SUBURBAN PSYCHE

                            by

                       C. Lakewood



    My name is Lauren Meredith.  I am 30-something, fairly 
well-educated (Radcliffe), and satisfactorily married for almost 
ten years.  Until recently, I have also been completely faithful 
to my philandering husband.  We are quite well-to-do and live in 
an expensive house in an up-scale suburb.  My husband, outwardly 
devoted to his business affairs, has for some time been neglecting 
me sexually, but I haven't really minded; I've had other things to 
occupy my time: shopping, parties, concerts, theatre, PBS and NPR, 
country club, gym, spa....  My urbane husband is a cad, but, all 
in all, a rather considerate one...and an excellent provider.  
Indeed, my life was very pleasant.

    Then the serpent made his appearance.

    We were in the process of having some extensive landscaping 
done.  The foreman was a big, muscular black man named Aaron.  I 
really paid little attention to him until late on the second day.  
I was sunning myself in my "stealth" bikini -- flesh-colored and 
scandalously brief.  Stretched out on the secluded side patio, 
I read "The Secret" for a while.  It was my discussion group's 
current book, and I was fascinated by its premise: that, if you 
focus properly, you can achieve virtually anything you set your 
mind to.  Concentrate on what you truly do want in your life, and 
rely on the "Law of Attraction" (the principle that you attract 
whatever you focus your energy on...relationships, possessions, 
goals).  In effect, you shape your own reality.... 

    An intriguing notion, but I wasn't sure how much I believed it.

    I'd put the book down and was just lying there, drowsing, when 
I heard Aaron talking angrily on his cell phone.  (Apparently he'd 
come around the side of the house to get some privacy from his men 
and didn't see me lying there, partially screened by a hedge and 
low stone wall.)

    He was snarling, apparently at a girlfriend, about her less 
than satisfactory sexual performance.  I knew it was wrong to 
listen in, but it WAS loathsomely fascinating.

    "Listen, 'ho, you don' gimme no 'scuses.  When I gets home, 
you jus' better be naked, with yer cunt drippin' wet and yer 
mouth real hot to suck my cock...."  At that point, he snapped 
his phone shut and turned...and stopped dead, looking right at me. 

    But he didn't hesitate.  He walked right over and stood, 
leering down at me, close enough for me to smell his Negroid 
body odor.  I started to stammer something indignant, but he 
just shook his head, and I shut up.  I cringed as he shamelessly 
eyed me up and down.  The whole scene was unsettling...and 
strangely arousing. 

    "Nex' time," he said, with a crackle of authority in his voice, 
"leave off the bikini."  He stared at me until I nodded, then he 
turned on his heel and swaggered back the way he had come.

    I immediately dashed into the house, stripped, and sank into 
an orgy of masturbation.

		******************************

    I spent the next day -- Wednesday -- inside the house, naked.  
For a while, it was amusing to pass the time sipping sherry, 
playing with myself, and peeking through the curtains, trying 
to imagine what the various workmen might look like naked.  
Afterward, however, I became annoyed at having been cooped up 
all day by the boorishness of that ape.  I resolved to put him 
in his place the following day. 

    Accordingly, on Thursday morning I packed paté, brie, biscotti, 
prosciutto, scones, some nice Danish butter, several wine coolers, 
a jug of iced coffee, and a few other necessities.  I put on the 
same bikini and carried hamper, ice chest, sunscreen, portable 
radio, and everything else out to the patio, where I was prepared 
to settle in for as long as it might take.  

    About noon, Aaron appeared.  Lying there with my eyes closed, 
I could sense that he was staring at me, even while again berating 
his girlfriend.  I began to tremble, and, when he snapped his phone 
shut, I opened my eyes.

    "Up!" he barked, gesturing with his thumb.

    What could I do?  Blinking at him through the sun-dazzle, I got 
to my feet with as much dignity as I could manage.  I tried to look 
him in the eye and tell him off, but no words would come, and I 
self-consciously dropped my gaze.

    "What'd I tell you about that fuckin' bikini?" he rasped.

    "To...to l-leave it off...."

    "Well?"

    My stomach lurched.  I felt I HAD to...to obey.  I reluctantly 
wriggled out of it and stood naked before him in a half-crouch, 
trying to cover myself with my arms.  

    "No foolin' around, now, actin' modest.  Stan' up straight, 
Princess, witcher arms at yer sides."

    My mind was in a whirl.  I should have been angrily telling him 
where to go...asserting my social and economic superiority...but 
instead I was meekly following orders.  I stood at attention, 
hardly daring to breathe.  Where was my outrage?  Where was my 
disdain?

