Over the years I have spoken to thousands of individuals about their sexual habits and the prime motivating factors behind these activities. In this volume I intend to concentrate on those individuals who derive their greatest sexual satisfaction from the human anus.
Analism, as it is commonly referred to, is considered by many to be one of the more perverse sexual acts. In legal terms, it is referred to as sodomy, and in many states there are laws which make its practice a crime punishable by imprisonment. (In these states, the law is usually enforced primarily in the homosexual communities.)
It is not my contention in this book to make any specific judgments concerning analism or sodomy, but merely to present the facts as they were presented to me by my various patients. As a scientist I can do nothing else.
As you will see when you study the transcripts of those cases that I will present here, there is no one category of persons who practice analism. It is not restricted to any one social or economic class. People in various stations of life are attracted to this sexual practice.
I will say however, that in most cases there was some "disturbing" influence in early childhood that fixed the individual in what Freud termed "the anal stage." As we know from Freud there are various stages of sexual development. The anal stage is one of the earlier stages of development, and most persons pass on to the more advanced stages as they grow older.
Therefore, if we are to accept Freud's thesis, then we would have to say that those persons who can only derive sexual gratification from the anus are stunted in their sexual development, and that, in all probability, they are emotionally and sexually immature and in need of some kind of psychotherapy.
While I do not endorse Freud's theory completely, I will grant that it has some validity and that it also has some basis in fact. I myself have collected empirical data that verifies certain aspects of this theory.
Let me say at this time, however, that most persons who engage in analism are persons who might otherwise be considered normal by the rest of society. They are the average man and woman on the street. However, if society knew of their so-called deviant sexual practices, they would not be considered in this same light, but would rather be branded as sexual deviants.
It is not my purpose to hold these people up to be judged. I am merely presenting their case histories as examples in fact concerning the subject under discussion. I hope that they will be seen in just that way.
CASE HISTORY ONE
Name: Virginia Davis Sex: Female Age: 33
Occupation: None
Mrs. Davis came to me in a highly emotional state. It seems that she had been engaging in extra-marital affairs. The reason for this is that her husband will not practice analism with her, and this is the only form of sexual gratification that affords her any pleasure. Since he will not do this, she has gone and found men who will. They include some of her husband's closest associates.
Mrs. Davis claims that she has been like this since she was a child, and that she committed her first act of analism when she was fourteen with a man who was almost twice her age. At the time, the act was forced on her, but she soon came to realize that she liked it and became a more willing participant.
Rather than tell you any more at this time, I will let the transcript from our interviews tell you the rest of her case history.
INTERVIEW ONE
"I suppose you'll want to hear all about my family first. I went to one other psychiatrist and that's all he ever wanted to talk about. We never did get around to talking about me, and that's why I stopped going to him.
"But I'm willing to give you some information on my family if you think it will help. First of all, I was the oldest of three children. I had a younger brother who was a year younger than me, and a younger sister who was three years younger than me.
"My parents had gotten married when they were both just nineteen because my mother was pregnant with me at the time. At first I liked having such young parents, but I realized after awhile how much worse off we were because my father had not been able to go to college.
"In order to support his family he had to go to work, and he didn't have the best job in the world. He was just a salesman in a department store, and they don't make a whole lot of money. After my mother had me, though, she went back to work as a waitress which is what she had been before she got married.
"By the time I was six I began to notice that my parents didn't get along. They were always fighting because my father was always grabbing my mother in the ass, and she said that was indecent and that he shouldn't do it. Then he would tell her she was an old prude and then the fights would begin. They had some pretty ugly fights too, and they called each other all sorts of names.
"By the time I was ten, they were no longer sleeping in the same room. By then, my father was fooling around with other women, and sometimes he would even bring them home and show them to all of us.
"He would hold them up on display almost and he would say, 'This is a real woman. Not like that dried up old prune who calls herself your mother. She's making me do this, and I hope she realizes it. She's forcing me to turn to women who really are women. I just hope she realizes that."
"He would make this same speech all the time, and after awhile we all could have made it for him. My mother didn't seem to care if he ran around with other women, because that meant that he would then leave her alone, and all she really wanted was to be left alone.
"When I got to be twelve my mother told me all about sex and how horrible she thought it was. She told me that all men were animals and that they were forever asking you to do things that were perverted. She told me then about how my father had always wanted to fuck her in the ass but she had never let him, but that one day he forced himself on her and done it to her.
"It was because of that, she said, that she never let him come near her again, and that was why they now slept in separate rooms and not in the same room. She said that my father was fucking all his whores in the ass and that was the only reason he went out with them.
"I was very shocked by all this, and I vowed that I would never let any man do anything to me. I was going to remain a virgin all my life, and in fact, I wasn't even going to let any man kiss me. I really hated all men after my mother got through telling me all that.
"A few days after I got that lecture, I noticed two dogs fucking in front of our house. I thought it looked disgusting but I also found that it excited me somewhat. Later on I saw two more dogs fucking and I creamed in my pants watching them. I was really upset then.
"I didn't dare tell my mother about it, so I went and told my father. He told me that it was natural for me to be like that and that I should never think of sex as being dirty. He then taught me how to finger myself, although he never touched me himself.
"While he believed in almost everything else, he still didn't believe in incest. Anyway, after he taught me how to masturbate, I did it all the time. I would go in the bathroom and sit on the toilet and pretend I was going to the bathroom and I would finger myself until the come just poured out of me.
"I did that every day for the next few months and then I didn't do it as often. It didn't give me the same thrill after awhile and I wanted to try something else. By then I really wanted to have some guy fuck me, but I was afraid of getting pregnant like my mother had.
"I really didn't know what to do about my problem though, and I even thought about having sex with another girl. By then, when I was fourteen, I had this teacher who was twenty-eight, or maybe even older. He was nice enough, and he was married and had children of his own.
"He was my English teacher, and I got to know him quite well because I was one of his best students. Consequently, we would talk all the time. One day he invited me to go for a drive in the country with him, and I said I would. While we were driving along he kept telling me to sit closer to him.
"Finally I did move over right next to him, and it was then I discovered that I liked being near to him. I could feel his body heat, and being next to him like I was, I felt like a woman all of a sudden. He felt so manly and he smelled a special way that men have always smelled like since then.
"He told me to unzip his fly then, and I did. I had never seen a man's prick before, and when I saw his I was amazed at how big it was. I put both hands around it and just held it as firmly as I could. It seemed almost as big as a baseball bat to me, and it felt so hot.
"That's when he told me to suck on it and I did. I just bent right over and began to kiss it all over and then I got it in my mouth. I loved the salty taste of it and I just couldn't get enough of it once I had started to think about my mother doing this to my father.
"Somehow I just couldn't picture her ever having sex with anyone. But I soon stopped thinking about her, and just thought about what I was doing. After all, what did I care if she didn't enjoy sex? All I cared about right then was that I certainly enjoyed it.
"He made me blow him all the way until we finally stopped on some dirt road where he just parked the car. I didn't mind because I had gotten so I liked the taste of his cock, and I liked having it in my mouth. I had made him come already, and I was licking it all up when he stopped the car.
"After that we just sat there and he told me all about his sex life with his wife and how she wasn't the same woman that she had been when he had married her. He said that she would let him do anything once, but that now she would only let him fuck her the normal way.
"He said that this was the first blow job he had gotten in years and that he really liked me because I had done it for him. Then he began to undress me and I just sat there and let him. I liked having his hands all over me and I told him so. He just smiled and kept on undressing me.
"Finally when I was completely naked, he told me to undress him, and that's just what I did. I undressed him very slowly and he smiled at me the whole time. His body was so hard all over that I couldn't get over how it felt. I rubbed my hands all over his arms, and chest, and his legs.
"Finally I got all his clothes off him and we just sat there looking at each other. He told me to lie down on my stomach in the back seat and I did. Then I felt him on top of me. First he got his prick right down between my legs and began to rub it back and forth on my clit.
"I really liked having him do that and I said so. That made him do it all the more. Then he began to ease his cock right inside my pussy and I could just feel his cock swelling up inside of me. I loved the sensations that were going all through my body and I began to press my ass up into his groin.
"I felt him moving his cock in and out of my pussy then and I felt even more sensations going through me at that point. I just couldn't believe how he was making me feel. He was getting his cock way up inside me and really moving it around inside me. I could feel him all over.
"Then he got me up in a kneeling position, with his cock still deep inside my pussy. I was on all fours just like a dog, and the idea of it really turned me on. He was now pulling straight back and driving right into me. Then all of a sudden he pulled out of me completely and drove straight into my asshole.
"Just like that he did it. I felt his cock penetrating my tight asshole and I let out a gasp. It really hurt as he pushed it way in to the hilt. I felt my whole body going limp from the pain that I felt. I had never felt that much pain in my whole life and I thought I would die.
"I really did think that I would die, and I think I wanted to. Then he began to drive his cock in and out of my asshole and that hurt me even more. I could hear him grunting away and I could tell that he loved what he was doing. He was yelling out at the top of his lungs almost.
"Then I felt the thick, sticky cream shooting out of him. He just exploded all at once. By then he was also fingering me and I was coming also. I began to not care about the pain, and I began to move with him. He was still humping away at my asshole and the come was still shooting out of his hard cock.
"I began to press my ass back harder into his groin and I found that I now liked having his cock in my asshole. I liked it a lot. Just the idea of it made me feel good inside. It seemed perverted to me, and anything that was perverted turned me on. This turned me on more than anything else.
"I really made him slam his cock into me then, and he stayed hard even after he had shot off his rocks, and pretty soon he was humping away at me again. I could feel his massive, hairy balls slapping away at my thighs, and I liked the sound they made, and the way they felt doing that.
"He really went at me this time, and pretty soon more of that sticky cream was shooting out of his cock. It just filled me up and that made me come. I felt my cuntlips swelling up and I felt the come dripping down my thighs. His come I felt seeping out of my asshole and down my cheeks to my thighs.
"He began to get soft then and he finally slipped out of me. He fell back against the window breathing very hard and I was breathing just as hard as he was. We were both completely spent and I could tell that it would be awhile before he could fuck me again, although I wanted him to do it right then.
"That's when I first became a nympho, I guess. Or at least that's how it seems to me now. I mean, after that first time I knew that I really liked sex and that I especially liked getting it in the ass. That I liked best of all, and that was how I wanted it all the time.
"We didn't do anything else that day, but after that, we went out to that same spot almost every day and he would fuck me in the ass all the time. He really let me have it and every-time I felt his come shooting out into me, I would go into convulsions almost. It was the greatest feeling in the world.
"Also, I knew that I was safer to get it in the ass than in the cunt. This way I couldn't get pregnant and I certainly didn't want to get pregnant. That was the last thing I wanted to do. After all, he was married already and he wouldn't have been free to marry me.
"I guess I was sort of jealous of his wife, because he really belonged to her and not me. After awhile though I didn't think that way. I began to think of him as being my property. I mean, the rest of that year we did nothing but fuck, and he began to take me places and we did all sorts of things together.
"By the summer, we were full-fl-edged lovers and we were having a real affair. I liked the idea of being an older man's mistress and I played the part for all it was worth. I never let anyone know that I was letting him fuck me, but I'm sure a lot of people guessed it anyway.
"All of a sudden though, he stopped calling me. This was the summer now, and there was no school, but I still saw him everyday. The next thing I knew he had left town without even saying good-bye to me. That really upset me, and I think I went into a state of depression that lasted all the next year. I've never heard what happened to him."
INTERVIEW TWO
"The last time I just told you about the first lover I ever had. He was really something and he introduced me to sex like I don't think anyone else could have. He really showed me what it was, and I guess I'm grateful to him for that, even though he deserted me in the end.
"Like I said, I was really upset by what he had done, and I just didn't snap out of it for the longest time. I was so bad off that my parents thought I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown and they began to send me to a psychiatrist. I didn't like that and I would never talk to the psychiatrist.
"At that time I thought that you had to be crazy to go to a psychiatrist and I didn't think of myself as being crazy. I just thought of myself as having been rejected by the man I was in love with. And to me, that didn't make me crazy, and I didn't want to have anything to do with any psychiatrist.
"After I refused to talk to him my parents stopped sending me. Then they made me go and see the minister at the church, but I didn't talk that much more to him either, and after awhile he said that he didn't want me wasting his time when there were other kids who really wanted help.
"My mother was more upset by all this than my father, and she started giving me all these lectures about what an ungrateful brat I was and how I didn't appreciate all the things that she had done for me. She would give me the same lecture almost every day, and I just turned off to it.
"My mother finally gave up on me too, and by then it was time for me to go to college. All those years I hadn't really gone out that much with anyone, and I hadn't had any sex since my lover had gone off and left me. I mean, I just didn't want anyone else touching me.
"Of course all that time I was going out of my mind because I really wanted to get fucked in the ass. I mean, I really needed to get it, and by the time I was in college I figured that I had waited long enough and I let the first boy who took me out fuck me.
"At first he didn't want to fuck me in the ass, but I told him if he didn't do that, I wouldn't let him do anything else. That's when he agreed to fuck me in the ass. He didn't really do it good at first, but after awhile he got so he liked it, and he really began to slam his cock into me.
"That first time I did it with him, it was in back of the girls' dormitory and I think someone saw us. I didn't care though, and whoever saw us never told anyone, at least they didn't tell anyone important. Well, the whole time he was fucking me in the ass I was thinking about that teacher.
"I really imagined that it was his prick that was inside me, and because I imagined that, I became real frantic with this other guy and gave him a fuck I'm sure he's never forgotten. I just went wild, lifting my ass way up and letting it fall back down again. I was a wild woman.
"After that first time he would fuck me in the ass whenever I wanted him to. He really got so he liked it as much as I did, and he was more than willing to do it. I was starting to get depressed because I started missing my first lover and once again I was going to a psychiatrist.
"As you can see, I've been going to psychiatrists all my life and so far none of them have ever been able to do anything for me. They all tell me the same thing. And that is that I should try and be normal like everyone else. I just don't like the idea of being normal, and I won't do it.
"Anyway, that's not what I came here to talk to you about. Now, let's see, where was I? Oh yes, I was telling you about the first guy in college who fucked me in the ass. He was my age and his name was Lester. Right now I can't seem to remember his last name. I don't think I ever could.
"He was a nice enough kid though and he even wanted to marry me. I mean, after about a month or so, he wanted to marry me. I mean, he really dug slipping his prick into my asshole and also into my cunt. I did let him fuck me in the cunt every so often just to see what it was like.
"Well, when I told him that I could never marry him, that really upset him quite a bit, but he didn't stop going out with me. He didn't understand though how I could let him fuck me if I had no intention of ever marrying him. To him that was rather indecent and he didn't think it was right.
"In spite of what he was doing to me, he was the worst prude in the whole world, and I don't know how I stood him as long as I did. Finally I just couldn't take him any longer and I told him so. I said I never wanted to see him again as long as I lived. We had a terrible fight and he even hit me a few times.
"But that ended that and I didn't go out with him anymore. That's when I started going around to some of the bars in the rougher parts of town. That's where I started to meet all these truck driver types and they were more than willing to fuck me in the ass.
"This one guy I met-his name was Jack-was over six feet tall and he weighed almost two hundred pounds. He was pure muscle though and he could lift me over his head with one hand. He had a wife, but she knew that he fooled around, and I'm sure she fooled around too when he was out of town on his trips.
"I first met him at this bar and he took me to this hotel. The hotel owner knew him and let him have his usual room. He took me up there, and once we were inside he was all over me. He had such big hands, and he had them all over my tits, and then all over my ass.
"He wanted to rip the clothes right off my back but I couldn't let him do that, so I persuaded him to just take them off. He loved doing that and I could see him drooling as he took off each piece of clothing. First he took off my blouse, and then my bra, and then he just sucked on both my tits for awhile.
"He got almost my whole tit in his mouth and he really did a job on it. He really made the nipple hard and then he went on to the next one. He did the same to that nipple and made that just as hard. I couldn't believe the size of his mouth and I couldn't wait for him to suck out my asshole with it.
"Then he took off my skirt, slip, and panties, and he got me down on the bed with my legs up over his shoulders. First he went after my cunt and began to rim my pussy with that big tongue of his. He ran his tongue all over my clit and around my swelling cuntlips, and then he got it right inside me.
"For the first time I liked having a man's tongue inside my pussy. I mean, his tongue really felt good in there and I wanted him to keep it there awhile. That's just what he did too. He kept it there until I was coming all over his mouth. The cream was just pumping out of me.
"He had me up on my head almost and then he moved his tongue from my pussy to my asshole. He really went after my asshole, even more so than he had gone after my cunt. He just got his tongue right in there and moved it all around and I could hear him making all these sucking noises with his lips.
"He was going absolutely wild at that point and I could tell that he had no intention of stopping. Of course I didn't want him to stop either. I just wanted him to keep going until he felt like sticking his prick in me. For now though, his tongue was all I needed.
"And he really used it the best way he knew how. His mouth was all over my asshole, and then all over my ass. He kissed me all over and then he went back to sucking me out. He had me flat on my stomach now and he was kneeling down between my legs, bending over and sucking me out.
"I was pressing my ass right into his face and I loved the feel of his face pressed against it. His skin felt so cool as compared to how hot I felt both inside and outside. He liked that too and he pressed his face into me just as hard as he could, his tongue going deeper inside me all the time.
"Then he just fell on top of me. I could feel his cock in the crack of my ass, and I could feel him rubbing it all around in there. He didn't put it in me right away and he just kept rubbing it all around and then he even put it in my cunt until it was soaking wet from my come.
"He then pulled his slimy shaft out of my throbbing pussy and shoved it right into my asshole. It was good feeling my own come all around his prick like that, and it made his cock go into me that much easier. He went in real smoothly and I could feel him just filling me up inside.
"That just drove me wild of course and I started yelling at him to fuck me harder and harder. I really had to have it and he knew that and he gave me just what I wanted. He gave it to me until I couldn't stand it anymore. He was just driving that cock of his into me as hard as he could.
"He was a wildman, and the fact that he was so big meant that he could fuck me even harder than most men. It was certainly the hardest I had ever been fucked in my whole life and I never wanted him to stop. I kept yelling at him to fuck me harder, and he responded by fucking me harder.
"I was just going wild inside, and the come was just pouring out of my cunt. I could feel it running down my thighs, and then I felt him exploding right then and he just filled my asshole with that hot, sticky cream of his. It just emptied out of those massive balls and went right into me.
"All this time his balls had been beating into me with the same speed, and now they were being drained of everything that was inside of them. I could feel his cock jerking back and forth and it felt so good as it did that. It felt as if it was going to split apart inside of me.
"He stayed hard the whole time though, and he was still driving his cock in and out of me. He was really letting me have it, and he had no intention of letting up. Not for a second. He wanted to fuck me for as long as he could. He just didn't ever feel like stopping.
"Pretty soon the come stopped coming out of him, but he did not stop fucking me. He kept driving that massive piece of meat into me with all his might. I could feel him going in all the way, and then pulling out so that just his head was inside me. I could feel how hot he was, and that made me even hotter than I was.
"I knew that he was going to explode again, and I could feel that this time he would come even more. I was coming still and I wanted him to really explode in me like he never had before in his whole life. He did just that too. The come just poured out of him with a force I had never felt.
"That was something else and I just lay there as his come pumped into me. Pretty soon he stopped moving altogether, and he just lay on top of me like so much dead weight. I loved the feel of his hard body on mine though and I didn't mind being crushed underneath him like I was.
"It felt good to me to be crushed underneath him like I was. It really did. It was one of the greatest feelings in the world. The only feeling that I could think of that was better was having him fuck me in the ass or suck me out. Those were the only things that felt better.
"When he did get off me, I really felt empty all of a sudden and I wanted him back inside me. I began to cry and yell that I wanted him in me again. He managed to get hard again, and once again his cock was in my asshole. I just went all soft inside once I felt him in me again.
"I certainly didn't feel empty anymore, and to me, feeling empty like that was the worst feeling in the world. Nothing else was quite so bad as that. I'm sure he knew that, but he also knew that he couldn't stay hard all the time, and that he couldn't stay in me all the time.
"I knew that too of course, but I just didn't want to accept it. I didn't ever want him to be soft again, and I didn't ever want to have him take his cock out of me. To me that was the most horrible thing that could happen to me, and I hated the way I felt when there was no cock in my asshole.
"I just made him lie perfectly still with his cock in me for the longest time. Then he began to move ever so slowly, and then he was fucking me again. I began to move my hips right along with his and I really went wild, just as he did.
"We were both frantic at that point and then I felt him coming again and the feeling of his come shooting into me just as good as it had ever been. It filled me right up and I could feel it seeping out and onto my cheeks and down on my thighs. I loved having his sticky come all over me like that.
"Finally we had to stop though and by then it was almost time for me to go back to classes. I got into the shower and turned on the water, and then he joined me. We splashed around in there, and then he got me standing up. That was great feeling and I liked getting it like that.
"He told me then that he had to go out of town on a long trip but that he would see me two weeks from then when he got back. We made a date to meet then. He never did come back though because he had a real bad accident that trip and he got killed. I went to the funeral and there I met his wife.
"She was nice to me and everything and we even became friends. It wasn't long after he was buried that she got married again to another truck driver who was a friend of her husband's. She never told me if she had been fucking this other guy before her husband died, but I could tell that she had been.
"By then I was really losing interest in college, and I finally dropped out just before the end of my first year. I got an apartment and got a job as a secretary. I didn't like the work that much, but I needed the money, so I stuck with it for awhile. I really couldn't stand it.
"Finally I decided that I would have to get married. I had met this lawyer who had taken me out a few times and who so far hadn't tried to fuck me. I thought that was kind of strange but he seemed like a nice guy and besides he had a lot of money and he wanted to marry me.
"I think he asked me on the second date, but I didn't want to appear too anxious so I stalled him for quite some time. I didn't stall him that long though and finally about two months later I said that I would. We set the date for six months from then and then I told him he could fuck me.
"Even then though he wouldn't fuck me and he said we should wait because he wanted me to be a virgin on our wedding night. I didn't tell him that I wasn't a virgin and I really tried to convince myself that I was a virgin. I felt guilty all of a sudden because of the men I had fucked, and there had been quite a few.
"I really did feel bad and I started going to another psychiatrist. He told me that I should tell my furture husband the truth and that I should beg him to forgive me. At that point he sounded like some minister so I stopped going to see him. I still didn't tell Tim though-that was his name.
"Finally we got married, and I was so super horny by then I couldn't stand it. Right during the ceremony I could feel myself creaming in my pants just thinking about what we were going to do that night. I could just feel his cock inside me and that made me shake all over.
"I don't know how I managed to contain myself the rest of the day, but finally we were on our way. I made him stop at a motel as soon as we found one and it wasn't anywhere near where we wanted to go. Actually we were going to the airport to catch a plane to go to Bermuda, but I couldn't wait that long.
"We got in the motel and I was out of my clothes in no time, and I almost ripped the clothes off him. I pulled him down on top of me and I began to play with his cock and I got it super hard and then I rolled over on my stomach and told him to stick it in me.
"He rolled on top of me and he stuck it in my pussy. I didn't mind that at first, and I began to move with him. But he kept it there the whole time and pretty soon he was shooting off. I was coming too but I was afraid he wouldn't stay stay hard long enough to pull his cock out and stick it in my asshole.
"And he didn't. He didn't stay hard, and he just wilted inside my pussy. I went crazy at that point. I couldn't stand not getting it in the asshole and I told him so. I told him that's where I had wanted it to begin with and he had just made me miserable and it was up to him to make me feel better.
"He really got mad at me and told me I was a dirty whore and that he refused to do anything that was that perverted. He rolled over and went to sleep and the next day we went back home. We didn't even go on our honeymoon, and he went right to work as soon as we got back."
INTERVIEW THREE
"Needless to say my marriage has been a complete disaster. Sure we fuck once in awhile, but he just won't fuck me in the ass, and I can't do anything that will make him fuck me in the ass. I thought if I cheated on him that that would do it, but even that doesn't work.
"He doesn't even care if I cheat on him. I mean, he goes on these long business trips, and he sometimes stays away for a month or two at a time. Naturally I have my lovers over when he's away and they fuck me just the way I want them too. They don't think it's perverted.
