue darted over the widening gash opening to let him inside her vulva. With his lips and tongue he explored the outside of her cunt, feeling for the nub of flesh that was the key to really turning her on. He found her clit still nestled in the hood of flesh and tickled it with the tip of his tongue. It stiffened immediately, and he took it gently between his teeth and tugged on it. He heard a gasp come out of her throat and then she went wild on his cock, sucking it deep down into her throat. Her fingers played over his hairy balls, feeling their weight.
Ryan pulled her mouth off his prick suddenly. It jerked in the cool air. She watched it bobbing, staring at the slick wetness of it from her saliva mixed with his pre-cum. It was a few inches from her nose. What would it feel like to have it fucking into her cunt, she thought. At that instant she felt his tongue lunge into her. A small cry escaped from her as the tongue plunged inside her, churning around. It was as if Robard were reading her mind and answering.
She pulled his cock to one side and licked over his balls. They moved under her tongue as she laved them over, wetting the hairs down to the large globes. She wanted them in her mouth, and she wondered if he would like that. Maybe he would be afraid she was going after him, trying to castrate him. He must have all kinds of funny Ideas about lesbians, she thought. But her desire took over from her doubts. First one, then the other globe slipped into her mouth. She held them there, pulling on the skin gently, rolling his balls around on her tongue.
His fucking tongue started to hit places inside her that were going to drive her out of control. She slipped his balls out of her mouth. She was afraid she might hurt him in the madness which was ready to sweep over her.
She clutched his cock in her hand and shoved it in her mouth. The thickness of it hardened like steel between her lips. He started to grind his hips slightly, shoving his cock in and out of her mouth as he sucked violently on her cunt.
Under his tonguing and sucking her pussy was beginning to open wide, to flush with juice. He clutched her ass and shoved her cunt harder against his mouth. It wasn't enough. He wanted to lick deep inside her, eat every bit of that swollen hot flesh. He licked roughly over the slippery lips of her cunt.
Robard spread her thighs as wide as he could and licked up and down her crack. He followed the fuzzy line of pussy hair back behind her cunt and into the crevice of her ass. He parted her two full cheeks and gazed at her puckered asshole. He wanted that too.
Without thinking about what her reaction would be he licked down into her ass, then shoved the tip of his tongue against the hole. Her body tensed in surprise as his tongue began to invade her asshole. Then she spread her thighs wider so that he could get into her.
He fucked his cock into her throat as his tongue shoved up her ass. She grabbed hold of his butt, her nails dug into the hard muscle and she gulped up his cock.
In and out his tongue went in her ass until he wanted her cunt again. He moved his head out from between her thighs and sucked up her pussy. The pink gash was now red. The cunt lips were slick with dripping juice. He ate her cunt for a while, smearing her pre-cum all over his mouth and chin as he sucked, then he pulled his mouth away and caught his breath.
"Do you want me to fuck you, Ry?" His voice was hoarse. He pulled his head up so that he could see her face. Her mouth still held his stiff prick in her lips.
Dreamily, her eyes half shut, she let his cock pull out of her mouth. She lolled her head to one side and opened her eyes.
"Fuck me, yes, I want you to fuck me. But shit ... " A look of confusion spread over her face: "I'm not on the pill or anything. I don't even know what time of the month it is for me. Rob, I don't want to get pregnant."
He couldn't control himself. Robard started to laugh. It was infectious. In seconds they were both laughing.
"Well, I never needed to," Ryan protested, as she caught her breath."
I suppose you've got a natural birth control system working," he replied, wiping the tears from his eyes. It was all so silly all of a sudden. He looked down and saw his cock all limp. "Look what it's done to my prick, your goddamn birth control"
"Oh, I'll take care of that," she cooed. "I've learned a lot in the last few minutes" she added letting her tongue stick out and lick over her lips. Then she burst out laughing again. "What kind of a whore do you think I'd make? Dex always said I was one anyway."
"Damn good one ... " He nuzzled back down between her thighs. A sniff of her rich, velvety cunt and his cock was stiffening again. The sudden power of his erection stopped the laughter between them immediately. Ryan licked the head of the erect rod. It bobbed and oozed. She licked the bubble of pre-cum into her mouth, tasting its saltiness.
Robard in return licked into her cunt, parting the fat labia and drinking in her juices. They both wanted to taste each other, eat each other now.
Robard pulled away from Ryan and flipped his body around. The cock in her mouth was replaced by his tongue as they kissed wildly, flailing their tongues together in the wet recesses of their sucking mouths.
Robard pulled off and said, "I'll come on your belly, I promise." She nodded, trusting him. A wild thought leaped into his head at that very moment. He could fuck her in the ass. That way he would have the full pleasure of coming inside her. He almost opened his mouth to pose the question to her. Suddenly his better judgment took over.
Ryan had been so passionate, so free with him, he bad forgotten that she preferred women. What was happening between them was an exception, a crazy aberration for her. If he didn't want her to hate him tomorrow, he'd better go easy with her today. He shut his mouth tight and put the fantasy out of his mind.
Instead, he caressed the fullness of her soft ass. She spread her legs slowly, opening herself up to him. Her long white fingers groped down for this cock. Finding the rod stiff and ready, an involuntary groan of pleasure crept out of her throat. She wanted him and she wanted him inside her. That's all that counted now, he thought to himself.
He moved up over her, straddling her chest with his thighs. The full globes of her breasts rested against her rib cage. Her nipples were red and excited. He cupped her breasts in his hands and pressed them together. Then he moved up a little further and lowered himself down on her. His balls brushed her belly as he stuck his' cock in between her tits. The pre-cum and saliva had slicked it down so that it slipped easily in and out between the soft flesh. He closed his eyes and shuddered. It felt so good shoving his dick in between those hot tits.
He pulled his cock out and bent down to take one of her nipples in his mouth. He sucked and tugged on it violently. A small cry sprang from her throat as she began to writhe under his sexual attack.
"Fuck me, fuck me, Rob," she cried out hoarsely. This was all he needed to hear.
He moved down, spread her thighs wider and rubbed the tip of his prick against her cunt lips, wetting it all down in her juice. Then he placed it carefully at the opening and eased it inside her. Her eyes opened wide 'as his prick parted the folds of flesh and plunged into her.
She had thought it might hurt. Instead, it seemed to fill her up inch by inch until she knew she could hold no more. She squeezed her cunt muscles down around his prick. The cock reared in response. A sigh came out of her throat.
Slowly he pulled his cock out and plunged it in full length. A gasp came out of her as he repeated it and then began fucking her steadily. A few minutes of fucking, and Ryan was slamming her crotch up to meet him as he plunged in. He could feel his balls whacking gently against the soft globes of her ass as he fucked.
They built up speed. Sweat trickled off them. The sweat from his hairy chest dripped onto her full pointed breasts, making them glisten as he watched and fucked. His eyes soaked up her body. Her lids were shut down tightly on her eyes. She was concentrating everything in her on her cunt.
Ryan opened her eyes for a minute and took in the sweating male animal plunging his cock into her. For a split second she wondered what she was doing with herself, then the pleasure took over. The thrusts of his cock in her sent successive shivers up her spine which built up into a steady roar. He was urging her to the peak. She grabbed onto his broad back and sent her hips up again to meet his fucking.
He plunged in and out of her, gritting his teeth, trying to think of something else to keep from shooting inside her cunt. Suddenly she yelped, and he could feel her cunt grab hold of his cock and shiver in spasms. Ryan groaned loudly as she came. Her head reared back violently as she shuddered over the climax.
Robard couldn't control himself any longer. Even though she was still riding out the last spasms of her orgasm, he couldn't keep his prick inside her without coming. He whipped it out quickly and jutted his crotch forward. His balls pulled up tight to his rod as the first jerk sent his cum spurting out the slit onto her breasts.
Ryan moaned as the splatter of his hot cum rained down on her. She opened her eyes and watched his cock jerk and spurt out the sperm onto her skin. Her orgasm was subsiding into afterglow as his prick spurted one last jet of cum onto her belly.
Robard rolled over, exhausted, onto his side.
"Oh, Ry. I don't believe it, but it was fantastic. I don't think I've been so excited since I was a kid." He was breathing heavily, waiting to catch his breath and for his heart to begin to beat at a normal rate.
Ryan lay silent for a while, not knowing how to reply to what he had said. It had been good for her, a surprise, a pleasant one. But now she wondered why. She liked Robard, she admired his body, and appreciated the power of his maleness to excite her. But it was somehow not real. She needed a woman. And now, she thought to herself, she didn't have one.
What was it that brought gay people down to the Village, year after year, lured from all parts of the world? Dex couldn't find the words, but she could feel the undercurrent of magnetic force. Though the streets were quiet, the few strollers that she saw seemed alive in a special way. And curious. Curious to see behind the deadpan mask of her face.
Ordinarily, she would have responded with her own answering curiosity. But not tonight. She walked with a tight spring in her step, going west, toward the gathering places. The small eateries where girls sat at counters and waited for time to pass until it was late enough for action in the bars.
Dex peered in through window panes, hoping that she might find Morton. By some off-chance of luck, she might run into Morton and clue the girl in about Ryan's expected rampage.
Besides, there was nothing else to do. The prospect of sitting at a bar and waiting for the inevitable made Dex shudder. She had to do something active, no matter how futile it seemed.
She walked for an hour, circling widely and sauntering down the crooked, out-of-the-way 'streets. Then, out of desperation, she went to Morton's house.
It was against all the rules of order to visit Morton uninvited. The first time Dex had done so was the last. She could still hear the shrill voice of Morton's temper ringing in her head. Morton didn't like anyone to know the name or face of her current lover. Her home was her turf ... Only Morton herself could prowl there.
Dex stood at the curb's edge and looked up along the zigzag line of fire escape to Morton's kitchen window which faced front on Thompson Street. Dex saw that the light in the kitchen was on.
But as she stood there preparing to take her life in her hands and go ring the bell, the light went off.
Dex smiled to herself at the happy coincidence. Fortune was favoring the brave. She flicked her glance from the window to the lobby entrance and stood there, in direct line, waiting for Morton to appear.
Dex saw Morton coming out alone.
Dressed in a cotton bush jacket belted tightly over faded jeans, Morton looked rich with mystery. She carried a large Aussie hat and began fitting it at a rakish angle as she reached the street.
The hat had never fooled Dex into believing that Morton was the supreme authority on the art of seduction. Yet she had to admit that Morton had a certain handsome charm. Tonight she carried a long-stemmed, artificial daisy. Dex knew that she was going to make a present of it to some unsuspecting girl. Probably, it was to be a peace offering.
"Hey there, Mort," Dex called and caught up with her as Morton turned down the block.
"Look who's here." Morton's grin beneath the wide-brimmed hat was like a pussycat lurking in the shadows.
The smile gave something away and put Dex on guard. Though she couldn't say why, Dex did not immediately blurt out the reason for her presence.
"Had dinner yet?" Dex asked, keeping in step with the clomp of Morton's boots.
"Just going for some. What're you doing out on a Sunday night?" She put the flower up beneath Dex's nose. "Looking for action?"
Dex winked back into the dark, searching eyes. Her personal troubles seemed stuck in a lump in her throat.
"No," she said. "Looking for friends. Old friends."
"Well, that's me," Morton said. "I guess you've been looking for me, huh?"
Dex sensed the undercurrent of laughter waiting beneath the seemingly innocent question. Morton might be far out but, obviously, she was nobody's fool. If Ryan had called her and spilled the beans, there was no sense in playing dumb and waiting for Morton to make the opening gambit.
"That's right, I'm looking for you," Dex said casually.
"What for?"
"I thought Ryan might be keeping you company."
"Where?" Morton replied sharply. "In my apartment? No dice, kiddo. I'm not swinging with your chick, if that's what you think."
Morton eyes flashed anger. She walked with a harder thrust of her heels to the pavement.
Dex looked at her curiously, unable to account for Morton's over-reaction.
"I didn't mean anything like that," Dex responded, mildly. "Now, you know what's going on. Why don't you give me a hand?"
Morton yanked at the brim of her hat. "I'm through mingling into people's affairs."
None of this was the reaction Dex had expected. Usually, Morton was the sympathetic and interested listener. It had been the secret of her popularity. This sudden, curt attitude put Dex off. And she had no patience to argue, no patience to be distracted from her own particular troubles of the moment.
"I guess I'll see you around then," Dex said abruptly, and started to walk off.
"Hey, wait a minute."
Morton grabbed Dex by the elbow. Dex clamped her teeth together. Summer was coming on, and the new, mild weather was driving everybody bats. That was the only way she could account for Morton's strange behavior ... and her own.
"I'll tell you this much," Morton began, her tone conciliatory. "Ryan isn't the kind of woman to be fooled around with. I don't think I like what you're doing, Dex. After all, you were the faithful one. All these years, when it came to talking about stability, We always pointed at you. Now what are you doing?"
Dex shook her head. "I don't know, Mort. Maybe if you lived with a woman for thousands of years and suddenly something fresh and different came into your life ... "
"Sure. Maybe. But Gena?"
Dex flung a fiery scowl into the depths of Morton's exasperated question. "Why do you say it that way?"
Morton tugged at her hat brim self-consciously. "Oh come off it, kid."
"Come off what?"
Morton exhaled a profound sigh. "You must know about Gena."
"I don't know any damned thing."
Morton bit down on her lip. She grabbed Dex's arm to stop her from crossing the street into a stream of traffic.
"It always happens to me. I always get stuck with having to spill the dirty beans. That's why I'm giving people up. For good."
"Stop blithering at me and talk," Dex demanded, her words clipped.
They reached the far side of the avenue. Morton paused at the entrance to a tiny bagel-specialty restaurant.
"That's what I want tonight-lox," Morton said.
Dex stopped dead in front of the restaurant window.
"You're not changing the subject."
Morton lifted her shoulders. "You want me to talk about your private life in there, where everybody can hear us?"
"Then tell me out here."
"I'm too hungry to think straight."
"That sounds like Gena's ploy."
Morton's lips twisted into a crooked smile. "Well, she could have gotten it from me."
Instantly, Dex knew what Morton Was implying. And, for no reason Dex could describe, there seemed something desperately filthy in the notion of Gena sleeping with Morton.
"Don't tell me you thought she was a virgin?" Morton chuckled and strode past Dex into the restaurant.
Dex came in after her. She knew she could rip the arms out of Morton's body. But she had to control her temper. She slid into the seat against the wall, squeezing in beside Morton who had chosen the most crowded corner:
Before Dex could resume their talk, Morton started a conversation with two girls sitting at the counter. Dex subsided, pushing her energy back down into her chest. She felt tight and hard. It couldn't be possible that Gena was playing her for a sucker. What had Gena to gain by it?
She ordered a vanilla malted and sipped it slowly while Morton took her time socializing with the other girls until they had finished their sandwiches and gone.
