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Cock Addict
Chapter 1

September 8
Dear Diary,

It's been a long time since I talked to you, but a 
lot is on my mind.  School has started and I am still 
a virgin - technically anyway.  I must be one of the 
last virgins at our school. Judy, my best friend, did 
it this summer at computer camp with one of the other 
counselors.  The way she described every little detail 
I knew it had to be true, leaving me the last 
remaining virgin I know.

My basic problem is that I'm too shy and too much 
of a bookworm.  I don't get out much because my 
parents are so strict.  Every time a guy starts to 
flirt with me I freeze up, giggle and turn red. I'm 
not ugly or anything - my mom says I'm pretty - and I 
think I have a decent body.  Judy says that if she had 
my looks and body she'd get laid (she uses the "f" 
word) every night, and I'm sure she would.

Oh Diary, what am I going to do?  Even though I'm 
still a virgin I must be oversexed.  I think about sex 
all the time.  Of course, Judy doesn't help.  I still 
remember that day I stopped by her house and she held 
up two big plastic penises.  Judy told me it was time 
to lose our virginity, and then turned on this really 
nasty videotape.  I sat there absolutely mesmerized.  
I knew a little about sex, but nothing like what I 
saw.  At first I was shocked.  I told Judy it was 
gross and thought about leaving.  Something stronger 
held me there and kept my eyes glued to the screen.  I 
watched girls do things I didn't even know were 
possible, to one or more guys and to each other.
  
I had never seen a man's penis, much less a hard 
one.  I started to get this terrible tingling between 
the legs and wanted to touch myself badly.  I resisted 
as long as I could even though I noticed Judy had her 
hand in her jeans, which somehow turned me on even 
more.  Suddenly my head started to spin and my body 
started trembling.  I grabbed the couch and thrust my 
hips forward as ripples of pleasure surged through me.  
I was gushing juices like crazy and could feel my 
panties getting soaked.  

When it was over I was really embarrassed.  Judy 
said she had never seen anyone have an orgasm without 
any touching.  Then she stripped off her jeans and 
told me she would demonstrate how to use our little 
"friend".  Hers was blue plastic and about eight or 
nine inches long.  She invited me to join her but I 
was still too embarrassed.  I didn't leave either 
because I wanted to watch more of the movie.  I kept 
sneaking glances at Judy who had propped her legs up 
on the couch and was rubbing the blue thing across her 
mound.  I had never seen her naked and noticed how red 
and hairy she was down there compared to me.  She 
lifted her butt off the couch and I could see the blue 
thing go inside her.  She only had a little bit in her 
and was moving it all around while she rotated herself 
against it.  It was really hot, and between watching 
Judy and the video I could feel another tingling 
building between my legs.  

Judy was getting close to an explosion herself.  
That's when she grabbed the blue monster (we named it 
that) with both hands, pulling it out and shoving it 
in very hard.  She let out a squeal and more of it 
disappeared inside her.  She slid down on the couch 
and kept slamming it in and out until her face 
scrunched up and she screamed out as if in pain.  Her 
body thrashed about as she kept slamming the blue 
monster deeper and deeper into her belly.  She finally 
collapsed and slumped lifeless onto the couch.

I needed to touch myself desperately or I was going 
to die.  I picked up my little friend (which was also 
nine inches but red) and slipped it inside the leg of 
my loose fitting shorts.  When I pressed it against my 
panties, I hit my sensitive spot sending jolts through 
me up to my head.  On the video there was a blond 
bouncing up and down on this guy's huge penis.  The 
camera focused in on her butt.  I could see him slide 
in and out of her as she lifted up and slammed down 
over and over.  

I wanted to be her so badly.  I leaned forward, 
lifted my butt off the couch, pulled my panties to the 
side and slipped "Big Red", as we named it later, into 
my opening.  Holding it firmly underneath me, I 
pressed down against it.  It slid into me until it hit 
some resistance.  I lifted up and slammed down, 
squealing as I felt a little pinch.  Then it slid deep 
inside me.  I continued bouncing up and down on it 
while watching the girl on the video do the same.  
When the guy doing her pulled out and shot his stuff 
all over her butt, I exploded like never before. I was 
gasping for air as I kept gushing over and over, 
unable to stop slamming myself onto Big Red.  I don't 
know how long it went on, but when I finished my 
shorts were a mess and I was exhausted.