"But that's my whole problem. Every so often now, I think it's perverted and I don't know what to do about it. I mean, whenever I have a cock in my asshole now I begin to worry about my sanity and I think I'm going mad. It feels good to have a cock in my asshole, but I also feel guilty and dirty now.
"I have this one lover who thinks I'm crazy and he's even tried to beat this out of me. He says it's going to ruin me and he's right. But I still can't stop feeling like I do. It's a horrible feeling but nothing seems to help me. And of course my husband just makes it worse.
"Whenever he comes back from a business trip he makes me tell him just who I had over and what they did to me and how it felt. He makes me describe it right down to the last detail of how it felt when the guy's come was shooting out of his cock into my asshole and how I reacted to it.
"If you ask me he's the pervert. I mean, when I refuse to tell him all about it, he beasts me. He's given me some horrible beatings over the years, and I really should leave him, but I like the security of his money. I mean, he has a lot of it, and I've never had it so good.
"If I was to go off with one of my lovers, I wouldn't have it half as good as I have it now. I mean, they're all poor and the only thing they have are their cocks. Granted I like their cocks, but I can't live on that alone. That's why I stay with my husband, but still have them over.
"Actually I have about six lovers now and they range in age from thirty-four to twenty-three. I like the youngest one best of all and he has the biggest cock of all. He's this young black guy and he works in a factory when he works, which isn't often. He just got his black girl pregnant and he had to marry her, but he says he likes me best of all.
"I just met him about six months ago, but I have him over as often as I can. I've been neglecting all the others recently and they keep calling me to tell me so. It doesn't bother me though that they feel neglected. After all, they just aren't as good as my black lover, and they never will be."
SUMMARY
I think Mrs. Davis' guilt complex will continue as long as she continues to cheat on her husband because of her anal fixation. She still comes to see me on a regular weekly basis.
CASE HISTORY TWO
Name: Joseph Adams Sex: Male Age: 29
Occupation: Insurance Salesman
Mr. Adams came to me highly disturbed and unable to talk coherently. It took me a few hours just to calm him down so he could tell me what was troubling him so much. Finally when he did tell me, his problem became very clear to me.
As in most cases of this sort, Mr. Adams developed his anal fixation at a very early age. He was only twelve at the time, and it was at that time that he witnessed his parents involved in anal intercourse. This left a lasting impression on him, and by the time he was sixteen he had developed a great desire to have anal intercourse with a female.
Mr. Adams now finds that he can not achieve sexual gratification any other way, other than through anal intercourse. He is presently married and has one young daughter.
The following is the transcript from our interviews.
INTERVIEW ONE
"Naturally I never thought about sex when I was a kid. What kid does? And my parents never made any effort to tell me about it either. They were very prudish in that respect, although as I found out later, they were far from being prudish in their own sex life.
"Finally, when I got to be ten my father told me about sex, but he didn't really tell me that much. He just told me that when a man has sex with a woman, there's a good chance that she'll get pregnant and have a child. He also told me that you weren't supposed to have sex until after you were married.
"When I asked him why you couldn't have sex before you were married, he said it was because you might get the girl pregnant and then you might end up marrying someone you didn't want to and that you would be miserable the rest of your life. He said it would make you bitter later on in life.
"I still didn't know anything about sex, and of course I didn't have any great desire for it. I did think about it a little after my talk with my father, but I still wasn't sure just what sex was. I mean, he had never really told me how people have sex, just that they did.
"It was just by accident that I finally got a chance to see my parents having sex. I was just twelve at the time and I had been out playing. It was a Sunday afternoon I think, and I came in because I was tired. That's when I heard all these noises coming from my parents' bedroom.
"I saw that the door was open and I went over and looked in. My mother was lying on the bed completely naked and my father, who was also completely naked, was lying on top of her and was going up and down on her. Every time he went down on her they both made these noises, and sometimes when he went up.
"I really couldn't tell what they were doing so I went back outside and looked through the window. From there I could see my father's penis and I could see how hard it was. I could see him driving it straight down into my mother, and it looked as if he was driving it straight down into her asshole.
"When I looked closer I saw that that's what he was doing. He was driving it right down into her asshole. I could see from the expression on her face that she really liked what he was doing, and I could see from the expression on his face that he liked what he was doing too.
"I watched the rest of the time that they were doing it, and then I saw them shaking all over and then they stopped. They just lay there. Finally my mother turned over on her back and turned in such a way that I could see right between her legs. That's when I saw her pussy.
"I had never seen a woman's pussy before, and actually, at the time, I really didn't know what I was seeing. I had thought that women had cocks like men, but now I saw that she didn't have one, and instead she had this hole between her legs. I began to wonder if my father could put his cock in there also.
"She spread her legs real wide then, and I got a better look at her pussy. She had her legs spread as wide as she could and she was making all kinds of noises. Then she reached down with her hand and got her finger right inside her pussy and began to finger herself.
"She kept that up for the longest time and then she began to shake all over again and then she stopped and just lay there perfectly still again. That's when I decided that I better get away from the window before they saw me. After that though I got all these books on sex and read them.
"That's when I found out all about intercourse and cunnilingus and fellatio and even about sodomy. I found out that sodomy was when you fucked someone in the ass, and that it was usually men who did this to each other. I also found out that women did it to each other with the use of artificial cocks called dildoes.
"I was beginning to find out all kinds of things, and I was fascinated by them all. By the time I was fourteen I had seen my parents doing it lots of times, and most of the time my father would fuck my mother in the ass. He did that more often than anything else.
"Of course I also saw him just fuck her normally in the cunt, and I saw them sixty-nine too. What I really liked best to watch was when he fucked her in the ass. This really fascinated me and I use to picture myself as being the one who was doing it to her. I would even dream about it at night.
"Every night I would go to bed and I would picture myself fucking my mother in the ass. Then I would beat off. I did this a lot. At school I would look at the asses of the girls and even the teachers and I would see myself fucking them in the ass. I guess I wanted them all.
"Naturally I didn't do anything about it at the time. I was much too shy for that. So from then until I was sixteen I just thought about what I would like to do. Naturally I became quite horny and by the time I was sixteen I was going mad almost because I wanted to do it so badly.
"By then I was dating girls too, and most of the girls I dated at that time wouldn't even let me put my hands on their tits, let alone really do something to them. They were all prudes about sex, and they didn't want to have anything to do with it.
"Well, by then I decided that I just needed it too bad to wait any longer so I went out and found a prostitute. I told her that I wanted to fuck her in the ass and she didn't even want to talk to me after that. I had to look all over town, and I talked to about six more before I found one who would.
"This one had red hair, and she was taller than me, and she was really built. She had this huge set of tits, and she had an ass that was really something. I could hardly wait to get my cock into her. She took me up to this hotel room and she told me to get undressed.
"We both got undressed together and then she got down on the bed first and lay down on her stomach. She just lay there with her legs spread and I just looked at her for awhile. She looked so good that I got a hard-on right away. My cock was actually burning after awhile.
"Finally I got up on the bed and then I had this desire to kiss her all over, and that's just what I did. I began to kiss her neck, and then down her back, and then down on her ass, around her asshole, and down on her thighs. I kissed every inch of her, and she just lay there the whole time and let me.
"Finally I lay down on top of her, with my cock resting atainst the crack in her ass. It seemed like a big crack to me and I began to rub my cock around inside of it. Then I got my cock right at the opening of her asshole and I got it right inside of her.
"At first I just got the head of my cock inside her, and then I began to push in the rest of my cock. I had my whole cock inside her pretty soon and then I began to hump away at her. I really went wild then and she began to press her ass back into my groin.
"She was going just as wild as I was and she had her legs spread real far apart and she was heaving her ass back into me and she was grunting just as loudly as I was. I could feel myself about to come and that just made me hump away at her all the harder.
"I was going just as fast as I could and then the come just tore out of me. It felt like a knot that was being torn loose and I must have screamed at the top of my lungs. All the come that I had been saving up just came rushing out of me and into her wide open asshole.
"I heaved away at her and then I just collapsed on top of her. I couldn't move after that, and I just lay there in a heap. She managed to push me off her and then she lay on her side beside me and began to play with my wilted cock. She kept playing with it until she made it hard again.
"Once she had done that, she began to suck on it awhile. I liked the feeling that she gave me with that tongue of hers and I found that I liked it. But it didn't feel the same as having it in her ass, and that's where I wanted it to be. She knew that and finally she just sat down on me.
"She sat right up on my lap, with my ass flat underneath her ass, and she began to move around in a circular motion. She began to rub me real hard, and then she lifted herself somewhat and reached down under her and grabbed my cock. She held it up in the air and then she sat back down on it.
"I could feel her easing it back up in her ass and then it was all the way inside of her. Then she began to bounce up and down on me and I began to lift my hips, driving it up into her as far as I could get it. I was really feeling tremors going through me then and I was on the verge of exploding the whole time.
"I could just feel my orgasm building up in all parts of my body. It was really something too. My whole body was shaking and I was going wild almost, and then it just tore out of me again, and it seemed like it was more than the first time, if that's possible. It really did.
"I just felt all my life draining out of me, and I lay there even more limp than the time before. She took my money, got dressed, and left me there. Finally I got dressed and went out the back way like she told me to. When I got back out on the street I saw her going back in the hotel with someone else, and that really hurt me a lot.
"After that I knew I didn't want to do it with another prostitute. I mean, they were so matter-of-fact and business-like about it. There was no passion with them, and I wanted passion. I had seen how my mother reacted when my father did it to her, and I wanted the girls I did it to to respond the same way.
"I wanted someone who would like doing it as much as I did, and would actually beg me to do it to them. That's what I wanted most of all. I wanted someone who would beg me to do it to them, and who would go wild when I did do it to them. I just had to find the right person.
"I knew that would be a problem though, and I really didn't give myself a lot of encouragement. I was actually a defeatist about the whole thing and I would ask girls knowing they were going to turn me down. Finally though, when I was eighteen, I found a girl who was more than willing.
"She wanted to do it just as badly as I did, and she told me why.
"'I read this novel just a few weeks ago,' she said, 'about this couple who did it that way, and I've been thinking about it ever since. I really don't want to do it any other way even though I know it's going to hurt me the first time. I've only had sex one other time, and that was the normal way, with the guy's cock in my cunt. But I want to do it the other way. I want you to stick your cock in my ass."
"Well, I got my father's car that night and I picked her up at her house and we went way out into the country and parked on this dirt road way out in no man's land. I mean, there was nothing around for miles, and that was just the way that I wanted it. I didn't want anything or anyone around.
"We got undressed in the front seat and then we crawled in back and she lay down flat on her stomach. I lay down on top of her and got my cock right into position and then I began to ease it up inside her. She really began to cry out that it was hurting her, and I pulled it out.
"Then I got an idea. I got it down in her cunt, and pushed it way in there. I kept driving it in and out until I felt her sex juices flowing all around me. When I pulled out my cock it was dripping with her come and it was slimy all over. Then I began to push it back in her asshole.
"With all that lubrication on my cock, it went in easier and although she still cried out somewhat, I was having a easier time getting it in her. Finally I had it all the way in her and I just lay there that way. I just let it rest inside her, and I didn't move at all.
"I lay perfectly still for the longest time, and then I began to move just a little. Just a little at first, and she began to move with me.
She lifted her hips off the back seat just slightly and then she let them fall again. She kept doing that as I went in and out of her.
"I began to go a little faster then, and I could feel her ass closing in all around me and pushing back into my groin. I loved the feeling of her hot skin and that drove me wild inside. I was going just as fast as I could now, and I could feel my cock throbbing away and then I felt the come just shooting out of me.
"It was coming out in spurts and my cock was jerking back and forth and I was just shaking all over. She was shaking all over too, and when she felt my come filling her up inside, she began to moan even louder, and she really began to press her ass into my groin.
"We were both shaking so much that I thought we would fall off the seat. The fact that we didn't seemed like a miracle to me. I was still humping away at her asshole and the come was still shooting out of me. It was coming out by the gallons, or at least it felt that way to me.
"I was going wild inside, and every time I felt more come shooting out of me, I would feel myself shake a little more than I had been. Whenever I did, I could feel her shaking more underneath me. She finally just lay still, and so did I. We were both completely spent.
"We both sat up at that point and we just looked at each other, even though it was hard to see in the dark. We were both very happy, and we knew that we would want to do it again that way, and that we would want to do it all the time. I could still feel my cock in her asshole, and it made me shiver.
"Later on we did it again, and then it was late and I drove her home. We agreed that I would pick her up again the next night and that we would go out to the same spot and do it again. I could hardly wait till the next night."
INTERVIEW TWO
"I really didn't want to come back and see you again, because I don't see what good this is going to do me. I mean, I still feel the same way, and I really think that I'm always going to feel this way, and talking about my past isn't going to change any of that.
"Well, I'll tell you more if you think it will help, but I don't think that it will. Let me see, last time I told you about that prostitute and then about that first girl that I got. Her name was Linda and she was a blonde and she was tall and thin just like me.
"We got along quite well at first, and then we began to have our little fights about nothing, but we fought just the same. That's what gets me about cunts, no matter what you do to them, you always end up fighting with them about something stupid that's really not important in the first place.
"Well, that's what happened with Linda and me. We began to fight about all kinds of dumb things, and that really upset me more than I can say. I mean, when we were fucking, everything was great, but when we weren't fucking, we were fighting, and that took up too much of my energy.
"We agreed to go to the same college, and when September came we went off together. We fought the whole way there, and that night we continued fighting. We just stopped long enough so I could fuck her in the ass. Other than that, we didn't have a decent word for each other.
"As time went on, things didn't get any better between us and we agreed to stop seeing each other for awhile. That's when I met this other girl. Her name was Judy and she was really nice and she let me fuck her, but she wouldn't let me fuck her in the ass.
"To her that was indecent and she didn't want to have anything to do with it. Well, I didn't mind fucking her in the cunt, but it just didn't feel the same to me. I had an orgasm and all that but it just felt different. She liked it that way, and she went wild when I did it, but it didn't really move me.
"Even when she blew me I didn't get that turned on by what she was doing, and I would just sit there or lie there and think about what it would be like to fuck her in the ass. Finally I called Linda again and told her I just had to fuck her in the ass.
"She knew she had me and she told me I could just wait if I wanted her that badly. By then she was going out with all kinds of guys and she was letting them all fuck her in the ass, and she didn't need me like I needed her. After all, she wasn't the one who was horny; I was.
"I tried everything to get Judy to let me fuck her in the ass but she just wouldn't. Finally I just stopped going out with her all together, and I began to go out looking for prostitutes who would let me do it to them that way. It wasn't the same as doing it with Linda, but it was better than nothing.
"I did manage to find one who really put something into it, but the fact that I had to pay them for it made it seem less than it might have been. I mean, it was a real blow to my ego to have to pay for it like that.
"Anyway, I kept that up for awhile until I finally managed to get Linda again. That night I really let her have it and she loved it. I did it better than I had ever done it before, and after that we were back together again. We didn't last very long though before we were fighting again.
"That's when I just packed up my bags and left school. I didn't want to be around anyone I knew. I went to this small town and got an apartment and got a job as a waiter. I met this girl who was a waitress, and who put out for all the truck drivers who came through town and I got her to put out for me.
"She was really something too. She was a little on the plump side but she had a really nice ass, and I just went wild every time I got my cock in it. I mean, this ass was something else, and the first time I got it in her, I thought it was the first time I had ever done this in my life.
"I can still remember what happened that night. We had gone to my place after work and when we got there we had a few drinks first, and began to mess around on the couch. I unbuttoned her uniform and got right in after her tits.
"I had never been a tit man before, but the sight of these huge globes of honey really drove me crazy inside and I went after them like an animal, because that was just what I felt like. I really did, and I loved feeling like that. It was the greatest feeling in the world.
"I was sucking hard on one of her tits, and I was getting my tongue all over it and I was just making her have convulsions almost. She kept yelling at me to suck on her even harder and that's just what I did. I sucked on her just as hard as I could, and that sent her into fits almost.
"She jumped to her feet then and just tore her uniform off and fell back on top of me, tearing my clothes off at the same time. Finally we were both naked and she was lying on top of me on the couch. I then pushed her off me and sat up and told her to sit on me backwards.
"She knew just what I wanted then, and she did just as I told her to. I could feel her asshole just above the head of my cock and then she lowered herself over it. I could feel my cock going right up into her asshole and then I was all the way inside her. She just sat there not moving then.
"It really felt good being in her that way, and she was really pressing down on me so I could feel the cheeks of her ass closed in all around my cock. Inside she was trembling and so was I. My cock was trembling already and I was afraid I was going to come too soon.
"Then she began to move up and down, and my cock would slip almost all the way out, but not quite, and then it would go back in almost all the way, and then all the way. She kept jerking back and forth like that and my cock was just getting hotter and hotter. It was actually on fire.
"That didn't stop her though and she began to go even faster, and I began to drive way up into her. I began to lift myself right off the couch at that point and pretty soon I was standing up and she was bending over at the waist. I had my hands around her tits and I was squeezing them.
"We were both standing up now and I was driving my cock in and out of her asshole and manipulating her breasts between my fingers. I made her nipples good and rigid and that really turned her on even more than she was. She began to press her ass into me just as hard as she could.
"I could look down and actually see my cock going in and out of her, and I really got turned on by watching it. I could see it come out almost all the way, and then drive in all the way. I saw the slime that was all over it, and I loved it. I just wanted to bend over and lick it off.
"I began to hump into her even harder then and she began to make even more noises than she had been, and I was making more noises myself. Pretty soon I was exploding inside her and I could feel her exploding as well. We were both coming then and we were both getting weaker and weaker.
"It was getting so that it was hard to stand and I just fell back on the couch. She fell with me, and my cock was still deep inside her asshole the way it had been. We just sat there trying to catch our breaths. I felt completely spent and so did she. But she was still hot and was still moving up and down.
"She kept me hard that way, and she didn't want to let me get soft for a minute. She even said so. She said that she wanted to keep me hard as long as she could, and that's just what she did. She kept me hard and she kept on bouncing up and down on me like she was.
"I certainly didn't want her to stop and she didn't want to stop either. I just let her do whatever she wanted, and that's what she did. I could feel my cock throbbing again and I reached in front of her and got my fingers inside her pussy and began working them in and out of her.
"I was really getting after her and making her come and she was getting more and more frantic. Her cuntlips were all swelled up and they were soaking wet from her sticky come juices. I could feel the come just pumping out of her. She had her legs spread wide and I had almost my whole hand inside her.
"That's when I began to shoot off, and the cream just poured out of me and into her asshole. I could feel it seeping it out and running down my cock to my balls. It was hot and I loved the way it felt. I could tell that she loved it too. I was biting down hard into her shoulders and she loved that too.
"I could feel her still wiggling around and then she stopped all together and so did I. we both stopped at the same time and we just sat there for the longest time. Then she got up off me and went and took a shower. Finally I joined her, and then I gave it to her in there standing up.
"I stayed in that town for almost six months, and all that time I was fucking this one waitress in the ass all the time. I mean, after her, I just didn't want anyone else, and I didn't want to go through the trouble of looking.
"I got real bored after awhile though and I wanted to move on. She didn't want to go though, and so I had to go by myself. I hitched out to the west coast and on the way I got a ride from this lady who was in her late thirties. She was horny as hell and I got her good.
"Before she would let me fuck her in the ass though I had to fuck her in the cunt, which I did. I didn't come inside her though because I wanted to save that for when I got her in the ass, and that's just what I did. I did it until she came and then I pulled out, turned her over, and got her right in the ass.
"I drove my cock right up inside her and really let her have it. It drove her wild and she really loved it and wanted more. She drove me quite a ways, and I stayed with her for about a week in all. We would stop at motels for the night and end up spending the whole next day there.
"I think one time we fucked for almost ten hours straight. When I left her it was because she had to go back home to her husband and family. She had just been on a short vacation by herself, and now she had to go back and be respectable. She told me that someday I would have to do that also, but I didn't believe her at the time.
"After I left her, I got one last ride and I was then on the coast. I of course didn't know anyone and I just bummed around for awhile. Pretty soon I was out of money and I had to get a job. It was just by accident that I met this woman whose husband had a small insurance company.
"I had met her in this bar and I had taken her to my place and fucked her real good in the ass. She had liked me in a big way and she got her husband to hire me. At first I didn't do much, but then he started to teach me all about the business so I could take over from him someday.
"He really treated me like a son and he didn't know that all the while I was fucking his wife in the ass. They were both in their early forties and I sort of liked both of them. I really didn't want to take over his business though, but I didn't know how to get out of it.
"That's when he introduced me to this girl named Nancy White. Nancy was a sweet girl, but I could tell she was still a virgin. Here she was in her twenties, and you could tell that she didn't know the first thing about sex, and I didn't have the patience to teach her.
"Anyway, she really feel for me, and I guess I led her on somewhat. Finally we got engaged and then we got married. The first night of our honeymoon I just fucked her normally and I was real gentle with her. I treated her as if she were a baby. She really liked it though and she wanted it harder than that.
"Finally I was fucking her with all my might and she loved it. I didn't though because I was just getting her in the cunt, and cunts don't turn me on the same way that assholes do. They just don't. Well, I didn't want to try anything else with her just yet, so that's all I did to her the whole honeymoon.
"It wasn't until we had been married about two months before I tried to fuck her in the ass. She let me at first, but then it hurt her so much that she begged me to stop and I did. Then I tried against about a month later, and it was the same thing. She begged me to stop because it hurt so much.
"Well, I was getting super horny by then and I went back to fucking my boss's wife again. Only this time he caught me at it one day and he threatened to tell my wife if I didn't leave town right away, which I did. I packed us all up and we moved east. I got another job in insurance and we got a small house.
"What that lady had told me had now come true. I was a respectable married man and I had a respectable job. The idea really made me sick almost and I couldn't stand myself after awhile. I mean, I just wasn't getting what I wanted out of life.
"This went on for a couple of years, and during all that time I never rucked Nancy once in the ass, and I hadn't gone out looking for anyone else. I was a big salesman for the company and I was making in the five figures, and the next thing I knew I was a father.
"Now I knew I was trapped and there was no way out. One night I just forced myself on Nancy and really let her have it in the ass. I hurt her real bad and she wouldn't talk to me for weeks, but I felt a lot better after I had done that, and I wasn't quite so horny anymore, and that's all that mattered to me."
INTERVIEW THREE
"Now you know why I am the way I am today. I'm about to go out of my mind. My mar-raige is a joke now. I mean Nancy and I don't even sleep in the same room and we haven't had sex since that time I fucked her in the ass. Naturally I cheat on her all the time and she knows it, but she never says a word about it.
"Sometimes, I get to thinking she doesn't know, but then she'll say something that will let me know that she does know. Of course it could be that, I'm so guilty about the whole thing that I just assume she knows. Whatever, I can't sleep nights, and I have an ulcer because of it.
"I have this secretary now who lets me fuck her in the ass whever I want to. She's about twenty now and she has a boyfriend who's away in the army so she's really free to do whatever she wants, and that's just what she does. I'm not the only one she's letting fuck her. There are lots more.
"Anyway, the first time I got her was right in the office and in my private washroom. I sat down on the toilet and she sat right down on top of me. It was funny, but I just dragged her in there that day because I got tired of watching her swing her ass in my face.
"I mean, I could tell that she wanted it, and I sure wanted to give it to her, and that's just what I did. I got her in there, pulled up her dress, pulled down her panties, pulled down my zipper, and set her right down on my lap. My cock went up into her asshole without any trouble at all.
"I couldn't believe what a big hole she had back there, but I certainly didn't complain. Especially when she began to bounce up and down on me and really sent those shivers all through me like she did. That was something else, and she knew it, and kept it up just as long as she could.
"When I came inside her, I thought my cock was going to split in half. It really felt as if it would. It just seemed to erupt like a volcano and she did everything that she could to see that it kept on erupting like that, and she did all that she could to keep me hard.
"She hadn't been the first one I had ever cheated on Nancy with, and she wasn't the last, but she's certainly one of the best, and she proved it that first day. She just made me go wild because she was going wild. She was one of the hottest bitches I had ever had and I meant to keep her that way.