"I'll tell you what," Morton said. "Since you're so hard up against the wall, why don't you go on up to Gena's place and keep her home while Ryan is out looking for her tonight? Wouldn't that solve your problem nicely?" Morton winked. "Kill two birds and so forth?"
There was something condescending in her manner. Dex felt the gorge rising as she watched Morton scribble out Gena's address and phone number on a bit of napkin. What bothered Dex along with everything else, was that everybody seemed to take it for granted that she didn't know how to get in touch with Gena for herself.
She shoved the paper into the pocket.
But Dex didn't get up right away. An odd feeling drifted through her that Morton was only too glad to be getting her out of the way tonight.
On instinctive impulse, Dex said, "When you spoke with Ryan today, didn't she say anything about coming downtown?"
"Sure." Morton chewed on a chunk of bagel. "I bet she's floating around the Village someplace right now."
"Didn't she say she wanted to see you and cry on your shoulder?"
"Nope," Morton answered casually.
"So what did she phone you for?"
Morton shook her head. "Come on, don't pump me, Dex. I'm being good enough to you as it is."
Dex clenched a fist beneath the table. She knew she could haul off and bang Morton in the teeth if it would do any good. But it wouldn't. Couldn't. She had never seen this side of Morton so clearly in all the years they had known each other. Strange how the layers peeled off all at once, revealing the rotted bones underneath.
Yet even though Morton revolted her, it was Morton who knew the important details. She might not want to share them, but she knew: And that gave Morton a peculiar advantage concerning Ryan.
The straw, as Dex sucked at it, began to make slurping noises at the bottom of the glass. She looked down into the flattening froth along the sides of the glass and thought about Ryan flying around the Village like a mad one, looking for Gena.
Originally, Dex had hoped that Morton would keep Ryan company. Ease the pressure of Ryan's unhappiness. Now she felt that she didn't want Ryan near Morton at all.
Dex put a dollar bill on the small table and worked her way out from behind it.
"Going somewhere?" Morton said with a mock innocence.
Dex didn't bother to answer.
She turned and walked out of the restaurant, glad to be getting away from the sight, sound and smell of a viper.
Alone once more with her thoughts, Dex could feel herself digging deeper into a complicated mess of human involvements.
Unconsciously, she looked up and down the street, hoping that she might bump into Ryan and see for herself that Ryan was all right.
Yet the thought of Ryan brought on counter thoughts of Gena. And the two slips of paper seemed to be burning a hole right through her pocket and into the flesh.
What was it that prevented her from phoning Gena? What was it that prevented her from taking any really effective action?
It was the dreaming that caused most of the pain, Dex knew. If she could get her fingers in to the tangible flesh of reality, most of what ailed her would subside.
Certain that she was giving herself good advice, Dex went into a phone booth and dialed Gena's number, intending to tell the girl that she was coming up to see her tonight, regardless ...
She waited with the phone pressed hard to her ear while it rang and rang.
Finally, the receiver clicked up from the cradle.
"Hello?" said a voice.
It was a familiar voice with a familiarly cool lilt.
"Hello, Ryan," Dex said. "Are you enjoying yourself?"
CHAPTER FIVE
The telephone slammed down in her ear.
Dex held the receiver out and stared at the ear piece without seeing it. As the phone trembled in her hand, she imagined the expression on Ryan's face. Her nose would be wrinkled up a little, her eyes would be blazing fire and brimstone, her mouth would be cruel, all for a split second. Then it would collapse. Her chin would begin to tremble, tears would well up in her eyes and she would turn away. Ryan was not much of a fighter.
Then she imagined Gena, her cocky ways, and her delight at being the odd end of a triangle.
The thought of Gena's glee made the blood pound in her temples. The scaredy cat, the tearful expression she had glimpsed from the cab which in the end meant revenge, it was all there. It would make her enjoyment of the situation just perfect, thought Dex. Dex slapped the phone back into place and slumped for a moment against one wall of the booth. Already the situation had gotten way out of bounds. There would be no controlling Gena now. Gena was feeling a taste of power. And Dex knew that it was Gena's cup of tea.
She eased out of the phone booth, urged on by a hand of fate which seemed to be pushing her headlong into disaster. She had been unable to avoid the confrontation between Ryan and Gena. Now she would have to go there and face them both squarely. With Ryan on one side and Gena on the other, Dex felt as though she were being caught in a vise.
Three in a bed and you're dead.
But that's how it was going to wind up, Dex knew. If she herself didn't force the issue, she knew that Gena would.
Jerkily, Dex kept glancing around for a cab. All of her was wound up into tight springs. Coiled and ready for action, she could barely live through time and space until she reached Gena's apartment.
In the taxi, she sat forward on the edge of the seat and played with the heavy gold ring on her small finger. Suddenly, she remembered the moment when Ryan had bought her that ring. Vacation on Cape Cod. Just the two of them. Alone. Before Ryan had started playing around ... Before she needed to.
Dex thrust away thoughts of Ryan. This was no time to rehash past mistakes.
Yet she sensed that Gena was probably making Ryan jump through hoops. She could almost hear Gena describing the sexy affair. Gena would know how to make the most of her advantage.
"I'm Dex's roommate," said Ryan coolly. Gena stood with the door open, staring at the beautiful girl in front of her.
"Well, come in. Any friend of ... " Gena knew enough to stop short from uttering the full clich�. It would have been as stupid as saying that Dex was her latest one-night stand. So this was the big bad wolf, she thought to herself, eyeing Ryan up and down. The long willowy legs, long hair, sharp eyes, beautiful cheekbones-this was indeed something very special.
Ryan sauntered slowly into the apartment. She wasn't exactly sure what she was going to do or say next. It seemed imperative that she confront the girl.
She had left Robard feeling slightly foolish at having slept with him, yet at the same time glad I that the tension had come to a head and that she had satisfied him. She was not a man-hater. That was more Dex's territory. But no man could satisfy her, especially not at this crisis in her life. She had needed a woman. She had called Morton.
"You must have seen her leave last night," she had pressed. There had been a long silence on the end of the phone, then Morton had answered.
"Well, I guess I did. So what."
"Then tell me who it was. I've got to know."
"That's a switch," said Morton cattily.
"It might be a switch, but it's real. Something's happened ... "
"Oh, I know what's happened. You've been shaken out of your tree, honey child. And mother's not there to lick your wounds."
"Oh, shit, Morton, just tell me who it was. This is no time for sermons. I've got to get to her."
"But whatever for?" Morton had replied. And, in fact, she did not know why. Except perhaps there was that vague feeling inside her that if she managed to seduce the girl, whoever she was, that it would break the spell she held over Dex. And then, too, she had to admit she was curious, even sexually interested in seeing what this girl looked like.
Finally Morton had given her a name, an address and a phone number. And there she was. The girl was very attractive in a spiritedly, childish way. Her curly blonde hair and firm figure was an eye-catcher, Ryan had to admit. But she just didn't seem the type that Dex would normally fall for. So why had she?
"My name is Ryan."
"Oh, I know. Morton already called me. She ... warned me you were coming. Are you planning to scratch my eyes out?"
The boldness of Gena's confrontation startled her. She hadn't prepared herself for this.
"Why, no, why should I?"
"Because I'm a threat. I guess I am a threat or why else would you bother to be here."
The two of them stood facing each other. Two sensual females, full-breasted, hot animals, held at bay by the circumstances.
"You're really beautiful. I don't see why ... " continued Gena.
"Because you're fresh and new. I'm a known quantity."
"But she was so afraid of having us meet. I don't know why you're concerned." Ryan's eyebrows arched in surprise.
"What do you mean?" asked Ryan. She felt stupid asking this kid questions of such momentum.
"Just that I don't think you have anything to worry about on that score. Dex is obviously in love with you."
"But she's fascinated by you," Ryan blurted out. She bit her tongue afterward. She was no good at these kinds of games. She had just thrown all her cards down on the table before even playing a hand.
Gena perked up. She sashayed her ass slightly as she moved across the room. She had not even dreamed she had had that effect on Dex. How had it happened? she wondered. When Dex had put her in that cab, she'd figured it was all over. Now Ryan was confronting her with a brand-new situation she had never dreamed would have existed.
Ryan noticed the pert rump move across the room. She bit her lower lip for the second time in five minutes. This kid had gotten every ounce of meaning out of her last stupid sentence. She now understood everything. She knew her power. That was what the flick of the ass was telling her.
"Oh, I can't believe that," drawled Gena. She turned herself around to face Ryan, almost making a pirouette. Ryan noticed her breasts for the first time. She was naked under her tight jersey. The nipples poked through the thin cloth as if ready to jump out and be loved.
"Well ... it's true to some extent," replied Ryan, gathering her wits about her. She had to be careful with Gena. She had to calm down and take control of herself. "How old are you, Gena?" she asked suddenly trying to get a grip on the situation.
"Oh, shit, really ... " replied the girl. A smirk crossed her face. "You aren't really serious, asking me that. Are you going to tell me I'm too young to be a home-wrecker?"
"No, I wasn't," replied Ryan, getting her usual poise together. "What I was going to say was that Dex and I have been through a lot together. That years mean something. And that you haven't even begun. Otherwise you wouldn't be so callous." Ryan marked the end of her statement with a smirk of success. Gena only smiled.
"Some people know a Jot when they're young. Some are stupid when they're old. What's the difference?"
"The difference is time, Gena," she said, pausing at the fact that she had finally addressed the girl by name. "Dex and I are linked by time."
"Time can be a bore. Let's talk about something else. Let's talk about you. You're so beautiful. Are you an actress?" Ryan was taken aback by the switch.
She hesitated, then blurted out, "Yes I am. So what does ... "
"You look like one. Anyone would know. Men must follow you in the streets all the time, come up to you at bus stops, never stop giving you the eye." Ryan blushed. She thought of Robard. All that attention, all that sex from him had been just like that.
"Sometimes," she admitted.
"Do you like men? I mean, do you like them at all? Have you ever made it with one?" Gena kept on prodding. Ryan sucked her breath in sharply between her teeth.
"I'm not a virgin, if that's what you mean. How about you?"
"Never. I wouldn't let a man put a hand near me. They disgust me." The violence of her reply stopped the conversation short. Ryan looked at the girl in amazement.
"Well, they are the other half of the population. Don't you think you're being a bit extreme?"
"Nope," replied Gena, sitting down on the living room couch. "Why don't you sit down, Ryan?" Ryan didn't know whether to do what she said or not. She didn't want to seem to be obeying the kid, but it would be stupid to simply remain standing while she sat and looked her over. Ryan came over and sat down on the couch as well.
"That's cozy," smirked Gena. "Don't you agree that it's much nicer, women being together like this, just like we are now? I don't know, it's just much more comfortable."
"Don't you ever do anything that's not comfortable?" asked Ryan slowly, feeling like a school marm.
"Never. Not if I can help it," she replied brightly. "You know what?"
"What?" replied Ryan, once again taken off guard immediately.
"I'd like to make love to you." Ryan's mouth almost dropped open. She couldn't believe the directness, the utter boldness of this kid.
"You must be crazy. Are you for real?" she blurted out in response.
"Why, don't you like the way I look? Most women think I'm pretty sexy. Dex certainly did." Involuntarily, Ryan found herself looking Gena over, admiring her firm, pointed breasts and her tight hips and full mouth.
"Of course you're attractive. You know that well enough. That doesn't mean that I'm going to jump into bed with you."
"Oh," replied Gena, assuming a pout. "I thought from what Morton said that you did a lot of that."
"A lot ... a lot of what?" Ryan stammered.
"Oh, sleeping around, sleeping with girls you think are attractive. You haven't answered whether you think I'm attractive."
"Goddamn it, yes, you're attractive. You know that well enough." Her voice rose in anger. Why the hell had she come here? What did she think she would ever accomplish?
"What I know or don't know doesn't matter shit. It's what you think that matters."
"Oh, come off it, girl. I can't believe that." Ryan's face drew itself into a mask of scorn. It was all getting too silly.
"But it's true. It does matter. I wish you didn't hate me so much," she said, turning her eyes away.
"I don't hate you, Gena." Again she had said the girl's name. It could only spell disaster. This kid could twist her around her little finger and it would feel good. Saying her name again like that could only make matters worse. Was she really reacting, really starting to feel something for this bratty kid?
"Oh, I think you do. You certainly hated me when you arrived. I think you came here to do something like hit me, kick me. After all, I'm a threat."
Ryan paused and started laughing. She could not believe the turn of the conversation. Already the girl had managed to put herself up as the martyr and Ryan as the sadist, out to harm poor innocence.
"There's not a violent bone in my body. I just wanted to see what you looked like, that's all." And this was the best truth Ryan could give.
"So do you like it or hate it?"
"What?"
"What you see." Gena turned her face full towards her. Her eyes were large and seemed so open and guileless. Ryan let her dead drop slightly so she would not have to look into that piercing stare.
"You're an attractive girl, I've told you that already."
"Yes, but do you like me?"
"I don't know. I don't even know you. It's absurd. How could I know now whether I like you or not."
"But you've already made up your mind. I'm sure of it. Everybody does right off. You're no exception."
Ryan turned away again, trying to hide a smile creeping over her face despite everything. She twisted her head back quickly, facing Gena. Her face was wreathed in a smile.
"Oh, Gena, of course I like you. You're such a silly little kid. Nobody could hate you." Gena tilted her head downward slightly, averting her eyes.
"People have, you know."
Ryan wanted to laugh out loud. Gena was going too far, playing the poor orphan beaten by the big bad world. Furthermore, Ryan couldn't believe a word she said. Gena was spoiled. It was obvious that she had always gotten her way.
Gena laid her hand on Ryan's thigh.
"For instance," continued Gena, "I never thought that Dex cared anything for me, really. I'm shocked, honest. I thought I was a piece of trash to her. You know when she knew you'd come home, she just threw me into a cab." Ryan showed her surprise, despite herself. "And when she did that, I really did feel like trash. I cried. You can even ask her. She saw it. I know she did even though she pretended not to."
Ryan sat there in total confusion. It would have been just like Dex to have a sudden pang of remorse and treat the kid in that way. Dex was such a romantic, such a Puritan at heart.
"Well, I'm sorry if Dex hurt you. I don't think she meant to," Ryan replied softly. Gena moved her hand over Ryan's thigh. Then she bent over and rested her head on her shoulder. Ryan could think of nothing to do but pat the girl softly on the head. She didn't know whether Gena was going to burst into tears or what.
"There's nothing so serious about that."
"You think it's serious, Ryan. You wouldn't have come to get a look at the little whore Dex made it with, if you didn't." Ryan caught herself. She was going to blurt out, no, you're nothing of the kind ... but it would have been a lie. That's exactly why she had come. To call the girl a whore, a piece of trash.