    He fetched his pruning shears out of his hip pocket, snipped 
a slender sucker growing up from the roots of a nearby crabapple 
tree, and, cautioning me not to cry out or break position, he 
proceeded to give me a thorough switching -- on my bottom and 
the fronts and backs of my thighs.  I twitched a little and 
cried a lot...but stayed silent and at attention.

    When he was finished, he eyed me and asked, "You wet?"

    "Y-yes, sir," I murmured and slid my legs apart to show him.  

    ("SIR"?  I called him "SIR"?  He was no better than a baboon!  
Why was I acting this way?  It was so unlike me....  But he was 
so dominating, and I was so...needy.)

    He reached out and snaked a thick finger into me...and then 
another.  Oh, god!  It was so dirty, so demeaning....  And so 
thrilling.  I clamped my...well...my CUNT down onto his fingers 
-- if I was going to be a shameless slut, I might as well use 
the appropriate terms.  He twisted his hand around so that he 
could tease my...my asshole with his thumb.  And no man had 
ever been allowed to touch me THERE.

    After a moment, he pulled his fingers free and pushed down on 
my shoulders.  "Lemme see how YOU suck cock," he ordered.

    "But...out here?" I whined, even as I crouched in front of him, 
unzipped his pants, and fumbled out his cock (which was big -- and 
rapidly getting bigger).  The shaft was chocolate brown and the 
bulbous head fuchsia.  It stank of sweat and pee and musk.  I had 
never sucked a cock before -- and had never even seen a black one 
-- but I avidly worked this one over with my lips and tongue.  I 
should have been revolted....  But it tasted delicious!

    I was moaning and slobbering, licking and sucking, hoping to 
make up in enthusiasm what I lacked in technique, for it was 
important that I please him.  I desperately wanted to show him 
that I was better than his 'ho girlfriend.

    It seemed to work, since soon he ejaculated a series of what 
I considered large, thick blobs of semen -- cum -- down my throat.  

    I looked up at him to find that he was gazing down at me with 
an expression of possessiveness, of ownership.  No one had ever 
looked at me like that -- my husband was too cool and most other 
men too intimidated.  I licked my lips and murmured, "Thank 
you...sir."

    And the feminist inside me shriveled and died, shrieking. 

    He looked inside the hamper and then lay down on my lounge 
chair.  He spent almost an hour reclining in the shade, lunching 
on the delicacies I'd packed.  I knelt, sweating, in the sun as 
he fed me tidbits, which I nibbled eagerly and licked his fingers 
afterward.  

    It was most surreal.  This man was not physically attractive 
(though he did possess a certain animal magnetism).  He seemed 
to be cunning enough, but not what I would call intelligent -- 
or clever or witty.  And he was certainly not anywhere near my 
socio-economic class or level of sophistication.  Yet I was 
practically groveling for his attention....

    He stretched and smacked his lips.  "Tasty, but not real 
fillin'....  What time's yer ol' man get home?"

    "Tonight?  Well after 10:00, sir.  He's...'working late' to 
prepare for an out-of-town 'business trip' this weekend."

    "Good enuff.  After we quit for the day, I'll stop by the house 
for some supper an' 'nother blow job.  Whatchu fix that's good?"

    "Tossed salad...lasagna...croissants...cheesecake?"

    "Ho-kay.  And beer, none of those pissy little wine coolers."  

    "Will you...would you...f-fuck me, please, sir?"

    "Maybe...if yer a real good 'bad girl.'  Know what I mean?"

    "I think so.  You want me to...be a-a slut for you."

    "C'mere."  He beckoned and I responded.  Again, he cork-screwed 
two fingers into my drooling cunt and played with me until I was 
weak in the knees.  "Don't cum now, bitch.  Wait'll I fuck you 
later.  Ever been cornholed?  Butt-fucked?"

    "Oh, god!  No!" I gasped.  "That's so...so....  Do you...WANT 
to...butt-fuck me?  Would you?"

    He grinned, displaying a gold tooth.  "Ask me, real per-litely, 
an' maybe I will." 

    Though could feel my virgin asshole cringe, I said, "Please, 
sir, please b-b-butt-f-fuck me....  But please, be gentle."

    "Shee-it!  You gonna be my slut, you take it any way I wants 
to give it to you.  Right?"

    "Yes, sir."  I was scared, but still on the verge of cumming. 