"That night though I felt especially bad about the whole thing and I almost told Nancy what had happened. I didn't though, but I thought I could see something in her eyes that let me know that she knew. I almost got her to sleep with me that night, but at the last moment she got up off the couch where we were sitting and went to bed.
"That was the last time that we ever came close to making it again, and now we hardly talk to one another. I'm more than just a salesman now, but I still sell because that's where I make all my big commissions. But I also get to go out of town a lot on trips and I like that.
"Whenever I go out of town, I take my secretary with me, and we have sometime for ourselves. Actually, there have been a few times when I didn't take her, and those times I've met other chicks who were just as willing. Of course, you always meet some who won't let you get them in the ass, and that's a drag.
"I don't know what I'm going to do about Nancy. I keep thinking that I should just leave her, but I really don't have to since I can do whatever I want anyway. I mean, in my business it looks good to have a wife and child, and what seems to be a nice homelife.
"It's all a front and everyone knows that, but you've got to keep up the front just the same. So that's what I do, but while I'm doing it, it's tearing me up inside. I can't stand it. I mean, my sex appetite just gets in the way of everything else, and whenever I see a nice ass walk by I just want to run up and fuck it.
"Once of these days I know I'm going to rape some girl, and I'm going to get caught and go to jail and then I'll really go out of my mind, or I'll turn into a queer and that'll probably destroy me all together. Whatever, I know I can't go on this way much longer. I'll crack any day now."
SUMMARY
Mr. Adams' problem seems to get worse, and not better. Like the patient in the first case history, Mr. Adams' guilt comes from his cheating on his spouse. However, because of his anal fixation he is driven to cheat on her, and always will be.
CASE HISTORY THREE
Name: Gus North Sex: Male Age: 36
Occupation: Dentist
Mr. North is a married man with three children. He came to me because his wife threatened to leave him if he didn't seek psychiatric treatment for what she considers to be his "sexual perversions." Mr. North it seems can only achieve sexual gratification through anal intercourse, and is constantly forcing his wife to submit to his will.
While his wife eventually submits, she herself derives no pleasure from the act, and that is why Mr. North is constantly seeking out those women who derive pleasure from this type of sexual activity.
As Mr. North told me, he has been this way for as long as he can remember and that he had his first experience in anal intercourse when he was eighteen.
Rather than tell you his whole history, I will now present to you the transcript from our interviews.
INTERVIEW ONE
"I told you my reason for being here, didn't I? Well, my wife told me she'd divorce me if I didn't see a psychiatrist. Just because I like to fuck her in the ass, she thinks I'm a pervert or something. I don't think there's anything wrong with that, do you?
Anyway, I guess you'll want to know all about my sex life and all about my family's sex life. First of all I was one of four children. I was the only boy in the family, and like myself, my father was a dentist. All the men in my family have always been dentists, and if I ever have a son he'll be a dentist too.
"Like I said, I was the only boy, and I was also the youngest. I had three older sisters and they were always bossing me around. One of them was six years older than me, and when I was six she used to be the one who took care of me when my parents went anyplace.
"I really hated her because she would do all kinds of terrible things to me. She would hit me for no reason at all, and she would lock me in the bathroom sometimes. She was always doing something to hurt me, and because of that I was really afraid of her, and I didn't like to be around her.
"My other two sisters weren't any nicer to me and whenever I tried to tell my parents what they did to me, my parents would never believe me and they would say I was lying to cover up something I had done. Then one of them would hit me for lying about my sisters.
"That's how it was until I was about thirteen. By then I was bigger than my sisters so they didn't dare push me around. I mean I was really big for my age, and even my oldest sister, who was nineteen by then, didn't mess around with me anymore, because once when she did I hit her in the mouth.
"By then all my sisters were dating and I use to see them parked in front of the house when their dates brought them home at night. I would see them making out and all that and sometimes I wouldn't be able to see so good because they would be lying down on the front seat of the car.
"My older sister was in college by then, but she still lived at home. She had more boyfriends than my younger sisters and she would sometimes take her dates out into the backyard and they would lie down in the grass and they would fuck. I didn't know what it was at the time, but I asked some friends in school and they told me what it was.
"After I knew what it was, I would watch all the time from my bedroom window and I would beat off as I watched her getting fucked by whoever she was with. Usually she let every boy who took her out fuck her. And it always seemed to me that there was a different one each time.
"Sometimes I would open my window a little so I could hear what was going on and I would always hear her moaning away as the guy drove his cock up into her pussy. Sometimes they would be turned in such a way that I could see her pussy when she had her legs spread, and I could see the man's cock going in her almost.
"A lot of times, just before they fucked, they would sixty-nine. I liked watching that too. I never told her of course that I was watching, but I think she knew that I was. There-was just something about the way she acted towards me.
"I of course didn't fuck anybody for the longest time, but I sure wanted to. That's all I could think about. Every day and every night when I went to bed I would dream about fucking some girl and then I would beat off and that would be the end of it. Lots of nights I would have wet dreams and I would wake up and my come would be all over my stomach and all over the sheets.
"This went on till I was eighteen. I mean, all that time I didn't get one piece of ass. Then just before I graduated from high school I took this girl out and she let me fuck her. First she wanted me to eat her out and that's just what I did. We were way out in the country in my father's car and we were in the back seat.
"I had gotten all her clothes off and I was lying on top of her with my head down between her legs and I was really going after her cunt with my mouth. I was really getting after her but I could tell that I didn't like it. I mean, I was working my tongue in and out of her pussy, and she was going wild, but I didn't feel a thing.
"She had my cock well in her mouth, and she was sucking away on it, and I could tell she loved doing that also, but even though I came, it didn't feel like I thought it should. It just didn't give me the thrill that I thought it should give me, and I was very disappointed by it all.
"Then I got my cock right in her cunt and I figured this would really set me off, and I really went at her, humping away like crazy. She was going wild underneath me, and she had her legs up in the air and then she wrapped them around my waist and really pressed me into her.
"She was coming all over my cock, and she was burning up inside, but I still didn't feel what I thought I should. It just didn't feel the way that I wanted it to. It felt anything but that, and I was getting really frustrated by it all, especially since she liked it so much, and I didn't.
"Finally I just couldn't stand it any longer and I just pulled out of her. Not knowing what else to do, I turned her over on her stomach and drove my cock right into her asshole. I'm not even sure why I did that. It just came over me all of a sudden, and that's what I did.
"I could tell I was hurting her, but once I got it in I didn't care. All of a sudden I began to feel something in my cock. It was throbbing sensation. My cock was getting hotter and hotter, and I began to fuck her faster and faster. All this time I was getting it way inside her and really driving it in as hard as I could.
"She had been screaming out in pain at first-, but now I could tell that she liked it as much as I did, and she was begging me to do it harder and faster. I did just that, and I was just ramming into her with all my might, and pretty soon I could feel the come just shooting out of me, and I was just going wild then.
"My whole body was shaking and every time I felt more come spurting out of my cock, I shook even more than I had been. I was in convulsions almost and so was she, and we were both responding to each other the best we could. She was pressing her ass right up into my groin, and pressing hard.
"I loved the feel of her cheeks all around me, and I pressed into her asshole just as hard as I could. She was up on her knees now, and so was I, and I could actually see my cock going in and out of her. I loved the sight of what my cock was doing to her, and I just made myself go faster. I stayed hard the whole time and pretty soon I was building up to another orgasm.
"Once I knew I was doing that I really began to ram into her and once again I exploded like I never thought that I could. The come just poured out of my cock, and it made me feel as if my cock was going to split in two. It really did. I couldn't contain myself after that.
"Finally I took her home and eventually I found my own way home. I was so dizzy still that I didn't think I would be able to walk straight. When I got up to my room, the youngest of my three sisters was waiting for me. By now both of my older sisters had gotten married, and she was the only one left in the house.
"Her name was Marie and she was just a year older than me. She was in college and she was studying to be a teacher. She was the best looking of the three, and I had liked her a little better than the others but not much. She was just sitting on my bed with a housecoat wrapped around her.
"She could smell the sex all over me and asked me who I had been with. I told her who I had been with and just what I had done. She was shocked when I told her how I had fucked the girl in the ass, and she was even more shocked when I told her how much I had liked it.
"'Why you're a pervert,' she then said, 'Only a pervert would get pleasure out of fucking someone in the ass. That's what queers do to each other because they can't do anything else. You want to be a queer all your life? Is that what you want to be?'
"That really made me mad and I started to slap her across the face. I pushed her down so that she was lying on the bed and then her housecoat opened up and I saw that she had nothing on underneath. I saw her hairy mound and her legs were spread far enough apart so that I could see her wet pussy.
"I just looked at her and then I turned her over on her stomach and pulled up her housecoat and looked at her nice round ass and before she could say anything or do anything, I had my pants off and I was on top of her with my cock pressed right into the crack of her ass.
"I managed to get it right inside her and she bit into the bedspread to keep from screaming. I could tell that I was hurting her, but that was just what I wanted to do. I wanted to get back at all my sisters for what they had done to me, and I was going to get back at them through Marie.
"I just began to ram into her with all my might, but only because I wanted to hurt her, and not because I wanted any pleasure out of what I was doing. I couldn't help but feel something though and pretty soon my cock was on fire again like it had been earlier with that girl.
"I really began to tremble all over and that made me drive my cock into her even harder. I could tell that she was beginning to feel something too, and the next thing I knew she was responding favorably. She was really pressing her ass back into my groin, and I was really pressing my cock down into her.
"I could feel myself about to explode, and I could feel her about to explode also. I reached down in front of her and got my fingers right in her cunt and I began to work them in and out. I could feel the come building up in my cock, and I could feel her come pouring out of her cunt.
"That's when I just let go and the come just came rushing out of me like a rampaging storm. I thought my whole body would split in two this time and I was trembling more than I had with that girl. The fact that I was fucking my sister was really turning me on. Incest on top of everything made me really shoot my rocks off.
"Later she told me that I was a real pervert because only a real pervert would fuck his own sister in the ass. I told her that if I was a pervert, she was one too, because she had liked having me fuck her in the ass. After I said that, she didn't say anything else.
"It was right after that that she went off and got married. She married this guy she barely knew, but she had to prove that she was normal and not a pervert like me. Two weeks after they got back from their honeymoon though she came back to see me to tell me how miserable she was.
"It seems her husband always came too quickly and he refused to fuck her in the ass. She said she hadn't had an orgasm once with him and that she always had to finger herself afterwards. She said he wouldn't even let her blow him or anything. I could tell how unhappy she was, but I just laughed at her.
"She really got upset then and she threatened to kill herself. That made me laugh all the more, and then she just stripped off her clothes in front of me and told me I just had to fuck her in the ass. I made her beg first, and finally I took off my own clothes and got on top of her.
"I let her have it good, even more so that I had the first time, and I made her so sore she could hardly walk. Her ass really hurt when she left me that day, but it was the kind of pain that she loved, and the next day she was back again for more. For the next month or so I got her everyday.
"I was still living at home all this time and it was the summer after I had graduated from high school. I was still fucking that other girl, the one I had gotten the very first time, but I didn't like her that much and I didn't see her that often. Besides, she had other boyfriends who were also fucking her.
"I really liked the idea of fucking my own sister, especially now that she was married. I mean, it seemed that much more perverted to me. She had to go and tell my other sisters though because she was feeling guilty about it and they went and told my parents.
"They really let me have it then, and my father said he would disown me if it happened again. I told him I wouldn't do anything to my sister again because I didn't want to go out and work just yet. He was appeased by that, and he never mentioned it again, and I never fucked my sister in the ass again. I really did miss doing it to her, and there was nothing else that could quite make up for it."
INTERVIEW TWO
"After I stopped fucking my sister I began to go out with other girls, but most of them wouldn't let me fuck them in the ass like I wanted to. Once I tried to force myself on a girl but she started to scream for the police and I stopped. I never saw her again after that.
"I was getting hornier and hornier as time went on, and then I met this lady who was a friend of my mother's. She was younger than my mother, but she was still in her late thirties. I think she was about thirty-eight. Anyway, she was still good looking for her age.
"I met her one afternoon when she came to see my mother and my mother wasn't home. She stayed though and we got to talking about one thing or another, and then she told me how she hated her husband and what a no-good bum he was and how he cheated on her all the time, and how he never satisfied her.
"I just sat there and listened to her, and in the meantime I was mixing her martinis and getting her drunk.
"'You know,' she was saying, 'he even has the nerve to bring those whores of his home with him "to show me. He tells me about how he fucks them and how he satisfied all of them but he never intends to satisfy me ever again. He says I'm no good and that I don't deserve to be satisfied."
"She was in tears then, but I just sat there and let her go on.
"'Sometimes I feel as if I want to kill myself,' she then said. 'I mean, what have I got to live for anyway. Nothing. There's just nothing left for me anymore. I might as well kill myself."
"She was sitting on the couch all this time and I was sitting across from her in an arm chair. I then got up and went behind the arm chair and I began to rub the back of her neck and then her shoulders and her back. She liked that and she made all these noises in her throat.
"She really thought that was good, and it calmed her down, and she even stopped crying. Finally she began to kiss my hands and then she turned her face up to me and I kissed her full on the mouth. I bent down and pressed my mouth into hers, and at the same time I began to unbutton her blouse.
"I unbuttoned it all the way, and I managed to slip it off her. Her breasts were huge and they hung loose after I got her bra off. I grabbed onto them with both hands and I squeezed just as hard as I could. I really made her nipples hard and she loved that and she began to squirm all over the place.
"She began to take her own skirt off and she then took off her penties. She was completely naked now and I was still fully clothed. I then broke away from her long enough to get undressed. When I was completely naked I went over and lay on top of her. She was flat on her back and I just fell onto her.
"She really began to squirm all around underneath me then, and she pressed her pussy right up against my cock. She then grabbed my cock and began to rub it back and forth against her clit. That really turned her on and she began to rub it even harder than she had been.
"I didn't exactly like what she was doing but I didn't know how to make her stop it. She obviously liked it and I could feel her cuntlips getting wetter and wetter as the cunt juices just poured out of her. She was just going wild inside, and I could feel her come all over my cock.
"She then pushed me off her and off the couch onto the floor. She came right down on top of me and the next thing I knew she was sitting up on me and getting my cock right up into her cunt. She began to raise and lower her hips and I could feel my cock sliding in and out of her cunt.
"She was really going at me, and now I could feel her come dripping down my cock and onto my balls. That made her go even faster and she went so fast that my cock popped right out of her. She got it back inside her just as fast as she could and she turned around so that her ass was staring me in the face.
"That was what I wanted and I began to rim her asshole with my finger and then I got my finger right inside her asshole and began to work it back and forth as she still raised and lowered herself over my cock. I was really getting my finger into her, and then I got two fingers inside of her.
"I could tell that she liked it, and I began to do it even harder than I had been. I was working them way up, and then pulling them out almost all the way. I kept that up for the longest time and she just humped on top of me all the harder. The cream was just pouring out of her then.
"What I wanted to do was to suck out her asshole and maybe have her suck out my asshole. When I thought she had had enough of having me fuck her in the cunt, I pushed her off me and went right after her asshole with my mouth. I really got my tongue inside her and began to work it all around.
"That made her tremble all over and she began to beg me for more, and that's just what I gave her. I really went after her and the noises I was making with my mouth and tongue were driving me wild they were so loud. She was really squirming around then and finally I just lay on top of her and drove my cock in to the hilt.
"I drove it in so far I thought it would come out the other side, and I'm sure she thought that too. I was holding myself up on the palms of my hands which were flat on the floor, and I could see my cock going into her asshole. I would watch as I pulled it out and I would watch as I drove it back in.
"That was turning me on more than anything, and I began to drive my cock into her harder and faster and pretty soon I could feel it trembling inside and I knew that I was about to come. I could feel my orgasm building up in all parts of my body and then I just let loose.
"When I did that she just went wild inside and I could feel her shaking all over. The come just poured out of me then and right into her asshole. It began seeping out the sides and running down the cheeks of her ass. She loved the way that felt and she cried out for me to keep it up.
"I was still hard and I was still ramming my cock in and out of her. The shivers were still going all through me and I stayed hard long enough so that I was soon coming again. This time I collapsed on top of her, and I just lay there for quite sometime.
"After that I saw a lot of her, and we tried to spend as much time together as possible. We even went away on weekends together and we would go to these out-of-the-way motels and spend most of the weekend in bed. I think we were almost falling in love despite the difference in our ages.
"Our affair lasted almost a whole year, and during that time I was as happy as I've ever been in my whole life. We didn't even have that many arguments, although we did have a few, but they were nothing to speak of. For the most part we got along quite well.
"Then one day she was in an automobile accident and it paralyzed her from the waist down. After that she was never able to have sex again. For the longest time I refused to go out and have sex with anyone else because I still loved her too much. She told me that I shouldn't waist my life on her.
"That's when I met Dorothy, the woman who is now my wife. She was just a year older than me, and I told her all about Doris and how I had fallen in love with her. Dorothy was awfully understanding and we became friends because of it. We didn't have any sexual attachment for each other at the time, and I doubt if either one of us ever thought about it.
"That didn't come for sometime, and when it did, it was totally unexpected. All that time I had been going without it, and I was super horny, but I tried not to think about it. Actually I didn't want to have sex with anyone even though I really needed to. Instead I just masturbated almost every night.
"When that night finally came when I fucked Dorothy it was almost anti-climatic. We had begun to fool around with each other a few months before that and we were always making jokes about sex, and what would happen if we ever had sex. It was never anything serious though.
"However, I think in the backs of our minds, we both knew that eventually we would have sex together, and it was just a question of when it would happen, and not if it would happen. The night that it did happen, it was as if we had been doing it right along, and it didn't seem like the big thing that it might have otherwise.
"We were at her apartment that she shared with two other girls and they had both gone away for the weekend. I had planned on staying over, like I had done before, but I was going to sleep on the couch like I always had done previously. We were just sitting on the couch watching television when we began to make out.
"We were just kissing each other on the mouth at first, and then I began to run my hands all over her tits, and she liked that, and so I got my hands under her sweater and I unsnapped her bra and really began to feel her tits. That's what started everything that followed, and it was the first time I had ever done that to her.
"I was really grabbing hold of her tits and I was rubbing them all around and I was making her nipples real hard and I could tell that she liked that a lot. That's when I pulled the sweater right off her and began to suck on her tits. I got my mouth around one of her nipples and sucked just as hard as I could.
"She went wild when I did that and she was crying out and telling me to suck even harder. I got as much of her tit in my mouth as I could and I just became frantic at that point. Her flesh felt so good in my mouth and I wanted it there all the time. I never wanted her tit to be anyplace else but in my mouth.
"I'm sure she felt the same way because she was pressing it up into my mouth just as hard as she could. By then I had my hand down her skirt and under her panties. First I got my finger in her cunt and worked it in and out there, and then I moved around to her ass and began to rim her asshole.
"I rimmed her quite a few times before I finally got into her. I really worked it all around in her asshole, and while it hurt her a little at first, she didn't seem as if she wanted me to stop. Then I took off the rest of her clothes and then I let her undress me.
"Once we were naked we stretched out full length on the couch and we began to feel each other all over. I had my hands all over her body, and she had her hands all over my body. Pretty soon she was lying on top of me and I could feel her easing her cunt down over my cock.
"She was a virgin and it hurt her as my cock went up into her, and she made sure that it went into her just as slow as possible. Finally it was in her all the way, and she began to raise and lower her hips. She did it very gently at first, and then she began to go just a little faster.
"I could tell from the expression on her face that she liked it and that she wanted more of the same. It was as if she were the first person to ever discover sex. It was a mystery that she alone had found the clues to. The expression on her face became more and more contorted as she began to hump on me even faster.
"I just lay still and let her do it all. I felt something, but it wasn't the same as it would have been had I been fucking her in the ass. I didn't make her stop though and I let her go on until she was coming all over me. I could feel her sticky cream dripping down my cock and onto my balls.
"Her cunt was overflowing now and still she kept on humping me. She was going faster and faster now and her legs were spread as far apart as she could get them, and she was yelling out at the top of her lungs.
"'Fuck me,' she screamed.
"I still wasn't moving, but she was moving so fast that she couldn't tell that. As far as she knew, I was moving right along with her. I could feel something in my cock, and I was starting to get worked up a little, but it was mostly because I was thinking how I would fuck her in the ass right after this.
"I just knew that I wasn't going to get her in the ass later on, and it never dawned on me that she wouldn't let me do it. I really thought she would. You can imagine how enraged I was when she told me how perverted that was and how I should never ask her that again.
"Well, as soon as I knew she wasn't going to let me fuck her in the ass, I got my clothes on and stormed out of her apartment, and I didn't make any attempt to call her after that for a whole month, and then it was she that called me. The first time I hung up on her, but the second time I talked to her.
"We agreed to meet later on that day in this restaurant and discuss the matter. That's when I told her that I could only get real sexual satisfaction if I fucked her in the ass, and that nothing else turned me on as much as that did. She still thought it was perverted but she said I could if I agreed to marry her after I got out of college.
"I still don't know why I said that I would, but actually at the time I didn't have any intention of keeping my promise. Well, after I told her that I would marry her, we went back to her place and I really got her good in the ass. She just lay there and cringed every time I drove my cock back into her.
"Well, that's how it went until I graduated from dental school. Just to keep her happy I would fuck her normally, and just to keep me happy she would let me fuck her in the ass. Then she tricked me. She stopped taking her pills one month and the next thing I knew she was pregnant.
"I was trapped into marrying her, and she had done it intentionally because she knew that I wouldn't have married her otherwise. I was so mad that during the honeymoon I wouldn't go near her. It wasn't until we had been married a whole month before I finally fucked her again."
INTERVIEW THREE
"It seems like I've been married all my life now. It really does. I guess I was about twenty-four or so when I got married and I'm thirty-six now. It's only twelve years but it seems like a lifetime. I really love Dorothy and I love my three daughters, but I need something that she won't give me unless I force her to.
"I have to rape her almost to get what I want from her, and then it's not the same. That's why I have to go out with other women who are more willing than she is. I need to get them in the ass or else I don't feel anything. I mean, I fuck Dorothy normally all the time, and she loves it, but I don't.
"Let me tell you about this mistress I had during the first year I was married to Dorothy. It became obvious to me after a few months that she wasn't going to submit to me willingly like she had before we were married. I mean, she wasn't going to let me fuck her in the ass willingly, although she would let me fuck her willingly, if it only meant that I would stick my cock in her cunt. That she would do more than willingly.
"You see, Dorothy really likes having sex with me as long as it's not what she considers to be perverted. I mean, she'll even blow me once in awhile, even though I don't really want her to. She'll do anything I don't want, but she won't let me do what I want most of all.
"To make matters worse, we fight all the time about stupid things, but these fights stem from our basic problem, and we both know it. That's why I'm here now telling you about all this, although I don't know what good you're supposed to do in all this. I still feel the same way that I always did about sex.
"Anyway, I was going to tell you about the first mistress I ever had after I got married. She was one of my patients and she was really very attractive. And she had an ass on her that drove me out of my mind. The first time I got a good look at it, I got an instant hard-on.
"I mean, whenever she was in my office, I had a hard-on the whole time she was there. She came to me about six times because she really had bad teeth and it took me that long to fix them. Well, during those six visits I found out all about her. She was single and she lived alone.
"She had quite a few boyfriends, but she was only having sex with two of them. She said she was looking for a sugar daddy who would support her so she wouldn't have to work anymore. That's when I told her that I would be her sugar daddy if she would let me fuck her in the ass.
"I also made her promise to get rid of all her other boyfriends and that she wouldn't have sex with anyone but me. She said she was willing to do all that even before I had fucked her. She said she had a special feeling about me, and she just knew that we were going to make it together.
"Well, that first time we really did make it together. She sucked out my asshole like no one ever has since, and I really sucked her out good too. And when I finally got my cock in her asshole I was burning up all over.
"I mean, I was really trembling both inside and outside by the time I finally stuck it in her. I thought I was going to come right then, but I managed to hold back for the longest time. All that time I was driving right into her and I was driving us both into a frenzy.