"So I've changed my mind." She gave Gena a fresh appraisal. She was very attractive. Her curly blonde hair was fabulous. She wanted to run her hand through it.
All of a sudden everything changed. It was as if a drug had escaped into the air of the apartment and they were stoned.
Gena moved her hand up Ryan's thigh and pressed it into her crotch. The touch of a woman, after that of Robard, electrified her. It was perhaps what she had really wanted after all, when she had left his place. She had needed a contrast, a reminder of the feel of a woman. And now Gena, of all people, was providing that.
As if in a dream the two woman undressed quietly. The first sight of Gena's bare breasts sent a shiver up Ryan's spine. Her breasts were lovely. She wanted to clasp them, knead them in her hand. She reached out and touched the nipple of one of them, feeling it stiffen under her finger tips.
A sigh exploded from Ryan's throat as Gena suddenly went down on her knees and licked her long tongue over her crotch. The boldness of this young animal now excited her totally. So this was what had mesmerized Dex. She understood everything now as the pink tongue licked in between her fast-swelling labia.
In no time Gena had found her clitoris and had coaxed it out of the hood of flesh. She pulled on it with her lips, then with her teeth. She sucked on it just as Ryan had sucked on Robard's stiff cock.
Ryan felt almost sick with pleasure as the young mouth played its tricks on her. It was suddenly too much, too soon. Only hours ago a man had done the same thing to her. She felt she must be mad.
Visions of Robard's stiff cock ramming down her throat filled her head as Gena sucked her cunt. The fantasy aroused her further and sickened her at the same time.
Suddenly she knew she had to have a woman's cunt in her mouth. She craved the odor the taste everything about it. Somehow it would cleanse he; of this whole nightmare.
Then the phone rang.
"It's Dex," said Gena immediately.
"How do you know? You didn't plan to see her tonight or something?"
"No, no, nothing like that. But I'm sure it is. I didn't even give her my number. She never asked, incidentally. But I know she must have gotten it from Morton. Prove it. You answer the phone."
Ryan hesitated. If it was Dex on the line she wasn't sure she wanted to hear her voice. "I don't want to," she blurted out, then caught herself. She sounded like a whining infant. Gena grinned at her. "I'll answer it. It couldn't be," said Ryan, moving toward the telephone.
Picking up the line, hearing Dex's voice, she was speechless. She held the phone to her ear as if in slow motion, then quickly hung up.
During the short time Ryan had been on the phone, Gena had disappeared into the other room. Now she returned, grinning cockily.
"It was her, wasn't it?" She knew the answer before even asking it, of course. "So what did you say?"
"I hung up," replied Ryan with a blank expression.
"That wasn't very nice. Oh well, I'm sure you have your reasons." The sound of Gena's voice echoed in her head. Reasons? Just what were they, after all? Ryan went over and sat down naked on the couch. She buried her head in her hands, trying to get a grip on things. Suddenly she didn't care if Gena saw her in so vulnerable a position. It didn't matter.
Ryan heard Gena's bare feet patter across the room, then felt her breath on her leg.
"Let me make love to you. That's what really matters now."
Ryan felt the small mouth nuzzle the tender flesh of her inner thigh. She shook her head violently, as if trying to shake out the confusion.
"You're right, Gena. You're absolutely right."
In minutes the two women were down on the floor, kissing each other's bodies. Ryan was seized again with the desire to taste Gena's cunt. In seconds she had licked down the girl's thighs, sending her moaning as her mouth clamped down her damp pussy. She pushed her tongue between the swelling labia, eager for the taste of the girl's juices.
She was not disappointed. As her tongue flicked over Gena's clitoris, a gush of pre-cum seeped out of the hollow of her vulva and rushed into her mouth. Ryan moaned loudly as she licked it up and savored it. The odor, the slickness of it, the taste, everything was making her drunk.
She felt Gena's cunt beginning to shudder as the muscles of her vulva contracted against the invading tongue.
"Lick me, oh, lick me," Gena began moaning loudly. The words sent Ryan slurping and sucking like a maniac. She wanted to make the girl come right now. She wanted to feel the spasms, the shudder of her body as she peaked.
Gena continued moaning. She put her hands on top of Ryan's head and pushed it down. Ryan felt she would smother as her face was jammed between the girl's sweating thighs.
Gena began bucking, riding her prodding tongue. Ryan grabbed her underneath, cupping the two cheeks of her round ass in her hands. She shoved the girl's cunt up at a different angle so that she could lick deeper insider her and suck on her labia at the same time.
Gena suddenly came alive. Her moans became shrill as her cunt writhed against Ryan's mouth and suddenly her whole body quivered.
"Oh, Ryan," she gasped, "I'm coming. I'm coming." With that, Ryan's tongue and mouth were overwhelmed in a gush of juice and contractions. Gena peaked quickly, shuddering into climax and then rested her ass back down on Ryan's hands. She lay exhausted. Ryan caught her breath.
"That was something else ... " muttered Ryan. She pulled her hands out from between the girl's ass and the floor. She wiped her mouth and chin with the back of one of them. Her eyes were watering.
"Did you like me, Ryan? I loved you. Ryan," Gena added, sitting up. She threw her arms around the exhausted woman. "You're so beautiful."
Gena began kissing her all over. First her neck, then Ryan's shoulders and her breasts. There she stopped for a while, nibbling at the excited, distended nipples, sucking them hard. Then she continued, kissing her shoulders, then she went back to her neck and chin. When Gena reached her mouth, she drove her tongue inside it and kissed hotly.
Ryan shut her eyes and enjoyed the prodding young tongue. She felt a burning in her loins. If the girl kept this up, she would have to come, too, and somehow she didn't want to. She was tired of sex. Sex and all the mayhem it seemed to bring with it.
"Let's get up off the floor at least," said Ryan pulling her mouth off Gena's ...
Dex pushed herself back against the seat of the cab and wondered where Gena learned to have so much nerve. Was it the sheer bounciness of her youth? Or was she a born troublemaker? Dex shook her head as recollections of Gena swarmed around her head.
"We're here," she called to the driver as her gaze caught sight of the house number.
Dex paid and flew out of the taxi. She took the stoop steps of the brownstone two at a time. A rubber ball whizzed past her ear, zigzag from the side wall. She caught it, turned and flung the ball out to the boys in the street.
Then she started up the staircase at a run in an effort to use up some of her rage before reaching the two women.
At the top floor, she felt alive with the pounding, driving force inside her ribs. She glanced down the dim hall and saw that one door stood ajar.
A grin came to her face. Gena was waiting for her to appear. She had even opened the door for her after she had called. Gena had anticipated her.
No one had time or inclination for the ceremonial behavior of civilized adults. No one had the need to preserve the semblance of pride. Dex pushed the door wider and walked in, bracing herself to find anything, see anything that the woman might have concocted for her added displeasure.
And Dex saw that she was not wrong.
They stood in the small living room, both of them naked and lovely and close to each other. They stood with their backs to her so that Dex could see the round firmness of their high behinds.
Dex swallowed hard as she realized that they had banded together. They intended to outsmart her. Get her in some way. If they had argued, if they had fought over her, they were managing to conceal their competitive spirit. Ryan and Gena might hate each other. But they hated her more, she was sure of it. And, obviously, they were out for blood.
Dex had shut the door and locked it with unconscious desire for no further interruptions. She had come here to make peace, somehow. And she had come here to seduce Gena once and for all.
"Hi, fellas," Dex said. "Anybody got a drink for me?"
Instantly, Dex knew she had started off on the wrong foot She saw Ryan lift one arm and slide it around Gena's shoulder.
Dex realized that Ryan's hand, unseen, was reaching downward to cup one of Gena's breasts. Ryan was no slacker after all. And she was accustomed to sleeping with strange women. The habit had given her a head start.
Gena turned slightly. But she turned inward so that her body brushed along Ryan's. Shorter than Ryan by many inches, Gena could move easily, even within their embrace. Her nipple flattened out against the ribbed rise of Ryan's diaphragm.
"Help yourself," Gena drawled and nodded to an end table with some bottles that glinted emptily in the cast light of a small table lamp.
Dex actually didn't want the drink at all. She had asked for it just for something to say. An opening line that came out easily. But the empty bottles warned her. She looked around for the telltale glasses. If Ryan had a load on, there could be no end of trouble.
"No, I haven't," Ryan said. "I haven't touched a thing all afternoon ... I've been too busy."
The implication fell like bricks onto Dex's toes. She winced and turned away from the two. If they had worn each other out, what use could it be to start them up again? They might not need it Might not want it.
And yet Dex knew better. They were two femmes. Though either of them could take the initiative, it could add up only to child's play.
Dex smiled to herself, feeling suddenly needed in a way that required no explanations.
She sauntered up behind the two women and put each of her hands on a cool buttock. The situation was strange, but the women were familiar and suddenly Dex pressed herself in close, warming up to the idea of taking Ryan and Gena to bed at the same time.
Ryan said, "What makes you think we need you?"
Now Dex grinned openly, sure of her role. She had anticipated the question and the answer came up in a welling of flame that lit her eyes and her total expression. She saw Ryan blush under its impact.
A hand slid down and touched the back of Dex's thigh. Gena leaned in closer as her hand began to stroke upward along the material of the slacks.
"Who's your friend?" Gena said to Ryan. "She feels tough."
"No friend of mine," Ryan answered. "Just some bastard I happen to know."
Ryan's answer was a case of the pot calling the kettle black, and Dex knew that Ryan knew it well. The situation was shaming Ryan. Throwing up to her all the years of her own misbehavior. The breath came from her parted lips in short, anxious gasps. She was struggling to keep up a brave front. Hiding the truth of her guilt behind the nakedness of her flesh.
But Gena's face was all alight with mischief. Her soft curls bobbed as she moved her head about, flirting alternately with Ryan and with Dex. She seemed to like huddling close with other bodies. The touch of many breasts, the radiating warmth, added fuel to her devilishness.
"I suppose you want to go to bed with us, don't you?" Her voice was a languid wash of words.
The impulse to lean over and kiss her hard, stop the lightheartedness and turn it into serious, craving passion, made Dex tremble to control herself. If she kissed anybody, it had to be Ryan first. That was the least she could do to soothe Ryan's destroyed security. And it would also put Gena in her place. Cut down some of her big-shot notions.
Dex looked directly into Ryan's eyes.
"Yes, I wouldn't mind going to bed with you ... for a change."
Ryan shook her head as though trying to ward off the blow of Dex's meaning. Her long hair fell forward, covering her lowered eyelids. Dex lifted her hand away- from Ryan's behind and stroked the hair back from her cheek. She saw Ryan's lower lip jutting defiantly.
A tinge of tenderness swept lightly into Ryan's blush. Dex saw it and responded with a savage anger. Ryan had wasted so many years of their life together. Was now the time for her to try to make up for it all? Did Gena have to come between them before Ryan woke up to the sordid rottenness of things?
Dex felt shaken to the marrow by a convergence of feelings. As she leaned in to kiss Ryan, her body ached to grab Gena. She wanted to lose herself with Gena ...
As her lips met Ryan's mouth, Gena's hand tightened into Dex's thigh.
There was no getting away from the girl. Not even for the fraction of an instant's kiss.
"What are we standing around here for?" Gena said, her voice intruding upon Dex's desire to soothe Ryan. "I have a nice, big, comfy bed in there."
Dex lifted her face away from Ryan and asked her with silent question if that was what she really wanted ... for the three of them to tumble around together, have a three-way, watch each other make love.
The defiance blazed up now in Ryan's wide-eyed, steady stare. She seemed to be reading Dex's need. And now it was Dex's turn to blush beneath the scrutiny. Dex knew that she could not hide from Ryan the crazy passion for Gena. There was no use trying to fool anyone. Both women knew, even now, without having to see it born out in bed. Now both women seemed to wan t to bring it all to a climax.
Dex felt herself giving up. She would go through with it. She would risk showing everything to Ryan, her passion for a kid, her silliness. She began to undo the pants belt.
"That's better," Gena said. "Show us that lovely body of yours."
Dex ground her teeth and kept silent. She wanted sex. She did not want trouble or complications. Least of all did she want to be teased for her impulsive weakness. What was Gena really driving at? She flicked her glance to the girl's face. Gena, grinning and clicking her tongue, looked like one of the Pepsi People. There was no hint of malice. No hint of evil. No sigh of anything beyond a pure, spirited love of fun. She couldn't believe it. No woman could be so callous. Gena moved forward.
She poked two fingers at the belt buckle and drew it open. Then she grabbed hold of the zipper tab and flicked the zipper open with a twist of the wrist. Her face was so bright and consistently open it seemed that she might have been beating an egg instead of undressing one woman's lover before the other.
Yet Dex knew better. The condition of Gena's nipples gave away the fact that she was just as excited by the prospect of sex as Dex. The thought now crossed her mind as to what they had been doing there naked when she arrived. They must have had sex. They couldn't have stripped down just to wait for her to arrive.
Dex's mind raced through the possibilities. She had assumed that they needed her to have a good time. She was the butch one. But times had changed, if Dex had not. And Gena was not part of the generation that seemed to think in terms of butch and femme, just fucking.
Now as Dex looked at Gena's nipples, they began to harden, as though the look were a touch of fingertips or of tongue.
Dex had tasted that body once, but she knew it well, as well as if she had sucked it up in her mouth over and over. Looking at her firm, young flesh, she could smell her cunt again in her nostrils.
Now, as she devoured Gena with her eyes, the girl was quick to respond. She needed no coaxing into the liquid well of desire. She seemed to live in it constantly. Her feelings were continually balanced on the edge of passion, a flower ready to bloom, heavy inside with the promise of pollen. She was all things. And changeable, depending on the mood of the beholder.
Without protest, Dex let Gena take off the polo shirt and open the bra beneath it.
Gena put her palms to each other nipples and began to rub them in slow, fondling circles.
"How cool they are," Gena said with a hint of admiration.
"Take that for a warning," Ryan put in. "She's steel all the way through. Don't let her kid you for a second."
There was a sulky quality in Ryan's tone. It advertised the fact that she regretted losing out on a good thing. Dex felt a twinge of victory, but it tasted bitter.
Dex refrained from looking at Ryan. Thoughts of Ryan and of their relationship faded beneath the insisting pressure of Gena's touch.
"I can melt steel," Gena's voice was just above a whisper. "Can't I, darling?"
Dex felt herself come alive with a jolt. Gena was showing off. She was demonstrating to Ryan that there was no contest.
Dex put her hands up to grab hold of Gena's wrists and stop the motion exciting her nipples. It was one thing to be had. Quite another to be owned. And, already, Gena was beginning to sound possessive.
"We'll see who melts who first."
She grabbed Gena hard and pressed her tongue into the girl's open and waiting mouth.