    He nodded and pulled his fingers out, raising them to my mouth 
so I could lick them clean.  Why was being such a slut for this ape 
so exciting?  And it WAS exciting; my clit was throbbing and my 
cunt aching to be filled.  "Any way you want...but please do it 
soon," I murmured.  It was quickly becoming clear that I was not 
just some rich bitch acting like a slut.  I WAS a slut.  

    He swatted me on my sore bottom.  "Now git in the house an' 
start fixin' supper.  Stay naked.  An' don' wash -- yer startin' 
to smell like a real woman.  No playin' witchersef, neither.  
That cunt belongs to ME, now.  Right?"

    "Y-yes, sir.  My cunt belongs to you...a-and my asshole, too."  
I scampered into the house, fantasizing about the lurid things 
that were going to happen later.

		******************************

    As I busied myself in the kitchen, my hot cunt kept calling 
for attention.  It smelled and itched, and keeping my fingers 
away from it almost drove me crazy, but I HAD to obey orders.  
While the lasagna was baking, however, I tremblingly gave myself 
an enema.  I wanted to be nice and clean for my first "cornholing." 

    Apart from than these distractions -- or maybe because of them 
-- the time seemed to pass with unnatural speed, and soon the work 
crew was gone, and Aaron was at the door. 

		******************************

    He seemed to enjoy the meal; he ate like a starving barbarian.  
Afterward, he sniffed me all over and expressed his satisfaction 
on the way my womanly odor was developing.

    Then came the after-dinner entertainment.  I gave him another 
"bad girl blow job," but just long enough to get his cock fully 
erect and covered with saliva.  He was going to need more lubricant 
than just my spit, so he utilized the last of the Danish butter. 

    He took me outside, into the gathering dark, and bent me over 
a low stone wall.  "Spread yer ass-cheeks an' push, like yer 
constipated an' tryin' to take a shit...."

    He slid two greasy fingers into my asshole to lube it up.  
That didn't really hurt, but they were much thicker than the 
enema nozzle, and I knew that his cock was thicker still.  
Would it actually go in without damaging me?  His fingers 
seemed to be about the limit I could reasonably take.  

    But "reasonableness" had no part in this.  When he pulled his 
fingers out, I was more aroused than I can ever remember.  I felt 
empty, and I needed to be filled with his cock.  I NEEDED to be 
butt-fucked, and I trembled at the realization.

    My train of thought had distracted me from what was going on 
behind me, and, by the time I was aware of it, Aaron had his cock 
inside me and was sliding it in and out, his belly slapping my 
buttocks in a remorseless rhythm.  My asshole was actually being 
fucked!  By a black laborer!  Without a condom!

    And it was almost unbearably exciting! 

    I growled and began humping my butt back at him.  It was hot 
and humid out there in the dark, and we were both soaked with 
sweat, rutting like two primitives.  As I gasped for breath, my 
mind whirled off into all sorts of fantasies -- all involving a 
dominant black stud and a more-than-willing white woman.  

    I don't know how long it lasted, but I had two orgasms along 
the way.  Finally I felt him stiffen...and his cock pulse.  A 
warm wetness filled my bowels.

    And that triggered another orgasm -- the most volcanic yet -- 
which left me practically delirious.

    After I had recovered somewhat, he herded me back into the 
house with several sharp slaps to my backside.  After I washed 
off his cock, he took his leave, warning me to "get ready to 
party this weekend."

    I wandered through the big house, re-living what had happened 
and speculating on what was going to happen.  My feelings were a 
stew of satisfaction, apprehension, loathing, and curiosity.  I 
fixed myself a drink -- a screwdriver -- and settled down, hoping 
to make some sense out of it all, but my thoughts were disturbed 
by what sounded like a woman shrieking, far distant, but rapidly 
coming closer....        

		******************************

    "Ooh!"  I sat up, dazed at first.  Even so, I could tell that 
it wasn't a scream; it was a siren on a passing fire truck or 
police car.  Then, as reality gradually intruded, I discovered 
WHERE I was: in my lounge chair on the little side patio, dressed 
in my bikini.  Then I realized WHEN: late afternoon...late TUESDAY 
afternoon.  It had been a dream?  It HAD been a dream...and -- oh, 
god! -- a WET dream, at that, judging from my very soggy crotch.  
I heaved a grateful sigh.  Thank heavens!  What a disgusting 
experience it all would have been, if it had been real.  But it 
was just a dream, and I was myself again!  I was so relieved that 
I actually laughed out loud.  But then I remembered something I'd 
heard in a Psych 101 lecture years before: "What does a chicken 
dream of?  It dreams of grain; it dreams of that which it most 
desires." 
 
    I shuddered.