"She really liked getting it in the ass like that and she pressed right back into me. We even did it doggy style, and we did it with her sitting up on my lap. That night we did it every way that we could, and I think I must have had six or seven orgasms, the most I've ever had in my life.
"After that I supported her, and Dorothy knew all about it, but she never said a word.
She was convinced that she would win me over and that I would stop my perverted ways if she could just convince me how nice it was to be normal like she was. It didn't work though and I still kept my mistress.
"Like I said, or maybe I didn't, but I only kept this first mistress for a year or so. Then we both got bored with each other and she left town. I was a little upset, but I soon found someone else, so it didn't bother me that much. I got over it before a week had gone by.
"Mostly I've had affairs with women who have been my patients. I mean, that's the easiest way for me to meet them. I've also had affairs with the girls who've been my dental assistants and even with my receptionist. Every single one of them has let me fuck them in the ass, and they all like it.
"I just can't understand Dorothy. I don't see why she doesn't like to get it in the ass. There's just no good reason for it that I can see. No reason at all, and you can tell her that for me since she won't listen when I tell her.
"I really don't see why I should keep coming to you except that it's keeping my marriage together. I mean, I really don't want to lose her, but at the same time, I knew I'm not going to change. I've been this way a long time now, and I don't want to change. I mean, I fuck her the way she wants me to, and I even have gotten so I like it somewhat. Why can't she give me what I want without my having to force her into it?
"I mean, it's easy enough for me to force her. I'm a lot bigger than she is. But I don't like having to do it that way. I'd like to have her submit to me willingly like she did before we were married. And I would like her to try and like what I'm doing to her.
"Now, after I've forced her to do it, she screams at me for an hour about what a pervert I am and how she thinks I'm the lowest form of human being on the face of this earth. Then she just spreads her legs and tells me to stick it in her pussy which I do. Maybe I should cut her off completely. Maybe then she'll come around and see things my way."
SUMMARY
Mr. North still comes in to see me once a week, but his home situation hasn't improved any, and I don't think it will. I don't think his wife will leave him, but I don't think either one of them is about to change their sexual preference to please the other.
CASE HISTORY FOUR
Name: Jennifer West Sex: Female Age: 30
Occupation: Teacher
Miss West came to me because, as she put it, she "needed someone to talk to." As is the case with most of my patients, she did all the talking and I listened.
Her case is an interesting one and began when she was a child. At that time-she was eleven-she was raped by a man in his thirties. The man had not only raped her, but he raped her anally. Since then she has had a fixation for anal sex, and rather than being repulsed by her attacker, she became just the opposite.
Years later, when she reflected back on her initial experience, it became clear to her that this was the type of sexual activity that she preferred.
What she has done is that she has romanticised the incident so that now it seems like a tale out of some bold adventure series. But I'll let her transcript fill you in on the more important aspects of her case.
INTERVIEW ONE
"I had one older sister who I was fairly close to and my parents were nice enough, I guess. They were both rather young when they got married-my mother was eighteen and my father was twenty-and they had my sister during the first year of their marriage and they had me the second year.
"After that my mother couldn't have any more children, otherwise I'm sure they would have had a dozen. You see, my parents had a great sex life together, and they were always kissing in front of us, and showed a great deal of affection for one another all the time.
"I can remember when I was five or six and going to see my friends and seeing their parents fight all the time. That really confused me and I didn't see how my parents could be so loving with one another, when nobody else's parents were. It just didn't seem normal to me for some reason.
"Anyway, for the longest time I felt as if my parents were just putting on a show for my benefit and my sister's benefit. I decided that they were only that way when we were around, and that when we weren't around, that they must fight like everyone else's parents did.
"Besides, by the time I was ten, everyone else had an excuse for being miserable and I didn't. That made me feel left out of things, and I hated my parents for that. It was at ten that I also learned about sex. This friend of mine had an older sister who told us all about it one day.
"I think she was sixteen or thereabouts, and she had been laid quite a few times, or so she said. She told us how great it was to get laid, and how the both of us should get laid as soon as we could because there was nothing else like it, and that it really did things to you.
"She also taught us how to masturbate, but I was afraid to do it for some reason, and so I didn't. I did think about all that she told us though, and after that every time I looked at a boy or a man I would think about what it would de like to have him lay me.
"I began to look below men's belts to see if they had a hard-on and one time I saw this one man who had a hard-on so big I couldn't believe it. It looked like it was going to burst right through his pants, and actually I guess I wanted it to so I could see just what it looked like.
"One day I talked this one boy into fingering me, and he did, but nothing happened. It felt all right, but I didn't get those feelings that my friend's sister had said I would get. But then I hadn't been laid, I had just been fingered, and that wasn't the same thing.
"The boy was nice enough, but he was ten also, and he couldn't lay me because he didn't have a big enough cock and besides, it couldn't get hard. One day he let me play with him though, and I even took it in my mouth and sucked on it for awhile. We both liked that.
"I was eleven-I had just turned eleven-when I got raped in the park by this man who looked like he was forty, but I found out later he was in his thirties. He was a huge man, and I had seen him in the park a lot before the day he raped me. As it turned out, he had raped about four other girls before me.
"It was a Saturday, and I always went to the park on Saturdays. I didn't see him at first, but then he just came at me from nowhere and dragged me off behind these bushes, and the next thing I knew he was tearing my clothes off me. When I was naked he pulled down his zipper, pulled out his cock, and stuck it in me.
"He got it right in my cunt at first and began to ram it into me, grunting away like a pig the whole time. He seemed to do that for the longest time, and the pain was going all through me. Then he just pulled it out, turned me over on my stomach, and rammed it right into my asshole.
"I couldn't believe the amount of pain that went through me then. I thought I was going to die, and the harder he drove his cock into me, the more I wanted to die. I really did. I just felt as if my whole body was being split in two. I lay there as perfectly still as I could through it all, because for some reason I felt that if I didn't move he would go away.
"I don't know what made me think that, and it was certainly a dumb thing on my part, because instead of going away, he seemed to feel more inclined to stay. The pain lessened after awhile, and I guess I just felt numb after that. I could feel blood coming out of me but I wasn't sure where it was coming from.
"Then I felt him exploding into me, his sticky cream spurting out as his cock jerked back and forth. It just filled me right up, and it was making me dizzy. My head was spinning and my whole body felt as if it was floating. I really felt a certain amount of a pleasure at that point.
"Finally, he got off me and just left me there. I managed to get dressed and to sneak home without anyone seeing me. I didn't tell anyone about being raped, because I was afraid I would be punished, although I don't know why I ever thought that. Anyway, I didn't tell anyone.
"For the longest time I was sore all over my body, and I even found it hard to walk. Some days I just sat down and didn't move because the pain was so great. I was still too afraid to tell anyone about what happened though, and when my parents asked me one day what was the matter I said I had fallen down the stairs going down to the cellar.
"I went and told my friend, though. The one whose sister had told us all about sex. Her name was Ginger, and she was all excited by the news. She asked me all kinds of things about how it felt and I lied a little and said that it had felt great just like her sister said it would.
"We then began to talk about all the boys that we wanted to fuck us, and we began to wonder if they were able to. However, we never did anything else but talk about it, and the years seemed to drag on after that. A year later that man was arrested when they caught him trying to rape another eleven-year-old.
"By the time I was fourteen though I was dating pretty regularly, and I did a lot of heavy petting and I let a few boys feel my tits, and I even let one boy dry fuck me, but that was as far as I let any of them get.
"By the time I was seventeen though I began to remember what it was like when that man had fucked me in the ass, and I began to think how I would like to have someone fuck me in the ass again. I really felt as if I wanted it that way again, and I began to think about who I should let do it.
"I was dating three boys at the time, and I didn't like any of them that much, but I figured it might as well be one of them. Then one day-it was summer now-and I was swimming in one of the city's pools, this guy came up behind me in the pool and sort of pushed me towards the side of the pool.
"He got me so that I was right up against the side and then he got his hand under my bathing suit. He was surprised when I didn't put up a fuss and in fact, I even put my hand down his bathing suit and began to stroke his rock-hard cock which was bulging out of the seams almost.
"I began to stroke him back and forth as he got his finger inside my pussy and began to work it in and out. Then I told him to put it in my ass instead, and that's what he did. As I looked around at the few people who were in the pool that day I could tell that no one was watching us. v
"Actually I didn't really care if they were watching, and maybe I was secretly hoping that they would. Anyway, he began to rim my asshole with the finger he had just had in my cunt and then he got it right inside my asshole and began to work it in and out. I got my finger in his asshole and did the same thing.
"We were both getting a little frantic at that point and he turned me around so that my back was towards him and then he lowered the bottom half of my swim suit and I felt his cock up against the crack in my ass, and then I felt it going right inside me, and that sent all kinds of shivers through me.
"He was working it in and out now and that really drove me wild. I tried not to yell out, which is what I wanted to do because it felt so good to me. It certainly felt better than it had that day in the park. It felt a lot better and I didn't want him to ever stop.
"He kept it up for the longest time and I could feel every inch of his meat going deep inside me. It certainly filled me up and I loved that. It just drove me wild and I wanted it to always fill me up like it was now doing. Then I felt him shooting off and that really made me shake all over.
"I was a mass of shakes at that point and the come just poured out of him. I felt it all going inside me, and a feeling of warmth spread all through my body. My whole body was on fire and I didn't think that I would ever feel any other way. I certainly didn't want to feel any other way.
"Pretty soon his cock seemed to slip out of me and it was all over. I pulled my bathing suit back up and climbed out of the pool. He came out right behind me, and after we had gotten dressed in the dressing rooms he walked me home. I found out that his name was Tom and that he was seventeen just like I was.
"All that summer I dated only him, and in about the middle of the summer he got this old car that we used to drive around in. More than once we went way out in the country and parked and fucked in the back seat. We did other things besides fuck, we sixty-nined quite a bit also.
"I really thought that I was in love with Tom and I wanted to marry him even. Towards the end of the summer though he was getting real moody, and lots of times when we went out he wouldn't even talk to me. We would just go someplace and fuck, and that would be it.
"The whole night he wouldn't have said a word, and neither would I. I suppose I should have said something, but he always had this look on his face that made me afraid to say anything. Then one day when I couldn't take it anymore, I went over to his house to have it out with him.
"I rang the doorbell but there was no answer. I thought I heard noises coming from inside, and I tried to open the door but it was locked. I rang the doorbell again and still there was no answer. By now the noises had gotten louder. I began to walk around the side of the house to the back.
"When I got to the back of the house I tried the door there and that was locked also. Then I looked in through the window and it turned out to be his bedroom. And there he was in bed with another guy. They were both naked, and the other guy was on top of Tom.
"I could see that other guy had his cock in Tom's ass, and he was really ramming away at him. I just couldn't believe it for a second and I just stood there and stared at what I was seeing. I guess I was getting a little turned on by it also, because the next thing I knew I was fingering myself.
"Even through the closed windows I could hear the noises they were making and I could see the expression on Tom's face. He was really enjoying what was happening to him and his face was all contorted from pleasure. I really worked my finger up into my cunt until I had made myself come, and then I got so disgusted that I threw up.
"I think I ran all the way home after that. That night when he called me to ask when he should pick me up I told him I never wanted to date any queer and I hung up on him. I cried all that night and the next day I didn't go out of my room for nothing. I just stayed in bed and cried.
"For the longest time I wouldn't date. Not even after the new school year started and it was senior year and everything. I didn't want anything to do with any boy and I kept hoping they would all die off. I really hated them all. I saw Tom only once during the school year and when he tried to talk to me I scratched his face pretty badly.
"By the end of the year I was known as the reformed whore. I didn't care what they called me because I didn't want to be near any of them. I did have one girl friend though and we would go to the movies once in awhile. We weren't that close at first, but we got closer as the year went on.
"By the time summer came we were the best of friends. Her name was Cindy, and she was still a virgin. She hated all men too but that was because her father was always beating her and her mother.
"After we graduated from high school Cindy and I went away and got an apartment together and got jobs as waitresses. Neither of us had any intention of getting married and we didn't have any other plans either. We just went to work everyday, and at night we would go to the movies or we would watch television, or we would go for a walk.
"We slept in the same bed, but we had never done anything with one another. Then one day as we were passing this novelty shop we saw all these artificial pricks in the window. We began to make jokes about them and then we went in and bought two. That night we each masturbated with one of them.
"The next day-it was Saturday, and we both were off from work-we just lay in bed naked thinking about what we had done the night before. Then we began to talk about how we had felt. That's when I got up and got my dildo and strapped it around my waist. We both thought it looked funny.
"I began to prance around the room pretending I was a man and saying all kinds of obscene things. I even began to stroke the dildo up and down, and at one point I even took it off and began to suck on it. That really sent us both into hysterics, and I strapped it back on again.
"Cindy was lying on the bed with her legs spread far apart and she kept rubbing her pussy with her hand. Then she said, 'Come and get it, big boy. Come fuck my juicy wet cunt. It's just waiting for you big boy. It's wet and it's hot and it's just burning for you to get inside it."
"She didn't have to say anymore. I was right on top of her, getting the dildo right inside her pulsating cunt. She opened up wide at that point, and I just drove it all the way inside her. I kissed her full on the mouth and I ground my tits right into hers. I could feel her hands all over my ass, and I felt her finger slipping into my asshole.
"That made me grind the dildo into her all the harder and all the faster. I was really getting at her now and I could feel myself shaking all over. Her cunt juices were flowing all over the dildo, and I could feel her trembling beneath me. Finally I just pulled out of her cunt and turned her over on her stomach and went after her asshole.
"I was very gentle at first. I eased the dildo into her asshole just a little at a time. I just got the head of it inside her, and then I began to ease more of it inside her. It was so well coated with her come that it went easier than it would have otherwise.
"Once I had it all the way in, I just lay there on top of her, biting into her shoulders and neck.
She lay beneath me panting away and pressing her ass back into my groin area. I reached my hands around to her tits and began to squeeze them with all my might.
"After I had made her nipples good and rigid I ran my hands down to her very wet pussy and got almost my whole hand inside her. I began to work my fingers in and out of her as I then began to work the dildo in and out of her.
"She really liked what I was doing to her now and I could feel her squirming away. She was frantic already and so was I. I was just ramming away at her and I didn't feel as if I would ever stop. I didn't want to stop, and I could tell that she didn't want me to stop.
"One thing I knew, I could keep this up longer than any man could. I really went after her then and I could feel her whole body opening up to me. I began to work my fingers into her cunt ever harder now, and I was biting into her shoulders and neck and drawing blood.
"She was yelling at the top of her lungs and so was I. We were both gasping for breath and then we both seemed to explode at once. I just trembled into a frenzied state, and then I lay there perfectly still. I couldn't move after that and then I just rolled off her and on my back.
"I lay there looking up at the ceiling and my head was just going around and around. I felt dizzier than I had ever felt in my life. I could feel Cindy taking the dildo off me and then I felt her on top of me. She had the dildo right inside my cunt and she was working it in and out like mad.
"I just spread my legs wide and then I threw them up in the air, and finally I locked my heels around her waist. I let her drive into me with all her might, and I began to match every movement she made with one of my own. I was moving right with her and that just made her go faster and faster until we were both trembling from our orgasms.
"When she got ready to stick it in my asshole, I was more than ready. I felt it easing into me and I yelled at her not to be so gentle and then she just rammed it in the rest of the way. She really began to hump away at me and I thought she was going to split me in two the way she was going.
"I felt it going up all the way inside me and then slipping almost all the way out. It just kept doing that over and over until I was screaming out to her to do it even faster and harder, which is just what she did. When she lay still on top of me we were both completely spent.
"We took a shower together and then we went out for a walk and to the movies. We knew that our lives were going to be different from then on. I made plans to go to college to study to be a teacher and Cindy took a job as a secretary. We made plans to live like any married couple.
"For the longest time, that's just what we did. We were perfectly happy. I didn't cheat on her, and she didn't dream of cheating on me. We had a wonderful life together, and I was getting good grades in my classwork so that I knew I would graduate with honors and get a high paying job teaching someplace.
"No one seemed to question the fact that we were living together and that neither one of us dated. I guess they just didn't think that we would have the nerve to have a lesbian relationship. But then, after a year or so, we began to get on each other's nerves and that's when we started to fight. I guess we were both feeling a little perverted by then."
INTERVIEW TWO
"I guess we had gotten to the part the last time where I had started having my affair with Cindy. That lasted over two years, and they were two of the best years of my life. Even the last year, when we did nothing but fight, it was still a good year, because we had a lot of sex with one another.
"Well, towards the very end of our second year, it was really unbearable, and Cindy was afraid that she was going to be a lesbian all her life and one day she just upped and moved out on me. That really upset me for the longest time and I was kind of moody for quite awhile.
"Then I met this guy at school who seemed awfully nice. I knew he was a homosexual, but I didn't let that bother me. Not anymore. Not after my affair with Cindy. Well, we just went out places to talk. He told me about his sex life and I told him about mine.
"We had a very nice platonic relationship until one day when we both decided that we wanted to have sex with one another. We were at my apartment that night and sitting on the couch when suddenly I pulled down his zipper, pulled out his cock, and began to suck on it.
"It was soft at first, but it didn't stay soft for very long. I was soon getting right at it and I loved the taste of it in my mouth. It tasted different from the other cocks I had sucked-there hadn't been that many-but there had been a few-and I just loved how it felt in my mouth.
"I really began to work it in and out of my mouth and after awhile he began to press up into my mouth the same way he would have pressed up into my cunt or asshole. I could feel his cock trembling and I didn't want him to come just yet so I let his cock fall out of my mouth and I began to undress him.
"After I had undressed him, he undressed me, and then we were both naked. I made him lie on his stomach and then I began to suck out his asshole. I got my tongue right down in the crack and began to run it back and forth. I made him shiver all over and then I concentrated on rimming his asshole with my tongue.
"I got my tongue right in his asshole then I worked it in and out the way I used to do to Cindy. For awhile I thought that it was Cindy that I was doing this to and not some guy. Then I thought about my dildo and how I would love using it on him, but for the time being I just sucked on his asshole and that was all.
"I could hear him moaning way down in his throat and I could tell that he liked what I was doing to him and that he wanted me to keep it up for as long as I could. I did just that. I really made my tongue go that much faster, and I was pressing into him with all my might.
"I began to feel as if I was the man and he was the woman, and I guess that's really how it was. I did play the man's role and he did play the woman's role, and that's how we kept it all night. After I had really done a job on him with my tongue I went and got my dildo.
"I strapped it around my waist and went after him with a fierceness that I had never known before. I kept thinking that I should have done this to Tom. As I thought that I began to cry a little, but then I pushed him out of my mind and thought only about what I was doing to Paul, who was moaning away beneath me.
"I had the dildo right up in his ass, and I was working it in and out and just going wild. I could feel my insides burning up and I thought I was on fire or something. He was on fire also, and I could very easily feel that. As I ground into him, he pressed his ass back into me.
"We were both frantic and of course we didn't want to stop ever. He kept saying something to me, but I couldn't really make it out. I did hear him when he called me by some man's name, but I didn't care what he called me. After awhile I was calling him Cindy.
"I could feel him trembling into orgasm and then his whole ass began to shake. I reached down in front of him and felt the hot cream as it shot out of his cock. I had both hands wrapped around his cock and I could feel the sex juices going all through my fingers.
"It felt so sticky and good that I didn't want to ever stop coming like that. I could feel my own sex juices running out of my cunt and down my thighs. They were sticky and hot also, and I didn't want them to ever stop either. Pretty soon I was sucking at his cock again, and licking up all his come, and he was sucking away at my cunt licking up all my come.
"After that we decided that it would be better if he moved in with me, and that's just what he did. One day we just moved all his stuff in and that was that. Actually he was better to have around than Cindy and he was even a better cook.
"We stayed together for quite some time, and during the whole time that we were together, I played the male role in our relationship, and it was I who fucked him in the ass, and not the other way around, the way it might have been normally. After awhile, when I wanted him to fuck me in the ass, he wouldn't.
"That's when I began to cheat on him. I met this one professor at the school who really had the hots for me, and I must say I encouraged him along those lines. I would wear the shortest skirts and expose as much of my thigh as I could. Most times I wouldn't even wear any panties.
"Finally I got him so worked up that one day he told me right out that he had to fuck me. That afternoon we went for a drive in his car and we stopped someplace. The whole way out I had been blowing him, getting as much of his cock into my mouth as I could. When he stopped the car we couldn't get undressed fast enough.
"As soon as we were both naked we got in the back seat. I was lying flat on my back with my legs up in the air so that they were up against the top of the car. He was kneeling down in front of me and he buried his head between my legs and began to eat out my pussy.
"He got his tongue right inside me and began to move it all around and really suck on my cuntlips. He was a savage about it all, and I loved him for it.
"The next thing I knew he was sucking down below my pussy and his tongue was right outside my asshole. He was rimming it and he was bending my legs over my chest and almost curling me up into a ball so he could get at my asshole better. I felt his tongue all over my ass and then right inside my asshole.
"He was really getting at me now, and his tongue felt so cool at first. It sent shivers all through me as it made its quick stabbing motions in and out of me. I was going through the ceiling almost and he knew it, and he kept it up, letting his tongue run all over my cheeks as well.
"Then he got me in a kneeling position, and then he was really after my asshole with that tongue of his. He was sucking the very life right out of me. It was as if he was doing it for the very first time or the very last time. He was just a madman at that point, and I was glad of it.
"Because of his madness, I was feeling the greatest sensations all through my body. They were making my head spin and they made me feel as if I was floating in space.
"'That's it,' I said, 'suck me out real good."
"He had every intention of doing just that, and his tongue seemed to be everywhere at once.
"'In farther,' I said, 'put it in farther."
"I thought his tongue would go right through me then and he really began to suck just as hard as he possibly could. At the same time he was grabbing at my tits with one hand, and fingering my pussy with the other.
"It seemed like he kept that up for the longest time before he finally got his cock in me. By then the come was just pouring out of me and down my thighs, and he had licked up a lot of it. He just drove into me then with all his might and I could feel his meaty shaft filling me up inside just the way I wanted it to.
"I was really pressing my ass back into him and every time he drove his cock into me, I pressed back even harder, in an attempt to get him in me even farther. I felt his balls slapping up against my thighs and that felt good also. That felt as good as anything else he was doing.
"He really began to ram into me and I could feel his cock trembling as it got ready to shoot off. I could feel the orgasm building up inside him, and not just in his cock either. It was building up in every part of his body and I could tell that he was going to explode any minute now.
"His whole body began to shake, just as my whole body began to shake. Then I felt his hot, heavy, sticky, cream shooting into me, and I could feel it filling me up inside. I could feel his cock jerking back and forth every time it spurted out more of his come.
"He wasn't about to stop though and he was still ramming his cock in and out of my asshole so that he stayed hard the whole time, and even after there was no more come, he was still humping away at me like the madman he was. I loved that and I kept yelling at him to do it harder.
"'Really make my ass sore,' I said, 'do it harder."
"He did it so hard that I really did become sore, but I didn't care because I loved the way he was making me sore, and I loved the way the soreness made me feel inside and what it did to my whole body. After that though he just fell back and his cock slipped out of my asshole.
"I was panting away and so was he. We were both too exhausted and too spent to move. Finally we got dressed and he drove me home. Paul was just getting home at the same time and he saw me getting out of the professor's car. I didn't see him until the professor had driven off and I was going inside our building.
"He just came up to me, grabbed me by the arm, and dragged me up to the apartment where he ripped off my clothes and beat me with his belt. He just beat me until I had blacked out. When I came to he had gone and he didn't come back until late the next evening.
"When he did come back he was drunk out of his mind, and he tried to beat me again, but he wasn't able to because he couldn't stand up straight. He collapsed on the floor and I had to drag him into the bedroom, undress him, and put him in bed. The next day he told me how sorry he was, but I didn't care at that point.
"We still stayed together after that, and we still had sex, but I was going with the professor more and more, and I was also going with this other student once in awhile. Paul finally found himself a boyfriend and he moved out. It was the best thing for both of us. I started having the professor over quite a few nights after that."