CHAPTER SIX
Dex felt Gena's body bend, like a sapling, to her own. But Dex had learned a lesson. She knew that Gena could give her body without yielding up her feelings. This time she wasn't going to be fooled by Gena's eager passion.
Gena's sigh warmed down the side of Dex's neck and seemed to nestle there for a moment, then drift lower along her chest.
"I need you," Gena whispered. "You know that don't you?"
Ryan said, "Hey, none of that." She sounded irritated, as though Gena were reneging on a promise.
Dex reined in her own response. She remembered that there was a conspiracy going against her. She lifted her mouth away from Gena's face.
"I want both of you in the bedroom," Dex said, her voice insistent. It told them both that she would not take no for an answer.
Ryan put her knuckles on her hips. She began to smile the wide, languid smile that showed off her glinting teeth. The professional smile that carne across so well on television. It was a smile that Dex hated, because unhappiness oozed through the dazzle.
"You'd better not argue with me," Dex said to Ryan. "Better play the game, honey."
Dex felt the rise of cruelty from the pit of her gut. A cruelty aimed directly at hurting Ryan. Dex hated herself for whipping into Ryan yet she could not control, did not want to control, herself.
Ryan, still smiling, slunk off toward the bedroom. Dex watched the firm ass wiggling with defiance. This was one of those times when Ryan craved authority. She was ashamed of herself and needed to be told what to do.
Gena put her hand to Dex's cheek and drew the face down again to her own. She plunged her hot pointed tongue into Dex's mouth, wiggling it around provocatively. Dex felt the heat rush up her spine from the wet hollow between her thighs. The girl pulled away, but kept only a few inches between their two faces.
"Don't mind her," Gena said. "She's my friend now. And I understand what you see in her."
Dex laughed aloud. Gena, too, was reading lines from some unwritten skit. And the presumption of her lines was mind-boggling. Any fool could see how a person could love someone as beautiful as Ryan. But no one, especially no kid, could know the depth, the intricacy of that love in a few hours.
"You couldn't possibly understand," Dex barked.
Gena pursed her lips and slid her arms up and down along the sides of Dex's arms.
"Why not?" she said, watching the movement of her own body, how the tips of her erect nipples and the bushy tangle at her crotch grazed Dex's body, teasing her. "Why couldn't I understand?"
"Because you don't know the first thing about love. And if you're lucky, you never will."
"Maybe I could love you," Gena mused, a smile playing in her eyes like sunlight on water.
"Sure," Dex replied. "Sure you could."
Gena flashed annoyance now at the sound of Dex's raw skepticism.
"All right, I'll prove it," Gena flounced.
"You do that."
With amazement at her own capacity for punishment, Dex heard her voice and manner remain aloof. Gena had no inkling that the playfulness, the hard and fast replies, were a facade. She neither saw nor heard the writhing in the pit of Dex's stomach. Dex knew that Gena could not even imagine the half-wild urgency that could drive a person past the barrier of normal sense.
Dex pressed her tongue to the back of her teeth. She felt a burning streak through the rims of her eyelids. With Ryan out of the room, her savageness toward Gena began to rise and grow in strength. She grabbed Gena by one arm and yanked her in close.
"You're hurting," Gena whispered, the smile still playing in her eyes but waveringly uncertain now.
"And I'll hurt you more," Dex breathed.
"Why?"
It was an honest question. Dex swallowed her frustration, aware that not in a thousand years could she answer so that Gena would understand. How could she force Gena to want her? How could she change Gena's disposition from that of a playful child to that of a serious adult? How could she make a baby understand that the firecracker toy was going to explode in her own face?
"Where are you all?" Ryan called from the bedroom.
Dex released her hold on Gena's arm. The girl, coming free, began to move quickly toward the bedroom. Watching her go, Dex realized that Gena was beginning to feel afraid of her. Well, that was better than being tickled as only Gena could tickle. Maybe it was the first step of the way to making Gena think.
Dex followed the two girls. A throbbing had begun to pound in her temples and felt as though it had been beating there for ages. She paused to steady herself but she could not even glance about the room for clues deeper into Gena's personality. All that she could -do was follow the line of magnetism into the bedroom and give herself up to whatever the women had in mind to do to her.
They were both lying on the bed.
It was one of the largest beds that Dex had ever seen. The mattress spread from one wall to the window wall. A drawn green shade rippled in a breeze coming through the half open window. Its edging banged against the windowsill. Dex, still struggling to maintain her balance, noticed that the room was hardly bigger than an ample closet and that was why the bed seemed so large.
"Where are you?" Ryan said, half-opening her eyes.
"Here."
For an instant, Dex felt as though she were diving down into a deep and dangerous gorge. As she came down between the two bodies, a sensuous fragrance of perfume made a cloud through which she penetrated. She recognized the fragrance. An imported French brand that one bought by the half ounce. And yet its essence seemed to be rising from the bed as though Gena had soaked the mattress in the perfume.
Dex started to back away, wanting to sit up and open a window to clear her head.
A leg raised high, bending at the knee. It caught Dex around the waist and drew her back down.
Gena laughed low in her throat. "Going some place, darling?" She felt the smoothness of the taut flesh bristle her pubic hair. Dex's cunt reacted like a cat being petted.
The darling was an irony-a harsh slap in the face. Dex tried to control the separate animal reaction of her sex, the swelling of the labia which itched for rubbing and sucking. She turned her back on Gena, moving within the leg's boundary.
"You look good there," Ryan said.
It was like being behind a fence ten thousand feet high, with Ryan sitting on top of it, looking down but making no effort to help her out.
Dex allowed the pressure of the firm young leg to force her backward inch by inch. She felt the warmth of Gena's thighs rubbing over her hips. She heard Gena's groan of pleasure.
"Well, go ahead," Ryan said. "I'd like to watch. Maybe I can learn something from a big tough butch like you."
The words were calculated to turn Dex off as though she were a faucet. They were meant to torture her by surrounding her with all the elements of frustration.
Dex heard, but the words bounced off the surface of her flesh. She felt deaf and blind and encased within the armor of her own protecting passion. Nothing could harm her. Nothing could even reach her that would prove an obstacle to the fulfillment of her desire.
Dex rose and turned upon Gena.
"You're beautiful like that," Gena said. "I adore you."
The words were like cotton candy that melted in Dex's mouth. Still, she could not hold back, forcing a real emotion out of the frivolous kitten. The surging current of her need was too powerful.
Crouching on her knees, she reached and lifted Gena's taut round ass up from the mattress. The sweet smell of her pussy rushed into her nostrils, giving her a rush like a snort of cocaine. And something about that hot odor was just as illicit. Just as dangerous.
"Don't play with me," Dex growled. "Or I'll kill you."
There echoed enough truth in the words to make Gena go pale.
"I'm not playing," she stuttered. "You know I'm not."
Dex shook her. "Then come across," she rasped. "Act like a woman."
Gena's tongue flicked out and wet her lips. She squinted, struggling to understand what Dex meant for her to do.
Dex dug her fingernails into the warm flesh of her ass. She moved her hungry fingers up the rich curves of the lean back until she held Gena by the shoulders. The bones beneath felt frail or hollow. Bird bones. To go with the fluttering heart. To go with the wings that could carry Gena away into limbo where she would never give a second thought to a person's need or pain.
"Don't be so damned coy," Ryan said, her voice reeking with disgust for, Gena's kitten act. "Give the butch what she wants. Suck her cunt."
Dex felt her skin go cold. Ryan knew. Ryan understood. If only she could want Ryan ... But she didn't. Even the crudity of her words did little to excite her either way. Her fingers continued to sink deeper, harder into Gena's flesh. Ryan knew what she wanted, and it was more complicated than just licking pussy.
"I'll make you happy," Gena said. "I'll do anything."
Dex let go. She sat Gena up and began to stroke her body. The breasts seemed to stiffen and point up, her waist to grow more willowy, her hips fuller, and her cunt more succulent. Though Gena's mind could not settle down to reality, her body was ready and able.
The feel of Gena's passion gave Dex respite from her fury. She moved her fingers deliberately, rotating them against Gena's swelling cunt lips, provoking spasms which soaked her fingers in the delicious juice.
And then Dex felt fingers creeping up her thighs, until they reached their goal. The touch was sure, direct, as a finger felt for the hood of flesh hiding her clitoris and coaxed it into erection. Ryan's touch.
There was something about the fondling that told Dex the nature of Ryan's attitude. Ryan was taking pity on her predicament. Ryan understood. In her own way, obviously, Ryan sympathized.
Humiliation seared through Dex's flesh. She didn't want Ryan to be the one to satisfy her now. Certainly, she didn't want Ryan's impulsive surge of pity.
Dex pulled away from the hand. She pushed Gena down and saw her head bounce on the pillow.
Ryan watched carefully, sensing that there was a tension here that she had not suspected. Dex was positioning the girl's face to lick her, to prod her tongue into the wet recesses of her cunt, to make her drink her juices. And Gena was withdrawing.
Suddenly Ryan realized Dex's predicament. There had never been any reciprocity between the two women. All the sexual action had come through. Dex. Her lover had been manipulated by the girl for her own pleasure. Now Dex was demanding more. The situation came close to Tape.
Ryan smiled to herself. Finally, she felt that she had the upper hand on this relationship. Dex had no idea that with Ryan, Gena had taken the initiative. Had licked deep into her cunt, had sucked her juices, fucked her with her mouth so that Ryan had come violently. So that was it, thought Ryan. That was the source of Dex's interest in the girl. Gena had represented the unattainable, something hard to get which she then wanted.
"You're going to do it," Dex ordered. "You are."
Dex began to move upward toward the girl. She positioned her thighs over the girl's mouth and lowered her crotch down towards the fresh, young mouth.
If Gena didn't give in, that would be the end, Ryan thought. The game would be over, and she would have her woman back. A week later they would be laughing over the whole escapade. She looked on, half in tension, half assured of the outcome.
Gena's nostrils flared wide. She looked like a colt confronted by approaching flames.
"I never ... " Gena choked, twisting her head, playing the game of virgin all the way. "I never have."
"Well, you will now," Ryan's voice came in, making a mockery of the situation with an undertone of sarcasm. But it was a tone only Gena picked up on. Dex continued her relentless approach.
Dex could not stop to analyze or care about other reactions. Her burning desire to bring the swelling lips of her cunt down on the cool young mouth, to feel that hot tongue finally touch her clitoris, lick deeply into her vulva, was overwhelming. Only the true sexual contact of Gena's mouth could matter.
Ryan was banking now on the fact that Gena would not give in. The girl could never show the true extent of her lust to Dex. She would have to remain aloof and virginal to keep up her attraction. Ryan was sure that Gena understood that.
Dex reached over with both hands and grabbed the girl's head. She held the face still, continuing to approach it with her body. This was rape. This was terror. This was everything that women were not supposed to want or need.
But it did exist. Here and now. Dex knew herself to be no better than the zoo creatures who mated without concern for onlookers. And, suddenly, she was equal to Ryan in all her unfaithfulness.
"All right, Gena," Dex's voice trembled. "Go on."
She saw the girl's lips go grim. Then a new and different light glowed in her eyes. The steady, self-certainty of power over another human being. Unbeknown to Ryan, Gena had decided to change her strategy. She wanted Dex for her own. She wanted her as much as any woman has ever wanted to have and dominate a male.
The lips parted. The tongue flicked out.
At contact, Dex felt her body cringe with ecstasy. She buckled over, letting go of Gena's head and crossing her arms over her belly as though to hold herself together.
Gena invaded. Her tongue moved in small circles, lingering over her distended clit, teasing it to greater excitement. Dex shivered and spread her legs wider, lowering her cunt down nearer to the vibrant tongue. Gena now pushed her tongue suddenly in between the moist labia and flexed it.
Dex shut her eyes hard. Her chin dropped till it touched her chest. She began to shudder, responding to alternating waves of heat and cold that shook her and shattered the organization of her nerves. This is what she had wanted, the seemingly virgin tongue licking deeply into her cunt; coaxing her to orgasm.
"Suck deeper. Your mouth ... suck," Dex muttered in urgency, not directing her orders to anything except the feeling. It was sex without an object now. The arousal had gone too far. Pricked by the idea of a virgin mouth sucking down on her cunt, there was no holding back.
She ground her pussy down on Gena's face, making her mouth and lips slippery with her juice. She rubbed and bucked, ignoring the gurgling sounds of discomfort as her cunt gyrated to orgasm.
Gena licked now with passion, forgetting the role of virgin she had played before. It was urgent for her to give Dex what she wanted. Her understanding with Ryan, tacit but sure, now went out the window.
She reached down to her own trembling pussy as the woman slamming her cunt into her face grew hotter and wilder. Her fingers crept around the lips of her cunt. In seconds she had hold of her excited clitoris. She fingered and stroked it. Waves of current split through her, causing her labia to swell and gush. She felt the hole that no man had ever explored open wider, begging for her fingers to plunge in and relieve the tension. The vacuum had to be filled.
Dex began to moan. Her whole body was now violently involved in the need to be satisfied. She reached up and held her breasts in her hand feeling their rich fullness, weighing them like ripe fruit in the cups of her palm. Then her fingers moved to the distended nipples. As she touched them a ripple of pleasure spread over her. She pulled at them, twisted them, pinched them. She could not torture them enough to keep pace with the ravenous tongue licking at her vitals.
Gena's mouth was an independent animal. It even showed its teeth, grating against the stiff clit, seeming to chew on the wet cunt lips. And then her tongue drove inside once more.
Dex couldn't get the lively tongue deep enough inside her. She shoved her thighs farther apart, lowering the spread lips over the girl's face.
Gena's mouth and nose and chin were now buried in the rich, humid folds of flesh. She gasped and jerked her head in order to get air, but she continued sucking and licking.
Gena's own finger did not idle. It continued to rub and pull at her fully erect clit in time with her tongue-fucking of the writhing woman dripping juice onto her face.
The rich odor of cunt and the gushing juices, instead of turning the girl off, did just the reverse. She felt herself rising to new heights, new lusts she never knew were in her. Dex was waking a need to devour the one that is loved. Nothing could hold her back now.
Her free hand reached up to stroke between the full cheeks of Dex's ass. It rubbed into the moist crevice, now greased with sweat and the trickles of juice seeping from her cunt. The hairs were wetted down as she brought her other hand into play and spread the cheeks. She grabbed hold of the two globes, kneading them in her hands, then suddenly getting the desire to do more.
She let go and whacked the buttocks of the spasmodic woman. A small cry of pain erupted from Dex's lips as she felt the small hand smack down on her rump. The stinging increased as it came down harder.
Gena clutched the stinging ass and shoved the tender flesh of Dex's cunt down on her teeth. A hiss came from the girl's clenched teeth as she rubbed and tortured the excited flesh.
"Suck it. Tongue ... " Dex howled, loosing control as Gena's hidden bestiality erupted on her.