Judy congratulated me on losing my cherry, but we 
agreed that we were still virgins until we had a real 
penis inside.  Judy had several videos, so I took one 
home and spent hours with Big Red pleasuring myself 
over and over.  It became an obsession, and I would 
often do it as many as six or seven times a day.  Just 
last week I worked up the nerve to put Big Red up my 
other hole after watching so many of the girls on the 
tape do it that way.  I had done it with my finger in 
the bathtub, and even done both holes at the same 
time, but Big Red was so much bigger.  It was 
uncomfortable at first, but now I get off just as easy 
that way.  I wish I had a brother for Big Red so I 
could do front and back at the same time like the 
girls in the video.

September 13

Dear Diary, 

It's been a week since school started and so much 
has happened.  There is this new guy, Shane, who is a 
real hunk.  He is in two of my classes.  On several 
occasions our eyes met.  He even said "Hi" to me a few 
times.  I get all wet between the legs when I'm around 
him, and every time I use Big Red, which is all the 
time, I pretend it's Shane in me.  Sometimes I even 
bring Big Red to school so I can get off in the 
bathroom between classes.  I know, Diary, I'm 
shameless.  Well, that's not really true because if it 
was I'd just walk up to him and tell him what I 
wanted.  I'm just oversexed but shy.

Judy also had an interesting week, at least 
according to her version of events.  She discovered it 
was a lot easier to get screwed if she lowered her 
standards.  She got a ride home with Chet, a big 
chunky kid, after a chess club meeting.  They started 
talking about all the popular couples at school and 
speculating as to whether they were "doing it".  Judy 
told him that you didn't have to be popular to get 
laid (she used the "f" word being the trash mouth that 
she is) and then blurted out that she lost her 
virginity that summer.  I would have been so 
embarrassed, but not Judy. 

He defended his manhood and quickly disclaimed his 
virginity.  Judy dared him to prove it.  They climbed 
in the back seat and she quickly unzipped him.  She 
used her hand to make him hard then told him to put on 
a condom.  She slipped off her jeans and panties, 
swung her leg over Chet, placed his penis at her 
opening and lowered herself onto him.  She told me he 
only lasted thirty-second before he grunted and 
emptied himself into his condom.  Since he didn't have 
another condom, Judy made him finger her to a less 
than satisfying orgasm.

Judy was really horny.  When they stopped to get a 
soda she saw Freddy, a tall skinny kid with zits.  She 
ditched Chet and asked Freddy to take her for a ride.  
She asked him to pull behind a deserted building and 
coaxed him into the back seat.  They started kissing.  
Judy rubbed her hand over his hardness, then slipped 
her jeans down to her knees.  She guided his hand into 
her panties, moving his fingers up and down her slit 
until he got the rhythm.  While Freddy was pumping his 
fingers in and out of her hole she unzipped him and 
pulled out what she described as a "monster penis", 
although she used different words.

Judy pumped her hand up and down his large organ.  
She said that she could barely wrap her fingers around 
it.  He continued to pump his fingers in and out of 
her womanhood.  She asked him if he had a condom, but 
he didn't.  Judy decided she didn't care.  She pulled 
off her jeans, straddled his lap and guided his 
"monster" into her steamy opening.  She said she had 
to bounce up and down on him several times before she 
could feel him slide deep inside her.  The pressure 
was too much for her.  She lost control.  Her whole 
body started shaking as she squealed and screeched 
uncontrollably.  She said she could feel herself 
gushing like never before as he continued to plow 
deeper and deeper into her belly.  