INTERVIEW THREE
"After I graduated from college I moved to a small town and I got a job as a teacher in the junior high school. All that year I didn't have sex with anyone. I don't know why I did that, but I decided that I wanted to see if I could do it. I did it, but it drove me out of my mind almost. It really did.
"I masturbated a lot that year though, and I was forever using this dildo on myself. I even managed to use it on my asshole. I had it fixed on the wall in such a way that I could back up into it, or onto it as the case may be. I would back up and let it slip right inside me.
"So actually I can't say I went without sex entirely, but having sex with yourself isn't the same as having sex with someone else. But that's all I did all year. I had lots of chances to have sex with a lot of the other teachers, and they were always making passes at me, but I didn't even talk to them hardly.
"I did make one friend with this one female teacher, but it wasn't what you might think. There was no chance of my ever having sex with her, and if you knew her, you'd know why I say that. Anyway she was married, and she had me over for supper quite often.
"Now her husband was something else, and he grabbed my ass plenty of times when his wife wasn't looking. Their names were Harry and Jane Simmons, and they were both pretty big people. He was over six feet tall, and she was almost six feet tall, and I was a midget beside them.
"Well, all that first year, while Harry was trying to get at me, I would fight him off, although I wouldn't fight him off completely. I mean I would let him grab my ass or my cunt or one of my tits, which he would do whenever he got the chance. However, Jane was usually around so he didn't get that much from me.
"By the end of the year he was really climbing the wall because he wanted me in the worst possible way. He really did and that was easy enough to tell, even though Jane never saw that, and I'm sure she still hasn't. Well, by the summer Harry just couldn't control himself.
"Then one day Jane went to visit her mother because her mother was sick. That gave Harry the opportunity that he was waiting for. The school year was over so I wasn't working and I was therefore home during the day. I was making plans to go to Europe, but I hadn't gone yet.
"I was home taking a bath when I heard a knock at the door. I got out of the tub, wrapped a towel around me, and went to answer it. I opened the door and there was Harry. When he saw me, he just pushed his way in, grabbed the towel out of my hand and tore it off me, and was on me in a second.
"He had me down on the floor and he was sucking on my tits, and trying to get his pants off at the same time. I told him to calm down and take his time, and finally he did. He stood up and got undressed and then he was back down on me again and this time I felt his hard cock between my legs.
"He was sucking on my tits again, and he was pushing his cock way up inside me. I could feel it filling up my cunt, and I could feel my sex juices flowing all ready. I let him fuck me there for quite sometime and when I felt that he was about to come I told him I wanted it in my ass.
"He pulled out quickly, turned me over, and went right after my ass. He got it way inside me and really began to hump away at me. That really drove me wild and I pressed my ass right back into him, and every time he moved, I moved right with him. I was with him all the way.
"This time when I felt him about to come, I didn't stop him, and I'm sure I couldn't have anyway. He was too far gone at that point, and he was just exploding all over the place, and then he seemed to explode all at once, and the come just shot out of him like a bullet.
"It seemed to all explode into me at once and I just lay there taking it all in. I couldn't believe how good he was making me feel and I thought about the wasted year that was behind us. I was determined that we would make up for it somehow. I didn't want to spend another wasted year.
"Jane was gone for almost three weeks, and during that time we more than made up for the past year. We were together every day and every night. Most nights he spent at my place, but I spent a few nights at his place. It was obvious that we both wanted each other in the worst way.
"When Jane came back, Harry and I arranged to be alone together as often as we could. We've been having our affair ever since and there's no reason to believe that we won't always be having it. I'm sure Jane doesn't know about it after all this time, although we have been careless from time to time.
"However, we're usually very cool about it, and he still has sex with Jane, and even though it bothers me a little at times, I know that he has to do it. Jane and I are still the best of friends, and that's my excuse for being over at her place all the time.
"She keeps after me though to get married, and once in awhile she even fixes me up with dates. Once her brother was in town and he took me out and that night he spent the night at my place and we fucked all night. Harry got real mad after that and forbid me to see Jane's brother ever again.
"I didn't really like Jane's brother, so I didn't mind not seeing him again, but I did mind being ordered around. Just to show my independence I picked up some guy in a bar and let him fuck me for two days straight. I made sure Harry found out and did we ever have a fight then.
"Actually we fight all the time, and I don't see how we keep together the way we do. But actually I do see why we keep together, and actually I don't even cheat on him anymore, and the only one he cheats on me with is his wife."
SUMMARY
I keep asking Miss West what she wants me to do for her, but basically all she wants me to do is listen. She comes in once a week still, and she is till having her affair with this married man.
CASE HISTORY FIVE
Name: Sarah Winters Sex: Female Age: 42
Occupation: None
Miss Winters (that's her maiden name) has just recently divorced her third husband, and that was the prime motivating factor for her coming to see me. She seemed awfully upset at the time, but as she told me, she always gets upset after a divorce, but that the feeling passes after awhile.
She also wanted to tell me about her sex life however, and she told me that she had been attracted to anal sex because to her it seemed like the most perverted thing two people could do to one another, and to her, the more perverted something is, the better it is.
Miss Winters comes from a wealthy family and she had two older brothers with whom she had sexual relations. This happened when she was just fifteen and her brothers were seventeen and nineteen respectively.
I'll let her transcript tell you the rest.
INTERVIEW ONE
"My parents were just as perverted as I am and I once saw my mother fucking my own brother. I was only twelve at the time and my brother was sixteen. I had two brothers, and he was the oldest of the two.
"It was in the afternoon and my brother was home from military school on vacation. I saw him going into my mother's bedroom, but I couldn't imagine why he was doing that. I went into the bedroom next to hers and went into the bathroom that was between the two rooms and I peaked through the keyhole.
"I saw my mother lying in bed naked, and then I saw my brother take off all his clothes and get in bed with her. They were kissing at first and nothing else, and then I saw him kissing her tits, and then he was on top of her, and they were moving in all sorts of ways, and she had her legs wrapped around him.
"From where I was looking I could see her ass and I could see him down between her legs. She had her legs spread wide apart then and I could almost see her pussy. I could tell that he was inside her pussy, but I really didn't know just what he was doing at the time.
"I watched the whole time they were together though and I really liked what I saw. They kept at it for some time and when they were through I saw my brother's cock and it looked all slimy and everything, and then I saw my mother take it in her mouth and lick it all over.
"During all this I could see from the expression on my brother's face that he liked what she was doing to him, and then I saw him press her face down harder against him. It seemed like she was getting his whole cock in her mouth almost, and pretty soon she was making all kinds of noises.
"After that he just got dressed and left the room. I went and found a book on sex, and that night I stayed up all night reading it. I really found it fascinating and then I knew exactly what I had seen.
"After that I saw my mother and brother together a few more times. It was always when my father was out of town on business too. When my father was in town I would watch him fuck my mother, and I could tell that my mother liked it just as much when my father fucked her as she did when my brother fucked her.
"I was almost going to tell my father about how his son was fucking his wife, but then I decided that my father would get mad and put a stop to it, and I wouldn't be able to watch them anymore, and I didn't want that to happen. I liked watching my brother with my mother because by then I knew how perverted it was supposed to be, and that's why I liked it so much.
"This went on for quite a few years. That is, until I was fifteen. During those years I got to see both my brothers fuck my mother because by then my younger brother was old enough to fuck. When I was fifteen, my younger brother was seventeen, and his name was Charles, and my oldest other brother was nineteen, and his name was Donald.
"I liked Donald the best of the two because he was the best looking and he was nicer to me, and as it turned out, he fucked me before Charles did. He was in college at the time, and it was during his first vacation home from school. It was on a day when the rest of the family was out, and there was just the two of us home, and we were both just sitting around doing nothing.
"I don't know how it happened now, but I think we must have been talking about sex for some reason. Now I remember, he was telling me about this girl that he was dating in school and I was getting jealous because I had never seen him fuck her like I had seen him fuck our mother.
"I then tried to think of all the other girls he had fucked without my seeing him. That really made me mad and I just blew up at him and told him he was a sex maniac and that he deserved to die for being like he was and that I didn't intend to listen to him anymore.
"With that I just ran up to my room and he followed right behind me like I wanted him to. I fell on my bed crying and he sat down on the edge of the bed and tried to get me to calm down. Before long he was rubbing his hands all over my body and then he was getting his hands under my clothes and rubbing my bare skin.
"I felt him pulling my shorts off then and then I felt him pulling off my panties. Then I felt him kissing the cheeks of my ass and then I felt his tongue rubbing back and forth inside the crack of my ass. I loved the way that made me feel and I told him to keep it up.
"He did keep it up and he began to run inside the crack of my ass even harder than he had been. He was really rubbing it in there just as hard as he could and I was squirming all over the place. I just loved the way it made me feel inside, and I never wanted him to stop.
"'More,' I kept saying, 'much more."
"His tongue seemed so big and I thought I felt it all over me at once. It seemed to be everywhere at the same time. Then I felt it stabbing inside my asshole and then it was moving all around inside there and that really drove me wild. I was crawling out of my skin at that point.
"I loved everything that he was doing to me and I said so again and again. Finally he just took off the rest of my clothes and then he took off all of his own clothes and I felt him lying down on top of me. His skin was so cold that it sent shivers through me.
"I couldn't believe how cold he felt and I loved that too. I loved everything about what he was doing. I now felt his cock right inside the crack of my asshole and then I felt it move down between my legs and ease itself into my cunt. My cunt seemed to get right away.
"He eased himself in all the way and I felt him begining to draw his cock out, and then drive it back in again. He kept doing that over and over, and while he was doing it he said, 'Just wait till I get in your ass, then you'll really go wild. You'll love that best of all."
"As he said that though he continued the fucking motions in my cunt. I could feel him filling me up more and more and I couldn't wait for him to fuck me in the ass the way he had said that he would. To me that sounded really perverted, and that was why I wanted him to do it so badly.
"I really wanted that cock of his in my ass and I told him so in no uncertain terms. He still kept humping away at my cunt, and I spread my legs farther apart so he could get all the way in me. Then he just pulled his cock and rammed it right into my asshole, not even caring that it was the first time that I had ever had this done to me.
"A wave of pain swept through me, and I thought my whole body was going to split in half. The pain just consumed every part of me and I really thought I was going to die. Then he just lay perfectly still on top of me with his cock all the way inside my asshole.
"I could feel his big meat as if it was in every part of me, and not just in my asshole. I could feel him kissing my neck and shoulders and I could feel his hot tongue running all over my hot skin. That just made me hotter than I was all ready, but I didn't mind that at all.
"The next thing I knew though he had begun to move slightly, and he was pulling his cock out of my asshole. Inch by inch he started to ease it out. Suddenly I began to feel empty. He pulled his cock almost all the way out so that just the head of his cock was inside me.
"Then he began to ram it back inside. He did this the same way as he had withdrawn it, an inch at a time. I felt it filling me back up, and the pain was no longer there, and neither was the emptiness. It felt good now when he pushed it back inside me, and I could feel my body trembling inside.
"He kept doing that over and over, pulling out so far, and then pushing back into me. He was now really fucking me just the way I had wanted him to and I began to push my ass back into his groin as hard as I could. I really pressed my cheeks into him, and he really pressed his cock into me.
"I could feel his cock throbbing away and I could feel the intensity of its heat. He was on fire and so was I. I could also feel the wad that was building up in his cock, and it seemed about to burst any second. I could just feel it, and because I could feel it in my mind, I wanted to really feel it.
"It didn't come for sometime though, and all that time he kept building up to it. He kept building and building, and I was building at the same time. He had his fingers in my cunt and he was working them in and out, rubbing hard on my clit, and making my cuntlips swell up even more.
"My cunt was already overflowing from before when he had his cock in it, and now it was getting ready to overflow some more. His cock though was really throbbing hard now, and then I felt a short spurt and then it just erupted like a volcano and the come came pouring out of him.
"It just filled me up as much as it could, and then it seeped out over the edges. I could feel it seeping out on my ass, and running down my cheeks to my ass. That was something and I loved every minute of it. I loved the waves that were going through me, and the way my whole body was trembling.
"He was still humping away at me, and he was still hard. I loved his hardness, and I kept hoping he would always be hard and that he would always stay in me. I could tell that he felt the same way and that he always wanted to stay hard and that he also always wanted to stay in me. He showed me that by the way he was still ramming his cock into my ass.
"He kept it up until he was exploding all over again, and the warmth of his come spread all through me. I could feel him exploding into every part of my body. I could feel him exploding all the way to the top of my head. I could feel my whole body just collapsing all around that stiff shaft that was still in me.
"I went soft all around him and I thought he would sink right into me. I kept thinking over how this was incest and sodomy at the same time, so that made it twice as perverted as it might have been if I had just had some other guy fuck me in the ass. This was my own brother.
"I also thought about the possibility of having my other brother fuck me, and maybe even my father. I was just racing ahead to the time when everyone in my family would get a chance at me. Even the female members. Right that second I think I became what I am today, a raving sex fiend.
"Right then I decided that I wanted it all the time, and from anyone I could. I felt like going out into the street and getting every man I found to come in and fuck me in the ass. I just wanted all the cocks in the world in me at once. Not just one, but hundreds of them.
"I was all set to take on the whole world right then, and I decided that the whole world should want me to take them on. I felt my brother's cock easing out of me, and then he rolled off me and onto his back beside me. I felt his arm pressing into mine and I could hear his heavy breathing.
"I raised myself on my elbow and looked down at him. His face was all contorted still and his chest was heaving up and down just like my own. I looked down and saw my heaving breasts and then I felt his hands on them. He was manipulating them and making my nipples rigid again and then he was sucking on one of them.
"I felt his hot tongue all over me, and then he went after my other breast as well. Then he just fell back exhausted again and didn't want to move again. There was a big smile on his face and then he bounced up off the bed, got dressed, and made his way back downstairs.
"I just lay there for the longest time and then I went and took a shower and got dressed and joined him downstairs. We went out for a drive later on and we did it in the back seat of the car, and by the time we got home everyone else was there as well. That night though he came into my room and spent the night with me.
"That whole vacation we did nothing but fuck and when the time came for him to go back to school, I thought I was going to cry myself to death, I was that upset.
"There was nothing either one of us could do about it, but that last night we really made a night of it, and for weeks afterwards I could still feel his hard cock inside me. He really let me have it that night, and I wanted him to really let me have it that night. After all, it would be awhile before we could do it again."
INTERVIEW TWO
I just told you about how I had sex with my older brother, Donald. I still haven't told you about how I had sex with my younger brother, Charles. Of course, he was older than me also. He was just two years older than me though, so that when I was fifteen, he was just seventeen, and still in high school.
"Of course, he didn't go to any public high school. He went to the same military school that Donald had gone to. I think all the men in our family have gone to that school, and then they all end up going to the same college when they get ready for it. I went to a private girls' school nearby.
"Well, right after Donald left me to go back to college, I began to get horny because there was no one around to fuck me in the ass. I didn't know any boys and none of the girls in my school had brothers that I liked. There was a boys' school that we had dances with but I didn't like anyone I met at those things.
"I thought about Charles, but he was away at school. Then one day the school sent him home becuse he had been caught masturbating. They were suspending him for the rest of the semester. That meant, of course, that he would have to make up the work during the summer.
"Anyway, when he came home, my father gave him a stern lecture and let it go at that. My mother didn't seem to care one way or the other. I was glad, because this meant that I could get him to fuck me, and I didn't waste any time going after him. The first day he was home I told him what I wanted.
"He was kind of surprised when I told him about Donald and myself, and he was a little upset that he hadn't been first. He said that Donald had been first with mother and now he had been first with me, and that didn't seem fair to him. One of these days, he said, he was going to be first with someone.
"We talked for quite awhile, and he told me about the times that he had fucked mother, and about a few of the other girls that he had fucked. He said that he had been masturbating that night when they caught him because he liked to masturbate every so often, just for the hell of it.
"I told him all about Donald and me and I described everything in the greatest of detail. I could feel Donald's cock in me as I talked about it, and I even went through some of the motions. I wanted to relieve every moment that I had spent with Donald and I also wanted to prepare for the moments I would spend with Charles.
"Right while I was still talking about Donald, Charles grabbed me and threw me on my bed and tore off my clothes. I mean, he tore them off and then he tore them to shreds so that I could never wear them again. Then he took off his belt and used it on my ass and thighs.
"He really lit into me, and I could feel the belt tearing away at my flesh. Then he tore off his own clothes and jumped right on top of me. He pulled me up so that I was up on all fours and then he just drove his cock right into my asshole. He didn't waste any time after that.
"He really went after me, and I could feel his cock going all the way inside me on each inward stroke, and he seemed to be all the way in me all the time. I was just filled up with him and I loved that feeling.
"I began to compare his cock with Donald's and I really couldn't tell if there was any difference. To me, right then, they both felt the Same, and I was glad of that. This way I would always like having both of them fuck me, and I decided that that was the way it should be.
"Charles must have decided that also and he was ramming away at me with all his might. He was just tearing me wide open with that meaty cock of his and I could feel how much it was throbbing as it built up to its orgasm. He was grabbing my tits with both hands and really squeezing them.
"I could feel my whole body shaking as he got ready to shoot off inside of me and then when he did shoot off inside of me I really shook with all my might. I was trembling so much that I fell flat on the bed. He fell right with me, and his cock stayed right in my asshole.
"It was really something to have him in me like that and I just lay there feeling him, as his cock jerked back and forth shooting out its sticky cream inside of me. That just made me burn up all the more inside and I thought that my whole body was on fire, and I thought that it would just consume me.
"He lay still for awhile and then I felt him moving again, and I felt his cock moving in and out again. I pressed my ass up in the air somewhat and he just rammed it back down again. We were moving quite well with each other, and that's how we both wanted it to be always.
"I could feel him building up again and I was building right with him. I could feel his cock just swelling up to twice its normal size, and then I could feel it erupting even more than it had the first time. It just filled me with its warmth and its stickiness and I just loved the way it made me feel inside.
"There was just nothing like it, and I lay there and let the waves spread all through me. Finally he eased his wilting cock out of me, and I was empty again. I didn't like that feeling, but there was nothing I could do about it. After that though we were together all the time.
"I was afraid that my parents would catch us, but they never did. It got so however that Donald and Charles began to fight over me, and actually that made me feel more wanted. They didn't like fighting over me and pretty soon they stopped, and they also stopped fucking me at the same time.
"I just went crazy after that and that's when I began to go out with just anyone, and whoever I went out with got to fuck me. There was only one boy I went out with who didn't fuck me and that was because he was afraid to. Of course, I never went out with that queer again.
"This went on all through my last years in high school and then when I went to college, it got even worse. One night I took on a whole fraternity house. It was one of the guys who fucked me that night who later became my first husband. His name was Richard, and he was from a good family.
"Actually his family had more money than mine, and he began to take me all kinds of places. That night when he got me alone with all the others, he had been about the tenth in line, but I remembered him most of all because of the size of his cock and how it had made me feel.
"He had this huge car and we would go parking in it and fuck in the back seat. We would even go away on weekends and stay in these really expensive hotels. Then after we had been dating for a year or so we broke up and I began to go out with his roommate for awhile.
"Actually the only reason I went out with his roommate was to get him mad, and it did just that, but he didn't do anything about it. Then I began to go out with another friend of his, and still he didn't get mad enough to do anything about it. By then I had forgotten all about him and I only went out because I needed sex.
"And I really did need it. I needed it more than I can tell you. I turned into a real nympo and every boy on campus wanted me because they knew that I would put out for them. And that's just what I did until I got pregnant. Then I had to go home and have the baby.
"I didn't marry the father because I really wasn't sure who the father was. I stayed at home all the time that I was pregnant and then after I had the baby, my mother gave it to her sister who brought it up as her own. I see the child now, but of course he doesn't know I'm his mother."
INTERVIEW THREE
"I'm not even sure now why I came to see you in the first place. I've gotten over being upset over divorcing my third husband, but I still get these periods of depression every so often where I really want to kill myself, or at least just lie down and hope that I die somehow.
"They come quite often as a matter-of-fact, and I don't like to feel that way. I mean, it just gets me to the point where I think I'm going mad or something. Anyway, I really do want to tell you about all three of my marriages, and maybe you can help me find out where they went wrong.
"I've already mentioned my first husband to you. That was Richard and I first met him at his fraternity house the night they all gang-banged me. Then we went out for awhile and then we broke up. Well, after I had my baby, I didn't go back to college because I was upset over having to give him up.
"After that I just sat around the house moping around and wishing that I was dead. Then one day Richard showed up and he took me for a drive. He wanted to fuck me but I wouldn't let him and he didn't try and force me, and because he didn't I sort of fell in love with him.
"He then began to take me out again, and pretty soon we were engaged to be married. We set our marriage for a year after our engagement, and that would give Richard enough time to get the wildness out of his system. I decided that wildness was already out of my system.
"Anyway, that whole year, Richard and I didn't have any sex at all, and I told him that he could have sex with whoever he wanted. I'm not really sure how many girls he fucked that year but I'm sure it was quite a few. Sometimes when he came to pick me up it was right after he had been with someone and I could smell their sex all over him.
"I didn't mind that though because I knew he needed his sex. Well, we finally did get married, and for our honeymoon we flew to France. We got on the plane right after the ceremony and reception and we got there in time to go to bed. We were both too tired to do anything at that point so we went right to sleep.
"The next morning though we were more than able to have sex and did we ever. He got that cock of his inside my cunt first and made me come like crazy and then he got it in my asshole and that really drove me wild. I mean, it had been a year-more than a year actually-and I needed this.
"As soon as I felt his cock filling me up inside I just went wild and began to press my ass back into his groin, making sure that his cock was in me all the way. I wanted to feel every inch of that meaty cock of his inside my asshole, because that's where I liked it best of all.
"Well, he really gave it to me good that night and all through the honeymoon we had great sex. I figured at that point that we would be happy for life. I didn't think that either one of us would ever want to cheat on the other, but that was where I made my biggest mistake.
"As I look back on it now, I guess neither one of us was to blame, but at the time I didn't think that at all. I thought it was his fault completely. What happened was that right after we got back from our honeymoon, all Richard's ex-girl friends began to pester him.
"These were all the ones that he had been fucking during the year that we had been waiting to get married. I realized then that I should have let him fuck me instead, but it was too late then. Anyway, they wouldn't leave him alone, and while he didn't give into them at first, he eventually did.
"I didn't find out about it at first but about six months later I knew damn well that he was cheating on me. That's when I began to cheat on him. And I cheated on him with everyone that I could. Especially with his friends. I went after them the most, and I got them every time.
"Naturally, that just wrecked our marriage, and the fact that it lasted as long as it did was because we were both too lazy to get a divorce. Finally, after four years of torturing each other with our little adventures, we decided to put an end to it, and so that's just what we did.
"I still loved Richard and he still loved me but we both had too much pride to forgive the other. We both felt as if we had been wronged, and so there was no chance of either one of us forgiving the other. After that though I was just miserable and I didn't want to see anyone or do anything. I even stopped seeing all my lovers.
"For me to stop seeing my lovers means I'm really depressed and I don't usually do that. Anyway, I did do it, and I just went off on a trip all by myself. I was on a boat going to Europe when I met the man who later became my second husband. I met him the second day we were out and by the time we got to England we were sleeping together.
"His name was Donald, just like my oldest brother, and I think that's what attracted me to him in the first place. He even looked a little like Donald, which of course made me want him all the more. When we first had sex though he was reluctant to fuck me in the ass, but I eventually talked him into it.
"Once he has that cock of his in my ass though, he didn't want to take it out. He went wild then and he just rammed away at me until he was coming all over the place. His cock felt as if it was going to split right down the middle, and right inside of me.
"As far as I was concerned, he could split right inside of me, and I wouldn't have minded at all. In fact, I think that's just what I wanted him to do. I wanted him to split wide open. I wanted him to leave his cock right inside of me, no matter how he had to do it.
"Well, after that first time, he wanted to fuck me in the ass all the time, and he seemed to never want to get out of bed. By the time we were in London for almost a week we decided to get married, and that's just what we did. After that we went all the way around the world.