Sensing that Dex was about to erupt into orgasm, she pulled her hands off the woman's ass and plunged them onto her own pussy. In wild circular motions she rubbed one set of fingers over her clit and drenched cunt lips, while the other hand invaded and fucked her vulva.
Suddenly Dex opened her dry mouth. She jutted her cunt forward, driving the tongue deep into her convulsing cunt. The release seemed to roll upward from her knees, to spread in a deluge that drowned all of her. Only her mouth seemed above the surface and she gulped down gasps of air while her body hung convulsing. Dex doubled over as though praying abjectly.
Yet it wasn't prayer she felt. She felt the godlike powers of her own flesh.
CHAPTER SEVEN
Dex sensed that Ryan was creeping off the bed and away, but she could not stop looking at Gena or thinking of Gena, not even if she lost Ryan forever.
Gena lay back on the pillow, her face placid for the first time since Dex had met her. The girl's face had lost its youthful impishness. A new and steadier calm glowed in her eyes and in high color through her cheeks.
"Are you all right?" Dex said, needing to hear it.
"I never knew it could belike that." Gena's voice was a sigh. "I thought that when it finally happened ... Well, I've done it before, Dex. But it was never like this. Never." Her voice trailed away. Dex was too exhausted and elated to understand the full meaning of Gena's confession. All that mattered was the immediate impact it had had on her.
Drained of the barbed urgency of need, Dex sat back on her haunches. She reached out and stroked Gena's leg. A moment in time had changed everything. She had conquered the girl. Gena would never try to toy with her feelings again.
Cold, strong fingers began to massage the back of Dex's neck. Ryan pressed her body to Dex's side. Dex felt that it was half-clad, as bra and panties rubbed her flesh. A shudder of annoyance passed through Dex. Ryan had changed her mind about leaving. The stubborn and self-centered streak in her couldn't cope with defeat.
"Are you ready to come home now?" Ryan's voice was soft, attempting to caress.
There was no way to ignore her. No way to turn Ryan off or make her invisible.
"Why don't you run along? I'll be there later."
Ryan did not budge. "Don't let the little girl turn your head, dear. You've had your fun. Now come home to sleep. You have to get up for work in the morning, remember?"
"I'll be there," Dex answered crisply, trying to shrug off the massaging fingers.
"Well, in case you forget, I'll just wait here to remind you."
Dex fell silent. All the while, Gena had not budged or attempted protest. Within the utter calm of her security, she lay still. She did not seem to care about the talk. Nor did she seem concerned about whether Dex stayed or went away.
To get away from Ryan, Dex dropped forward onto her belly. She stretched out full-length beside Gena with her nose and mouth touching the side of Gena's breast. The full, creamy breast rose and fell gently against her lips.
"Oh, you look great," Ryan said bitterly. "Just great. Like a teen-ager after her first make-out. And what am I supposed to do? Go home alone in the middle of the night? Maybe you want me to sleep with Madge for company. Or Robard."
"Ryan, please," Dex cut into the rampage.
Ryan pulled her hair back and shut her eyes hard for a moment. Then she swung around and went for the rest of her clothing. "Well, I suppose there's always Morton," she said, her voice just above a whisper.
An icy twinge of revulsion shivered through Dex but she did not move away from Gena's side. "You don't have to be foolish, you know."
"And why not? You don't seem to be doing any better."
Dex held silence. What difference could it make it Ryan passed the time of day with Mort? Why kid herself? Ryan's list of conquests was enormous. What difference could one more make? And yet she could not swallow the idea. All the other women Ryan had slept with had been nameless, faceless and harmless. But Morton was a viper. If Ryan slept with her, something irrevocable would happen.
Dex moved her mouth up along the cool, smooth curve of Gena's breast and let her lips come to rest on the peak of one nipple. How preposterous it was to care about protecting Ryan. Ryan was strong enough and experienced enough to take care of herself.
It was Gena who needed the guidance now. Gena for whom she could do the most good.
"Well, go, then," Dex said to Ryan.
The sound of dismissal was absolute. Its aftermath was like the soft, slithering drop of a stage curtain. The abrupt ending of an involvement, as strange and unexpected as the cutting off of a young life.
Ryan made no further protest. Dex hung onto Gena and buried her face as deeply as she could get into the girl's cleavage while Ryan finished dressing. Dex stayed quite still until she heard the click of the front door.
For a few seconds it did not seem possible to Dex that the end had come so easily. She whipped herself up from the bed and strode to the door, turning the lock from the inside in case Ryan should change her mind and try to return.
When she came back to the bedroom, Gena lay curled up on her side, hugging the pillow in close to her face.
"I guess I'll stay here for the night," Dex said.
"Whatever you want." Gena's voice was far away.
But Dex felt a flash of new energy. The thought of going to sleep seemed impossibly foreign to her bursting good mood. The incredible state of things kept reverberating. The inner core of her being felt a need to celebrate its liberation.
"Come on," Dex said, leaning over to pat Gena's ankle. "You don't want to go to sleep yet. It's early."
"I'm not sleeping."
"So sit up. Put your clothes on."
Gena turned her face slightly.
"I was just thinking about Morton," she said.
Dex felt -her mouth snap shut. The sound of Morton on Gena's lips was like the unfurling of a dark shadow. It had no business being in the room with them. Not now. Not tonight.
"What could you possibly have to think about her?" Dex said, straightening up and going to the mirror that hung on the outside of a closet door.
"Morton knows everybody's secrets," Gena mused. "And I'll bet that Ryan is going to tell her about us, too."
Dex examined down the length of her body. Her breasts were full and firm. The nipples were nibs of pointed flesh. Her waist was willowy and firm. Her hips round and welcoming. She was pleased with her body's ability to feel and to respond to the spontaneity of youth.
"So what of it?" replied Dex.
"I don't want Morton to know," Gena said flatly.
Dex tried to see Gena's reflection in the mirror. She drew the door out, turning the mirror at an angle. There was just enough room between the foot of the bed and the closet door to catch a glimpse of the lower half of Gena's body. The sprout of curly blonde hairs at her crotch warmed Dex at the base of her spine. That young, wild body, untamed by love affairs and experience, was hers. Something leaped excitedly in her at the thought of that. But there was more to Gena right now than just a body relaxing after sex. Her mind was obviously ranging far and wide. If only Dex could get into that mind, know it as well as she had succeeded in making Gena's body know her own. It was not enough to know that that ripe mouth had sucked and drunk up her cunt. Because the minute sex was over she had the feeling that Gena had left her, even though her body remained.
Now as she looked at her in the mirror's reflection, she saw that the girl's toes were curling and uncurling like the tip end of a cat's tail when it was trapped and nervous.
"Morton can't get in our way," Dex said, trying to maintain her good mood. "So let's not talk about her." Dex swallowed her resentment. "We're supposed to be having our own private fiesta tonight."
Dex brushed her hair back from her temples. She knew that she was forcing the issue with Gena. It wasn't Gena who cared to be romantic, who wanted to engrave the night upon her memory. Gena preferred to lie in bed alone and work over her own private thoughts. And Dex could feel the letdown flowing through her. She had been trying to predict Gena as if she were like Ryan in the early days. It wasn't possible. The girl remained the gnawing enigma she had been to Dex before. Despite what she had considered to be their sexual breakthrough together, now nothing concrete seemed to be accomplished.
As her mind played morosely with this new realization, something clicked in her mind. It was something Ryan had said while they were all on the bed. It had been deliberately vague. Perhaps she should just drop it, thought Dex. But what she had half-understood when being overwhelmed by her need for orgasm, to feel the young tongue licking her to satisfaction, now came back to haunt.
A shiver random Dex's spine. Ryan and Gena had made love to each other after all. Gena had taken the initiative. She had taken Ryan's pussy 'in her mouth; she had done all the same things to bring her to orgasm as she had done for Dex.
Dex shook her head, denying her thoughts.
"Okay, never mind," Dex said. "We'll stay home and watch the Late Show or something. Do you keep any beer in the fridge?"
Even as she spoke, Dex felt that her heart wasn't in it. There was something too disappointing about Gena's reaction. She seemed completely passive, emotionless. And now her doubts about Gena's sexual breakthrough in giving her pleasure with her mouth returned in full force.
Dex felt herself going for her clothes. She had to get away from Gena's basic isolation. No matter how far she reached out to Gena, Dex realized that she could never really touch the girl where it would count.
The hollowness of this knowledge made Dex ache throughout her insides. She had allowed herself to fall in love like a school child. She had given up Ryan to possess someone she could neither have nor hold. What kind of possession was this? What kind of life was she going to lead? The tantalizing promise of Gena would dangle out there just beyond her grasp.
Dex was back where she had started from.
"Never mind," Dex said roughly. "You go to sleep. I'm going out to walk all this off. I'll see you tomorrow sometime."
Gena grunted consent. She seemed so neutral. So bland. Suddenly, it occurred to Dex that she did not know the first thing about Gena. What the girl did for a living. If she worked at all. Maybe someone else was paying for the apartment. It certainly wasn't much of a place. Couldn't require a lavish allowance.
Dex sat down on the edge of the bed and stared down at Gena.
"Before I go, tell me one thing," Dex said, stroking her fingertips nervously down the length of her pants till she reached the knee. "Does Morton have anything to do with the place? Is she giving you money ... or anything?"
A burst of guffawing laughter erupted from Gena. It was the first sign of life that Dex had seen since they had made love. Dex felt her eyelids close beneath the squinting pressure of her anger.
"That one," Gena said. "Since when does she give anything to anybody?"
An unmistakable sound of bitterness rang strongly in Gena's rhetorical question. Bitterness and knowledge.
Gena shut her eyes and turned her head to one side, half-burying it in the pillow. Morton. She could see the woman's eyes, the way they devoured her body at first, only to grow bored when Morton had gotten what she wanted. What she had wanted from Gena had been her virgin mouth. And she'd gotten it. Gena had wanted to cry at first when she saw Dex demanding the same thing. When instead it had made Dex even more passionate towards her; it was even more depressing. Dex should have had the first licks from her tongue on a woman's sex. It might all have been different then. She would never have this gnawing sense that she had been used for cheap satisfaction and then discarded when satisfaction was rendered.
Through her closed eyelids she saw Morton's thighs, the massiveness of them. And then she saw the gaping hungry mouth of her cunt, demanding to be given what it wanted. She could almost smell the woman. She had had a heavy odor like a female animal. Crushing her labia against Gena's lips, she had been total, brutal and selfish. Gena's eyes had watered, she had choked, but the churning, grinding cunt would not stop until it had flushed itself of its need. Morton had clamped her thighs around the girl's head, bulldozing her way to orgasm.
Dex felt her insides contract. She did not have to read Gena's mind now. That last sentence had told her the complete history of her relationship with Morton.
"Come on." Dex shook Gena by the shoulder. "You didn't love her. What do you give a damn about her character?"
"No, I didn't love her," Gena's voice echoed with memories. "And I never will."
"So forget it."
"Only fools love Morton," Gena persisted. "Maybe acid freaks and other assorted nitwits. Not people with half a brain." She stared off at the wall. "And I never gave her the satisfaction of crawling ... of trying to make her give me my self respect back ... She was the one who taught me all those tricks," Gena added in a quick, nervous voice. The sarcasm took over. "The other tricks I could have learned from her about using people, putting them down, making them crawl ... well, now that I think of it, maybe they were catching. Hatred's pretty contagious."
"Shut up, damn you. Shut up." Dex heard her own voice raging out of control. Every word from Gena was a sharp slap in the face. A testament to the fact that Morton had left her mark, indelibly, on the one person that Dex had been able to care about.
As though the mattress were burning coals, she leaped up from it knowing that she had to get away from Gena. Leave her instantly. Leave her forever. There could be nothing but futility in a relationship with someone who kept thinking back to other days and nights with Morton.
Through Gena, Morton would be able to sink her fangs into Dex's spirit. She would be the death of her. Deliberately as if she had poisoned Dex with her own hand.
Dex scowled down at the girl and tried to swallow the harsh lump of revulsion.
"What could you want with her?" Dex rasped. "What did you see in her?"
But Dex knew better than to wait for an answer. There could be no answer, after all. The classic condition of wasted love had hit Gena as hard as it had hit herself through the years with Ryan.
Dex turned on her heel and went from the room, determined not to make a bigger fool out of herself than she had already. She flung herself headlong out the door and kept on moving, taking the steps down two at a time at breakneck speed in case something masochistic inside her tried to convince her to change her mind and go back to try again.
Try again. That was what never worked. Trying. Either you hit the bull's eye or you struck out forever. With love there could be no second chances. No patchwork operation.
Dex reached the street and kept on going as though she were being washed out to sea by an undertow that she had never dreamed existed. It was, in fact, the urge for self-preservation. The force that superceded all rationalizations when the chips were down and she, herself, out.
As Dex prowled the empty streets, she stared, face forward, into the pit of gloom that seemed to have no bottom. It had all happened so fast and so unexpectedly, that there had been no time at all to collect her wits.
With hands thrust deep into her pockets, Dex tried to collect herself now.
Ryan was gone, rubbed out of the picture because their relationship had been doomed since Ryan's first unfaithfulness.
Gena was gone, gone because she had never really existed except in a moment's impulsive dream.
Dex looked up at the sky. For the first time since her very early childhood, she was alone.
CHAPTER EIGHT
The buzzer rang in Robard's apartment. At first it had seemed to be ringing in a dream he was having, until he rolled over in bed and realized it was his front door.
He threw a leg over the edge of the bed, struggling to pull himself out of the first two hours of deep sleep. The bell was ringing incessantly. The urgency of it helped him to find something to wrap around his naked body and make it to the door.
"Yeah, who is it?" he yelled blandly at the door as he staggered into the entry and approached the door.
"It's me, Rob. I'm awfully sorry ... " said a female voice. At first he couldn't figure out who it was, then it came in a flash. It was Ryan.
"Is that you, Ryan?" he said sleepily through the door.
"Yes, it's me. Can you ... " Robard interrupted her by suddenly opening the door.
"Hi, baby. You're the last person I expected to see at my doorstep at two a.m."
"You're not the only one," said Ryan wearily as she came in and Robard locked the door behind her. He was suddenly wide awake. This was no unpleasant surprise, but it was a surprise. He didn't know quite what to do or say at first. Ryan had never called on him at that hour. In fact, few people did.
Robard was a bachelor with a set pattern. He liked getting up early, liked daylight, and as soon as the sun went down his mind aimed towards sleep. Despite the unexpected lovemaking with Ryan that afternoon, his schedule had not changed much. Friends knew his habits. Robard never had to answer doors or telephones after ten p.m.
"I know this is a crazy inconvenience on my part, Rob. And ... " Ryan stood awkwardly between the hall and the living room, not quite sure of which way to move or what to say next.
