I AM NOT ASHAMED 00 THE MEGUMI STORIES BY MEGUMI KATO AND FRIENDS VOLUME 03: I AM NOT ASHAMED BY KIMIKO KOBAYASHI AND MEGUMI KATO PART 00 [If you have collected the whole of Volume 03 of this series you may like to have the "Prelims" file, containing the Contents page and the Introduction.] Contents Introduction I The Office Ladies II Dinner at Home III The Wedding Reception IV After the Wedding V Two Sisters VI The Evidence VII The First Test VIII The Silver Pavilion IX Before and After Dinner X The Stranger XI New Experiences XII The Next Day XIII Interlude XIV The Second Test XV The Third Test XVI Between Heaven and Earth XVII Master and Slave XVIII The Pink Pussycat XIX On Display XX The Beginning Introduction So many of my dear friends have helped me with this book that I hardly know where to start in thanking them! But above all I must thank Megumi. If she hadn't invited me to her wedding reception - knowing very well what was going to happen after she had left on her honeymoon! - there would be no story to tell. And she, with her practical knowledge as a writer, showed me how to pull my experiences into shape. So I was delighted to agree to all my friends' suggestion that her name should be on the title-page. Next I must thank Shizue and Tomoko who taught me so much and helped me find my way into the wonderful sensual world I now inhabit. So did Noriko and Midori - and of course dear Matsumoto-san - of the Marucho Film Company. If Noriko hadn't (almost) hypnotised me into recognising the inner truth about myself as we sat together at Megumi's wedding reception I would have gone on hiding from it and my chance might have slipped away for ever. My family - my mother, my brother Ken and sister Fumiko, even my father when he has time to think about it - have been so perceptive and supportive as I went through the incredible change which I have tried to describe in this book. All my many lovers - David, Bob, Suzy, little Melody, Mr Birch and above all my wonderful Master - took so much trouble to understand my needs as they coaxed me into ever more wonderful realms of sensuality. I said that without Megumi's invitation to her wedding reception there would be no story to tell. But perhaps there would after all: a different one. I think - I _hope_ - I would somehow have found my way to my true nature and been taught by someone how to discover my sexuality. If this book has a theme, it is that no girl is ever so cut off from her inner truth as to have no way of reaching it. Of course it is sad that in a world brimming over with opportunities for sensual delight and sexual joy there are still girls whose sexuality is damaged and who are afraid to take the first steps towards making themselves whole. But there is always hope, as there was for me. So if you who are reading this are a girl, and if you are still shy and uncertain, please do not give up! Maybe my story can help you in your search for wholeness and inner harmony. And if you are a man - or a woman - who knows a girl in sexual difficulties, please help her, be gentle and patient with her. Once you have helped her find the entry to the world of sensuality she will never want to leave it - and she will reward you with all the love and pleasure her heart and body can give. It was Megumi's idea to end this story with my induction into the Friday group, and I agree it makes a satisfactory climax to my experiences. But I insisted on calling that chapter "The Beginning" - because that is what it was. Of course I now attend the group's meetings as my Master's happy slave. Shizue, as she had promised, took me to the Paradise Club and I am now a candidate for membership. (The testing of candidates is very prolonged and delightful! I am enjoying it so much that I almost feel I am in no hurry to pass!) Best of all, my connection with the Marucho Film Company is leading to offers of minor parts in sex videos and opportunities for nude photo shoots. Megumi, who has never had any problems with her sexuality and speaks frankly about her feelings and experiences, always says that being nude, and fucked, before an audience or a camera is addictive: once you have experienced it you want to go on doing it for ever. Of course she is right. For the moment I still have my daytime job as an OL, but my dream is to be found worthy of a professional career in the sex industry. I only wish I had discovered this truth about myself earlier! - Kimiko Kobayashi Note to ASSTR edition The main action of this novel is set in 1994. So if you find the technology described a little old-fashioned - videotape rather than DVD, 35mm photography rather than digital - that is why. - BW [Coming Next: Volume 04 of the Megumi Stories: UNFINISHED AFFAIRS] For complete series so far see /files/Authors/Bob_Williams