"My second marriage lasted the longest, and I'm not even sure why we broke up now. But for the longest time we were perfectly happy with one another. I mean, we were the happiest people in the world. We spent almost a whole year in our trip around the world, and when we got back we bought a beautiful house right on the ocean.
"I really began to entertain then, and I felt like a real socialite. I was the perfect wife in every way, and I did everything I could to please him. I didn't want to make the same mistakes with him that I made with Richard, and I thought I hadn't. But then it seems as if we both got bored with each other.
"It was as if everything had been too perfect. I mean, we never ever fought about anything, and we never ever cheated on one another. I guess that's what went wrong. It was all too smooth for us, and we were falling into a rut. Anyway, after ten years or so, we called it quits.
"We made up all kinds of reasons for the divorce and he even consented to say that he had commited adultery which he hadn't done. Naturally, after that divorce I was so shook up that I couldn't even think straight, I didn't go anywhere, but I did get a small apartment, and I just hid away in it.
"I really did hibernate this time and I didn't see anyone. I wanted to shut the whole world out, and that's just what I did. That is until I met this young man named Rudy. Rudy was really something and he swept me off my feet. The first hour that I knew him, he had me in bed.
"And when he got that cock of his in my ass, I just went up through the ceiling. He just drove it all the way inside of me and I went absolutely wild. It felt like the biggest cock that I had ever had in me, and I didn't want to lose it ever.
"Well, we got married a few days after we met, and that was my biggest mistake. I never should have married him. We should have just lived together. I mean, those first few days we spent together were beautiful. They were too beautiful for words, but as soon as we got married, we were both miserable.
"Something just came over the both of us. I mean, we both liked anal sex because it seemed perverted to the both of us, but after we got married, it didn't seem perverted anymore. It seemed legal almost, and we didn't get the same thrill out of it. We tried to get the same thrill out of it, but we never could.
"That's why this marriage lasted only a year. I mean, we both stood it as long as we could, and then we couldn't take it any longer. It was just too much for both of us and we didn't like the agony we were putting each other through. Naturally we were both cheating on each other the whole time, which didn't help matters at all.
"Like I said, I always get depressed after a divorce, but this time I'm really at my wit's end. I really don't know which way to turn and I almost don't care."
SUMMARY
Miss Winters comes and sees me three times a week now and there seems to be some improvement in her mental health, but not that much. It will take some time for her to recover completely.
CASE HISTORY SIX
Name: Walter King Sex: Male Age: 35
Occupation: Actor
Mr. King has been appearing on the stage all his life. His parents were in the theatre and he was born while his parents were on tour with a summer stock company. He started acting when he was five and he has been doing it ever since.
Sexually, he has been exposed to sexual activity almost as long as he has been on the stage. By the time he was ten he had seen his parents and many other couples engaged in sexual activity. He witnessed coitus, fellatio, cunnilingus, and anal sex.
At the age of nine one of his mother's friends performed fellatio on him but at the time he was unable to even have an erection. After that his sexual appetite grew until he was having anal sex with one of the actresses in the group. He has also had homosexual experiences with other actors.
Here, now, is his transcript.
INTERVIEW ONE
"In the theatre you're exposed to sex at a very early age, and I've been in the theatre all my life. I mean, I was practically born on stage. My parents were in this summer stock touring company and my mother was pregnant with me. After she had me, she took a short rest, but then she was back on stage again.
"I don't remember much before I was five, but when I got to be five or six, I began to find out things. I mean, at the age of five I was already appearing on stage in small parts, and I was pretty bright for my age. Anyway, I also started to see things too.
"I think I was six when I saw my first act of copulation. It was this young actor in the group and my mother. It was right in the dressing room and I was in there with them but they just forgot I was there and went at it. I can still remember it. It was just the two of us in there when the actor came in.
"He and my mother started talking to each other and then they were yelling at one another, and then they even began to fight. He took a swing at my mother and hit her in the stomach and then he had her down on the floor and he was on top of her. I was too scared to move.
"The next thing I knew they weren't fighting anymore and instead they were kissing, and then they were taking off each other's clothes. I didn't know what they were doing but then I saw the man's big cock. It was so much bigger than my own and I just stared at it for the longest time.
"Then I saw my mother spread her legs far apart and the guy just put his hard cock right inside her. My mother got her legs up in the air and they began moving all over the place. The guy was moving up and down and they were both grunting away and they kept going faster and faster.
"Suddenly they just stopped. Afterwards my mother told me never to tell my father what I had seen and I said I wouldn't. Actually I didn't even know what I had seen and so I couldn't tell my father anything anyway. But I did ask this one girl whose parents were in the company and she told me what it was.
"She was only seven at the time, but she knew all about sex and she told me just what people did to each other, and how babies were born and everything. I asked her if we could do something like that and she told me we were too young, and besides she wasn't going to let anyone touch her but the man she married. I asked her to marry me right there on the spot and she just laughed at me.
"I got real upset and I beat her up a little, but still she wouldn't let me touch her. After that though, I saw that young actor and my mother fuck quite a few more times, and they always seemed to do it in front of me, and always in the dressing room, and they always seemed to fight first.
"I saw a lot of other couples doing it too, and I even saw my parents. Actually they liked having me watch, especially my mother. She seemed to get really turned on when I was watching her. I guess that's why she had me around whenever she was fucking that other guy-
"By the time I was ten I really had had a complete sexual education. I had seen everything that two people can do to one another, and I had seen men and women doing it, women doing it with other women, and men doing it with other men. At the age of nine I got my first blow job from this friend of my mother's. My cock didn't even get hard, but she sucked on me just the same.
"I remembered that blow job long after it happened, and by the time I was able to get a hard-on I went back and saw that woman again and this time she really did a job on me. She got my cock almost entirely in her mouth and just sucked on it until I had come and then she still kept on sucking on it.
"She went absolutely wild, and so did I. She wouldn't let me fuck her because she was afraid of getting pregnant, but she sure did blow me. She made me come three times and still she kept on sucking me. Her lips were like a suck-tion cup and they just drained all the life right out of me.
"I thought for a minute that she was going to suck my cock right off me and that drove me up a wall. I just sat there and let her do it all. But still I wanted to fuck her. I wanted more than anything to actually get it in her and really do a job on her, but she wouldn't let me.
"Then I told her that she should let me fuck her in the ass, and that she could never get pregnant that way. She said that would hurt her, but that she would think about it. Finally after she had given me another blow job she decided that I could fuck her in the ass if I really wanted to that badly.
"Actually I didn't want to fuck her in the ass, I really wanted to get my cock in her cunt, but I figured it was better than nothing. Well, we were in her dressing room, and she got undressed and stood up against the wall, and I got my clothes off and got right behind her.
"When I went to stick it in her, she was awfully tight, and I couldn't get in at all. Then she turned around, got down on her knees and sucked on me awhile. That made me good and wet and I tried again. I still couldn't get in her, so I got down on my hands and knees and sucked out her asshole.
"I really got my tongue inside her and I made her good and wet, and she loved that. While I was sucking on her asshole she began digging her nails right into the wall and just going wild. She had her legs spread wide apart and I went after her pussy too. I really sucked her out there as well.
"I made her come twice and then I went back after her asshole. I went wild this time, more so than before, and she went wild too. I really made her asshole good and wet and I even got some of her own come inside her. My mouth was just filled with her come and I got it all over her ass.
"I didn't confine myself to just sucking out her asshole, I sucked her all over her ass, and I really kissed her cheeks. Then I got up and began to rub my cock all around in her crack, and especially around her asshole. She was opening up more and I began to ease myself right in there.
"I really got in after awhile, but I took my time pushing my cock in all the way. I just went in an inch at a time, because I could see that as easy as I was going, it still hurt her, and I didn't want to hurt her. That was the last thing I wanted to do, so I went as easy as I could.
"I could feel myself starting to get carried away and I did my best to control myself, and let me tell you that was pretty hard for me to do. After all, this was the first time I had ever done this and I was pretty excited and my cock was throbbing already. Holding back like I was took a lot of effort on my part.
"Somehow I managed though and I just went into her ever so slowly. Finally I was all the way in her though and I began to ease myself back out. I started getting all these funny sensations all through me. I couldn't tell what they were but I knew that I liked them.
"They were making me feel real good inside and my whole body was trembling like it never had been. It hadn't even trembled this much when she had blown me, and it had trembled quite a bit when she had done that. Anyway, now I was shaking like I never had before, and my cock was pounding away both outside and inside, and I just knew it was going to explode any second now.
"I just forced myself not to come right away, and I stayed perfectly still for awhile, and I even pulled out for awhile. When I was calmed down a little I went back into her and I went just as slowly this time as I had before. As I went in, all kinds of ripples went up the length of my cock right to my balls, and I could feel them all through my body.
"My cock was really on the verge of exploding then but it didn't and I began to ram it in and out of her with all my might then. I dug my nails into her shoulder and she just cried out at the top of her lungs, and she pushed back into my cock so that I could go in even farther than I was.
"'Do it hard,' she said, 'really fuck my ass good."
"I had every intention of doing just that, and I just kept ramming into her with all my might, going so fast that I couldn't hold back any longer and the come just came rushing out of me and I felt my cock about to split wide open. I just felt it jerking back and forth like crazy and I thought my whole body was collapsing inside.
"I really felt that way and my whole body was trembling, and she was trembling just as much as I was, and I was right up against her, and she was pressing back into me, and her body was burning up, just like mine. We were really shaking then, and I just stopped what I was doing and just stood there.
"I really couldn't move for the longest time, and we just stood there the way we were. I began grabbing at her tits and began squeezing them with all my might. I got my fingers around her nipples and I pressed them hard, and she just yelled out and I kept pressing them because that was just what she wanted me to do.
"She didn't want me to stop ever and she wanted me to keep on for as long as I could. Finally I just turned her around and began to suck on her tits. I could still feel my cock inside her asshole even though it wasn't, and I had almost her whole tit in my mouth and I was working my tongue all over it.
"She loved having me doing that and she said so, and so I sucked on her all the more. The more I sucked on her, the harder my cock started to get again, and pretty soon I had another full erection. I was really hard then and she was just begging for me to stick it back in her ass.
"She said she had never gotten it in the ass before and that was just where she wanted it most of all. She said she loved getting fucked there now, and that was where she would always want to get fucked. I certainly loved fucking her there, and I didn't think right then that I would ever want to fuck her in the cunt either.
"At that time I thought she was the only woman that I would ever fuck. It never dawned on me at the time that she would just be the first of many, and that I would eventually fuck men in the ass also. I just didn't think I would ever have sex with anyone but this woman.
"She seemed like the only one in the world for me, even though she was so much older than me. I didn't think of that at the time, and neither did she, although she knew before I did that our affair was doomed right from the start. At this time we were just fucking and that was all that mattered.
"I got her down on the floor then, and she was up on all fours and I mounted her like a dog would mount a bitch. I got it in her cunt for awhile and I just did it till I thought I was going to come, and then I pulled out. She had this phobia about a man coming inside her cunt.
"I waited a few minutes before I stuck it in her ass, and when I did stick it into her this time, I didn't do it easy like I had the first time. This time I just shoved it into her with all my might. She loved getting it that way and she began to really respond to what I was doing to her.
"She opened up wide, and I was half standing and half kneeling as I drove down into her. I had my hands on her back and I was putting all my weight into her, but she held up quite well, and she just let me do whatever I wanted. I was even watching as my cock went down into her asshole.
"It seemed as if I was a drill going straight down into a valley or something. I just loved the sight of my cock going right down into her and then coming back all slimy and everything. She liked it too even though she couldn't see it. She could feel it though and that was all that mattered to her.
"She felt it all the way inside her, and she was shaking all over. Her whole body felt like some sort of vibrator that can't stop. And it couldn't. Not for the longest time. She just kept shaking and I kept shaking with her. What else did I have to do?
"By then I was really going wild and my cock felt like it was bulging out of its skin and then I felt the come starting to reach the head of my cock, and then I felt it shooting right out and it felt as if a knot in my body was being torn out and I thought my whole body would burst open then.
"I just went wild as the come pumped out of me and my cock jerked back and forth like it did. It was getting bigger and bigger and then it just stopped jerking back and forth, and the life just drained all out of it, and I felt it starting to get soft again.
"That really sent me into convulsions, and I fell back on the floor and just lay there looking up at the ceiling. The whole room was just spinning around my head and my eyes wouldn't stay open for very long. I kept having to close them to keep myself from getting any dizzier. Finally I wasn't dizzy any longer, and I felt her lying down beside me. She was so soft and I rested my head on her breasts. She began to stroke my face with her hands and that made the skin on my face just tingle. It really felt good to have her do that, and I told her so.
"'I hope you'll always like it,' she then said.
"'Of course I will,' I said, and I thought I really meant it.
"Like I said, the affair was doomed, and she knew it before I did. After that first time though we did it quite often, and every time that we had sex I fucked her in the ass, and only once did I get her in the cunt and I didn't come inside her.
But I found that when my cock was in her ass it felt different and I didn't have to worry about her getting pregnant.
"That's what made me like it best of all. After awhile though I began to look around and notice other women. I was pretty obvious about it too and she soon realized that she would never be able to hold me because I was bound to fall for some younger thing.
"One day she just told me that I should feel free to go after whoever I wanted, and that she would always be there if I wanted her for anything. I really felt bad about that but I knew that I needed other women at that point and that it was bound to happen sooner or later."
INTERVIEW TWO
"By the time I was twenty I had been in a number of touring companies and I had done a considerable amount of acting. I didn't feel as if I had accomplished anything and I was very insecure about my career. It seems that my sex life was always getting in the way of my professional life.
"Whenever we were on tour I would concentrate on which one of the females around that I wanted to have sex with. I would have an affair with her until the end of the tour. It didn't always happen that way, but when it did, it usually worked out pretty well.
"I wanted to tell you about this one particular actress that I had an affair with. She was a few years older than me at the time. I was nineteen and she was in her early twenties. I think she was about twenty-two, or maybe twenty-three. I really can't remember exactly now.
"Anyway, she was a beautiful creature and she had blonde hair, blue eyes, and her name was Janet. She had been in the theatre all her life just like I had been and she had received her sexual education at a very early age the same as I had. We both had been exposed to sex before we were ready for it.
"We didn't like each other when we first met because I guess we didn't trust one another. She wanted top billing for the play we were doing and so did I. Because of that we had all sorts of fights about it. In some ways it was like the fights my mother used to have with that young actor.
"The whole thing started off right from the beginning and we argued for days. Then one day I went into her dressing room to have it out with her once and for all. We really started to yell at one another and then she slapped me across the face, and then I slapped her across the face, and the next thing I knew we were rolling around on the floor.
"We were about the same size and so we were an even match for one another. I was still a little bit stronger though, and after awhile I had her pinned beneath me. My face was just above her own, and that's when I brought my mouth down on hers, and kissed her as roughly as I could.
"I stabbed my tongue into her mouth and I got it all tangled with hers, and I could feel her mouth pressing back into mine. I could feel her hands on my back and then I felt them running down to my waist and underneath my pants and then under my jockey shorts. I felt her long fingers rubbing my ass and then I felt her finger probing into my asshole.
"She got it right inside me and began working it back and forth and she was really rubbing me just as hard as she could. The sensations that were going through my body were something else and I just went wild. Pretty soon we were talking off each other's clothes and then we were really feeling each other up.
"All the time I was feeling her tits, and her thighs, and the rest of her, I was thinking of that luscious ass of hers and how I couldn't wait to get my cock in it. I had watched her parade all around the theatre, and I saw she shook it in front of everyone like a red flag.
"Now I got both hands on it and I began to manipulate the flesh between my fingers. I wanted to really make her feel something inside, and I did. She was moaning away and the next thing I knew she was after my cock with her wide open mouth. She began licking me all over the head of my cock, and then down my cock to my balls, which she also sucked on.
"We were lying in a sixty-nine position and I began to rim her cunt with my tongue. I did that over and over while she took my cock in her mouth and really began to suck on it with those hot, greedy lips of hers. I was sucking hard on her clit and on her cuntlips, and I could feel her come starting to flow already.
"I moved my tongue all around between her legs, and up and down her thighs, and then I moved backwards to her asshole and I began to rim that with my tongue. All this time she was still sucking hard on my cock, until finally she moved her tongue back to my asshole and began to rim it, just as I was rimming hers.
"We were both sucking hard on each other's assholes now, but I wanted to do more than just that. I wanted to get my cock inside her. I got up suddenly and I made her get up on her hands and knees and I mounted her doggy style. I got my cock right up against the crack in her ass, and then I just shoved it into her.
"She gasped as it went in and I could tell that she felt some pain, but that didn't stop me from ramming in and out of her. She stopped feeling the pain all of a sudden and she began to demand that I fuck her even harder.
"I really began to ram my cock into her then, and I could feel it throbbing away like it was going to burst apart any second. I really felt my whole body trembling at that point and I could feel her body trembling just as much as mine was. I kept thinking of all the other asses I had fucked, and at that moment I felt as if I was fucking every one of them.
"I really had this feeling of overwhelming power and that made me fuck her even harder. I also felt that I could keep myself from coming for the longest time and I managed to do that. I just held back, letting my wad build up until it was bigger and bigger, and then it just ripped out of me with a force that left me dazed.
"I just felt my whole body going around in circles and the ceiling seemed to collapse on top of me, and the walls closed in, and I was seeing double. I was burning up inside and so was she. All her heat came through to me through my cock which was still jerking back and forth inside of her.
"I was more inflamed than ever though, and even though I felt spent, I was still driving my cock in and out of her, until finally I was coming again, and this time my orgasm made me completely lifeless and I couldn't even stay up on top of her and I rolled off onto the floor and lay on my back.
"It seemed as if I was on the floor for the longest time and I don't even know what she did during all that time, but then I felt her lying beside me. We just looked at each other and smiled.
"'This is why we've been fighting,' she said, 'we both wanted to fuck each other, and we were edgy about it. Now that we've had sex, it won't be so bad.' And then she added, 'I hope this isn't a one shot deal. I liked the way you fucked me just then and I want you to fuck me all the time now."
"I'm sure the look on my face told her all that she wanted to know because then she was kissing me all over my face, and then all over my body. She was pressing her mouth into all parts of me and she would stab her tongue out at me and really lick me hard. I loved the feelings that went through me as she did that.
"She was a madwoman at that point and then she went after my cock again and sucked hard on it. She lifted my thighs up off the floor and went after my asshole then and really sucked hard on it just like she had before. She was now sitting on my chest and I was fingering her asshole as she sucked on mine.
"Her tongue seemed to be everywhere at once and I couldn't even concentrate on what I was doing to her. I just know that I had my finger in her asshole and I was working it in and out and she was moaning way down in her throat and I was moaning right along with her.
"I really was going right up a wall and I really wished that she could fuck me. All of a sudden I wanted something in my ass and I told her so. She got off me, took a dildo out of a drawer, and strapped it on. I rolled over on my stomach and she was on me in a second.
"I felt the dildo in the crack of my ass and then she eased it into my asshole very slowly, and then I felt it going all the way inside me. It really hurt at first and she had trouble getting it in even though she had it well lubricated. Finally though she got it all the way in.
"'You know,' she said, 'I knew that you would want this. I just knew it. I've never even used this dildo before, and this is the moment I've been waiting for. I didn't want to use it on just anybody, but only on someone special, and you're that someone special that I've been waiting to use it on."
"I really liked hearing that and I liked having it inside me even more. It felt so life-like and then she began to move it in and out. She was really stretching out my asshole with it and I could feel it going in all the way. She knew just how to use it, and was almost as if it was a part of her.
"Right then I knew that I would have to have the real thing someday. That is, I would have to find some man to fuck me. But right then this was all I needed and I loved how she was fucking me. I felt my whole body closing in around that dildo and I tried to pretend that it was the real thing.
"I thought of it as being the biggest cock in the world and it was all mine. It was in me as far as it could go, and that's just where it would stay. It would never be in anyone else's asshole, just mine.
"I felt myself opening up more and more and I thought I felt her going in deeper and deeper. I knew I was just imagining it, but I thought I felt the dildo getting longer and longer. It seemed to be twice the size that it had been and it seemed that it was getting bigger yet.
"It just filled me up as much as I could be filled and it kept sending all these ripples through me that made my skin tingle all over. I can't say how long she kept it up, because it seemed like an eternity at the time. When she stopped she kept it inside me and lay perfectly still on top of me.
"Finally she did get off me, but I felt so empty afterwards that I wanted her to get in me again. Well, from then on, we had our affair and we were always together. There didn't seem to be a minute when we weren't together. Then she got news that her mother had died and she had to go home.
"I wanted to fly home with her, but the director said that he couldn't afford to let both us go and so I had to stay behind. The first few days she was gone I just moped around and didn't say much to anyone. Then after a week I began to get mad that she hadn't come back yet.
"When two weeks had gone by I was furious. I called her at her home and a man answered. She got on the phone then and said she would be awhile longer because there were family matters to attend to. When I asked her who the man was she hemmed and hawed and then she told me it was her husband.
"That really made me mad and I hung up on her. I was so enraged that I went storming out and down to this bar where I sometimes went and there I proceeded to get really drunk. I met this guy in the bar and after awhile we were drinking together and talking about all kinds of ridiculous things.
"As it turned out he was a homosexual and he wanted me to go home with him that night. At first I didn't want to, but then I decided that I might as well. By then though I was really curious about what would happen.
"When we got to his place we took a shower together just to sober up and in the shower we began to play with each other's cocks. The next thing I knew he had me against the side of the shower and he had his cock pressed into the crack in my ass. Then I felt him go right inside me.
"His cock was smaller than the dildo that Janet had used on me, but it felt so much better. Just knowing it was the real thing sent shivers all through me. I opened up for him as wide as I could and I pressed my ass back against his groin so he could get in me even farther than he was.
"Once I did that he began to ram into me with all his might and that really made me tremble inside. I could feel his cock throbbing away and that made me tremble even more than I had been. Everything he did made me tremble more and more, and all the time I felt my knees getting weaker and weaker.
"I could feel the hot cream shooting out of his cock now, and that just sent me into convulsions almost and it just kept pumping into me after that and I could feel its warmth spreading all through me.
"The warmth of his come made me dizzy almost and I had to hang on to the wall so I wouldn't fall. He was still deep inside me, and his cock was jerking back and forth and I thought it would come right off him.
"I still couldn't believe how hard he felt, but he seemed even harder than he had been before, and I felt him reaching around and grabbing onto my cock and then he was pulling on it. He began to really pull on it, and at the same time he was still ramming his cock into my ass.
"I just went crazy at that point and that's when I felt him coming again, and this time he felt as if he was coming even more than he had before. I just stood there and let his hot cream fill me up and I just felt dizzy from it all. Then he stopped moving his cock in and out of me and stayed perfectly still.
"We both just stood there until finally he slipped his cock out of me and we went into the bedroom where we got in bed and this time I fucked him in the ass. The next day I went back to the theater but I spent all my nights with him after that. We spent another two months in that town and all that time we were lovers.
"Finally it came time for me to leave and I did so reluctantly. We agreed to write, and we did for awhile, but then the letters stopped and it was all over. Janet never did come back to the company and we got word that she was pregnant. I went to visit her once and I got there when her husband wasn't home. We had a long talk and then I fucked her and left.
"I decided at that point that I was never going to get that involved with anyone else, and that from here on I would just have one night stands and maybe I would have week-long affairs, but that would be the extent of it. I wasn't going to let anyone else get to me like Janet had."
INTERVIEW THREE
"During these past fifteen years I've had a pretty active life. I've never made it big on the stage or in movies, but I made a living at it which is more than a lot of people do. I've made a few movies, but I always had small parts in them and I've never had a lead in a Broadway play.
"Mostly I work in traveling companies and in summer stock. I like the small town summer stock companies because there are a lot of young girls around at that time of year. They work in the hotels and nightclubs and they're all loose as hell, and they'll let you do anything you want.
"I've fucked so many of them now that I can't begin to tell you how many there have been. It seems like it's been in the hundreds, and sometimes I think it's been in the thousands, but I know that's a lie. Anyway, there have been quite a few, and usually I don't fuck anyone of them more than three or four times.