"Don't be silly. You wouldn't be here if it wasn't important." Rob smiled and came up beside her. He laid his hand on her shoulder and kissed her neck. "Let me put on a light so we can see each other."
The feel of the man's hand on her shoulder had sent a wave of calm through her body. Her physical reaction to Robard was a surprise. She had never felt calmed or reassured by a man before. It had always been Dex. Now, with that in a thousand pieces, Ryan felt marvelously reassured that someone else could work that same magic on her. She breathed deeply and smiled for the first time that evening.
When his hand slipped off her shoulder and Robard went off to put on a light, she felt lost.
"There we are. Sit down, Ry. You look beautiful, even at two in the morning. Sorry I can't say the same for myself. Forgive the towel costume. I'm a sleep-in-the-raw buff myself." Robard grinned, trying to relieve the tension he felt pouring out of Ryan.
"You're the best-looking man in a towel I've ever seen," replied Ryan, laughing. She went over and flopped down on the sofa. Robard sat down opposite her. He was careful to keep the towel down between his legs so that Ryan wouldn't get the idea he was flaunting his sex in her face. He understood that Ryan was here for talk, serious talk. And something inside him respected that.
"Things not working out?" he asked, deciding to bring the problem out immediately.
"Catastrophe," muttered Ryan. Her face clouded over. She appreciated Robard's directness, but it hurt. She would rather have kidded with him for a while before hitting the source of her pain. But, she thought, this was no hour for social pleasantries.
"I suppose it's Dex. Did she throw you out or something? I hope it didn't have anything to do with me."
"Rob, I wish it were that simple. I think ... I think it's finished between us. Really. Kaput." Ryan found herself examining her hands as she spoke. It was as if she expected to see a trace of the violence that had gone on that evening. If only there were blood marks to bear witness to the murder that had occurred. The killing of their relationship had been as brutal and real as anything in a tabloid.
"You two have been through this kind of thing before. You always managed to kiss and make up," Robard said soothingly.
"That's because it was always me. Me playing around. Now it's more complicated than that. I told you a little this afternoon. I didn't think it was that serious then. Now ... well, I think it's fatal" Ryan folded her hands in her lap in a gesture of finality.
"Well, you're certainly expressing- the whole thing with high drama. Maybe if we cut away some of that theater, we'll see it's not that serious."
"I know what you're thinking, Rob. Dykes. A lot of melodrama that will disappear in the morning. Well, this time, no. I've just come from them. I've seen the girl. They're together now."
Robard smiled weakly. He did not know how to handle this. Usually when his own emotional life got tangled he would make a joke of it and go to bed. He knew he couldn't suggest the same thing to Ryan. She was totally serious about what was happening. Her look of tragedy was not staged.
"I see," he replied with a sigh. "Well, maybe it's all for the best. I know that's a clich�. It might even sound unfeeling, but you know I feel. What I'm getting at, Ry, is that if it's happened, it's happened. There's not much you can do about it."
Ryan shook her head violently and said, "Rob, I can't take it. I can't cope. It's not that easy. I wouldn't get you out of bed if it were." Despite himself, Robard found his body stretching and yawning. It wasn't used to this kind of treatment. The thought flashed through his mind as he felt his body moving that she wasn't even noticing him. The physical thing that had brought them passionately together that afternoon seemed gone. Something, probably his male vanity, told him that if that interest could be rekindled, they could both get some sleep. Together.
Risking a move on intuition, Robard said, "Let's go to bed, Ry. I can't think of a better way to cope." Ryan blinked. It was so direct, his proposal, that it almost knocked the wind out of her. Sex was the last thing on her mind. Sex with a man that much further. His words hit her like a cold slap on the face. A wave of hostility surged up suddenly in her. Men, all they wanted was a cunt to fuck.
As if reading her mind, Robard added, "Think about it. Don't put the idea down until you've tried it on for size." He stared intently at her, half praying his calm and his words would work on her. Sure he wanted sex with her. What man wouldn't want a beautiful actress in bed with him any hour of the day or night. But it was more than that. He knew that in bed he could give her peace, and perhaps even the answer she was looking for. Sitting there in the living room, rehashing the past and sinking deeper into fatalism and depression, was no answer.
He felt like getting up immediately and sitting down beside her on the sofa. He'd hold her in his arms, show her what he meant.
But something inside him again told him that that would not be the right approach. Ryan was not just a lesbian, but a special kind of woman. The best thing was to give her room to breathe and consider, give her space.
Ryan was ready to blurt out bitter reproach, but she was listening to him. He had asked her to consider. Now she was doing just that. His gray eyes rested calmly on her, giving her time and providing the needed support for that time. Robard was no stereotype of a man. She felt guilty for even accusing him of it in her mind.
"Okay," she said with the sureness of a split second decision.
Robard grinned back at her, uttering a sigh of relief.
"Tremendous. Let's go to bed," he said jumping up from the chair and moving toward the sofa. Ryan rose to meet him. She stretched out her hand and he _ok it, kissing her wrist, nuzzling it comfortingly. Then he put his arms around her shoulders and pulled her to him.
The merest touch of her cool flesh sent his cock pounding, lifting the towel up in the air, jutting against her belly. He felt her catch her breath as she felt the insistency of his penis.
He looked down between them and smiled back up at her.
"It has a will of its own. But I can handle it. You do what you want. If bed means just sleeping with someone's arm around you, I can get into that."
Ryan wrapped her arms around his shoulders, squeezing him close to her. She did not know what she felt or what she wanted. But the closeness of his body the wideness of his powerful shoulders, were compelling. They were something to hold on to which was not going to vanish in her arms. He was solid.
"Let's just see what happens." The bobbing insistence of his cock made her blush slightly. There was no subtlety in a man's sex urge. She had always held that against them before. But now its directness was appealing. She at least knew where she stood.
"You don't mind?" he continued. She grinned back.
"You want me to get down on my knees and blow you to prove it?" she replied quickly. Robard stepped back slightly. He wasn't sure whether she was angry, resentful, or just trying to be funny.
"You're pretty graphic tonight, Ry."
"I'm sick of pussy-footing women. Sick enough of it to vomit. I mean that, Rob. There's something about a man's cock that doesn't play games," she added wryly.
"That's one way of looking at it." The strength of her tone had wrought a change, however. Her vulnerability had lessened. And his cock was drooping as a result.
Boldly, Ryan reached down and grabbed his penis under the towel. Her hand seemed to be examining it at first, almost clinically, but soon the touch turned to a caress. As her long fingers stroked its length, Rob's cock responded with an even more violent erection. The feel of her hand pumping his cock, grazing the heavy sack of his balls, knocked the wind out of him.
Robard took her finely chiseled head in both hands and stared at her. She met his gaze firmly.
"You're quite a woman," was all he could think to mutter. He brought their mouths close to each other. Ryan's eyelids fluttered shut and her lips moved to touch his. The next second found their tongues entwined, toying with each other, voraciously searching and sucking. Unlike this afternoon, she was holding nothing back. He felt the full brunt of her passion centered on him. The heat of it made something snap inside him. The calm, civilized man in him broke down. He wanted her anyway he could. He would throw her down on the rug and fuck her. He wanted her mouth devouring his prick. Then he wanted to plunge it into her cunt. The violence of it was rape.
Slowly, she eased off. The force of her tongue and mouth lessened. Robard found himself regaining control. His rough grip of her head relaxed. He stroked her hair, wondering at its long silkiness. He began responding to her breathing, the pounding of her heart against him.
Their lips closed on each other in a tenderer version of a kiss.
"Wow," he said, coming up for air. He couldn't think of anything else to say. He tried to think and couldn't.
"Let's go to bed," she said. Her voice was now rich and sure. He let his hands slip down her back and rest on the outward curve of her shapely ass. What was going on in that beautiful head of hers? He wondered. He felt as if he were now the object of every kind of sexual energy she had in her. The girl he had seduced and possessed that afternoon was gone. He was now dealing with a woman who wanted something and was out to get it. If only he knew what it really was she was after.
He felt her fingers moving up and down his naked back. Finally, like his own, they came to rest on his hard ass. Her mouth moved in towards his. She kissed him gently.
"I thought you wanted to go to bed," he said, softly, nuzzling her soft cheek.
"Maybe not just yet," she replied. He tensed for a second.
"You change your mind?"
Ryan didn't bother to reply. She bent her body slightly and began moving her lips over his bristly chin and down his thick neck. She tasted his flesh, the male odor of it, its saltiness. The aggressive urge in her was transforming everything. A man was her prey. She appreciated his body as she had only done to a woman.
Her lips reached a nipple on his broad, hairy chest. The light odor of sweat invaded her nostrils from the closeness of his armpit. Even that smell excited her, where once she had been revolted. She licked his nipple as she would have another woman. She wondered vaguely how he would react. Would it excite him? She didn't really care now, because she wanted it. What she wanted was all that counted at this moment in time.
Robard began to murmur something, then the sound in this throat changed to a soft groan of pleasure as her teeth grazed the point of flesh and her lips sucked it. Something inside him realized instinctively that she was making love to him in her most private, intense way. His cock began pounding against her lower belly. The pleasure of her mouth on him made him feel his body in a way he never had before.
"You're making me into a sex object," he whispered, trying to make it into a joke.
"I like that. Don't you?" she replied, straightening up suddenly and confronting him. He turned his head slightly so he wouldn't have to meet her interrogation.
He couldn't lie. "Yes," he whispered, grinding his cock against her. "Yes, I do."
Ryan suddenly pulled back. She wanted to look at him in the dim light of the living room. Her hands caressed his chest muscles. His flesh was hot and beginning to sweat under the soft mat of hair. His cock bobbed against the towel to remind her of its presence. Her eyes dropped to it immediately. She knew now what she wanted.
She knelt down abruptly on the rug, pulling the towel off him and tossing it on the floor. His large prick jerked up free from the jungle of pubic hair at his crotch. She sniffed the sweet odor of the precum dribbling out of its tip.
Before he knew quite what was happening, Robard felt her soft lips enclose the head of his shaft. His balls pulled up violently. He was more excited than he had ever known before. He wondered if he was going to suddenly shoot into her mouth without any preliminaries.
"You want to take it?" he asked hoarsely. She replied by sucking down his rod until her nose buried itself in his crotch. She could feel the muscles of her throat gulp and contract on his thick meat. Slowly at first, then picking up speed, she began sucking up and down the full length of his prick. The hotness of her mouth, the softness of the flesh inside it, and the play of her tongue were too much for him. He was going to shoot into her throat with the quick eagerness of an adolescent. His body was out of control. He had to warn her.
"Ry, I'm going to ... " He couldn't complete the sentence. He felt his balls pull up tight to his flexing rod. She brushed them with the tips of her fingers. It was needless coaxing. In the next second, sperm exploded from his balls and shot up his shaft. His prick jerked violently in her gulping throat as it sent its first creamy load splattering against the back of her mouth.
Ryan moaned softly as she swallowed Robard's cum. Her face was flushed. All she could concentrate on was the spasm of his penis, the hot jet of sperm, tasting it briefly, and then gulping it down greedily. She wanted his seed badly, and she didn't know why. It was irrational, animal. She wanted to eat a man. Have a man in her belly.
As he shot his last load into her mouth, Robard doubled over. His hand went down to her head. He ran his fingers through her hair. His cock jerked again, renewed by the silky feeling running through his fingers. He felt his balls totally drained. They would ache tomorrow. They always did when he came violently like this.
His cock began softening, but still Ryan did not want to take the male thing from her mouth. She was afraid of uncoupling, afraid of the separation. She did not want to face what she had done or think about it. She wanted it to continue on.
"Ryan?" he said quietly, but with a plaintive tone. She released his cock, letting the bulbous head slip out from between her lips. She stared at his hairy thighs. Her hands went out to them, stroking the sides, then running up to his small tight ass. It was covered in fine sweat like the rest of his body. She held both muscular cheeks cupped in her hand. The lack of softness in his body excited her. It was what she needed now.
She rose up unsteadily to her feet. A silly grin played along the ribbon of her lips as she finally looked him in the eye.
"I just ate you up," she said. Her voice was like a little girl's.
Robard leaned forward and kissed her softly on the cheek.
"Let's hit the sack," he said.
Dex thought of going home, but the last thing on earth that she wanted to do was run into Ryan. There was no telling what kind of a scene Ryan might put on. Dex knew that she could not sit there and watch Ryan tearfully packing.
And she didn't much feel like seeing either Madge or Robard, either. Both of them would be sympathetic, of course, but neither could really understand. Then, too, she always felt that Robard, for one, was always on Ryan's side, even if he never said as much. She wondered if Ryan and Robard had ever really made love together. Sure, she had accused Ryan of it many times. That very evening she had again told Ryan to go off to Robard for comfort. But she didn't really believe it. Ryan was a woman's woman. That seemed sure enough.
No, there was nobody she could call on. Besides, it was late. Everybody had Monday obligations.
She, herself, should go someplace where it would be possible to catch a few hours of sleep, undisturbed. The thought made Dex laugh with futility. Sleep. Her body felt geared into high. Ready to leap and run. Vibrating with excess energy, she felt like the doomed brigade. Life seemed to be closing in on all sides.
When Dex looked up, she saw that she had circled Gena's neighborhood. Now she stood across the street from Gena's house and realized that her legs had been unwilling to carry her away. She might be willing to let go of Ryan but with Gena she was not yet ready to admit defeat. There was too much of herself at stake to give up so easily.
Resolutely, Dex crossed, not knowing what she would say to Gena when she confronted her again. Dex knew only that she intended to spend the night with the girl. Sleep in Gena's bed. Mak either own.
When Dex tried the door to Gena's apartment, it was open. She faced the girl abruptly.
Gena was sitting on the living room couch, both legs up over the arms, talking on the phone. She held the receiver cradled between shoulder and chin. Her lips curved in the old, devilish smile. Rapidly, she was filing the nails of her right hand and blowing on them as though to make sure that the polish had dried.
She stopped in the middle of a sentence as Dex came In.
Dex didn't have to be told what she was interrupting.
Gena said into the phone, "All right, I'll be there in a few minutes," her voice was hurried but soft.
She dropped the receiver into the cradle. Then she turned her head to face Dex. Gena's bright smile did not match the soft voice she'd been using.
"Well, you're back fast," Gena said, and the voice was bright again.
Too bright, Dex thought. And much too impersonally good-natured. Obviously, Gena was being distracted by something or someone else.
"I've come to stay," Dex said.
She walked to the sofa and flopped down on the cushion farthest from Gena. Stretching out her legs, she wanted to convince herself that it was possible to relax in Gena's company. But her body felt like coiled steel.
"That's nice," Gena said neutrally. She swung her legs from the couch arm and got up.
Dex watched Gena saunter toward the tiny bathroom. Gena closed the door between them. The sound of water running into the sink reached Dex's ears.