What she did next really shocked me.  She climbed 
off him and put his large penis in her mouth.  She 
said it stretched her lips, but she was eventually 
able to get about half of him in her mouth.  She tried 
to remember how the girls in the video did it.  
Apparently she was successful.  He only lasted a 
minute before shooting his stuff.  Judy told me there 
was so much of it that it spilled from her lips.  Then 
she swallowed the rest.  It sounded gross, but she 
said it tasted okay, and that it was a real turn-on to 
feel his stuff squirting in her mouth.  Anyway, Judy 
invited Freddy over to her place this afternoon.  She 
has a whole box of condoms and plans to put a big dent 
in it. 

Oh, Diary, I could never be like Judy.  I'm too 
shy.  I'd do it with Shane in a heartbeat, but I don't 
think he'll ever ask me out.  I guess Big Red will 
have to keep me satisfied, and I have to admit he's 
doing a pretty good job.   Every morning when I wake 
up I take Big Red out of my bedside stand, rub him 
over my nipples and put him in my mouth.  I even 
learned how to open my throat and swallow most of Big 
Red, just like the girls in the videos.  After that I 
rub him across my mound and over my slit until I 
become wet enough to put him in me.  Once Big Red is 
all the way in me I go wild slamming him in and out 
while rubbing my little nub with the other hand.  It 
doesn't take long before I am gushing juice all over 
Big Red, my hand and the sheets. 

Well, Diary, that's just the beginning of the day.  
Sometimes I have enough time to do it again after 
breakfast and before I have to leave for school.  
Since I almost always wear dresses (my mother thinks 
jeans make me look like a tramp), it's easy to slip my 
panties to the side and shove Big Red in my hole until 
I gush.  Of course, this also means I have to go to 
school with damp panties. 

If I'm not doing anything after school, I usually 
rush home and pleasure myself with Big Red before my 
parents get home.  It's during these afternoon 
sessions that I get really nasty.  First I take it 
into my mouth, pretending it belongs to Shane.  I work 
it down my throat.  Then I slip a hand between my legs 
and start rubbing myself through my panties, again 
pretending it's Shane doing it to me.  I begin to gush 
almost immediately and have to take Big Red from my 
mouth as I gasp for air.

I remove my soaked panties and strip in front of 
the mirror on the back of my door.  I love looking at 
my body and watching while I touch myself.  I slip Big 
Red between my legs and start kissing myself.  Well, 
Diary, that's when I get really nasty and start 
talking dirty just like the girls in the video.  I say 
things like "shove your cock up my hot pussy" and 
"fuck me like a whore".  I yell at him to "fuck me 
harder" and "deeper".  When I get ready to gush I yell 
out "Oh God, I'm cumming. fuck me. fuck me".  The 
worst part is that I like talking dirty.  It makes me 
even more excited.

The other thing I really like is watching Big Red 
slide in and out of my cunt (oh, Diary, I hope you 
don't mind my using words like this - it'll be our 
secret).  After doing - fucking - myself standing, I 
pull a chair up to the mirror and lift my legs up in 
the air.  I can see my pussy open wide and glistening 
among the soft brown curls surrounding it.  I use my 
fingers to open it and watch my little nub stand up.  
I pull out Big Red and rub him along my gash and over 
my clit until I'm all gooey.  Then I watch as Big Red 
spreads my fleshy lips apart and enters my steamy 
hole.  I shove it in deep and leave it there, swirling 
it around inside me.  I can feel it deep in my belly 
and try to imagine how far inside me it is by looking 
at my stomach.  Then I start fucking myself, changing 
the angle that I use to shove it in me.  This time 
when I gush I can actually see the juice pouring from 
my cunt (God I love saying that) and dripping from Big 
Red and my fingers.

Of course, the last time I use Big Red each day is 
when I am in bed and the lights are out.  I get on my 
stomach and do myself from behind.  Then I hold it 
under me and bounce up and down on it until I explode.  
Sometimes I grease it up with baby oil and fuck my ass 
while I finger my clit.  Usually I fall asleep right 
afterwards, but sometimes I wake up in the middle of 
the night and do it again. 

So, Diary, that is a typical sex filled day for me.  
The only problem is the lack of a man.  Will I ever 
lose my virginity?

Continued...

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