"I like them that first time, and maybe for a few times after that, but that's the extent of it. I've met a couple of girls that I could have fallen for in a big way, but when that happens, I never see them after the first time. I just force myself to get them out of my mind.
"I've had a few more homosexual affairs, but not that many. Maybe I've had six in all, if I've had that many. That first guy was the only real male lover I ever had. The others have all been one nighters. Once though I did get gang banged by three of them. That was something I'll never forget.
"That happened on the beach in this one town by the ocean. I was taking a midnight swim and I had come out and I was lying on my towel when these three guys I had met earlier that day came by and began talking to me about nothing in particular. I was naked at the time and pretty soon they took off their clothes and they went for a swim also.
"After they had had their swim they came back and pretty soon we were all fooling around. One of them began to suck on my cock while another one got behind me and I felt his stiff poker right in my ass. At the same time they both began to apply pressure. The guy who was sucking on my cock really went after me with that mouth of his, and the guy behind me really began to ram into my ass with his cock.
"I really went wild at that point, and I just rammed my cock in and out of the guy's mouth while the guy behind me was doing the same to my asshole. I could feel the one guy biting into my cock and the guy behind me was getting his teeth into my shoulder.
"All three of them eventually fucked me in the ass, and I was just filled to the brim with their come. It seemed to be in every part of me, and I could feel it coming out of every pore of me. I hadn't fucked one of them, so when I got back to the hotel where the company was living I broke in on one of the girls and I got her good in the ass.
"This was a girl I had only gotten once before and she was in bed with someone else when I went in her room. I kicked the other guy out and I really let her have it. I don't think I ever fucked anyone in the ass as hard as I fucked her.
"I just drove straight down into her and I just kept doing that over and over until the come was just pouring out of me and I was limp from exhaustion. I rested a few minutes and then I was at it again, humping away at her just as hard as I had the first time. She loved every minute of it.
"I spent the rest of the night with her, but in the morning I told her that I never wanted to fuck her again and I walked out of the room. That same day she packed her bags and left the company and none of us ever heard what happened to her. Someone said she went back home and married her high school sweetheart.
"So, like you see, my life is far from being dull. It has one sexual adventure after another. The parts I play on stage are nothing compared to the parts I play in real life. I keep thinking that I should write a play about myself and that I should star in it and maybe even direct it.
"That would be the greatest thing I'll ever do, but I'm sure I'll never get around to it because I'm too busy with my sex life to take the time to write, let alone see that it gets produced and all that. I think I'll just go on the way I have been and see where it takes me."
SUMMARY
Mr. King only comes to see me once every three or four weeks, and sometimes he stays away for months. I never know when I'm going to see him next. He is living in his own private dream world, and he wants no part of reality.
CASE HISTORY SEVEN
Name: Thomas Black Sex: Male Age: 43
Occupation: Banker
Mr. Black comes from a wealthy family, and he is married to a woman who also comes from a wealthy family. They have been married for twenty years now and they have two daughters, one of which is eighteen, and another, fifteen. On the surface they have a normal life together, and they even sleep together in the same bed, as well as the same room.
However, Mr. Black's sexual habits do force him to have sexual relations with other women. He has a great capacity for anal sex, and always has. His wife will only submit to him every so often, and then she refuses to submit anymore. When that happens, he goes elsewhere.
Mr. Black told me that he first had anal sex with a woman when he was twenty years old. Before then he had engaged in coitus with a number of females.
I'm sure his transcript will reveal his true character to you.
INTERVIEW ONE
"Up until the age of twenty I guess you could say that I was a pretty normal person. I never had any hang-ups or anything like that and I liked fucking girls the normal way. My parents were against the very idea of sex, but it never rubbed off on me and my brothers.
"No, my brothers and I all had healthy attitudes towards sex, and we never let our parents influence us in any way. We all went to different private schools and in the school I went to I knew there was a lot of homosexuality going around. Lots of times guys would come up to me but I would tell them to go elsewhere.
"That was all I had to do and I never had any trouble after that. I think I fucked my first girl when I was sixteen. The girl was just fourteen and I met her at a dance. We danced a few dances together and I was pressed right up against her the whole time I had a hard-on that was killing me.
"I really felt it was going to bust right through my pants and I was kind of embarrassed by it, because I knew she could feel it. After awhile though she began to press right into me and I could feel her hips going around and around. Right after that dance I took her outside and we went behind these bushes and began to neck.
"We were necking pretty heavy and then I got my hands under her dress and I began to finger her cunt. I got my finger right inside her and I made her wet in no time. She was a hot little bitch and she was breathing in my ear and then she was licking me all over my face with that tongue of hers.
"I eventually pulled her panties down, pulled down my zipper, pulled out my cock, and got her up against the side of the building and just let her have it. I got right inside her, and I even lifted her off the ground and she wrapped her legs around my waist and she bounced up and down on me.
"We both got frantic and soon we were both exploding. I felt her come pouring down my cock as my come pumped up inside of her. I couldn't believe how good it felt and I knew that I wanted more. After that night I got more too. I saw that girl quite often and every time I saw her, we would fuck.
"Then I got her pregnant and her parents were almost going to have me put in jail. My father arranged for this doctor he knew to perform an abortion on the girl, and once that was over everything was settled. I never got to see her after that because they sent her to a school in another part of the country, and I hear she had a nervous breakdown.
"I suppose I was upset at first about losing this girl, but I got over it pretty well, and I didn't give her another thought after awhile. It was as if she had never existed. I soon began having sex with another girl, but I started wearing rubbers then so I wouldn't get her pregnant as well.
"I didn't like wearing rubbers though because I couldn't really feel the inside of the girl's cunt that way, and it kept her from feeling my come. We were both unsatisfied by it, and pretty soon we broke up because of it. With the next girl I went with we did nothing but sixty-nine, and that way we could really make each other come and still not worry about her getting pregnant.
"It never even dawned on me at the time to fuck any of them in the ass, otherwise I would have. That didn't happen until I was almost twenty, and then my roommate in college told me how he had been fucking girls in the ass for years.
"'Let me tell you,' he said, 'there's nothing like it in the whole world. Once you fuck a girl in the ass, you won't want to fuck her in the cunt again. First of all, it's fool proof. There's no chance of them getting pregnant, and besides it drives them wild.
"'I can still remember the first girl I ever got in the ass. She was just fifteen at the time and I was sixteen. She wasn't a virgin by any means, but she had never gotten it in the ass before, and when I suggested the idea to her, she was really turned off by it. She said it was perverted."
"'Now this was a girl that I had been dating for about a month before I suggested this to her, and I had been fucking her since the first date.
Like I said, though, her virginity was long gone by the time I got to her. Anyway, I talked to her and talked to her and finally I just forced her to submit.
"'I got her down under me and I went in real slow so it wouldn't hurt her that much and once all the pain was gone, I really let her have it. Well, after that, she just didn't want it any other way. I mean, she liked it better than I did, and I was really crazy about it.
"'Well, buddy, you find yourself a girl, and you tell her that you want to get her in the ass, and if she says fine, then you're all set. But even if she doesn't go for it, you make her go for it, and after the first time, she won't want it any other way. I promise you that."
"Naturally I decided to take his advice and I started looking around for just the right girl. I wanted one who would submit willingly because I didn't go for the idea of having to force someone to do it with me. I mean, I didn't want to get in any trouble and I figured with my luck, I would.
"Well, I looked all over the campus, and then I went into town and studied the girls there. Finally I found one who I knew right from the first look would be just the right one I needed. I mean I could just tell it from the way she walked, and the way she stood. It was just obvious to me.
"Anyway, I managed to get a date with her, and that night I took her to a drive-in and there we necked a lot and eventually I had her clothes off her, and I was naked also. We were in a sixty-nine position and she was sucking hard on my cock and I was sucking hard on her cunt.
"I was really getting inside her cunt with my tongue and I was making her feel me good and she was doing the same with my cock. Her tongue seemed to be everywhere at once, and I'm sure she thought the same thing about my tongue. I mean, I was rimming her, and inside her, and all up and down her thighs.
"Then I just moved my tongue back from her cunt up to her asshole. I had my hands around her thighs, and before I started to suck on her asshole, I had been fingering her there. I had gotten my finger right inside her, and when I started doing that to her, she started doing the same to me.
"I could tell that she liked having me finger her in the asshole and I liked having her finger me in the asshole. It sent chills all through her and it sent chills all through me. I was in convulsions almost and every time she got her finger into me deeper, I went into convulsions even more.
"Finally when I got my tongue there, she was more than ready for me. I began to rim her with my tongue and then I began to make these quick stabbing motions, and I was getting right inside her. I felt her doing the same to me. She was rimming me, and then I felt her tongue stabbing into my asshole.
"We were driving each other wild at that point and it was only logical that I fuck her in the asshole after all this. She was the one who said she wanted it and I was more than willing to give her just what she wanted. After all, I wanted to fuck her just as much as she wanted me to fuck her.
"I was right on top of her now and I got my cock up against the crack in her ass and I just rubbed it back and forth, and that made her cry out for me to really get it inside her. I didn't do it right away though, and I kept up what I was doing to her. I was still just rubbing my cock back and forth in the crack.
"I did that for the longest time and when she was in a complete frenzy I drove my cock right into her opened asshole and I began to hump away at her. I was driving her into fits and she was driving me into fits. We were both like animals at that point and there was no stopping us.
"I just blanked out at that point because I don't remember anything from then until I felt the come streaming out of my red hot cock. It just came out of me all at once, and then there was this steady stream that felt like it would be coming out of me forever. My cock was jerking back and forth and I just lay there letting it do whatever it wanted.
"Finally I was completely spent and there was nothing else I could do. My cock began to wilt and I was so exhausted I couldn't move a muscle. She was just getting turned on though and then she got me under her and began to play with my cock until she made it hard again.
"After she had done that she began to suck on it and she just sucked on it enough to get it good and hot. Then she lay down on top of me backwards. I felt her ass pressing down on my cock, and I felt her guiding it up inside her. Then she raised herself into a sitting position, and now my cock was straight up inside of her, and she began to raise and lower herself.
"Her ass was facing my face and I could see it raising and lowering over my cock. I could actually see my cock going up inside her and I got a real thrill out of seeing it do that. It seemed to make me that much more turned on that I was all ready. It just made me want her all the more.
"She was really smooth about the way she did it, and she kept me from coming for the longest time. Finally when I did come, I seemed to explode like I never have before. I could feel my come just shooting up into her and she made all kinds of noises in her throat when that happened.
"I could tell that it was driving her just as wild as it was driving me. She kept raising and lowering her hips over me, and I could see the come pumping out of the head of it and I could see it dripping down my cock to my balls. I closed my eyes then and just felt what was happening to me.
"It was something I can't explain in words and I'm not sure how to tell you what happened after that. Anyway, she finally did stop moving and then she was back to sucking on my cock and licking all the come off me, and had her ass pressed back against my face so that I could suck on her asshole.
"By then we had to leave the drive-in and we got dressed and drove off. That wasn't the end of it because we went to her place where I spent the rest of the night and all the next day. We did everything we could in that time and by the time I left I was sore all over and so was she.
"I went back and told my roommate all about it and we had a really good time discussing it. Then he told me about one of the girls that he had done it to and suggested I give her a call which I did. The next night I went over and saw her and it wasn't long before we were in bed doing it.
"This one was even wilder than the first one I had and she did things that the first one hadn't done. She was an animal in every sense of the word and she wanted me to know it. I knew it right from the beginning and the thought never left my mind because she wouldn't let it.
"I naturally went back and saw the other girl, but now I had two that I could get whenever I wanted to and I felt as if there was nothing else I could possibly want. Of course I was wrong there and I found out just how wrong I was a few weeks later when I met this other girl who was even better than the first two.
"This one was older and more experienced and she had an ass on her that was something else. I couldn't believe it when I got my cock inside her. I mean, she just drove me up a wall, and she didn't stop once she had started. Well, I got her every night for a month after that, and then it came time to go home for the summer.
"I went home all right, but I took her with me and put her up in an apartment in town where I could go and see her whenever I wanted, which was most of the time. My parents then wanted me to start dating the daughter of these friends of their's, and I really didn't want to, but I did anyway.
"Her name was Caroline and she was a real dud as far as I was concerned. I knew there was no chance of her letting me fuck her, and I didn't even try. We just spent a pleasant evening at dinner and then at the country club where they were having a dance and then I took her home.
"I got her home around midnight, or shortly thereafter, and then I went right over to see Rose. Naturally Rose was waiting for me but she was mad because she knew I had been out with another cunt. I explained how my parents had made me do it and that short of cooled her off smewhat.
"Anyway, we were really getting at it when there was a knock on the door. I opened it and there was Caroline. She had gotten in her car and followed me after I took her home. When she saw Rose she just turned and left. I didn't think anything of it until the next day when she came over to the house to see me.
"She seemed really upset and actually I couldn't figure out why she was. After all, I hardly knew her, and I had only taken her out that once and that didn't mean anything as far as I was concerned. What I didn't know was that my mother had been talking to her mother and they had agreed that Caroline and I should get married someday.
"Caroline's mother had told her all this, but my mother had never mentioned it to me. Naturally, Caroline thought that my mother had mentioned it to me and that I knew all about it, and so that was why she was so shocked to find me with another woman. Especially since I had answered the door stark-naked.
"We had a long talk and I tried to explain to her that I had no intention of marrying someone that my parents had arranged for me to marry and I tried to convince her that she shouldn't let her parents tell her how to live her life. She said she had felt that way at first, but now that she met me, she was in love with me and wanted to marry me herself, and not just because that was what our parents wanted.
"I was flattered by everything she told me. but I still didn't want anything to do with her. After all, I didn't love her, and I didn't think that I ever could. That's when she just took off all her clothes and threw herself on top of me. Without her clothes on she really looked like something and I couldn't resist her.
"I began to suck on her tits, and at the same time she was taking off all my clothes. Pretty soon I was completely naked also and she was lying right on top of me. I really began to suck on her tits then, and I made both her hippies just as rigid as I could. I could feel her cunt right over my cock, and I could feel how wet she was all ready.
"One thing I knew about her from the start was that she would want sex the normal way. She eased her cunt right down over my cock and I could feel myself going right up inside of her. She was soft and warm inside and she seemed to get softer and warmer the farther I went into her.
"Now she was moving up and down on top of me so that I was sliding in and out and I was moving right with her. I really was and we made a perfect pair, our bodies seemed so well matched for one another. I still leit as if I was missing something and then I had the horrible thought that I would shoot off inside her and she would get pregnant, and then I would really have to marry her. It wouldn't be like the last time. My parents wouldn't buy me out of this since they wanted us to get married
"I tried to stop what I was doing but she kept on and there was nothing I could do to stop her. I felt my cock ready to explode and I screamed out that I didn't want to come inside of her. Either she didn't hear me or she didn't want to hear me because that's when I felt myself exploding.
"It just all came out of me and I cried like I never have before, because I was sure I had made her pregnant. I hadn't made her pregnant, but I was a nervous wreck until she had her next period. All that time though while we were waiting we had sex a few more times and I had all but stopped seeing Rose."
INTERVIEW TWO
"No matter what anyone tells me, I know I was trapped into marrying Caroline. The whole thing was arranged, and I had nothing to say in the matter. If I didn't marry her, my father was going to cut me off without a penny and I never would have taken over all the banks and everything.
"I just couldn't let all that money slip through my fingers, so I had to marry Caroline. Right after the wedding, which was right after I graduated from college, we went away to Bermuda for a week and then we went to South America, and then we went on to Europe. In all, we stayed away three months.
"By the time we got back I was ready to settle down and work in my father's bank. All this time I hadn't fucked Caroline in the ass once, and I hadn't even tried, and I hadn't even suggested it. Once though I had gotten away from her in Paris and I had found this French girl who I had fucked in the ass.
"She had been a prostitute and I had to pay her, but it was worth it because she was one prostitute who enjoyed her work, and really put out for her customers. I never saw her again because Caroline kept a watchful eye on me the whole time, and she wanted to be with me every single minute.
"So, by the time we got back from the honeymoon I was really horny for some anal sex. I mean, once in three months is nothing, and I had gone without it for so long before that. I was climbing the walls, and I didn't know what to do about it. Finally one night I forced Caroline to submit.
"She put up a struggle at first, but then she submitted more or less willingly. I managed to get it all inside her and I really humped away at her. At first she just lay there and let me do everything, but then I could tell that it was turning her on also. I could tell by the way she was moving right along with me.
"Eventually she was just as frantic as I was and she was heaving at me and grunting just as much as I was. Then the come just came bursting out of me and that sent her into an absolute frenzy. When she was finally lying still again it finally dawned on her what she had just done and she hated me for making her into an animal.
"Actually she hated herself more for having responded like she had. She said she felt cheap and dirty and that I was a dirty pervert and that I had now turned her into a pervert. After that though, for the next few months, she wanted it in the ass all the time. She really loved getting it that way even though she still thought that it was perverted.
"After we did it each time she would cry and wouldn't talk to me and then she would call me all sorts of names and then she would call herself all sorts of names. Once she got up out of bed and began to beat herself with one of my belts. I stopped her, but then I got so mad at her that I began to beat her with the belt myself.
"I really tore into her flesh with that belt and then I fucked her in the ass again, and this time we were both wilder than we had been the time before. This time she didn't cry afterwards, but she didn't talk either and we just went to sleep and the next morning we went at it again.
"Up until the end of our first year of marriage, she was a wild woman when it came to getting it in the ass. Then all of a sudden she said that if I ever wanted to fuck her in the ass again I would have to let her get pregnant. Well, I didn't want any children, but I knew it was the only way I could get what I wanted so we made a deal, and finally she got pregnant.
"She kept letting me fuck her in the ass up until she said we shouldn't have any more sex, and then she finally went and had the baby. It was a girl and she was really happy about that. I didn't care one way or the other, and to me having a girl was the same as having a boy.
"Now that she was a mother though, Caroline began to really act like a prude again. I mean, she wouldn't let me do anything to her, and for awhile she wouldn't even let me sleep in the same room with her. That's when I began to look around for other women and I didn't have to look that far.
"One of my very good friends had a wife who was more than willing to do whatever I wanted her to. In fact she was the one who suggested to me that we go to bed together. Actually I hadn't even thought of her at first because she was married to my friend, but when she said she wanted me, that's all she had to say.
"One afternoon, I left work early and I just went over to her place. She had a small apartment that she kept that her husband didn't know anything about. It was actually one big bedroom. She met me at the door in just a thin negligee and before long we were both naked and rolling on the carpeted floor.
"The carpet on the floor was so thick, that it Was like being on a bed almost. We rolled all over it. First she was on top of me and then I was on top of her. I really got after her cunt with my tongue and I went after her asshole as well. I had her up on all fours and I was just sucking away at her.
"Her ass was so soft and I couldn't resist it. She pushed it right back into my face as I was sucking her out and that really sent waves through me. I was really after her after that and I got my tongue as far inside her as I could. Then I went back to just running it back and forth all around the crack and all over the rest of her as well.
"She was really responding now and that was just what I wanted her to do. I wanted her to respond like she was, and she kept on the more I sucked on her asshole. I was driving her out of her mind almost, but she didn't want me to stop. That was the last thing she wanted me to do.
"She wanted me to keep after her just as long as I could, and we both knew that that was going to be for quite awhile yet. My tongue was going like crazy inside of her and I could feel the same waves going through me that were going through her. I was burning up inside just like she was burning up inside.
"That's when she went after my asshole with her mouth and she began to do to me just what I had done to her. I felt her tongue all over my cheeks, and then I felt it down inside my crack and then right in my asshole. She was getting it way inside of me and she was making me frantic inside.
"After that I just went wild, and she knew just what she was doing, and she just kept it up for the longest time. That's when she went and got this dildo and used it on me. I had never had this done to me before, and it hurt going in but once the pain was gone, it drove me wild to have her humping at me with that thing.
"It was a huge dildo and it felt as if it was going to split me wide open at first. I really felt that it would split me wide open and the farther she went inside me the more I felt as if she was going to go right through me. I guess I wanted her to go right through me though.
"Every time she drove that thing into me I felt my insides closing in around her. No sooner had she gone in than she was pulling back out again, and then she was driving back in again and again. I tried to get up on my knees but she kept me flat on my stomach the whole time.
"The dildo was fixed so that this hot liquid squirted out of it, and I felt it filling up my asshole. It was hot and sticky just like come and it made me tremble all over. She kept that up until all the liquid has been used up and I was just laying there breathing hard and gasping for breath.
"I felt completely exhausted, but after a few minutes I was alive again and this time I went after her asshole. And I really went after her too. When I got my cock in her, I didn't let up for a second and soon she was moaning out just as loudly as I had been moaning out before.
"I drove straight down into her and when I exploded we both shook all over, and then we lay perfectly still as if we had both been running for miles. When I rolled off her and onto the floor my cock was more sore than it had ever been before. It was burning and it hurt on top of that.
"We saw each other quite often after that, and I would go over and see her at her apartment at least twice a week. We also arranged to go out at least one evening a week, and then once we got to spend a weekend together. I had to go away on business and she pretended that she was going to visit her sister who had been alerted to cover for her if her husband called.
"Judy and I spent the weekend up in the mountains in this cabin that was way out of the way, and by the time Sunday evening rolled around, neither one of us wanted to go back. We did though, and we resumed our weekly schedule. And that's just what it was. Usually I would go to her apartment on Tuesdays and Thursdays and on Wednesdays we would go out at night.
"Caroline didn't suspect anything for the longest time. In fact it wasn't until Judy and I had been having our affair for almost a year that she began to think that something was wrong. I mean, I wasn't forcing her to let me fuck her in the ass anymore, and then she moved back in the bedroom with me I didn't try and have sex with her for almost a month.
"But it wasn't until the end of that first year of my affair with Judy that Caroline began to notice that I didn't care what she did. She followed me one day to Judy's, just like she had followed me that night when I had gone to see Rose. She came in on us just as I was getting my cock in Judy's ass.
"She really raised a storm and she tore the apartment apart before we could subdue her. We had to sit on her to keep her quiet and even that didn't keep her from screaming out at the top of her lungs. She was calling us both all sorts of names and she didn't want to hear anything either one of us had to say.
"Finally I took her home and that night she let me fuck her in the ass and she was as wild with me as Judy had ever been. She said she would let me fuck her in the ass if I promised never to see Judy again. I made the promise but I never had any intention of keeping it.
"Now I was getting them both in the ass, and I loved it. I mean, two were better than one any day, and they were both putting out for me like they never had before. I told Judy that Caroline was really turning into an animal and that made Judy try and become even more animalistic.
"With Caroline I told her that I would go back to Judy if she didn't really put out, and that made her go wilder than she might have. This went on for some time and then Caroline caught me with Judy again and this time she moved out of the bedroom and into another room where she stayed for almost six months.
"When she saw that it didn't matter to me, she moved back into the room with me. When she got pregnant with our second daughter she was content for awhile. After all, she liked playing mother, and now she was getting the chance again. Our first daughter was about three at the time.
"About that time though I was getting bored with Judy and I wanted to have an affair with someone else. I began to look around and then I noticed what had been right under my eyes for so many years. My secretary. She was some piece of ass and I hadn't even noticed all this time.
"She was married by then, but she was dead set against having children. When I asked her how she kept from having them she said she only let her husband fuck her in the ass, and that the only things he got in her cunt were his fingers and his tongue. She said he had never gotten his cock in her cunt ever and that he never would.
"Well, when I heard that, I just had to have her, and I did. One day I called her in and I got her down on my couch and I really let her have it in the ass. She went wild as I was doing it to her and she just made me fuck her all the harder. That really drove us both wild.
"After that I got her every day and I only went to see Judy once a week, and I didn't spend any evenings with her, because now I was spending my evenings with my secretary. We would say we were working late, and of course I would then start taking her on my business trips which were nothing but private orgies for us.
"We went all over the country and we even went to Europe a few times. I had never had so much fun in my life, and neither had she. I liked her much better than I had liked Judy and soon I stopped seeing Judy all together. I mean, I just didn't need her anymore as long as I had Linda. I mean, Linda was almost more than I could handle as it was."