When the door opened again, Gena looked freshly combed. It was three in the morning, but she seemed ready for a tea party.
Dex didn't feel that Gena had fixed her appearance for the sake of their blossoming romance.
"Don't you ever sleep?" Dex said.
"I'm a night pussycat." She went to a closet and took out a cotton jacket.
The jacket was a stylized version of the one she had seen on Morton. A woman's safari type. It fit Gena neatly. As she pulled in the wide belt, her tiny waistline became emphasized. The firm ass jutted proudly and the muscle line of her thighs showed through the narrow cut of her slacks.
"You can't be going anywhere at this hour," Dex said, wanting Gena to admit the truth.
"No. No place important, anyway. You go to sleep, Dex. I'll be home in a little while."
Dex swallowed as she felt the anger beginning to rise. If only there were a way to trap Gena. But Gena's personality was like a mist. Dex could be blinded by it but she could find nothing solid to grab hold of and deal with effectively.
"Maybe I ought to go with you," Dex offered.
"Oh, don't bother. I'm used to getting around by myself, you know."
Gena did not hide her defiance. She dropped her small leather wallet into one of the jacket pockets and headed for the door.
Dex reacted without thinking. She sprang from the couch and put herself between Gena and the door to block Gena's exit.
"I don't think you ought to go anywhere," Dex said, her voice breathless. "Stay here with me. It's our first night together. We shouldn't have any interference, should we?"
Gena turned slightly away from Dex. "Well, I'm only going for some milk, anyway. You can't call that much of an interference." She laughed softly but uncomfortably.
Dex felt her cheeks burn. She wondered how Gena could lie so easily, so completely and without shame.
"How come you expect me to believe something so stupid as that," Dex said, her voice low and poised.
Gena raised her shoulders and held them there, awkwardly. "You started this," she said.
"You're not going to start twisting my words around, either," Dex said, anticipating Gena's method of fighting. "Either I go with you. Or you don't go out," Dex said flatly.
Gena pushed out her lower jaw. The impishness left her face. In its place came determination.
"I never asked you to come up here. I never even gave you my address. Why are you bothering me?"
Frustration shattered Dex's thinking. She picked Gena up and carried her back to the couch. The girl's feet kicked into Dex's thighs and knees but she felt no pain, felt nothing but the numb insistence throughout her being that Gena not make a fool of her tonight ... or ever again.
Dex flung her down and watched Gena bounce.
"I know you want Morton," Dex rasped. "That's where you're off to, isn't it."
"So what if I am. You can't tell me what to do I don't know you."
"You know me plenty," Dex forced Gena back down as she began to lift up from the couch. "You just watch yourself, missy. I'm not in a mood for your kind of lying shenanigans."
"You get out of here." Gena's voice was shrill.
Dex's, hand went back. It arced forward. She heard the sharp slap and felt it stinging across her palm. Gena snapped backward, her face drained of color and the nostrils flared. She did not look frightened. Her anger was like the rise of volcanic lava that finally bubbles up and over the top. She snapped her mouth, and the front teeth came down on Dex's fingers.
Dex flung herself on top of the girl and pinned her fast. She drove her knee up and concentrated on that sensation till Gena relaxed the grip of her jaws.
Gena fell back panting. She shut her eyes. The swallowing movement in her throat was like convulsions, and she turned her face into the back loose cushions, to bury her nose and mouth there. Dex heard the sobs that tore through Gena's body. They were sounds of despair. Of defeat. Dex let go of her and leaned over. She put her lips to Gena's hot cheek.
"Can't you see?" Dex said. "Morton didn't do you any good. None at all or you'd be with her. But you and I ... maybe we have a chance. We're a lot alike, darling. You're young and you want to live. I've been buried in a back room someplace for too many years. And now I want to live, too."
Gena stuck an arm out and tried to push Dex away.
Dex sighed. She could not tell what Gena's motives were. Was she being stubborn out of a sense of humiliation? Did she have to conquer Morton before she gave her up?
"Why don't you talk to me?" Dex said. "If you don't tell me what's on your mind, I won't know what to do."
She waited until the sobbing subsided. When she felt sure that Gena would stay put and not bolt for the door, Dex went to the bathroom. She found a washcloth, wet it in cold water and brought it back.
Gena took the cloth and put it to her eyes. Then she wiped her face and forehead, gradually coming back to a quieter balance. After a few minutes, she sat up, her eyelids red and swollen and staring with concentrated thought at the design of the worn carpet.
"You'll never know," she said simply.
Dex felt herself beginning to relax. "Try me."
"Morton is waiting for me right now. I promised to go there. She'll never believe that you nailed me to the wall."
"You make it sound as though I crucified you."
"You did."
Gena sounded glum. The despair was thick and forever. There was no arguing her emotion. No trying to cajole her out of it with reason.
At the same time, what was the sense in preventing Gena from going to Morton, since she believed that having Morton was having the pinnacle of love?
Dex struggled against a surge of humiliation that threatened to overturn her own good sense. Gena was too young to know that throwing herself at Morton was a waste.
"All right," Dex said. "You're going to spend your life thinking of me as the black pirate if! keep you from your lover girl. Go on. Go to Morton. I only hope she manages to make it worth your while."
Gena put her palm to her forehead. "And if I go, how are you going to embarrass me later? Shall I expect you to come barging in at us around sunup?"
"You don't understand me, Gena. I'm not going to make a single footstep in your direction. Not ever again. You're going to walk out of here and go to Morton. As far as I'm concerned, you're going to the devil ... and I'll never expect you back."
Dex saw Gena examining her with surprise and disbelief.
"Okay," Dex said, standing up. "I'll be on my way now, and you do what you want."
Gena pursed her lips. "How can you change your mind back and forth so many times? First you come dashing in here like a madwoman. Then you fly out. Then you're back. Now you're leaving again."
Dex smiled despite herself at the accurate description.
"I know. I'm acting nuts, Gena, because I thought that we had a chance. But the minute you drag Morton in on everything, that's the end. I don't share anything I have with her."
"Why not?" Gena's face wrinkled with curiosity. "What've you got in particular against Morton?"
"Stay with her for a couple of years and you'll see. But just for openers, she's what is known as a human sewer. Everybody, and I mean everybody, has a go of it in her bed."
Unable to find words, Dex strode away from the couch and from Gena's essential innocence. No matter what Gena did, no matter how many lies she told or how insincerely she lived, Gena could never understand Morton until a number of years had piled the crud on good and thick. Dex swallowed her hopelessness. It was a crime for Gena to waste her life and spirit with Morton. She'd be out on the street again in a couple of weeks. But Morton would keep her on the string. Using her. Dragging her back and forth whenever there was a lull among her new lovers.
"Don't forget," Gena cut into Dex's thinking, "this isn't going to be my first time with her."
"I realize that," Dex answered softly. "And unfortunately, it isn't going to be your last time with her, either."
Gena got up and came over to where Dex was standing near a window.
"But can't you see?" Gena pleaded. "I just can't let Morton get the better of me."
Dex looked down at Gena's clear eyes. Suddenly she wondered why it was so important for the girl to convince her that she had good reason for going back to Morton tonight.
"You can't let her get the better of you," Dex repeated. "But can't you see that she already has?"
CHAPTER NINE
As Dex heard herself speaking, it was as if a whole new world of horrors was opening to suck her in. Did she want Gena so much, so completely that she could settle for the position of second in line after Morton?
"Don't leave me," Gena's voice reached out as Dex began to edge toward the door. "Don't let me face Morton all by myself. You can't let me down now, Dex. You said you loved me."
Dex saw the sudden wretchedness bubbling up from deep inside the girl. All the surface playfulness had dissolved. Gena stood naked within the bitter anxiety of her own young, helpless state. She was no match for Morton and she knew it. Only, now, she was finally letting Dex in on her carefully guarded secret.
"But you were going to see her without me," Dex said. "And you were quite sure of yourself."
Gena flung herself against Dex's chest. "I have to trust someone," she sobbed, her words muffled but warm in the polo shirt. "And you're the only one I have. I believe in you, Dex. I need you to help me, can't you see that?"
Dex touched the soft crown of Gena's hair. The hair felt moist as a baby's. The scalp, hot and perspiring, pressed itself gratefully into Dex's hand.
"How can I help you?" Dex said softly. "If you think you love Morton, you'll have to go through that battleground all by yourself."
"Maybe I can forget her." Gena's voice was tight, the tone desperate. "Maybe you can take me away somewhere. We'll have a good time. I'll give you everything you want, that's a promise."
Dex smiled softly down at the girl and sighed. "Sounds beautiful, dear. But you know it can't work out. Wherever we go, it'll be the same thing. You'll kiss me and wish I were Morton."
Dex took the girl by both shoulders and moved her out to arm's length.
"If you let go of me," Gena said, "that might be the end of everything. Dex. I want to be good. I want to love someone decent and live a decent life together. Why won't you let me try? Why can't you take the chance?"
As Dex gazed into the wide, troubled eyes, she felt her own firm resolve begin to weaken. Maybe it was possible. Gena's idea could work if Gena really meant what she said. After all, the girl was nobody's fool. She didn't want to be stepped on and dragged through all the gutters of hell.
"I left Morton the first time, you know." She struggled to smile. "Maybe something inside knew that better days were coming."
"You left Morton? She didn't throw you out?"
"That's right."
Dex paused. All her instincts told her that Gena was twisting the truth around. But why should she? If she were Morton's slave, then she would be running off now instead of trying to save herself.
Dex let go of Gena's body and let her hands drop to her sides. Suddenly, she felt plunged down into the pit of a whirling vortex of indecision. There seemed no way to decide how to proceed.
"Well?" Gena said softly. "Are you going to stand there and let me walk out of your life just like that?"
Everything rose up in Dex to say: Get the hell out.
"If you come with me," Dex said, the words stiff and measured, "we leave tonight. No good-byes to anyone. Nothing. Just drop all the old threads and go."
Gena's sudden, blossoming smile stifled the sound of Dex's impulsive daring. It blinded her to the knowledge of her own wishful dreaming. She knew only that this was her moment. No matter what happened afterward; at least now she was making the attempt. Giving all of herself and all of her energies to have Gena and keep her forever.
"I won't even pack a suitcase," Gena said. She caught Dex's hand in her own and squeezed it. "Let's go."
They were the very words Dex had wanted to hear from Ryan so many years ago. But she had never heard them until this moment. The nerves beneath her flesh made connections with each other, infusing her body with a new strength of force and will. It was a surge of power that Dex could believe. It felt good. It felt right. Her dream, coming true at last, was exactly the right size and shape, tailor-made to the size of reality.
Dex did not stop to ask herself the normal and logical questions. Survival would be hers. Theirs. Together.
"Only take a jacket," Dex said. "You'll need one where we're going."
Wordlessly, Gena obeyed. She took a heavy old mackinaw from the closet and draped it over one arm.
They left the apartment together, slamming the door and running down the steps without once looking back.
Dex found a cab parked at the corner. She pushed Gena in ahead of her and directed the driver to Grand Central Station. Beside her, she could feel Gena's warm glow of optimism. Glancing at the girl, she wondered where Gena got the control not to ask a million questions about where they were going and what they would find at the far end of their journey. Yet Gena did not seem to need control. She radiated contentment much more than expectation. What mattered most to her was that she was being plucked, miraculously, out of the jaws of Morton's flesh trap. And it was salvation that glowed, warming her back to life.
When they reached the station, Dex sat Gena down near the train gates, bought her a hot dog and an orange drink and went off to get the tickets. The big hall milled with people. An atmosphere of timelessness pervaded the high-vaulted room. Both light and air were artificial and continuous. The echoing announcements of arrivals and departures seemed to be emanating from a huge machine both timeless and deathless.
Dex stood for a few minutes on the short line that moved rapidly up to the teller. Tomorrow, when they had reached the town, she would wire her bank for money. The years of saving had been for something, after all, she realized. With the money in her fist, she could buy a good cabin on a couple of acres beside the lake. In time, they would expand the house. Until then, they would scrape along on whatever she could earn either working in town or free lance. Even out there in the sticks, there must be some companies who could benefit from her knowledge of advertising.
But all of that was tomorrow and the days after.
"We'll check into the local hotel," Dex said as they walked along the rickety platform.
The air smelled of grass and spring wildflowers. A noontime siren went off far in the distance. The sound curved across the bright sky airy with slow moving puffs of clouds. The train pulled out of the station and gathered speed, cutting through the hills. The two women paused to watch it disappear. Dex crossed her arms over the rumpled mackinaw that she held. Neither of them had slept during the five-hour ride. Now a sense of desolation born of fatigue surrounded them. Who could predict what the future held, here, without city or friends to lean on?
The local taxi drove them to a small place in town. Dex felt heartened as memories returned. She spoke a few words with the desk clerk who remembered her. He gave her a copy of the local newspaper and took them upstairs to a large room that overlooked the circular center of the village.
With a sigh, Gena flopped down onto the bed, stretching arms and legs wide.
Dex went to the window and drew the curtain aside. She looked down upon the few cars moving at an easy pace. Some men came out of the grain and feed store with sacks balanced on their shoulders. A spotted dog lay in front of the post office and two boys stood beside him in a strip of shade cast by the shadow of a flag. An atmosphere of peace without the threat of pressure contrasted severely with the gears in Dex's head.
"How are you doing?" she said to Gena without looking at her.
"My head aches. I need a toothbrush."
She reeled off a list of complaints, all trivial, in a cranky voice.
"I feel exactly the same way," Dex consoled her.
She dropped the paper onto the seat of a worn reading chair and came over to the edge of the bed.
Gena smiled up at her. She poked a finger at Dex's knee. "Do you suppose we ought to get some sleep?"
Dex nodded. Her brain felt spongy, her eyelids twinged with heaviness and burning. She sat down with her back toward Gena and bent over to take off her shoes.
Gena's fingertips went under the polo shirt. One nail traced a slow and lazy line up the ridges of Dex's back. Dex shuddered as the fingers spoke to her. She pulled off her socks and stretched out her toes, staring at them. Soon, she would take Gena down to the river and they would swim together, naked. Slowly, she started telling Gena about the river and how it was in summer, the clear water spilling across the rocks. People seemed to find their own private bends in the river so that one never had to worry much about intruders.
As she talked, she got the rest of her clothing off. When she turned to face Gena again, Dex was naked.
She watched Gena focusing on the center point of one breast. Under the girl's steady gaze she felt the nipple come alive, stiffen and stand out.
"I want to kiss you," Gena whispered. She slid her hand along Dex's arm and grasped her by the elbow.
Dex leaned over till her body covered Gena's mouth. She felt the tongue dart forward. Its cold wet tip touched her nipple. The sensation spiraled through her, shooting pleasure through her breast and down deep into the moistening recesses of her cunt. Dex felt the last remaining shreds of her strength give way.
Gena's hands went down to catch hold of her thighs. Her arms clung in a tightening circle as she pulled Dex's cunt to her mouth. Her small tongue licked over the swelling labia, searching for the clit in its hood of flesh. Dex caught her breath as Gena found the knob of flesh and sucked it between her lips. She felt her clit stiffen and a gushing feeling rush through her cunt. Gena licked her crack, sniffing the juice wetting down the rich folds of flesh. The girl's surprising strength lifted Dex and turned her. She came down touching Gena's body.
"No fair," Dex smiled. "You've got your clothes on."
"You can do something about that."
Dex balanced on one side and began to undo the rumpled clothing.
"I think we'll send these things out to the cleaner while we're asleep."
Gena laughed. "You think of the damnedest things at the damnedest times."
"You'll thank me later."
Dex rolled Gena under the sheet until she had given their things over to the errand boy who came to their door.
Then Dex closed and locked it. The tiredness that seeped through her created a dream world. She moved back toward the bed. Walking took on the sensation of swimming through a cool green world, translucent but far, far down away from sounds of human life.
She touched the edge of the sheet that was fitted tightly across Gena's breasts. Gena lifted her back to help, and the sheet came loose. Dex drew it down, revealing the young breasts with their pink, just-ripe centers. As she stared at them, Dex felt her mouth fill. She was like a shark grown hungry at the first sight and scent of delicious morsels.
"Why are you standing there?" Gena whispered.
"Am I?"
Dex wasn't quite sure what she was doing, standing or lying suspended at the ocean's bottom. Something inside her relaxed, and she dropped forward onto the bed. Into Gena's open and waiting embrace.
They were alone now. Far from all possible interference. For the first time they were being together, each without a past, each with only the other as a future.
Gena put the sheet around Dex and drew her close beneath the covers. Their body warmth met and mingled. Dex pressed her mouth against Gena's. Her lips separated and drew Dex's tongue inside the soft wet flesh, sucking the tongue, slipping their lips together. Their faces flushed with the heat of their lovemaking.
Dex moved her hand over the girl's breasts. The nipples were pointed and hard. She rubbed them gently at first, then with greater strength until Gena began to writhe and moan on the bed.
Gena opened her mouth wider as if to devour the wet lips and thrusting tongue. All the exhaustion disappeared as the two women grew greedier for each other's body. Dex worked the flat palm of her hand over the stiff young nipples, then kneaded and pulled them with her fingers. A small cry escaped from Gena's taut throat. She thrust her tongue against Dex's, fighting, teasing the woman's tongue in her mouth, then pushed it between Dex's lips and inside the woman's mouth. Gena ran her hands up and down Dex's sides, panting heavily as her tongue explored her lover's mouth. Then the girl's hands moved to the woman's breasts.
One touch of their rich fullness, the melon shape cupped in her small palm and then the rubbery stiffness of the nipples sent her tongue diving down Dex's throat. She moaned again as she pulled the woman's tits. She wiggled out from under Dex's kiss and caught her breath.
Gena wanted Dex's breasts in her mouth. Before Dex knew what Gena wanted, she pushed her up higher off the bed and wriggled down to take the nipple between her lips. Dex gasped as the tongue licked around it and Gena's small teeth grazed and teased it. She continued to hold Gena's breasts in her hand, pulling the points of flesh in time with Gena's mouth sucking on her.
Gena pulled her mouth off the swelling breast and licked all over it. She wanted to go down, to breath deeper the rich odor of sex, drink the juices from Dex's cunt. She began forcing herself down under Dex's body. Dex grabbed hold of her under her arms.
"Not yet," Dex panted. "Not that way." Gena peered up at her with a puzzled expression. Dex reached down and ran her fingers through the blonde curly head, then reached further .to caress the girl's tender lips.
Dex pushed her finger inside the small, hot mouth. Gena licked it greedily, then sucked it. Dex pulled the wet finger out of her mouth and ran it down the firm belly until she reached the bush of soft blond curls at her crotch. She ran her finger around in circles, feeling the fleshy cunt lips swell and separate and grow moist. Then she found Gena's clitoris emerging from its hood of flesh. Gena gasped.
"Ooh, yes," she moaned as Dex worked her nib of flesh into full stiffness, then drove her finger into the girl's cunt.
Gena's hands had been resting on the mattress, pressing against it from time to time as shivers of pleasure raced through her. Now she set them to work. She moved them down Dex's full round ass, digging into the flesh with her finger nails, clutching at the two globes. Her fingertips found the crevice and worked their way to Dex's asshole and pushed against the puckered muscle. Dex jumped with surprise as she felt the small finger try to enter her.
"Do it lower," Dex muttered, slipping her fingers in and out of the girl's juicy cunt.
Gena understood immediately. Her fingers rushed to Dex's cunt and pushed between the slippery lips. Dex gasped as she felt the small fingers work inside her, then match the rhythm of her own fingers in Gena's pussy.
Their breathing was coming in short pants now. Dex felt her lips going dry as her neck stretched back involuntarily, as if pulling the pleasure from her cunt throughout her whole body. The finger working inside her was delicious, but not enough.
Dex slipped away from the hand and moved her body around. She straddled Gena's head.
"Yes," moaned the girl. "Give me your pussy now." Gena's tongue fluttered out from between her lips as Dex lowered her crotch down to the girl's face. The first flick of the hot tongue inside her sent a violent spasm through her body.
Dex licked Gena's belly and then clasped her mouth down on the girl's wide-open cunt. The red gash of flesh met her tongue. In seconds Dex was sucking the swollen cunt lips and flicking her tongue deep inside the vulva. Gena's juices rolled over her tongue. Her odor filled her nostrils. She pressed her face in deeper, working her lips, sucking the juices as she felt Gena doing the same.
Hands and mouths worked. Sweat sprang up on the surfaces of flesh. Knees dug into the mattress, searching for steadier balance.
They fell onto their sides, oblivious yet searching, forced on by the urgent demands of flesh and nerves.
Their flicking tongues whipped passion higher. Their bodies curved and clashed and stiffened. Finally, they urged each other up and over the hilltop into great fulfilling convulsions of ecstasy ...
Sensations rolled in long waves, driving them long distances as they moaned and sucked their gushing cunts, draining the last drops of the waking dream, sending them into the farthest, darkest depths of exhausted sleep.
Even as they slept they lay together entwined. Relaxing muscles drank in new energy. Flesh refreshed itself. Mouths lay half open, lax and dry lipped. Perspiration cooled.
They slept on into the middle of the afternoon, making love intermittently, surfacing for a while into wakefulness, then dozing again.
They came awake at last, refreshed and pleas ant to each other.
Gena started to say something. Dex put a finger to the girl's mouth.
"I know," Dex smiled. "You're hungry."
Gena laughed aloud. "How'd you guess?"
CHAPTER TEN
The real-estate broker looked up from his list. "I guess that's all the properties I have available in your price range just now, ladies."
Dex nodded. "Thank you for your trouble."
She walked out of the office and back to the rented car where Gena sat waiting. They had been looking at cabins and houses and plots of land for almost a week. Yet nothing they saw had fitted their dreams. Gena had grown gradually more irritable with each passing disappointment. She no longer wanted to go trekking through the countryside and stayed behind in the car while Dex continued with the pioneering.
Dex climbed in behind the wheel. "No dice," she said glumly.
"Uh huh. I didn't think so." Gena picked absently at a cuticle. "And that's the last place, isn't it."
Dex tried to maintain her optimism as she threw the shift stick into reverse and backed out of the gravel drive.
"Well, it's a pretty big country. We'll find something."
Dex waited, but Gena voiced no objection. They had talked about earning a living. Whether or not to get work while they were looking for a place to live or wait until they were settled down. The subject had trickled on and off all during the week. Once Gena had mentioned the possibility of moving closer to a metropolis but Dex had vetoed the idea. Living in Albany was only one small step away from moving back to New York.
"I don't want to go back to that grimy hotel," Gena commented into the silence.
"Then we won't." Dex stared at the dirt roads as the car rattled into spring potholes. She could feel something heavy looming overhead, waiting to drop. "We'll do whatever you like, dear."
Gena twisted around and pressed her body against the car door. "Whatever I like? That's a laugh."
Dex swallowed her anger. "For someone who's supposed to be interested in this project, you're not much of a help."
"I can't help," Gena answered without looking at Dex. "I don't know these back woods of yours. This isn't my territory. You're the Indian, Dex. You find us what we have to have."
"You don't seem to like anything I find."
Gena grunted with contempt. "Just find something without ants swarming all over the place and I'll be fine."
But Dex knew that the problem lay much deeper than ants. After their first day together, Gena had set herself up to be dissatisfied. At one house it had been the ants. At another it had been that the windows were too small. As the trivial reasons became obstacles to definite action, Dex had forced herself to examine the truth.
"Look, Gena," she said now. "You don't want us to take on one of the houses. You don't want to go back to the hotel. Maybe we will go to Albany after all."
Gena cleared her throat. "I've changed my mind about that," she said. "It's going to be dismal there. I just know it."
Dex remained silent. Gena's answer came as no surprise. "There's no pleasing you. Not out here, anyway." She glanced into the rearview mirror and watched bits of the village come and go in the scrap of reflection. Summer was coming on, but Gena hadn't been impressed at the idea of swimming in the river. Walking in the hills tired her unaccustomed feet.
"Supposing we go back to New York," Dex said, with a scientific calm.
Gena looked up from her fingernails. "You don't really want to do that." Her voice lifted with hope.
"But I will"
"I guess that's what you really want, Dex," Gena replied with energy. "You can go back to your old job and earn a decent living again. We'll get an apartment. A big, airy place up high. I'll decorate it and keep things nice and clean for you. I'm very orderly, Dex. You'll like living with me."
Dex heard in Gena's tone the first true signs of life since they'd gotten off the train. She nosed the car south toward the highway, wanting, somehow, to drive all the way home. Be alone with Gena, unmolested. A last five or six hours. Let the dream come to its end gradually, like a ship docking in from Europe.
"It's been fun," Dex muttered. She stepped hard on the gas pedal, merging the car into highway traffic.
They stopped at Hot Shoppes along the way. Every so often, Gena asked if they could maybe find a motel off the road instead of going directly home. Dex said no. She could not bring herself to linger, not even for the purpose of making love. Rather, she preferred to drive the ear at high speed with the radio on. She listened to the different stations coming through until at last, she recognized a beam-from New York City.
A pale wash of dusk rose from the horizon and the air began to smell pungent with fumes. The odor brought back memories. Dex realized that inside her a network of feelings were beginning to stir. Expectancy rose with images attached. The sensation of Gena beside her began to lose its poignancy. Dex wondered if the lock on the door had been changed, if she would be able to unlock when she got home.
Home. The word sounded strange to her. Her apartment with Ryan was still home.
Dex paid the last toll and entered the city traffic that lumbered across the bridge. She glanced down the Hudson at the skyline half-lost in haze and growing darkness. The string of lights along Riverside Drive burned through the mist. She circled onto the Drive and headed toward the city, changing lanes frequently but smoothly among the more laggard cars.
As they entered the streets, Gena sat up and began to watch the people.
"We're going to my place?" she said.
"Yes."
Dex added nothing beyond that. Maybe it wasn't playing fair not to clue Gena in, yet what was there to say? Gena might know better than to expect a continuation of their affair in that stuffy room that seemed to be choking on its oversized bed.
She backed into a parking space around the corner from Gena's house. Taking the crumpled mackinaw from the rear seat, Dex followed Gena to the building.
Gena's steps were rapid and strident with a certain unmistakable urgency. Dex smiled with the ghost of remembered satisfactions. They had done well in bed together. If nowhere else, they got along between the sheets.
Dex felt a warm impulse to take the girl's hand. She settled for touching the girl lightly on the shoulder as they came to the house.
Gena tilted her chin up. There was a playful little smile tugging at her lips which reminded Dex of the night Gena had first asked her to dance. Only the veneer of innocence was gone now. In its place, something deeper; something a little bit more sure of itself in the world.
They climbed the steps, slowing at each level and looking at each other.
Dex could not longer fool herself that Gena did not realize what was about to happen. Only Gena did not look helpless. She seemed rather peaceful, as though she recognized her part in the chain of events.
When they reached Gena's door, she felt beneath the mat and stood up with the key.
Was that how she was leaving forever? Dex asked herself. Or had Gena known the inevitability of her return.
The girl opened the door and turned to motion Dex inside.
"It's been a long trip," Dex said. "You try to get some sleep." She put her fingertips to the hair at her temples and smoothed back the few fallen wisps.
"What are you going to do?" Gena asked.
"The same."
The scent of Ryan's perfume hit her as she opened her apartment door. Ryan hadn't changed the lock. Everything seemed strangely as it had been.
Dex listened for Ryan. Someone was in the bedroom. She sighed wearily, prophesying a bitter fight between them.
Dex gritted her teeth and headed for the bed room.
"Ryan?" she called out in warning, letting Ryan know she was back. There was no answer.
Dex entered the bedroom. Ryan was sitting in front of the dressing table mirror, applying makeup. She wheeled around suddenly as Dex entered.
"Welcome home, Dex," said Ryan simply. Her eyes examined Dex from head to toe. She felt calm. Something had told her Dex would be back, and there she was.
"Aren't you ... " muttered Dex, not knowing quite what to say.
"I'm not surprised. I'm not mad. I'm happy you're home, Dex. It's as simple as that."
"Christ, have you changed," Dex let out in one breath, then kicked herself mentally for saying anything so wrong.
"Yes, I have," replied Ryan, getting up and moving toward Dex. "And you're beautiful" She reached out her hand and rested it on Dex's shoulder. "No change there," added Ryan.
Dex felt her head reel. Ryan's welcome hit her like an explosion. The impact was so powerful it was beyond pleasure or pain. She didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Her body answered for her. Tears welled up in her eyes as she reached for Ryan.
Suddenly they were clutching each other close together, running their hands up each other's back, then their lips met.
"Darling," murmured Dex as she slipped her tongue gently between Ryan's velvety lips.
Tenderness gave way to passion. Without knowing how, they both found themselves on the bed, pulling clothes off each other, kissing nipples, breasts, arms, thighs.
At last they found the position. Laying on their sides they pressed their hot mouths onto each other's cunts, licking, loving the folds of flesh, sipping each other's juices. Their breath grew rich and heavy as they panted closer to the peak, eating and tonguing deep inside each other.
It was fast and violent. A need to devour, to make themselves one again, took hold. They moaned in unison as their tongues lashed their cunts to climax. A shudder rushed through both of them from head to toe as they came simultaneously, bucking and sweating like two sleek cats in mortal combat.
Rolling away exhausted, Dex said, "It's better than ever."
"That's cause we're equal," said Ryan, reaching over to fold her hand into Dex's.
"I guess we are," sighed Dex. "I wish we could. have found an easier way."