INTERVIEW THREE
"As you can see from what I've told you the last two times I was here, my wife and I have gone through periods where we were lusting after one another, and through periods where she wouldn't come near me. We've now entered one of those periods where she won't come near me anymore.
"Actually, for about the last ten years now, we haven't been very close and I don't think we ever will be again. Naturally I still have my affairs. I no longer have the same secretary though. Her husband found out about us and he all but beat the poor girl to death.
"They moved out of town right after that, and I haven't seen her since. I went back to Judy for awhile after my secretary left me but it was only for awhile. I mean, she didn't turn me on the way she used to and I was only going with her until I could find someone better.
"I finally did find someone better. It was at a party that some friends gave. There was this tall, dark, mysterious-looking woman and she was all alone for the most part. Towards the middle of the evening I went over and began to talk to her. She said she had been watching me all evening, and was just hoping that I would come over and see her.
"She told me all about herself and the fact that she was now divorced from her husband. She seemed like something out of a movie or out of some novel, and she didn't seem real to me at first. She really didn't.
"The more we talked, the more we realized how much we had in common. It was then that I knew that she wanted to have me fuck her and that she wanted me to fuck her right there and then. We made our way upstairs to one of the nedrooms and there we just went at each other like two uncaged animals.
"I got all her clothes off her and she got all my clothes off and we lay down on the bed completely naked. Her body was so soft and so cool at the same time and I just lost myself in it. I began kissing the tips of her breasts, and then I was sucking wildly on her nipples.
"The way she responded was more than I anticipated. She pushed me down under her and just pressed her tits into my face. She was smothering me with them, but I didn't care. I loved the feel of her tits on either side of my face. I could go back and forth from one to the other.
"I reached around behind her and I began to manipulate the flesh on her ass with my fingers. I then began to rim her asshole and then I got my finger right inside her asshole, and then I really did a job on her. I worked my finger in and out of her asshole and she just loved that.
"She went absolutely wild at that point and told me to do it just as hard as I could. I did just what she told me and soon I was ramming my finger into her the same way I would have used my cock in her. I got my finger in all the way and I kept getting it in all the way.
"After that she rolled off me and onto her stomach and just lifted her ass into the air. She raised it just as high as she could and I couldn't hold back any longer. I was on her in a second, and I was driving right up inside of her. She took me in easily and pushed her ass right back in my groin.
"She was a mad woman and I was just as mad. It was as if neither one of us had ever fucked before. Either that or it was as if neither one of us would ever fuck again. It was the wildest fuck I've ever had in my life. I drove into her so hard I thought my balls would snap off every time they slapped against her thighs.
"She was yelling at the top of her lungs and that just made me ram into her all the harder. I was going so fast that son I was coming before I even knew what was happening. I just exploded inside of her and then I felt my whole body beginning to shake just as I felt her whole body beginning to shake. We were both trembling to the point where I could hardly stay on her.
"I saw her quite often and pretty soon we were having a full-fledged affair. This leasted for some time and then one day she just vanished and I never heard from her again. I was upset for the longest time, but I soon found someone else, and when I tired of that one, I found someone else. That's how it's been ever since. I keep finding new ones all the time."
SUMMARY
Mr. Black still sees me on a weekly basis, but he hasn't changed any, and I-don't see him changing anytime soon. His marriage is still where it was, and his sexual habits are still the same. I'm not even sure that therapy would help him.
CASE HISTORY EIGHT
Name: Gloria Mann Sex: Female Age: 31
Occupation: Dance Instructor
Miss Mann came to me because she said she was on the point of committing suicide. It seems she has been drifting from one sexual relationship to the next and more than once she has participated in group sex activities.
According to Miss Mann, she had her first sexual relationship when she was fourteen with the boy she was dating at the time. She stopped seeing him after that, but then she began to have sexual relationships with all the other boys she dated.
She claims that sex has always been a very casual thing with her, but that she prefers anal sex to other types of sexual activity because it seems perverted to her. Also she has a great fear of becoming pregnant since her older sister became pregnant at the age of fourteen and again at the age of sixteen.
Here, then, is Miss Mann's transcript.
INTERVIEW ONE
"In my family, sex was a pretty open subject. I had an older sister who was two years older than me and my mother told her everything by the time she was ten, and she did the same with me. Naturally we both became very curious after that, but at that age neither one of us did anything about it. Or so I thought.
"Actually my sister started having sex with boys when she was twelve, only I didn't know anything about it. She would sneak out of the house at night and meet boys in the garage and go up in the attic that was in the garage and fuck all night. The boys she went with were usually fourteen or fifteen and sometimes older.
"I never ever saw her with any of the boys that were fucking her but I saw her when she got pregnant. She was just fourteen at the time, and that's what made me really afraid of sex. I mean, I figured that as soon as you had sex you got pregnant, and I saw how ugly my sister got when she got pregnant.
"I certainly didn't want anything like that to happen to me. Of course I was only twelve at the time, and there weren't any older boys who were interested in me. The only boys who liked me were the ones who were too young to do anything, and I didn't have to worry about them.
"Of course, by then, my sister had built up quite a reputation so everyone assumed that I was just like her and that I would go down for everyone. All of a sudden I began to hear all these stories of sister in the boys' room in school getting laid by five, six and seven guys.
"It seems like it happened quite often and that my sister was a regular whore and would put out for anyone. I didn't want to get that kind of reputation so I stayed away from boys who I knew would want to get in my pants. I didn't go anywhere hear that kind. Instead I began dating this real quiet boy.
"I was just thirteen when I started to date, but they weren't anything special because most of the time we just sat out on my front porch. Of course, we went to the movies once in awhile, and there we held hands. By then we were even kissing, but even that was nothing to speak of.
"When I got to be fourteen though I really began to think more about sex and by then I really wanted to get laid. I didn't even care if I got pregnant or anything. I just wanted to get laid. I didn't dare tell Tony about it; at least, not for the longest time because I knew how decent he was.
"Then one night I couldn't stand it any longer and I told him that I wanted him to ball me. That really took him by surprise and he got real quiet, even more so than usual. Finally I began to try to arouse him. I began to run my hands all over his body and then even under his clothes.
"I got my hands under his shirt and I ran my hands all over his chest, and finally I got my hands down under his pants and down under his jockey shorts, and the next thing I knew I was playing with his cock. I had it right in my hand and I was stroking it up and down.
"I had never seen a boy's cock, and I couldn't wait any longer. I pulled his pants down and then his jockey shorts, and there was his cock, bigger than I had imagined it would be. I really began to stroke it them, and then I began to suck on it. I was frantic all ready.
"We were in the attic in the garage where my sister had always gone and we were half sitting up and half lying down. I was leaning over him and really getting at his cock. He just sat there and let me do whatever I wanted and didn't do anything to me in return. Finally I told him to stroke my tits, and he began to do that.
"He got his hands down under my sweater and he began to fiddle around with my bra and he had trouble with it so I got up and took off all my clothes and then I took off all his clothes. He was still sitting on the bed, only now he was naked, and I was standing in front of the bed, and I was naked also.
"We just looked at each other for the longest time, each one of us studying the other. I guess we both wanted to see how the other was built because we had never seen anyone of the opposite sex naked before. He sat up straight and reached out with his hand and began to stroke my pussy.
"He got his finger right in the folds of my cunt and began to stroke them back and forth and then he began to work it in and out. I could feel my whole body trembling when he did that and I couldn't believe how good it felt.
"He kept doing it for the longest time and I could feel the sex juices coming out of me and running down my thighs. Then I felt him licking my thighs with his tongue and then he was sucking on my cuntlips. He was sucking real hard now and that really drove me wild.
"I was moaning way down in my throat and I thought the whole world would be able to hear me, but right then I didn't care. I just wanted him to keep on sucking me like he was and to never stop. He did just that to, and pretty soon his tongue was right up inside my pussy and moving all around in there.
"Once he had started there was nothing that could stop him. I began to think about how it would feel once he got his cock inside me, and at first I couldn't wait for him to do that. Then I remembered my sister and how she was pregnant again. I didn't want that to happen to me, and yet I still wanted to fuck.
"I tried to think of all the other things we could do instead so I wouldn't get pregnant. Then I thought about letting him fuck me in the ass because my mother had told me that there was one place you could get fucked and not ever have to worry about getting pregnant.
"I knew that both my sister and mother did it that way, but that they also did it the other way too. I decided right then and there that that was the only way I would ever do it. I let him go on sucking my pussy out and then I pushed him back on the bed so that he was lying across it width wise.
"I'm not even sure I knew what I was going to do. But I eventually went down on him and began sucking his cock again, and this time I got as much of his cock in my mouth as I possibly could and I really did a job on him that he'll never forget. I sucked his balls as well.
"When I knew that he was about to come, I stopped sucking on him and I told him to lie perfectly still. Then I lay down beside him on my stomach and then I told him to lie on top of me which he did. Then I told him to carefully put his cock in my ass because I knew how much it would hurt the first time.
"He hesitated for awhile and then I felt his cock pressing into the crack in my ass. I could tell that he didn't really want to do this, but he was afraid not to do it now because of what I might think of him. Slowly he eased it into my asshole, and I felt the head of his cock firmly inside me.
"I didn't care how much it hurt now and I told him to shove it in all the way and as hard as he could. He did just that and the pain that went through me made me scream out at the top of my lungs. It had hurt more than I thought it would and I thought my whole body was going to split in two.
"I was shaking all over from fright and I couldn't control myself at first. Slowly the pain began to go away. He was lying perfectly still on top of me and he wasn't moving at all. I could feel him breathing hard and I could tell that he was afraid that he had hurt me or something.
"I told him I was all right and to start moving because I became very restless at that point. I wanted to feel something. He began to move very slowly at first, and then he became more frantic and he really began to ram into me with all his might. I could feel his cock filling up my ass and that drove me wild.
"It was over before I knew what was happening though. His cock just exploded all of a sudden and the come came rushing into me. It felt warm and it spread all through me, but I had wanted him to hold off a little longer. I had wanted him to fuck me just as long as he could.
"He lay perfectly still on top of me again and I could still feel the come shooting out of him. Finally when he was drained out he rolled off me and lay on his back staring up at the ceiling. I felt empty all of a sudden and I began to hate him for making me feel like that.
"I didn't say anything right then, but the next day when I saw him in school I wouldn't even talk to him and after that I never went out with him again. I decided that if he couldn't satisfy me, I'd fine someone who would. I didn't have to look very far because by then there were a lot of boys in school who wanted me.
"And believe you me I wanted all of them just as much as they wanted me. There was this one boy who was a football player and I started going out with him. He fucked me on our first date in the back seat of his friend's car. His friend and his date were fucking in the front seat.
"We had parked way out in the country and the next thing I knew me and Bobby were lying full length on the back seat and we had all our clothes off. The couple in the front seat were doing the exact same thing that we were. I could hear them moaning away, and I'm sure they could hear us.
"Bobby was kissing me and then he was sucking on my tits, and making the nipples good and hard. He really sucked on my tits good, and then he lay on top of me in a sixty-nine position and we really went after each other. I got his cock right in my mouth and began to suck on it, and he was really frantic in the way he was sucking on my cuntlips.
"I could feel his tongue way up inside of me and I told him to suck even harder which he did. I could feel the come rushing out of me and I could feel his mouth drinking it all in. That's when his cock exploded in my mouth and I drank all his come down as it came pumping into me.
"I sucked his cock dry and he stayed hard the whole time. He wasn't like that other one who had wilted away right after he shot his rocks off. No, Bobby wasn't like that at all. I could still feel his cock as hard as a rock and I knew that that was how it was going to stay.
"After that we just lay there for awhile and then I told him that I wanted him to fuck me in the ass.
"'I had a feeling you'd go for something like that,' he said 'I just knew you were going to be a real good piece."
"'Just for you,' I said.
"He had me over on my stomach in no time, and his cock was in me and humping away. I felt him all through me. He was so big and hard and he just made my whole body tremble. He sent waves all through me every time he drove his cock back in me. He was driving into me with all his might.
"I was going wild at that point and so was he. I couldn't believe how much bigger he felt once he was inside of me. It really felt as if his cock had grown some. It felt longer and it felt wider and it felt as if it was at least the size of a telephone pole. I opened up for him as much as I could.
"'Harder,' I said. 'Do it harder."
"He did it even harder than he had been and soon I felt him exploding inside of me. He really made me feel that, and I could feel his come going all through my body. It was just filling me up inside and I felt myself burning up. I was on fire, and he was on fire also.
"He was still hard inside of me, and he stayed hard for quite some time. Even after all the come had drained out of his cock, he was still hard, and he was still moving around inside of me. I began to press my ass back into his groin and then I got up in a kneeling position.
"I felt like a bitch in heat, and he felt like a mangy dog who hadn't had a piece in years. He began to hump away at me then and I could feel his nails digging into my sides. I really went crazy at that point and he had all he could do to stay with me. I was like a bucking horse.
"He stayed with me the whole time though, and then he was exploding again. I loved having him explode inside me, and all in all he exploded inside me about five times that night. By the time they took me home I was so sore I could hardly walk. But then so was he, and so was the other couple.
"The next time we went out, half way through the night we swapped partners. I liked the other guy almost as much as Bobby. After that I really got a reputation and I started going out with all sorts of guys and I let every one of them fuck me. But I only let them fuck me in the ass."
INTERVIEW TWO
"I suppose I should tell you a little something about my dancing. I began taking dancing lessons when I was five, and by the time I was sixteen I was quite good. I loved dancing and to me dancing was another way of having sex. I used to make up all these dances where the theme was getting laid.
"Anyway, I danced at all the recitals at school and I even won a few contests for dancing. By the time I was ready to finish high school I was enrolled in this dance school where I was going to study ballet and go and become a famous ballet dancer. All this time my sex life was always interfering with my dancing.
"I mean, my last years in high school, I had every boy in the school after me. They all wanted to get in my ass, and most of them did at least once. A few of them even got in my cunt but I always made sure that they wore a rubber when they got in my cunt, because I wasn't about to get pregnant.
"Well, once I got in dance school I found out that all the guys were fags. All of them. Not one of them wanted to fuck any girl. Of course, most of the girls were either bull dykes or lesbians, and they were the only ones who ever came after me. I had this one bull dyke who would do anything for me.
"Her name was Ronda but she preferred to be called Ron. For a dyke she was very graceful and very feminine looking. But underneath it all she was very masculine. The feminine pose was just a cover-up. I began to live in her apartment after awhile, but for the longest time I didn't let her touch me.
"Actually I didn't want her anywhere near me, but she soon became so nice to me that I couldn't keep that up very long. Besides I was getting really horny by then, and I needed sex in the worst possible way. I just needed it so bad that I was masturbating every night.
"That's when I let Ronda fuck me with one of her dildoes. We had been out at the movies, and during the movie she had gotten her hand under my dress and panties and had fingered me throughout the movie. She had made me come about four times and I was just dripping wet with my own come.
"When we got back to the apartment that night she really let me have it with a dildo that she said she had bought special for me. First she got me in the cunt with it, and then in the ass. I liked getting it in the ass best of all and from then on that was the only place she ever fucked me.
"Another thing I liked about her was the way she was always sucking out my asshole. I mean, when she did that, she just drove me out of my mind. Her tongue was so big and she knew just how to use it. She would get right inside me and just suck all the life right out of me.
"Everyone at school knew that we were a couple, and of course no one else bothered with me after that. That's how it was at the school. Almost everyone was coupled up that way and no one bothered with anyone else's woman, etc. I didn't really go for the idea, because I liked having a lot of lovers, but as long as Ronda was around, that wasn't possible.
"You better believe that Ronda kept a close eye on me. I mean, she never let me out of her sight, not for a minute. After our first year in school we went to Europe for the summer and there I met all kinds of fascinating people. I would have let them all fuck me if Ronda hadn't been around.
"Then while we were up in the mountains in Switzerland, Ronda slipped and broke her leg and she was laid up in the hospital. It was while I was visiting her during visiting hours that I met this really nice doctor. He knew right away about Ronda and me, but he didn't care about that.
"The only thing he cared about was the fact that he wanted me, and he meant to have me. I had known him for about a week when he asked me out to dinner. We went to this expensive restuarant and I felt like a queen. He had given Ronda a sedative that night that put her to sleep, otherwise she would have expected me to visit her that night. This way I could say I was there, but that she was asleep the whole time that I was.
"We had this really fabulous meal and then we danced and got really high on champagne and wine. I was floating in the air when he took me back to his apartment that night. He got me all undressed and then he got undressed and we went at it all night. His cock was so big and he knew just how to use it.
"He got it way inside my ass and he just fucked me until I thought I would never be able to stand again. I was so sore the next morning that when he went to fuck me again, it really hurt so bad I almost asked him to stop. I didn't though.
"Naturally I went to see Ronda that day in the hospital, and that night the doctor gave her another sedative and again we spent the night together in his place. The next night I told him he shouldn't do that and I went and spent visiting hours with Ronda so she wouldn't suspect anything.
"Of course I met the doctor after visiting hours and again I spent the night with him, letting him fuck me in the ass all night long, and all the next morning.
"Finally it came time for Ronda to get out of the hospital. She had to walk on crutches for awhile, and we stayed in Switzerland until she was recovered completely. I never did get to see the doctor again after that though.
"One thing you have to understand. Ronda came from a very wealthy family and she had all the money. I couldn't afford to offend her in anyway since she was now supporting me like I had never been supported before.
"Well, we soon left Switzerland and we went on to Italy and we stayed there until it was time to go" back to school. We were about two weeks late getting back but no one seemed to mind that we hadn't been there right from the start. Thus we began the second year, and everything was still the same in my life.
"I was getting really bored though and I needed more excitement in my life. I began to sneak out on Ronda and I began to go to bars where these rough truck driver types would pick me up and fuck me in these cheap hotels. Sometimes I would even make them pay me.
"Ronda didn't suspect a thing and she didn't think for a minute that I would ever cheat on her. I mean, to her, that was just unthinkable. But one day I met this guy who was traveling across the country and I just went with him. I packed a small suitcase and I just left with him.
"I never saw Ronda after that and I don't know how she took my leaving. I'm sure she was upset for awhile, but I'm sure she got over it quite well and found someone else she could own. Well, this guy that I went off with, he was beatnik sort of guy, and he had this old truck that he traveled in.
"He didn't work for a living, and in some of the towns we stopped in I would hustle for some money for us to live on. I made quite a bit that way, and by the time we got to the west coast I decided that I didn't need this guy anymore. I mean, sure he fucked me good, but I was sure I could find someone just as good who wouldn't make me work for him.
"I stayed in this hotel and I began dancing in this hightclub in the chorus line and the next thing I knew the owner spotted me and made me his mistress. Just like that I was living with him, and I didn't have to dance anymore. He had some cock too, and he used it to the fullest.
"The first time he fucked me I really thought he was driving a stake down into my ass. I mean, I really thought that. After that it was always the same thing. He would fuck me first thing in the morning, and then later during the afternoon just before he went to the club.
"I never went to the club anymore and I used to get bored sitting around the apartment waiting for him to come home. I mean, he never got in before six in the morning, and he used to leave about five in the afternoon. All that time alone was just driving me batty. I did a lot of reading during that time and I watched a lot of television, and I even went to a few movies, but that was it.
"Then I met this guy who lived in the building and he used to come by and see me. At first it was just a platonic thing. He was engaged to this girl who was going to school in Europe that year, but she was coming back that summer. We used to talk and play cards and he even taught me how to play chess.
"One night though I made myself look real sexy and I seduced him. Actually he was just waiting to be seduced by me, and it didn't take much effort on my part. I had him on the couch and then I got my hands down his pants and began to play with his cock. I had him undressed in no time, and I was undressed and lying on top of him.
"I was lying on him backwards so that his ass was pressed right into the crack of my ass. He began to really press into me then, and that's when I sat right up on him. I felt his finger poking around inside of my asshole, and then I held his cock up and lowered myself right over it.
"I felt it going all the way up inside my asshole, and pretty soon I was just all filled up with him. He felt so big and I just went wild. I mean, I was impaled on that cock of his and I began to raise and lower my hips, and he was going deeper and deeper inside of me.
"Before I knew it the come was just shooting out of him and I felt it going all through me. I went really wild at that point and I began to scream out at the top of my lungs. I'm surprised no one called the police on us. We spent the rest of the night together, but I made sure he got out of the apartment before my keeper got home.
"When he did get home he knew right away that I had been fucking someone. He could smell it in the air. First he just beat me senseless with his belt and then he threw me out. I didn't know what to do. First I went up to see Ralph and I asked him if I could move in with him for awhile.
"He knew about Jake and he didn't want to take the chance. He just threw me out too because he knew Jake would kill him if he ever found out, and since it was the same building, he was bound to find out. I didn't have anywhere . to go and I just went and checked into this hotel.
"The next day I went back east on the bus. On the way, I met a few guys that seemed nice, but we were on the bus so we couldn't do anything. At least that's what I thought. One guy though got me to'sit on his lap way in the back of the bus. He just lowered my panties and got his cock out and got it right into me
"I went crazy, bouncing up and down on him, feeling his cock shoot up into me each and every time, and when he came I thought I felt the whole bus shake. We did that twice and then he got off the bus and met his wife at the station."
INTERVIEW THREE
"Right now I'm running a small dance school downtown. I don't have that many students, but I have enough to get by. I teach them all the simple stuff, but then I only get real young kids, so I don't have to teach them much anyway. Most of them can't dance anyway, and if they learn how to be graceful, that will be something.
"I live alone usually, but sometimes I have men stay with me for a few weeks at a time. Mostly, I just have guys over for the night. I don't want to get really involved with anyone and I don't let myself become attached to anyone. With me, it's just sex. I let them fuck me and that's it.
"I always feel bad afterwards, and sometimes I want to kill myself, but I just can't help the way I feel. I feel as if somehow I've been cheated in this life and I don't know how to un-cheat myself.
"It gets worse and worse too. I mean, I'm a real pervert now. I go to all these orgies and I let guys gang bang me all the time. I've even let a dog fuck me in the ass and I've fucked a dog in the ass with a dildo. I tell you, I just go from bad to worse, and I just can't stop myself. I'm sure one of these days I'm going to end it all, and that'll be it."
SUMMARY
I'll end her transcript here, because after this, it becomes a repitition of the above. As you can see, this is a very disturbed person, and she is in great need of psychotherapy. I am seeing her three times a week now.
CONCLUSION
As you can see from the cases I've presented in this volume, analism is a sexual practice that can either bring about emotional instability, or it can be the outgrowth of emotional instability. When it is the outgrowth of emotional instability, it merely enhances that instability and makes it more acute.
Also, analism is a sexual practice that is usually indulged in at a very early age. Most of the persons you have read about here had some farm of anal sex while they were still in their teens. With some of them it became the only form of sexual activity from which they could derive any pleasure.
It is hard to put all these people into one category, and I'm not even going to attenpt it. The empirical facts alone prevent me from doing this, and as a scientist I can only make judgments based on empirical evidence and not on idle speculation. Therefore, I can only say that there are many types of individuals who remain, what Freud would call, fixed in this anal stage of their sexual development.
You will also notice that these people come from various social, economic, and educational backgrounds. In many cases they are college educated people.
I can only say at this time that analism is a form of sexual activity that many people find gratifying for one reason or another. Of course, as you also know, it is the fear of pregnancy that drives many of the women into this sexual practice. Or at least, this is what they claim to be the case. I have a feeling the motives be beyond that surface fact.
I would also like to say that the very fact that analism is considered to be perverted is another factor that motivates many persons into its practice. As we also saw, some persons in this category find homosexcuality and heterosexuality equally attractive, and practice both at one time in their lives.
I presented an equal number of males and females in this book, but that was an abitrary decision on my part. It does not reflect the actual percentages of people practicing anal sex. Also, I extracted portions from my interviews with the patients, and did not include the whole interview. I did not, for instance, include any of my questions with the patients, and I excluded information that I didn't think had any relevance. Also, in a very few instances, I edited the material to make it seem more coherent and to give the text some continuity.
I do hope that this material will aid in the study of this type of sexual activity and that it will prompt others to continue the study. I myself am still interviewing patients every day and I am constancy doing further research. I hope to publish these results sometime in the future.
